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Did i catch your attention? Yes, No, Maybe? Awww well....
Yep that is right itts a gloomy Thursday morning. Blah of course i have to work tonight 5-9:30 actually more like 10 cuz that is what time i will get to leave...not to shabby i guess...its gay..idk...heres my schedule jus so u know...plan around me...haha
Thursday- 5-9:30
Friday- 4-9:30
Saturday-11-8
Sunday-11-7
Tuesday-5-9:30
Yeah i work a lot of doubles...oh well need money gives me money i love money...Oh well...w/e...
Now im sitting here being completely bored...i cannot talk to Tori cuz yea shes not allowed to be on her phone which is gay i might add....HMM Amber called me and woke me up...SHE SHOULD BE IN SCHOOL...yea ....haha...shes like get up...im like aww ok...
Well Michele and I are planning a trip the 29th of this month...we're goin to go to some haunted trails ya know then go to Ambers house...should be great fun...haha we will get to Ambers about 3 a.m...I guess i will drive since i know the way we jus gotta use her car...This is the plan...hopefully things don't fall through cuz that would be bad and i would cry yes....
Well K00l A!d K!dz ima hit the road...Have a good one...
Crystal
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| Oh i am the worst |
[20 Oct 2004|12:25am] |
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What can i say i am a very jealous person...YES I DO HATE IT...ugh i try not to be but i am...i cannot help it its one of those things...grr i hate myself tonight i really do.
Oh yes i am so in love wit Amber, but i hate the thought of this chick that she talks to cuz i don't trust the girl...I think she is jus one of those ppl that think since they r not happy then no on can be.
Yes that is right im immature yes blah i know...I just love Amber so much i cannot lose her i would be so depressed i would die seriously...i would jus become one of thses bums that lives on the street cuz i have no reason for anyone or anything else...I do what i do for Amber and Amber only.
Yeah so i feel like super bad right now because i have only said one negative thing about Amber and it was tonight...it wasn't even that bad but it jus feels like i ripped my own heart out wit a dull butterknife...yes that is right dull butterknife....All i called her was a dumbass but u know...i really didn't mean it cuz shes not a dumbass...i was jus mad...she is so smart and beautiful and i jus love her so much....
GOD i have it so bad for this girl it is ridiculous....sometimes i wish i wasn't but i think if i wasn't i would be worse off then i am now...i jus wish i was wit her all the time but i cannot be...i think 2morrow i am goin to write her a letter..i've not decided yet its to late for me to understand..haha...i have off work 2morrow but i work thursday...yea so i am goin to end this entry now...bye all
Crystal
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| Oh just some songs |
[19 Oct 2004|01:41pm] |
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If You Leave
Good Charlotte
If you leave
don't leave now
please don't take my heart away
promise me just one more night
then we'll go our seperate ways
we always had time on our side
now its fading fast
every second every moment
we've gotta make it last
i touch u once
i touch u twice
i won't let go at any price
i need u now like i need u then
u always said we'd still be friends some day
if u leave
i won't cry
i won't waste a single day
but if u leave no don't look back
i'll be runnin the other way
7 years went under the bridge
time was standing still heaven knows what happens now
u gotta u gotta say u will
i touch u once
i touch u twice
i won't let go at any price
i need u now like i need u then
u always said we'd still be friends
i touch u once
i touch u twice
i won't let go at any price
i need u now like i need u then
u always said we'd still be friends someday, someday
oh if u leave
oh if u leave
if u leave....
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I'm already loving you to much
Kevin Sharp
When it comes to love
i've had my doubts
but when u walked in my heart checked out
and like a school boy crush
i knew it when we touched
i already loving you to much
mind and body
heart and soul
u came in and took control
and oh what a rush
this is powerful stuff
im already loving you to much
I'm already falling to fast
its to late for me to turn back
i can't stop
this love that we've started
im already falling to fast
its to late for me to turn back
i can't stop
this love that we've started
who knows where i'll go from here
im to far gone to see it clear
so my heart i'll have to trust
and hope that its enuff
cuz im already loving you
theres nothing left for me to do
i'm already loving you to much
im already loving you to much....
