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its such a loss for the good guys [08 Sep 2004|03:02pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Rilo Kiley ] my journal is finaly letting me update gosh this is a relief as soon as i get my ass on it i will have a dead journal so school has started it was only the 2nd day today but i feel like i have been doing this for months when i woke up this morning there was no part of me that was excited and i wasnt even nervous at all on the first day i like almost all of my classes and have a good feeling about them maybe this year isnt going to be as perfect and fun as i imagined but im hoping its somewhere close its just that nothing big ever happens its all really the same to me i dont know just what it is that im waiting for..but its something. i can tell i will really like art 2 and photo will be retarded cos thats like the only class with dober people in it besides kait and every day i never fail to say "i hate everyone" i mean its like you cant waolk to halls without seeing the same superficial bitches, boys that try too hard with their freshly grown crust-taches, names of bands and lyrics written all over their binders? its like people build themselves up to be put on display but not like trophies, more like a mcdonalds menu yeah, i want to pick and chose but not based on how many drawings you can make from white out on your book bag. now i am certainly not saying im some type of example for perfect and i dont set the standards im just mearly someone who is so sick of being in a room with the same colored walls please, i think people are worth more than what they make themselves out to be these days friends arent based on what shoes you wear that entry was totaly not sophisticated and required little thought, but it'll do for now cos i have homework at 5 every morning, shannon 11 didnt bother to write| bye bye beautiful

maybe they went to all the better parties [30 Aug 2004|08:34pm] [ mood | geeky ] [ music | saosin "seven years" ] i am so ready for the summer to end its not that i havent enjoyed it im ready to have a social life again im ready for my life to have structure im ready hugs and cold noses im ready complain again im ready to rewrite another chapter and erase the old one im ready for red leaves and long sleves i want christmas and lite98 for football games and new friends im ready to see everything through clear eyes and an open head free from cobb webs and a stale taste im ready to savor being a teenager and the love all around me im ready to sweep everythign from its piles on the floor im ready to be somebody to someone and mean more than my year book picture im ready to watch you've got mail and use school supplies i am so ready for love and new friends and new beginings with new faces and just enough of the old ones while still keeping things just the way i like them. mark your clandars on september 4th one very 14 girl will turn 15 for the first time ;) edit: im going to take a very cool survey you dont have to read it i guess but suite yourself.. 7 deadly sins survey WRATH [1] Who did you last get angry with? sabrina [2] What is your weapon of choice? um that gun you make with your finger, i use that a lot [3] Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? yes, but not really so it hurt [4] How about of the same sex? same thing [5] Who was the last person who got really angry at you? sabrina, otherwise people arent angry with me that often [6] What is your pet peeve?when people tie their shoes so the bow part is longer that the extra string-ah that makes me go crazzzyyyy [7] Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? i dont know cos i have never really had a serious grudge i guess SLOTH [1] What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time? hmm wash dishes? [2] What is the latest you've ever woken up? i think about 2 [3] Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't? elizabeth [4] What is the last lame excuse you made? i make them alll the time [5] Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through? all the time, i watched 2 just today, wait 3 [6] When was the last time you got in a good workout? every sunday tuesday and thursday [7] How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? i didnt. that makes me happy GLUTTONY [1] What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? um...no thanks??? [2] Meat eaters: white meat or dark meat? white :) [3] What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event? 0 [4] Have you ever used a professional diet company? hah. no [5] Do you have an issue with your weight? yes sir [6] Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? hmm, sweet? [7] Have you ever looked at a small house pet or child and thought, "LUNCH!"? hahaha no i cant say i have LUST [1] How many people have you seen naked? hmm only when i was a baby, so my parents and sabrina when we were little [2] How many people have seen YOU naked? hah um sabrina and my mom. ew [3] Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a man/woman? hah rarely [4] Have you "done it"? no im only 14 [5] What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? hahaha gender of choice, eyes [6] Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? no mam [7] Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy? nooo GREED [1] How many credit cards do you own? 0 [2] What's your guilty pleasure store? i dont think i have one [3] If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? buy clothes [4] Would you rather be rich, or famous? rich [5] Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? hm im not sure [6] Have you ever stolen anything? nope [7] How many MP3s are on your hard drive? i try to limit it of the top of my head ill say 30? PRIDE [1] What one thing have you done that you're most proud of? i cant think of anything [2] What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? im a stupid kid, ask them [3] What thing would you like to accomplish in your life? to be smart [4] Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? i dont think so, unless i know i earned first [5] Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? yes [6] Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? probably [7] What did you do today that you're proud of? i went to the dentist and had no cavitys and was a A brusher! :D ENVY [1] What item (or person) of your friend's would you most want to have for your own? um elizabeths trampoline [2] Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with? haha i think about that all the time, um brittany [3] If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? sabrina [4] Have you ever been cheated on? yes [5] Cheated on anyone else? no [6] Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? yes sir [7] What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? lots of things, a more outgoing personality and confedence [8] Do you wish you'd come up with this survey? then it would be retarded [9] Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin? envy? i want to be the next big thing, shannon 4 didnt bother to write| bye bye beautiful

