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[29 Dec 2003|01:31am] |
::i woke up at 1200 and took my handy dandy shower then i went to the grocery store for a bit with my mommie. Then my zachary came over and he opened his gift and he liked it :)! yay i got him the COOLEST belt buckle everr haha it has like the caddillc sign and like leaves around it its so cool :) i was gunna keep it for me self hehe. so then we headed off to tj maxx which had nothing but crap i was so diappointed... then we went to target which had nothing either...i was so mad... so i bought the movie romancing the stone.. i love that movie :) and some gum! then my love took me out to dinner and the training table :)! i love him so mucho :) then we went to my house and he got stuck in the snow but no worries we made it out hehe then we went and watched my romancing the stone movie hehei love it :) then we watched snl for a bit then my mommie said it was time to go home so he did:( and then i watched the new Bam movie Haggard with my brother its sooo hilarious i love it hehe. now im herre watching some soft core porn on Oxygen weee and my baby wont answer his fone and im scurred i hope he didnt go out and drive in the snow!! its scurry out therre hehe well night night :)::
while always showing that she's hurt
but never wrong, but never wrong.
It takes a lot to make the end.
It takes a lot of smart thinking,
but never wrong, but never wrong...
and she shows off her skill
right as she takes it all
out of her hat
you make sure that it's real,
and it's all you thought you had
and now your scared,
and now your scared.
Clever is the general word
while always showing that she's hurt
but never wrong, but never wrong.
It takes a lot to make the end.
It takes a lot of smart thinking,
but never wrong, but never wrong...
Clever, clever is all
But you're never wrong
All I can see
Is the smiles
We'll Fall asleep
And now I'm scared
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[27 Dec 2003|10:46pm] |
1. What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before? i dont know
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions and will you make more for next year? i didnt have any...efff that
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? no
4. Did anyone close to you die?no
5. What countries did you visit? mexico
6. What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003? better grades
7. What date from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? the day i moved to utah
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? i have no achievments
9. What was your biggest failure? my grades
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? no
11. What was the best thing you bought? i dont know
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? no
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? i dont know
14. Where did most of your money go? food
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? zachary
16. What song will always remind you of 2003? work it- missy elliot
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? both? both
ii. thinner or fatter? thinner last yurr
iii. richer or poorer? i dunno i live in a house now soo neh
18. What do you wish you'd done more of? study
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? not party
20. How will you be spending Christmas? i already spent it...
21. Did you fall in love in 2003? yup :) my zachary
22. What was your favorite TV program? the o.c
23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? no
24. What was the best book you read? go ask alicia
25. What was your greatest musical discovery of 2003? like soooooooo many
26. What did you want and get? zachary
27. What did you want and not get? my camera fone
28. What was your favorite film of this year? pirates
29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? i was in utah... got the anatomy cd...15
30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? more candy
31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003? the same 2002...
32. What kept you sane? my shiva
33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? chris carraba of dc
34. What political issue stirred you the most? effin bush,....
35. Who did you miss? shhhhivaa
36. Who was the best new person you met? zach
37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003: -dont eat yellow snow-zach-....doesnt matter where u live its how u live
38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: its getting hot in herre so take off all ur clothes
stole from lisa
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[27 Dec 2003|08:18pm] |
scratch-allister
I've been sitting here for hours
Burned an image of you in my mind
Finding comfort in the words you say
But it's not the same
I know you're worth the wait
And I can't explain
What I'm going through inside
But I would turn away the world
Just to have you here with me tonight
We can take our time
Making sure that everything feels right
It won't be easy but I'm not afraid
You're so far away
We made our start from scratch
It's now or never but we can't look back
I need you with me for another day
You're so far away
Yeah far away
I've been sitting here forever
Your voice is resonating in my mind
Countless hours with you on the phone
And now I'm not alone
I know you're worth the wait
But I can't escape
What I'm going through inside
But i would turn away the world
Just to have you here with me tonight
We can take our time
Making sure that everything feels right
It won't be easy but I'm not afraid
You're so far away
We made our start from scratch
It's now or never but we can't look back
I need you with me for another day
You're so far away
Yeah far away
I know there's no time left for second chances
Still we're right despite these circumstances
You've changed me more than you could ever know
So we will just hang on until tomorrow
So take my hand, don't ever let me go
This time it's right
We can take our time
Making sure that everything feels right
It won't be easy but I'm not afraid
You're so far away
We made our start from scratch
It's now or never but we can't look back
I need you with me for another day
You're so far away
Yeah far away
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:: errr i havent seen zack since christmas eve,this is like the longest time ive been away from him! and my mommie didnt let him brant and eric come over tonight, i hate her. i miss him sooooooo badddd errr. hes gunna come over tomorrow cuz he has the car since his parents cant do anything on sundays...(their morman) so hes gunna come over i cant wait i want to go to sleep rite now. i hate being grounded i feel like just running away... ERER. Yea well i heard about what happened to my lisa (im kicking that kids ass by the way) and i am FREAKIN out... i dunno why... probably cuz whenever i ask zack what he does or who hes with its so blaa.. like
-just hung out....with who...brant and everyone...WHO THE FUCK IS EVERYONE...-
i dunno and like i always tell him who im with.. i dunno im probably just paraniod cuz this is going so well...i never can be happy ... i dunno i always have to mess things up... yea well im done bitching...i cant wait til tomorrow IM READY...my familys watching jeepers creepers 2 but im a lil mad at them rite now, i dont know why but my parents dont like zack... there like ... o "hes" coming over... and stuff like that... their like when are you gunna bring that landon boy around,err whatever i dont curr as long as i love him :).
