| 6:10 pm |
*Depression*
Well, this is my first entry. I'm not sure what to say but I guess I'll just write. Here goes...
Alot has happened in the past couple of weeks. I had to move in with my ex Tony and it's been hell. He treats me like shit but there's nothing I can do. Everything has been going shitty for me... until I met someome. His name is Mike, he goes to my school and is such a sweet person. From the very first daywe met I've felt less depressed, a little less lonely... likesomeone actually cared. It kinda seemed like he tookme under hiswing and befriended me and was there though the tough and good times. Me andmy daughter havehung out with him alot since we've met... practically every weeked. But lately things have been a little iffy between us. We liked eachother and we were both kinda hope-n to hook up. I think he got sick of me and all my problems. Who can blame him. I think I made him feel as though I was just playing with him and didn't know what I want. I dunno... I'm a difficult person. I've had a few dreams about him and I've thought about him at some of the most awkward of times.
I decided to do a tarot about a week or two ago and it talked alot about me meeting some that i'll be heppy with and stuff. I really did think it was Mike. I dunno, maybe I'm just a hopeless young girl looking too hard for love. He told me that we was tired of waiting on me and hooked up with someone that he'sliked longer than he's known me. It hurt and I got mad, though I know I have no reason to. I've been pretty depressed ever since and to top it all off, I'm sick. I've been throwing up sice lastnight. Tony's dad thinks I'm pregnant, but who would know better than me, right? (I'm not, for your curiosity). Things suck for me, hopefully i'll feel good enough to go over Mikes tomorrow... |
| 5:47 pm |
*Depression*
Well, this is my first entry. I'm not sure what to say but I guess I'll just write. Here goes...
Alot has happened in the past couple of weeks. I had to move in with my ex Tony and it's been hell. He treats me like shit but there's nothing I can do. Everything has been going shitty for me... until I met someome. His name is Mike, he goes to my school and is such a sweet person. From the very first daywe met I've felt less depressed, a little less lonely... likesomeone actually cared. It kinda seemed like he tookme under hiswing and befriended me and was there though the tough and good times. Me andmy daughter havehung out with him alot since we've met... practically every weeked. But lately things have been a little iffy between us. We liked eachother and we were both kinda hope-n to hook up. I think he got sick of me and all my problems. Who can blame him. I think I made him feel as though I was just playing with him and didn't know what I want. I dunno... I'm a difficult person. I've had a few dreams about him and I've thought about him at some of the most awkward of times. |