dear everyone who cares [27 Aug 2004|04:34pm] short trip to south carolina be back monday even though i bet people arent going to read this till im home ill update then. hold it down gangsta style for me -shannonnnn 1 didnt bother to write| bye bye beautiful

lets sing lets eat lets jiggle our feet [23 Aug 2004|08:37pm] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | The Strokes ] la la la la la la summer is going well sometimes i just have to sit down and look at it all because i dont always see whats right infront of my face as its happening thanks if youve been a part of it im enjoying very much coaching cheering with brittany this year its going so good and MAA football season makes me so happy from 6-9 im in a good mood because of it :) so i went to nags head on thursday it is definetly one of the highlights of the summer for sure on thursday we were on the beach during the day and after dinner we went to fletchers beach house to hang out with him and adam we roamed around in the dark with bare feet and got rowdy at dowdys.. wich is a sad but cute excuse for an amusement park we made fun of all the rides that were lit up and broken down and sat on the beach for hours that night friday was the same deal cept during the day we went down to fletcher and adams part of the beach and swam in the ocean, attempted to play football and played with a cute doggie all day at night the four of us watched south park at the beach house and then went mini glofing which was a blast untill adam was being all jewish while taking score ;) then we headed for the beach and sat out here after adam and fletchers painful episode with the thorns in the dark alley :O i was scared both nights cos the beach is really dark at night and adam was sure that i was going to get raped but i could not have asked for a better trip minus the bad sunburn it was quite the vacation with people i love and times where i have to pinch myself to realize its all real thanks guys schools coming up im excited but im hoping it doesnt sneak up on me when im not ready cos i want next year to be of da chainnnn 8D and it will be. oh p.s theres a dead journal in the works for me just be patient, im lazy holy hell batman im going to be a kick ass 10th grader this year! :O -shannon 4 didnt bother to write| bye bye beautiful

ill be your best kept secret and your biggest mistake [18 Aug 2004|08:59pm] [ mood | good ] [ music | Fall Out Boy "Dead on Arival" ] i havent updated in a while but this has to be short cos im a busy girl. ive benn so happy lately i think im taking the summer umder my wing now since its almost gone and enjoying it for everythign its worth i dont have any complaints i just think about all the people i love all the time now and just smie i hope summer has been in the least, relaxing for everyone schools coming up sooner than you think and im excited mostly for all of my 9th graders to come too :) and now that football season has started up im going to be in a good mood now through november this is when im happiest all through the year. so get used to it :) on another note in the morning im leaving to go to nags head untill saturday which isnt that long so dont fret but im still anticipating it to be loads of fun expecially since adam and fletcher are down there too and it will just be a party ;) adams been gone at the beach for 3 weeks so im very excited to get to see him again yayyyyy the beach! its really going to be summer now summer doesnt come till you go to the beach 8D ill miss all of you and p.s i love brittany im in an i love brittany a whole lot mood ;) if i wasnt leaving i would want to hang out with her tonight :P oh and just a note i decided to name my other flamingo tulip. frank and tulip. although it was a close race with hoolieo miss holy :) have a good weekend everyone hold it down gangsta style for me please 8D 3 didnt bother to write| bye bye beautiful