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In this diary
Here in this diary
i write u visions of my summer
it was the best i ever had
there were chorus'
and sing a longs
and lot of spoken
and i know that now that is all that matters
all the nights we stayed up talkin
listening to 80s songs
and quoting lines from all those movies
it still brings a smile to my face
i guess when it comes down to it
being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up
these r the best days of our lives
the only thing that matters
is following ur heart
and eventually u'll finally get it right
breaking into hotel swimming pools and reaking havoc on our world
hanging out at truck stops just to past the time
the blacktops singing me to sleep
lighting these fireworks in parking lots
illuminate the blackest nights
cherry cokes under this moonlight summer sky
2015 river side its time to say goodbye
get on the bus
its time to go
being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up
these r the best days of our lives
the only thing that matters
is following ur heart
and eventually u'll finally get it right
Get it right
get it right
being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up
these r the best days of our lives
the only thing that matters
is following ur heart
and eventually u'll finally get it right
being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up
these r the best days of our lives
the only thing that matters
is following ur heart
and eventually u'll finally get it right
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Its your love
Tim Mcgraw & Faith Hill
Dancing in the dark
middle of the night
takin ur heart
and holding it tight
emotional touch
touching my skin
asking u to do
what u've been doing all over again
oh its a beautiful thing
don't think i can keep it all
i jus gotta let u know
what won't let me go
its ur love
it jus does something to me
sends a shock right through me
i can't get enuff
and if u wonder
about the spell im under
oohhh its your love
better then i was
more then i am
and all of this happened by takin ur hand
and who i am now
is who i wanted to be
and now that we're togther im stronger then ever
im happy and free
oh its a beautiful thing i don't think i can keep it all in
and if u ask me y i changed all i have to do is say ur sweet name
its your love
it jus does something to me
sends a shock right though me
i can't get enuff
and if u wonder
about the spell im under
oohh its your love
oh its a beautiful thing don't think i can keep it all in
i jus gotta let u know what it is that won't let me go
its ur love
it jus does something to me sends a shock right through me
i can't get enuff and if u wonder
about the spell im under
ohh its your love
its your love
its your love
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Hurt so good
John Couger Mellencamp
when i was a young boi
said put away those young boi ways
now that im getting older so much older
i long for those young boi days
wit a girl like u
wit a girl like u
lord knows theres things we could do
just me and u
come on and make it hurt so good
come on baby make it hurt so good
soemtimes love don't feel like it should
baby hurt so good
don't have to be so excited
jus tryin to give myself a lil bit of fun yea
u aint as green as u r young
hey baby its u
come on girl now its u
sink ur teeth right though my bones
lets see what we can do
come on and make it hurt so good
come on baby make it hurt so good
sometimes love don't feel like it should make it hurt so good
i ain't talkin no big deals
i ain't makin no plans myself
i ain't talkin no high heels wit ur legs walkin around all day long
hurt so good
come on baby make it hurt so good
sometimes love don't feel like it should
make it hurt so good
hurt so good come on baby make it hurt so good
sometimes love don't feel like it should
make it hurt so good
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Tube Stake Boogie
ZZ Top
I've gotta gal she lives cross town
shes the one that really gets down when she boogies
she does the tube stake boogie
well boogie lil baby
boogie woogie all night long
i gotta gal she lives on the block shes kinda funky wit the pink and black socks
she likes to boogie
she do the tube stake boogie
now boogie little baby boogie woogie all night long
I gotta gal she lives on the hill SHE WON'T DO IT BUT HER SISTER WILL will when she boogie
she do the tube stake boogie
well now boogie little baby boogie woogie all night long
blow ur top blow ur top....
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End of songs....yea i jus listened to all of those so what of it...blah....
Crystal
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| If Tomorrow Never Comes |
[19 Oct 2004|08:53am] |
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If tomorrow Never comes-Garth Brooks |
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If Tomorrow Never Comes
Garth Brooks
Sometimes late at night
i lie awake and watch her sleeping
Shes lost in peaceful dreams
so i turn out the light
and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If i never wake up in the morning
would she ever doubt the way i feel about her in my heart
If tomorrow never comes
will she know how much i loved her
did i try in everyway
to show her everyday
that shes my only one
and if my time on earth were through
she must face this world w/out me
is the love i gave her in the past
going to be enuff to last
if tomorrow never comes
cuz i've lost loved onces in my life
who never knew how much i loved them
now i live with the regret
that my true feelings for them were revealed
so i made a promise to myself
say each day how much she means to me
and avoid that circumstance where theres no second chance
cuz if tomorrow never comes
will she know how much i loved her
did i try in every way
to show her everyday that shes my only one
and if my time on earth were through
and she must face this world w/out me
is the love i gave her in the past
going to be enuff to last
if tomorrow never comes
so tell that someone that u love
just want ur thinking of
if tomorrow never comes
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YES There is a reason for this song...I do love that girl (Amber) if u didn't know DUH U STUPID COW!! no offense to anyone if someone finds that offensive...haha but yes i love her and i jus would like to be able to let my true feelings show to her...and be able to say what i want and how i feel at every second or min i feel it but im afraid she won't return the feeling so i jus keep quiet... :( maybe i shouldn't do it and jus go for it but i cannot im to afraid for that yes...what can i say im like the biggest baby in the world...i act tough, but HELL NO im not ima baby...haha...
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| Will it ever stop? |
[19 Oct 2004|08:46am] |
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Well Krista is getting more and more desperate everyday...I don't understand y she is being so stupid. She thinks everything i tell her is a lie, or i just act like i hate her...Well let me tell u right now...ITS NOT!! I really do despise that girl, cuz she is so dumb. I don't know y she just can't leave me alone when i say i am happy...yes that means i am happy. I am very happy right now...I have everything i want...A fantastic girlfriend and a wonderful bestfriend...that is all i need in this world. :)
I talked to Amber lastnight for a while u know of course...till she had to get off the phone...haha..then i called Tori and kinda fell asleep on her..but was awake talkin idk...im nuts like that...
But ne wayz I wanna go see Amber right now I miss holding her...And i love to kiss her....EVEN THO SHE HOLDS BACK WHEN SHE KISSES ME!!! Yeah that upsets me a lil but i don't want her to do it so hopefully she will get outta that soon. I love jus lookin at her when she talks and stuff or jus lookin at her in general. I think she is so beautiful...(yes cuz she is) but yea...when she talks she does this funny thing wit her mouth but its ok cuz i love it cuz she does it and its hers. She has beautiful eyes...but sometimes when she does this lil thing like all the time i think shes gonna yell at me cuz she jus makes her eyes really big like i did something wrong and im like ahh...but nah...haha. Well i jus felt like talkin about Amber for a while...Now im gonna go back to sleep cuz im still a lil tired and cold...i was jus thinkin about her like i always do 24/7.
But yea UNTIL WE TYPE AGAIN!!!
Crystal
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