like last friday zack goes...Guess what? and im like what and he goes nevermind and im like no nono tell me and he wouldnt. then he kept saying something really softly into the phone and i was like what are you saying and he kept saying no im not gunna say it its to embarrasing and im like watever and hes like i have to wait til the rite moment... i was like ok. and like on...christmas i think it was hes goes have you found out what i wanted to say and i sadi no... and hes like... i love you... and i was like.... OH MY GOD...i love you too... :) oh my god im sucha nerd
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[26 Dec 2003|10:18pm] |
-The Velorium Camper I: Faint Of Hearts-COHEED AND CAMBRIA
With the worries that I'd give her in they told the worst of me
With my wanting just to hold your neck in my arms and feel me squeeze
No I'm not going to give you what you want so if you please
The sin that shapes your voice carries my ears this new disease
Did somebody take your tongue?
In worries of the words that you couldn't say if they could've saved them from
But I don't want to sleep without so I bid to you goodnight
Tonight, sleep tight, my love
The anxious through the calming storm you'll sit as you pray for rain
I'll touch it if you ask me to but how is up to you
No I'm not going to let you get up if you struggle willingly
I'll favor all your form to show you how its been done to me
With all the words you say...you'll save
You were so well behaved
As you arched and made your way
This gift for you engraved
The shift as you stretch your legs
You were so well behaved
You were so well
Who taught these tricks that make...you were so well behaved
If the world stops turning girl you better not stop when I say
If there was nothing you could do to stop it why'd you try
Then the ground starts parting through the silence as you woke up the dead
Everything here dies alone...
But I'm not quite sure what you've been told/this unfolds...
On labor day I'm not starting with you but the faint of heart
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[25 Dec 2003|08:40pm] |
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Tomorrow i will be you-thursday
in the circuit, the frequency's breaking up.
the speakers can barely move
this is not a test
tune to the broadcast.
witness the jetlag.
look in the mirror.
adjust the V-hold.
shatter the lens.
pull out the shards.
choke on her words,
caught in your throat.
how long can the wheels maintain a spin,
at this velocity?
on every block,
a reminder:
you can't stop this intersection.
at every turn,
dead forests of tenements rise
like antennas.
the miles are adding up
and the days are counting down.
cut the jet black from my hair
before we're bathed in the dawn
of New Year's Day.
I will change back to myself
in the flame,
we burn like the paper hearts of
dead presidents.
we're too lost,
to lose hope.
maybe the night seems so dark
because the day
is much too bright
for us to see that we are cured.
we are cured
(shatter the lens. pull out the shards)
we are cured.
we are cured
(choke on her words, caught in your throat)
that's the sound of music from another room
the piano player hangs from piano wire
but the player piano carries on.
sit back and tune to the broadcast.
witness the jet lag
shatter the lens.
pull out the shards.
choke on her words,
caught in your throat.
this is not a test
this is not a test
shatter the lens.
pull out the shards.
choke on her words,
caught in your throat.
as the language dissolves
and the sentence lifts,
a slow alphabet of rain is whispering,
"aabcttipacbdefg..."
since I replaced the I in live with an O,
I can't remember who you are...
...but tomorrow I'll be you.
just pick up the phone.
I'm calling from your house,
in your room,
in your name,
lying in your bed,
following your dreams.
I listen to your voice
get caught in my throat
as I sing,
"This Is Just A Dream."
on New Year's Day,
we will change back to ourselves.
in the flame
we are cured.
we are cured.
we are cured.