and were alright [10 Aug 2004|02:03pm] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | Unwritten Law "Up all Night" ] so right nows the time for a few short thoughts and a quick survey that you should deffinetly read cos um i think you should um 3 weeks at the beach is a really bad idea adam has been gone for a week already im just counting down the days till i get to go to nags head and see fletcher and adam :) hopefully next weekend that will be a party 8D :) this one isnt bad just read it fool its not like you really have anything else better to do. honestly? RANDOM -- Nervous Habits? i bite my nails a whole lotttt Are you double jointed? no sir Can you roll your tongue? - only once Can you raise one eyebrow at a time? - i just tried and it didnt work out too well Can you blow spit bubbles? - ick. i hate it when people do that, no Can you cross your eyes? - i think so, but you cant look at yourself in the mirror when your doing it so i dont know Tattoos? - nope Piercings and where? - my ears Do you make your bed daily? eh not really In your CD player? um the one beside me in sabrinas room has in snow patrol, and in my room is damien rice Person you talk most on the phone with? adam Ever taken a cab? no thanks Do you regularly check yourself out in store windows and mirrors?- who doesnt What color is your bedroom?- oh geeze, three of my walls are pink with white polkadots and my big window wall is white with vertical thin pink stripes, um and there is a continuing black stripe at the top of all of my walls (i painted it all by myself :) Do you use an alarm clock? during school Window seat or aisle? doesnt matter to me as long as im not feeling crammed Where do you see yourself in 10 years? i will be 25 and i have no idea really -- CLOTHES -- Which shoe goes on first? - i think right Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone? that possible, oh um a bug and maybe sabrina On the average, how much money do you carry in your purse/wallet? i havent a dollar to my name at the moment , normally not over 20 though, im not a working girl :P What jewelry do you wear 24/7? - the shoelace around my neck and my bracelet i made out of buttons that never leaves my wrist Favorite piece of clothing? - i dont really have one -- FOOD -- Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? - i hate spaghetti, my parents make it like every week too Have you ever eaten Spam? - no but im sure we have some in the pantry Favorite ice cream flavor? - mint chocalte chip and cherry vanilla How many cereals in your cabinet? let me go check...9 cos i eat it every day What's your favourite beverage? ginger ale and cranberry juice What's your favorite restaurant? i think river city diner Do you cook? i like to, my lazy ass friends always make me fix them things -- GROOMING -- How often do you brush your teeth? haha Hair drying method? blowdry Have you ever colored/highlighted your hair? no sir -- WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE -- Animal?- flamingo and manatee and i love my rats Food?- macaroni and cheese Month?- october Day?- thursday Cartoon?- as told by ginger, rugrats all grown up, courage the cowerdly dog, johny bravo Shoe Brand?- my puma romas are my favorite shoes ever Subject in school?- art Color?- purple Sport?- football and baseball, actually i just love watching my little brother play anything TV show?- what not to wear! Thing to do in the spring? i used to always want to pick flowers Thing to do in the summer? go on walks at night Thing to do in the fall? im all about the clothes in fall Thing to do in the winter? wish for it to snow -- LA LA LAND -- What's your sleeping position? on my side, normally with my back to my window so i can be looking at my door at all times to patrol for preadators Even in hot weather do you use a blanket?- yes i dont feel safe otherwise, it has to be covering my neck too Do you snore?- no, if you snore i can get so annoyed that i will just cry and throw a fit and never sleep Do you sleepwalk?- no that scares me very badly Do you talk in your sleep?- i have before Do you sleep with stuffed animals? yes lots How about with the light on?- yes sir Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio on?- last night i had both on :) and my lights, i have a serious problem -- WHICH IS BETTER -- Oranges or apples? oranges One pillow or two? 5 thanks Deaf or blind? deaf Pools or hot tubs? hot tubs Tall or short? tall Beach or pool? beach Tic-Tacs or Certs? orange tic-tacs :) Snooze button or jump out of bed? my snooze button is broken so i have to dart out of bed. gayness Sunrise or sunset? both Hamburger or cheeseburger? cheeseburger, and i had never had one till like 2 years ago Morning or night? morning Indoors or outdoors? outdoors when its cold, indoors when its hot Christmas Eve or Christmas Day? christmas day Cake or ice cream? hmm, both? Spearmint or peppermint? peppermint Bath or shower? shower Book or movie? hmm Green or red apples? green taste better Rain or snow? snowwww seeee that wasnt that bad a few weeks ago i purchased a pair of two lovely pink plastic flamingoes from carytown they are currently in my room and i have only named one of them his name is pete and he is my friend he looks like a pete but i just have no idea what to name my other one hes tired of not having a name please provide me with some suggestions over and out, shannon 7 didnt bother to write| bye bye beautiful

