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[scribbled at 3:27pm on 6.4.04 ] |
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ohmygod. today was good. but then got weird. well - everything was fine until lunch. then everyone started acting weird. even me. i got super bitchy for some reason and i didnt talk to anyone but Mark and heidi. then i went to science blah blah blah then Spanish yada yada then more classes. the day finally ended and i was walking out to the car with Megan M. and Alysse and i just remember Megg asked me for a ride home so i went back to get her and she goes. "oh its okay im gonna go over to veronicas" .okay. and Alysse and Megan M. looked at me like they had a heart attack cuz Alysse and Megan M and Chad were all going to Veronicas and i guess they didnt want Megg to go. and of course i cant do anything with them cuz i have to go to my moms house this weekend. ohjoy. ughhhh. oh i left out a huge part of my afternoon. i saw Mark on the way out of Spanish and he stopped me and said. hey so do u still wanna go to the mall saturday? and i said yah sure. so he holds my hand <3 and writes his number down on it :) i love him so much. and i actually told him to his face at lunch and he said said i love u too. then hugged me (but i think he might have been joking. i dunno) so now im sitting here. alone. until Crystal gets her butt over here cuz im sure as hell not gonna sit at home tonight. the beach sounds good. or maybe movies. or i dont know. but me and megan are gonna get together tomorrow cuz she has to go to her cousins graduation. i'm eating a granola bar. haha. its strawberry. weird.
I adore you Mark Ross. (not that he'll ever read this)
i'm gonna get ready. pienso que estoy en amor - i think i'm in love. (learned that in spanish class)
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[scribbled at 4:05pm on 6.3.04 ] |
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Have you ever...
{x} Fallen for your best friend? yes
{x} Made out with JUST a friend? yes
{x} Been rejected? no. i dont think.
{x} Been in love? i have to admit
{x} Been in lust? a couple times
{x} Used someone? im not that mean
{x} Been used? i'm not sure. no.
{x} Done something you regret? yeah happens everyday
Who was the last person...
{x} You touched? my dog
{x} You talked to? my dad
{x} You hugged? Mark.
{x} You instant messaged? alysse
{x} You kissed? jeremy
{x} You yelled at? jake
{x} You laughed with? tiffany
Currents
{x} Current Clothes: boxers and a bra
{x} Current Mood: blah..tired..hot
{x} Current Hair: down
{x} Current Annoyance: my computer
{x} Current Smell: vanilla?
{x} Current thing you ought to be doing: homework
{x} Current Desktop Picture: a hot playing the guitar
{x} Current Book: ?
{x} Current CD In Player: Fall out boy
{x} Current Refreshment: sprite
{x} Current Worry: hmmmm..
{x} Current Crush: Mark
{x} Current Favorite Celebrity: this guy. i forget his name. Jake something.
Favorite...
{x} Drink: Sprite
{x} Color: red
{x} Shoes: adios or flip flops
{x} Candy: chewy stuff
{x} TV Show: no idea
{x} Movie: lots
{x} Vegetable: potatoes?
{x} Fruit: not sure
On Dating....
{x} Long or short hair? long hair turns me on
{x} Dark or blond hair? dark or brown
{x} Tall or short? not too short
{x} Mr. Sensitive or Mr. Funny? both. but funny is good
{x} Good girl or bad girl? um.
{x} Dark or light eyes? dont care what shade
{x} Hat or no hat? depends
{x} Pierced or no? peirced :)
{x} Freckles or none? depends
{x} Stubble or neatly shaved? shaved
{x} Rugged outdoorsy type or sporty type? uhhh. sporty.
What's your favorite:.
{x} Number? 13 or 27
{x} Holiday? depends
{x} Radio station? 106.7
{x} Place? anywhere
{x} Flower? roses
{x} Scent? Tangerine with Vanilla or Island Kiss
{x} If you could be anywhere, where would you be? with him or with my friends
{x} What are you listening to? taking back sunday
{x} Can you do anything freakish with your body? ehh..no
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[scribbled at 3:38pm on 6.3.04 ] |
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well today was.. hott, i'm in a weird mood - a little bit of everything. blah blah. i like mark. alot. alot. alot. i absolutely adore him. mMmhmm and his sexy tight pants, messed up hair, and he looks killer in those sunglasses. i just dont know if i should tell him how i feel. its risky. but whats there to lose? a friendship. hmm. he asked me if i wanted to go to the Mall this weekend. hmmm. obviously megans coming to since he's bringing Evan. ohmygod. i have plenty of homework. i wrote a poem in math today. i'm actually proud of it. oh boy. i'm craving ice cream. i didnt eat lunch today. megan didnt come to school today cause she went to her cousins graduation. i'm waiting for my phone to ring. she's going to call me. eventually. chris wore a blink shirt today. it made him look hmmm, how should i put this, fucking hot? chris. mark. chris. mark. ohmygod! alysse just signed on. i had Saturday school. but i got out of it. long story. anyways. i'm gonna go try to get ahold of Megg. now my room smells like vanilla.