War all of the time
In the shadow of the New York skyline
We grew up too fast falling apart
Like the ashes of American flags
The sun doesn’t rise
We replaced it with an h-bomb explosion
A painted jail cell of blood in the sky like Three Mile Island
Nightmares on TV they used to sing us to sleep
They burn on and on like an oil field
Or a memory of what it felt like
To burn on and on and not just fade away
All those nights in the basement the kids are still screaming
On and on and on and on
did we deserve whats coming to us
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[25 Dec 2003|08:40pm] |
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Tomorrow i will be you-thursday
in the circuit, the frequency's breaking up.
the speakers can barely move
this is not a test
tune to the broadcast.
witness the jetlag.
look in the mirror.
adjust the V-hold.
shatter the lens.
pull out the shards.
choke on her words,
caught in your throat.
how long can the wheels maintain a spin,
at this velocity?
on every block,
a reminder:
you can't stop this intersection.
at every turn,
dead forests of tenements rise
like antennas.
the miles are adding up
and the days are counting down.
cut the jet black from my hair
before we're bathed in the dawn
of New Year's Day.
I will change back to myself
in the flame,
we burn like the paper hearts of
dead presidents.
we're too lost,
to lose hope.
maybe the night seems so dark
because the day
is much too bright
for us to see that we are cured.
we are cured
(shatter the lens. pull out the shards)
we are cured.
we are cured
(choke on her words, caught in your throat)
that's the sound of music from another room
the piano player hangs from piano wire
but the player piano carries on.
sit back and tune to the broadcast.
witness the jet lag
shatter the lens.
pull out the shards.
choke on her words,
caught in your throat.
this is not a test
this is not a test
shatter the lens.
pull out the shards.
choke on her words,
caught in your throat.
as the language dissolves
and the sentence lifts,
a slow alphabet of rain is whispering,
"aabcttipacbdefg..."
since I replaced the I in live with an O,
I can't remember who you are...
...but tomorrow I'll be you.
just pick up the phone.
I'm calling from your house,
in your room,
in your name,
lying in your bed,
following your dreams.
I listen to your voice
get caught in my throat
as I sing,
"This Is Just A Dream."
on New Year's Day,
we will change back to ourselves.
in the flame
we are cured.
we are cured.
we are cured.
War all of the time
In the shadow of the New York skyline
We grew up too fast falling apart
Like the ashes of American flags
The sun doesn’t rise
We replaced it with an h-bomb explosion
A painted jail cell of blood in the sky like Three Mile Island
Nightmares on TV they used to sing us to sleep
They burn on and on like an oil field
Or a memory of what it felt like
To burn on and on and not just fade away
All those nights in the basement the kids are still screaming
On and on and on and on
did we deserve whats coming to us
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[24 Dec 2003|09:25pm] |
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:: hehe today zach came over and suprised me with a giant teddy bearr!!! hehe <33 i love him SOO MUCHO HES MY teddy bear hehe::
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Here we are today.
You look so beautiful I wonder what you dream.
So graceful in what you say
Its all I need to hear your voice everyday.
I wish never to wake up from this dream I’m in right now.
Here I am watching clouds from your bedroom window
As we’re laying here.
And I wake up today
Still smiling in the air.
Wish dreams could be so great.
I think today I’ll try and kiss you on your cheek.
I hope you’ll let me go.
I know you’re the one.
Its all I want to hear you say your mine.
Talk about and take you there you will see the one true thing.
Places that you’ve never been places that your gonna be.
I will be the one person to open your eyes.
In love with me…
I wish never to wake up from this dream I’m in right now.
Here I am watching clouds from your bedroom window
As we’re laying here.
It’s so much fun
It’s so much fun
To be in love
To be in love.
Its so much fun
Cause I’m in love with you.