just another girl [07 Aug 2004|05:51pm] [ mood | restless ] [ music | Pete Yorn ] i wasnt missing this feeling but i dont think it matters in fact i was getting along just fine without it and right now i feel absolutly raw and i miss adam like theres no tomorrw too. i feel like im sitting in a room full of dark black smoke and i have no choice but to breath it in one day i am just going to wake up and realize that they were all wrong this is too much im going to see my life the way it is not the way any doctor ever did and im going to feel fresh air like fire on my skin and thats when the empty feeling leaves for good and isnt welcome to visit have you ever got that feeling where music feels like its peircing your skin and you are the only person that ever saw yourself through a broken mirror and you drift in and away from yourself like you could go to sleep but your wide awake and you know nothing about anything you used to people turn into the books youve never read when you woke up this morning you had no idea you colud turn into something you saw in a dream once but you do, except in living in a dream world and always have i dont know what is right and what is wrong i have no control over anything, it all comes from misplaced bottles that dont know me if you look at my eyes its clear to see that im not just another girl but not everyone has time to look. i like the veiw shannon 1 didnt bother to write| bye bye beautiful

sorry i wasnt at practice [04 Aug 2004|03:14pm] [ mood | awake ] [ music | taking back sunday ] warped tour :) i rode there with melissa and fletcher we stoped by adams peanut shop on the way where we smelt all the dried hams and went potty out in the country we ate at burger king before we got there and tried to spot all the people that were going to warped too and we did it was pouring down rain but it was so fun walking up the road to the ticket booth getting absolutly drenched all the fake hair dye was rolling down kids necks at the end of taking back sunday melissa broke her nose so i took her to first aid :) i believe she had a good time with her swollen nose none the less i dont even quite remember the bands we saw but thats okay cos i enjoyed all of them coheed was very good cos claudio did it all acoustic by himself cos the band was sick claudio is my hero :) near the end me and melissa went shopping while sabrina and fletcher went back in when we were done shopping (well melissa was the one shopping) we caught the tale end of sugar cult said our goodbyes and called it a night i think we all stayed wet the whole night we packed in the car and went to chickfila for dinner where we met a nosey opra singing homeless man who entertaned mr.babb we all had a layer of mud covering our whole bodies im sure i have a few small bruises on my legs an a few scratches but it was quite an experence but so great now ive got something to show for my summer its good to have a trophy on the rack cant wait till '05 :) being a teenager isnt so bad, shannon 4 didnt bother to write| bye bye beautiful

please dont go crazy if i tell you the truth [27 Jul 2004|09:55pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | Snow Patrol "How to Be Dead" ] it smells like cat food in here and i dont even have a cat and i dont ever plan on it. i know school is an icky subjet but ive been thinking about it so much i have even started to think about what color im gonna paint my nails does anyone else do that? or is it just me :) its cool that i didnt really have anyone to miss this summer it makes the first day of school more laid back cos then your not running around hugging all day and such i am so fustrated with my stupid language classes *pardon the interuption but sabrina is on the phone with fletcher and she just said "i wanna see a dinosaur have sex, their so big and stuff i wonder how they do it!?!?"* ok back to what i was saying my language classes ok so i wanna continue french cos i got my credit and stuff i passed the class but yet i have to take french1 over again? can we say anal? so im signed up for latin and now its very hard to change back to french ah we'll see how this all pans out.. i want to know what classes all of you 9th graders are taking, this interests me i can do that 'lean back' dance from fat joes song you should ask me to do it for you cos i can break it dowwwwwnn wednesday is my free night! i wanna do something! yay im kinda bored cos im eating chocolate animal crackers and i just made two unidentified animals hump eachother. they liked it. alright im gonna go i never have much to say, shannon 3 didnt bother to write| bye bye beautiful

