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Why does it feel like I'm losing everything I love? Anthony, Jacob, Aaron...and now my dog? The only one I could sit with walk away feeling like I just had the best conversation without saying a word. The only one who never judged me and never talked; just listened. For those that don't know, Tyson was not only my dog but he was my best friend. He was always there when I was feeling shitty or down. I could just cuddle up with him and all my problems seemed to drift away and we were in our own world. Just me and him. He was my toe warmer in the winter and, well the summertime too. When I left this morning he was sleeping in my room on my floor. When my brother came home that's where he was only he wasn't breathing. My dad and I were going to take him to the vet today when I got out of work. He didn't even make it that long. I'm sorry we didn't do anything sooner bubba. :[ My dad and my brother took him away. I don't know where they took him, and I didn't ask. I don't want to know. I was looking through some old pictures and I found a ton of him when he was a puppy and I started ballin'. I don't even know what was wrong with him. One day he started acting funny and everything just happened so fast. He was so young. The only thing I have left are those photos and his "mama". His "mama" is this stuffed animal that is supposed to be a monkey but it looks kind of retarded. He'd had it since we got him and he carried it around all the time and even slept with it. My neighbor saw me walkin' up my driveway and he was like "Damn girly what's wrong with you? - you look like you just lost your best friend." Well...i did. When you start losing all the things you love, is it a sign??
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Today had to have been the best day of my entire life. I finally found someone who will be a true friend to me, her name is Jessica and she is really cool! She is my new role model I wish i was like her. I have met almost everyone of her friends that she had with her when i met her at the park. I hope she considers me as her friend because she is like the coolest person i have ever met. She is who she is and she doesnt pretend to be anyone that she isnt. Everyone likes her and it is so cool that i know her....thank you god for actually answering one of my prayers. The only problem is, when i met her she was all sad and i asked her what is wrong and she said who the hell are you.....and then she looked up and i said ...im jasmine. so she answered back and said oh well im just thinking about my boyfriend. Then i said oh what about him? then she told me about him...and what he was like and what she was worrying about. I really hope that me and her hang out more often. She seems really cool, i also met alot of her relatives when i walked her home. So now that i actually have a true friend im not taht depressed anymore...I think she will be my new best friend, she seems like one of those truthful honest people that i look up to '.'.'.....Jessica is my new best friend.....'.'.'
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