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[23 Dec 2003|09:44pm] |
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::hello hello yea so i havent been on beceuse ive been to HELL and back...(my dads) and yea now im grounded because of my fucking grades errr. yea so anyways im grounded, my moms still thinking if shes gunna ground me for winter break. i hope nope because im planning on getting drunk... yea so anyways i dont thin shell make me because shes like leaning towards letting me go. Yea so i STILL have to go shopping for zacky whacky. shivas and christy... ekk. i got 200 bucks from the grandparents YES SCORE so yea tomorrow i have to babysit and zacks gunna come over and help =) hes a sweety hehe. yea so anyways if i dont get to go out ill just sneak out no biggie. But yea kinda sucks cuiz i have my mom and step dad naggin me about grades then zack does...but i guess hes just lookin out foe me watever... hehe <3 hes my sweetness =) well i have to go figure a plan...man christmas doesnt seem so exciting once ur older... unless ur getting a car which im not.err yea so im gay and my stomach hurts <33 hehe nitenite::
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::waldo from the books "wheres waldo" dude hes so emo... just look at him, hes my idol...always alone but in a crowd of people... never found...always forgotten or given up on... hats off to waldo::
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[17 Dec 2003|06:54pm] |
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::hello today wasent to exciting... i missed the bus...so i called DJ and he came right back to the school and picked me up :) cuuz he loves me and SYDNEY was in the car and we jammed to some ludacris.. it was bangin... i had to sit with zacks bike in the back... but o wells. This weekend i have to go see my dad... I dont want to go!! dont make me... ima zackk :(...sooo mucho... god damnit. im coming back on tuesday tho so we be alright. Anyways its allmost christmas!!! yayee i still have to go shopping hehe, i onno what ima get everyone... eerr o well ill think about it later, well ill be going....later skater daters::
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[12 Dec 2003|11:12pm] |
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:: tonight was alright. Brett picked me up with Al and my zachary, then we went to tylers house but he wasent even there and everyone was planning on getin high so we left and went to Syds instead with brett AL LINDSEY erin greg DJ and some other people yea so they got high while zack n i watched Jummy neutron! YEYE. so yea then we heded over to wendys...starbucks and it was so EFFIn cold so me n lindsey stay in the car and talked about being famous and shit. The we went to taco bell cuz everyone was a wendys and we wanted to be cool so we went thurr. YUP and we got some yummie hot sauce :) the jon and ab and ryan and everyone else pulled up. so yea me n lindsey made a drink with honey sugar mild sauce ketchup and snow ...ryan almost drank it. but then threw it ALL PUR HARD WORK!! so yea then we hoped me n zack hopped in the other car with Dj erin and sydney cuz brett left so we decided to. So then i called ryan to see were they were and they said k mart so we headed down thur.. NO SIGN OF THEM. so ryan celled me and told me they went back up to wendys...ill kill them so we went back up thurr and spent a lil time in starbucks then i had to go homie... SADNESS so Dj drove me home and i think that zack Dj erin and syd are gunna go get drunk now... i onno zack was a lil concerd about getting some alchole... im like watever... if it thurr and i want to ill do it... but i had to go home..suckiness!::
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[12 Dec 2003|05:11pm] |
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::its friday night THANK GOD *starts singing slick shoes* its friidday nigghttt... yea anyways tonight i have no idea what im going to do. I think im gunna go hang out with Syd brant n zack and i think DJ. i onno cause mayham... like usaul... yup, today i had to go to the elementry school for theatre so i got outta math 10 minutes early WEE!!!! yea! im really bored MAN its only 514... err... zacks out riding his bike so i might just go over syds house so brant n him can pick us up i onno... ER! i hope no drinking.. thatd be bad!!yea well im outie... later skater daters <3::
It's Friday night.
You want to hang out with your friend's cause you've had it up to here.
School just started and you wonder to yourself,
"Where did my summer go?"
But it will be all right tonight because...It's Friday night.
Let's go. Let's all have some fun tonight.
All right. Here we go. Here we go tonight.
It's Monday again and it feels like it never ends.
Where did your life go?
Did you forget what it was like?
This week is way too slow, it'll never end.
When will it go?
You've made it through the week, and now you feel just fine.
There'll be no nervous breakdown tonight because:It's Friday night.
Let's go. Let's all have some fun tonight.
All right. Here we go. Here we go tonight.
It doesn't matter where we go or what we do.
Let's just do it now.
Go to the Gas N Sip, and hang out there all night.
It'll be all right
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[10 Dec 2003|09:12pm] |
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::i fell on my ass today, my arm hurts i have an ear ache. err and im so worried about someone i care about more than anyone in the world. Shes going thro a tough time and im not there...why arnt i there? fuck this fuck utah...dude id give anythign to move back with her ...i dont like to see her hurt herself but she does and im scared. if anything were to happen to her id die. shes mine...its like..i dont know its hard to explain but im scared i really am. i dont want to get a call, i dont want her to never be there again... i need her so bad.she hurts and it hurts to see it...i dont know what to do::
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[08 Dec 2003|08:25pm] |
Spoken:
Don't look at me
Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly, it's hard to breathe
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the fame, I'm so ashamed
I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down
So don't you bring me down today
To all your friends, you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The piece is gone and the puzzle undone
That's the way it is
You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words won't bring you down
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words won't bring you down
Don't you bring me down today...
No matter what we do
(no matter what we do)
No matter what they say
(no matter what they say)
When the sun is shining through
Then the clouds won't stay
And everywhere we go
(everywhere we go)
The sun won't always shine
(sun won't always shine)
But tomorrow will find a way
All the other times
We are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words won't bring us down
We are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words can't bring us down
Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today
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