we finally feel, and we feel like this [24 Jul 2004|02:14pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | The Jealous Sound "Recovery Room" ] i just made muffins and i want to bake a cake and if i want to bake its not a good sign im so hungry and i just cant bring myself to eat this never happens i havent seen this since a few months ago im going to write a book one day and its going to be the best book anyone ever read so there. i feel like most of the time things to me are so different from the way everyone else sees them i dont know why. but when something passes through my brain it seems like its traveling a different way and then everything comes out of my eyes and i cant have it any other way ive realized a lot of things lately and i realized that i need everything that im getting ok i and i also realized that i should go write this down some place else bye:) sorry for the short entry its one of those days, shannon 3 didnt bother to write| bye bye beautiful

sprite has no caffeine [22 Jul 2004|10:28pm] [ mood | okay ] [ music | Taking Back Sunday "Set Phasers to Stun" ] i got a haircut nothing drastic, no length taken off i love my hairdresser shes so sweet i was very scared to get my hair cut cos i wish it was longer so i got all nervous but i enjoyed myself guess who cant wait to get the tbs cd.. me i dont really have a thing to update about so sorry but i think about school a lot now and i think im ready to go back but im not really at all im ready to have something to do, thats all or is it? i dunno, im not ready for the work but since im determined to do so well im just kinda anxious to get started, so i can erase last year and kinda finalize a bad point in time but you knwo what im so excited about!?!? being a sidekick!!!!! yayyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!! im so excited to go to 9th grade orentation and show one of you guys around to all your classes! fun fun! you better hope im your sidekick cos im one cool girl! yayyyy this get me all happy, and that way i get to get used to the school again before going back there then ill know if im ready i just want to go shopping :) heyyyyy im in high school how cool is that?? 8D, i know im a dork i dunno i never know what to update about now if you have something you want to hear about tell me :) dont go have a baby or anything, shannon 4 didnt bother to write| bye bye beautiful

[20 Jul 2004|02:17pm] YAY ITS ADAMS BIRTHDAY TODAY! happy birthday you worthless peice of nothing :P (i was the first person to say it at midnight so um, i rock?) :) 1 didnt bother to write| bye bye beautiful

the queen of too much of a good thing [18 Jul 2004|09:19pm] [ mood | giddy ] [ music | Adam Richman "mary-anne" ] im so happy right now:) my whole weekend was spent watching my brothers baseball games:) cos the tournament was this weekend (we won :) i loved it so much i loooove watching those games i love all the boys on the team and all their cute siblings ;) and all their screaming moms i love cold nights and yelling at the top of my lungs and going out to eat and candellas i have a big crush on a 7th grader ;) and a few 2 year olds. this is what summer is supposed to be about and im so glad that things have been going so good boys make me happy:):):) i cant wait till football seasonnnnn oh and next year, everyone get ready, its gonna be awesome oh geeze, everyone have fun, shannon 8D 5 didnt bother to write| bye bye beautiful