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[scribbled at 3:36pm on 6.2.04 ] |
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just got home. so sleepy. i stayed up late last night reading this book for english. today was hott. i'm so fucking tired and kinda grumpy. on the way to first period he came up to me and hugged me. out of the blue. weird. i'm eating nachos. ohmygod im sooo bored. megans coming over. yay. i miss the overwhelming feeling of love. i really do. homework to do.
it's only us that we've been kidding
just another stupid drama
that no one notices but you
and you only take an interest when
there's nothing else to do
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[scribbled at 4:08pm on 6.1.04 ] |
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today was. eh hem - good i guess. i have to finish reading this book for english by tomorrow. only a few days left of school. i have a hugee crush on Chris and i wish i could hang out with him more and he even knows i adore him. anyways. there's been so much drama lately and its finally beggining to die down. my room smells like strawberries for some reason. creepy. I have an 'A' in science. the rest of my grades are 'B's and a 'C' in History. not too bad i guess. uh oh. my dad's calling. i guess we're going somewhere.
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| this is where i tell you how much i hate you; but you and i both know i was never good at lieing |
[scribbled at 7:05pm on 5.31.04 ] |
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wow. i feel. well - i feel like i'm dead. its weird. i cried my eyes out and now i have no feelings left. its just Blahh. "You and me. You know that we were always funny in a car crash sort of way." i need something to make everything right again. anything. i'm sitting hear in my bra and cory's boxers (which are really comfy) im half way thru a tub of cookie dough ice cream. wow. that cant be good. whatever. a few calories wont hurt me. i dont feel like talking to anyone on AIM. nobody worth spilling my guts to is on. its fuckin hott as fuck in this room.
Never heard of it is having a concert at our local highschool on June 3rd. i love NHOI! <3
I dare you to forget those marks you left across my neck
from those nights when we were both found at our best
I could make this obvious, and you. you could deny me
..all in one breath
sometimes i have so much on my mind i cant handle it and i wanna roll up into a little ball and hide in the back of my closet - forever. yet forever is such an umpleasent word.
you know what sounds really good right now? a strawberry margarita.
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[scribbled at 1:09pm on 5.31.04 ] |
my friend just emailed me this.
A - Act your age? - sometimes. no wait. not really.
B - Born on what day of the week? Monday
C - Chore you hate? - cleaning
D - Dad's name? - Eddie
E - Essential makeup item? - eyeliner ;; mascara ;; and eyeshadow. oh and lipgloss
F - Favorite actor? - Jake Richardson <3 i would do him anyday
G - Gold or silver? - Silver
H - Hometown? - mission viejo
I - Instruments you play? - uhhh. drums. i used to play the piano and saxaphone and violin. haha
J - Job title? - student
K - Kids? - lol
L - Living arrangements? - with the parents. but theyre divorced.
M - Mom's name? - Lisa
N - Name what you've eaten so far today: - blueberry muffin. 2 sodas. a mint. and a slice of pizza
O - Overnight hospital stays? - none as far as i can remember
P - Prozac or Paxil? - uhhhhhhhh?
Q - Quote you like? - "your eyes were covered in sunglasses when they first met mine"
R - Religious affiliation? - Catholic
S - Siblings? - John. + step brother cory
T - Time you wake up? - school days 5:30 ;; weekends 10
U - Unique habit? - im always tapping my feet
V - Vegetable you refuse to eat? - all of then .. unless its a salad
W - Worst habit? - im always tapping my feet?
X - X-rays you've had? - well. when i went to the dentist.
Y - Yummy food you make? - cookies :)
Z - Zodiac Sign? - Saggitarius
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[scribbled at 12:51pm on 5.31.04 ] |
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i just got home from the mountains with megg and alysse. it was wayy fun. but it feels good to be home. i need to unpack and finish up my homework.
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No, you've got wits, you've got looks, you've got passion;
but I swear that you've got me all wrong.
i'm bored. doing homework. and listening to megan and mike have phone sex. special. today was i dunno - today was wednesday. i was happy then grumpy then tired then happy today. all my preiods sucked. well except 5th period. French is always fun :) i have the greatest kids in that class. and 2nd period was okay. but the rest sucked. alysse and megan had fun skirting me all lunch. and mark kept throwing a quarter down my shirt. he's so funny. and Reid and Ryne were messing with my head and ignored me all day just to see my reaction. it drove me crazy cuz Reid is my only source of entertainment in Science. it was cloudy today and cold and windy.
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[scribbled at 6:04pm on 5.26.04 ] |
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i've decided to make one of these journals. im likeing it so far. :) i'll update later cause megans here.
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