"dude" [14 Jul 2004|10:50pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | Taking Back Sunday "A Decade Under The Influence ] the past few days have been so so nice and very needed ive been having a lot of fun and i love my friends more than ever i never write about what i do but im going to now im going to warn you this might be long and not so interesting to some i dont know days cos i never know what day it is so ill just kinda guess the other day i was at brittanys cos michael called and said that he was over there and wanted to see us he bought a plane ticket himself and flew in form texas to visit it feels like he just left but when he came back it really really hit me, i miss him so much and i need that kid in my life as corny as it may be i really do i guess the phrase you never know what youve got untill its gone something like that, ive always believed it and i always knew he was a great guy but he is one of my best friends, and i dont think i thought about how much he does for me michael i adore you you know what else tony and maxx were there too and i love them just as much i loved how tony was so happy to see me i hate how i dont see them as much as i should and myabe i saw it before but it was jumping in my face yesterday i have the most beautiful friends and the best thing about tony and michael is they love me no matter what and everything is always the same as the last time we see eachother so all of that had me really really happy and that night i spent the night with brittany just me and her and it was very very nice, i hadnt seen her in like a week and thats a long time for me oh and i saw holly for a bit and that was nice too since she was being very sweet and i might add she looked lovely too so the next night after practice i went to spend the night with elizabeth cos we were going to watercountry in the morning:) it was nice having a sleepover with her too cos i really have been off in my own world this summer and leaving my best friends on the outside i really enjoyed myself so we were at water country all day i got so burnt its not even funny and let me inform you you have never seen a bad sunburn untill you have seen me sunburnt it will blow your mind and this time wasnt even too bad but i love it all anyways and sabrina didnt pass out this go round ;) i have felt so nice lately cept the fact that adam dissapeared with out a trace but i really think i needed all of this i guess this is that good time i was talking about last time it gave me what i wanted all you have to do to get me happy for a while is give me back what i had but i cant help but think this whole time how i wish i were wearing a sweater and raking leaves i would also love to go skiing, i love it so much thank you everyone for putting a smlie on my face :) for the love of, shannon 9 didnt bother to write| bye bye beautiful

tendrils [10 Jul 2004|07:06pm] [ mood | full ] [ music | Motion City Soundtrack "My Favorite Accident" ] so adam made me relize yesterday that i have only done two entries since school let out i guess i have been slower on the updates than i thought i cant stand the warm weather sure its nice sometimes but i would much rather be freezing and wearing sweaters than in a pool and a bathing suite how far into summer are we? i really have lost track of everything its it just me or do hours go by like days, and weeks go by like years? i have been thinking about school a lot lately and its not that im excited i just hated school so much last year that im anxious to start somethign new and try to make it 1o times better i just have been thinking about who im going to be and why i was stopping myself from having an awesome year nothing much goes on anymore i think now its a bigger let down cos before summer started we all glamorized it so much its not exactly the ongoing party that it seems when your in school but im happier now than i ever was in school i know that so i was babysitting last night and when everyone says they wanna be a kid again cos its easier well i dont ever want to be a kid again i realized that being our age really has its pluses that little girl couldnt go into any of her friends yards without asking im glad i can go into my friends yards without asking my mommy first :) i wanna go to the beach, shannon 1 didnt bother to write| bye bye beautiful

i am i the only one who's waiting for something [01 Jul 2004|05:44pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | our lady peace ] 10 didnt bother to write| bye bye beautiful

this desert life [20 Jun 2004|09:44pm] [ mood | cold ] [ music | counting crows ] hello so the first week of summer was not so eventful but i guess i wasnt expecting it to be in the first place or maybe i was? all i know is it beats the hell out of being in school i saw big fish finally it reminded me of my life and too much of it hit home it was a strange feeling but a very great movie often i think all of our lives are going to be like that everything we do is never going to end and everyone we meet will follow us untill the day we die and then is when everyone will see that even if your face wasnt plastered on a billboard you still meant to the world to so many eyes that didnt have to be driving by in a car since i have nothing to say and not much going on im going to take a quick survey of which i will be dissapointed if you dont read :( I AM: a lonely girl named shannon I WANT: to have a boy that will love me back and make me smile I HAVE: cute feet I WISH: i would stop eating I HATE: school and being alone I MISS: adams house I FEAR: the dark I HEAR: the fan, music, and the sound of my typing I SEARCH: for something to do I WONDER: why i think the way i do I REGRET: lots of things I LOVE: :) I ACHE: my legs hurt right now I ALWAYS: think too much and eat too much I AM NOT: pleased with myself I DANCE: when im really happy and excited I SING: all the time I CRY: too much and too often I WRITE: a lot, i love writing I WIN: nothing I LOSE: my mind I CONFUSE: myself I NEED: someone to love me and hang out with me cos i get bored too often I SHOULD: not sulk so much [YES OR NO] You keep a diary: this one only You have a secret journal: no, i used to a long time ago You set your watch a few minutes ahead: i havent owned a watch since 2nd grade cos i cant tell time anyway You bite your fingernails: yes You believe in love: yes [DO YOU] Take a shower everyday: yes, otherwise my hair looks really bad Have a(any) crush(es): yes O:) Think you know you've been in love: maybe but everyone says love doesnt count if your not loved back :( Want to get married: yesss Have any tattoos/where?: nope Piercings/where?: yes my ears of which i am hopefully getting the 2nd ones done if my moms in the right mood Get motion sickness: yes and i dont like it Think you're a health freak: i can be Get along with your parents: eh i guess so, not when it comes to school [WHEN YOU SEE THIS NAME YOU THINK OF?] Ryan: i love that name sooo much, i think of my cousin Rob: this guy that i knew in middle school Drew: this jerk that lives down my street and this guy i dont like Heather: this really weird girl i knew a few years ago and then she moved to NY Will: hartless Shannon: me, and a little black boy Paul: Frank, which is one of my favorite designers :) Eve: two things one being the singer and the other i would rather not say John: smith, and jonathan Lauren:spencer :) Alex: bussa, ick ick ick i cant stand him and he needs to take a shower badly Ricky: some little baseball player guy and that dude from i love luck..cept that might not have been his name? Erin: my cheering coach [FAVORITE] NUMBER: 4, 14 COLOR: purple DAY: thursday MONTH: hmm..october? SONG: way too many FOOD: velveta, easy mac, clam chowder, ice cream, bacon SPORT: i like to watch football DRINK: shirley temples, and cranberry juice VEGGIE: cucumbers, tomatos FRUIT: i like every fruit FAST FOOD: mcdonalds fruit and yogurt parfaits and cherry pies [IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU] CRIED? yes HELPED SOMEONE? yes BOUGHT SOMETHING? yes, well my dad did for me GOTTEN SICK? not really, just really too full GONE TO THE MOVIES? no GONE OUT FOR DINNER? yes SAID "I LOVE YOU"? no WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? no TALKED TO AN EX? no MISSED AN EX? no WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? this one TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU CRUSH ON? ... MISSED SOMEONE? yes HUGGED SOMEONE? yes, my brother cos i love him FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? yes FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? yes [WOULD YOU EVER] 1. Eat a bug? maybe 2. Bungee jump? yesss!! 3. Hang glide? yes 4. Kill someone? no, i dont even like to kill gnats 5. Have sex with someone you don't love? i dont think so 6. Kiss someone of the same sex? no 7. Parachute from a plane? im not sure, maybe 8. Walk on hot coals? hmmm i guess 9. Go out with someone for their looks? no 10. For their reputation? no 11. Be a vegetarian? no 12. Wear plaid with stripes? nope 13. IM a stranger? yes 14. Sing karaoke? noo 15. Get drunk? not now 16. Shoplift? oh geeze no 17. Run a red light? maybeee 18. Dye your hair blue? no way 19. Be on Survivor? no 20. Wear makeup in public? yes 21. NOT wear makeup in public? if i didnt need it, but no 22. Make someone cry? i hope not 23. Kick a baby? hahhahaha i think thats so funny, no 24. Date someone more than ten years older than you? maybe, if i loved them enough 25. Stay up all through the night? yes i like doing that it makes you hyper ok so that was a nice way to fill up and entry since i have nothing to say anyway adam ill give you what you want right now im sad cos you had to go cos you are doing something really cute in the morning of which i hope you enjoy and i think that if i dont see you soon you might dissapear and i dont want that and um you dont win i hope your happy :) so bye friends oh yes and for those who are slow i have made a new screen name paintmeeprettty yes so add it to your buddy list or die i got sun and im happy cos i was about to turn into a ghost :O so long, shannon 11 didnt bother to write| bye bye beautiful

ill be the night in your sky [16 Jun 2004|10:54am] [ mood | excited ] [ music | Rilo Kiley - The Good that Wont come out of Us ] as of 9:15 when the bell rang i am a free girl theres was nothing at all holding me back or dragging me down i ran out and didnt stop to look back theres not a thing in the world that would make me do all of this again because i couldnt there almost is never a time when i dont miss something but im not going to miss this there is nothing to miss if there is one thing i learned from this year and all of this its that when i dont always see the bright side of things i have people that will do it for me thanks for opening my eyes being one step ahead of me and loving me and making each second a moment to grow on i am thankful for all of those who taught me something or showed me the way when i was lost or stood beside me when i was alone all i can say is i just hope that i was in the picture puting a smile on at least one face and not everything is fine for everyone but for now some of the weight will be taken away and making it through the week wont be such a struggle anymore and dont you agree? :) heres to not knowing what day it is anymore, from now on heres to a summer that will meet expectations and heal society with its lack of responsibility and warmth on your face and lets not forget each second were just sitting around how much we all deserve it and how much weve gained hey guess what.. we all won :) <3 :) shannon 4 didnt bother to write| bye bye beautiful

so what, june 2 was a while ago [12 Jun 2004|12:11am] [ mood | drained ] [ music | Rilo Kiley ] tough week but i have absolutly no right to complain at all adam david kauder i know you would like to see your name in here, so here i go there are some people that just baffle me and you are one of them its amazing to me how i have never, and never will, meet someone quite like you no one has a bigger heart than you even though you get your way far too often ;) its still amazes me how even in times when you should be thinking of no one but yourself your thinking of everyone else your acceptance for everyone else is truly admired and theres no doubt that when im having the slightest problem you can fix it better than anyone ever will or could effortlessly wonderful? yes. you and i both know that your always right even though i cant stand it, you prove it everyday but you know what tops it all i bet you already knew every line of this. and believe it. and know exactly what i was thinking when i pressed each key even if i act like i cant stand it. i can i appreciate every bit of it cos we all need a little adam in our lives to read our minds and make it all better to stand up when everyone else sits down to know why people sneeze when they do and what hemoglobin is :) i dont know if you know it but you leave a lasting impression on everyone you meet and theres no way mines going away everything you have ever said means something to me i think youre brilliant youre going down in the books and if i had the world i would give it to you only because i think that you are worth it now dont i get something for this? a hug? a cookie? perhaps money? eh or you could just be my best friend for a really long time untill you get so sick of me that you cant stand to see my face anymore. deal? i take everything in now as if it was run through a washing machine and then entered my brain nothing is really the same and it will never be but is that really a bad thing? once the veil is pulled away seeing things with clean eyes is very worth it and i have everything to be thankful for and im doing my best not to leave you with a bad taste in your mouth paint me back into the picture, shannon 4 didnt bother to write| bye bye beautiful

girl [02 Jun 2004|02:55pm] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | the used ] i really think everything lately has just slipped right out of my hands its raining when its not and i see a million things that arent there but there scratching at my face i havent been in a really good mood in a long time i am pissed off every second im awake and as im falling asleep and im aware of its place all the time but it doesnt seem to be just quite there "youre never gonna find it, if your looking for it" and its better when you dont if green is all i see then all you see is blue and if i cant see at all youre staring were all screaming screaming to the chorus of a song we dont know and a line we never wrote so dont call yourself a musician when you cant feel life yourself i dont know who was up there for me or when but they forgot to bring me something home the frequently drawn picture of catching fireflys isnt very fun when your the only one in it and when someone walks out you wish theyd go back in the colors are bleeding and running away from the canvas and the puddle on the floor spells love but is still scorned upon this place is almost gone but it will never be gone its sticking like peanut butter to the roof of your mouth and nothings gonna make it come off over and out _shannon 9 didnt bother to write| bye bye beautiful

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