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funn [10 Aug 2004|12:09pm]
[ mood | confused ]
[ music | EVER SOO SWEET --- the early november ]

life in a box of chocolates

hahahaha

dana and me are some cool poeple man --

dont drink your hater-aid duder --


WHO ATE THEIR GANGSTER COOKIES TODAY?????

-- not me --


okay --
anyways, life is so so right now..
parents -- sucks as uasual
--- not ever gonna get any better :-/
--- my mom knows like eveything about my life -- AHHHHHHHHHHHHHZY

friends -- pretty much sucks, then theres lots of positives..
--- church -- umm extreamly confusiing..
-- dont wanna be BESTFRIENDS with libby any more..
-- lol i wanna break up with her
-- if thats possible.. lol
--- out of church friends
-- awesomely radififc
-- new house is awesome, and so is my neighborhood
-- love haqnging out with my dana!!!!
-- the newest of friends i have is going okay..
-- i soo glad i met chris, donnie, and eric
-- other friends.. well i have no other friends lol
-- DUDE i found out that i ca really trust and rely on my friend Matt from friday school, hes soo awesome, he looking out for me and all.. im just really in awe.. its cool to know someone has your back.. even tho his friendship could be in danger if something is found out.. love yeh matt!!


Guys/relationships -- couldnt be worse..
-- jake likes me and thinks he can "get some" from me and was planning too.. DUDE im deffanlty dont liek him.. never will.. i think i have at once.. but that was beofre i REALLY met him.. lol.. yehh
-- sucks even more that the guy im deepy inlike with dosent like me like that.. sucks soo bad.. OH and its Jakes friend.. yeh chris.. i dont know if he likes me.. i try to show it but i dont want to appear desprate.. haha as my friends say.. i am.. he has all around quilites of the guy i dream of.. hes older than me, nbot shorter, not perv, likes emos music, is fit.. other stuff too..


yeh well i gota goo.. danas mom wants me off..

always,

<33 *\\ laur baby

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I think this is my last entre' [30 Jul 2004|10:25am]
[ music | The early November -- something that produces results ]

hey --

Well sOoOoO much has happened from
when i last wrote in here. Heres a little:


Parental:

moms away for a few days -- thank GOD!
dads home all alone -- poor guy
im still grounded from my laptop (at my house) -- grrrrrrrr


Friends catigory:
I dont wanna be friends with Libby
and im confused about rachel
Lexi is my new bestfriend
shes sooo awesome we have hung out a few times0



finsh later

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Think about this.. [19 Jun 2004|07:45pm]
[ mood | content ]
[ music | Family Channel - Boy meets world ]

One night a woman had a dream, and in her dreamed she reviewed the footsteps she had taken in her life. She looked and noticed that all over the mountains and difficult places that she had traveled there was one set of footprints; but over the plains and down the hills, there were two sets of footprints, as if someone had walked by her side.

She turned to Christ and said,"There is something I don't understand. Why is it that down the hills and over the smooth and easy places you have walked by my side; but, here over the tough and difficult places I have walked alone, for I see in those areas there is just one set of footprints."

Christ turned to the woman and said,"It is that while you life was easy I walked along your side; but here, where the walking was had and the paths were difficult, was the time you needed Me most, and that is why I carried you. --"



Christ is amazing. He has been there for me when i was at my darkest hour and my lonelist one. I have deticated my life to you, i try to live for youa always. God i love you soo much. I dont deserve your love. But yet you always send it down on me.


-- lauren marie

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Danas house being bored ----- [05 Jun 2004|07:50pm]
[ mood | creative ]
[ music | things that are scary!! ]

Wowzers i like poeple who have "emo" and "taking back sunday" in the intrest(es) Icons. They all really nice.

well im off.



wwwwwwwwwwwwoooooooooooooosssssssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhh



always - lauRen - maRie

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Danas house being bored --- [05 Jun 2004|07:48pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]
[ music | noises from danas family -- currantly brandon!!! ]

EnJoY -- copy if you want!!


...
Last Person Who...
.x. Slept in your bed - myself
.x. Saw you cry - Libby/Rachel/Chavs/Lisa
.x. Made you cry - Dana and Tony --- youth pastors
.x. Spent the night at your house - Rachel
.x. You shared a drink with - Rachel -- then i dumped it on her lol
.x. You went to the movies with - hmm don't remember
.x. You went to the mall with - Sam
.x. Yelled at you - Mom
.x. Sent you an e-mail - Taking back sunday thingy


(like 10 days later)


Have Your Ever...
.x. Said "I love you" - yes to my close friends and rents
.x. Been to New York? - Yes, 4 times
.x. Been to Florida? - Yes, 5 times
.x. California? -yes 4 times
.x. hawaii? - no
.x. Japan? - no
.x. China? - no
.x. Canada? - yah -- i think we did it by axident though lol
.x. Danced naked - hmm :-X
.x. Dreamed something? yah always day dreaming -- about people

Pick One...
.x. Apples or bananas? Apples
.x. Red or blue? blue
.x. Walmart or Kmart? walmart lol
.x. Math or English? Math
.x. radio or CD? CD(s)
.x. drawing or painting? drawing
.x. High school or college? High school

The Last...
.x. Last time you went out of the state - spring break
.x. Lucky number - 4 - 10 - - 983508275904387560 <-- that ones my luckest!
.x. Things you like in a girl/guy - Funny -- dark hair/eyes, kinda Smart, athletic, decent musles, nice, understanding, knows how to treat a girl
.x. Weirdest thing about you? everything haha lol jp
.x. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? No -- but i kinda looking -- well hoping tha one would walk into my newlife in Berlin
.x. What do you think of quija board? Retarted and scary -- dont mess with the evil sprits and demons. Theyre not cool.
.x. What book are you reading now? The internet
.x. What's on your mouse pad? Wood...?
.x. Favorite board game? tripoly -- haha lisa always beasted libby and me at it. Libby dosent even try cuz we force her to play
.x. Favorite magazine? Teen Vouge
.x. Favorite sound? Emo music singing
.x. Worst feeling in the world? Depressed
.x. What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning? going back to bed lol
.x. Do you like scary or exciting roller coasters? yes!!
.x. How many rings before you answer? depends
.x. Future daughter's name? Anything but my name and jemma and courtney
.x. Future son's name? Blaze -- cuz its a cool name and hes my bestfriend - Rick -- cuz soo many things rhyme with it lol - Jake -- i always loved this name
.x. Chocolate or vanilla? Vanilla
.x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? I dont sleep with them -- their just memories that sit on my bed
.x. If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be? model phssss
.x. What are you going to do after you finish this survey? talk on puter, er EAT
.x. What was the last food you ate? Fritos chill cheese kind
.x. you bored? FER SURE
.x. Last movie you saw? Harry Potter three - with da-- good movie
.x. Three things you are often complimented for: tallness, whole body, and good at poetry
.x. You get embarrassed when: mmm when poeple say these things ^^^
.x. What upsets you: Shelby (the most) and my other friends haveing troubles that they dont deserve
.x. You keep a diary: Yeh -- who dosent
.x. You like to cook: Yeh -- baking wise
.x. You have a secret you have not shared with anyone: mmmm yeh -- who also dosen't
.x. You set your watch a few minutes ahead: like two -- but thats because i uassally press it to much
.x. You bite your fingernails: NOOOO its nasty
.x. You believe in love: oh yah deffanlty

Who is...?
.x. The sexiest person of the opposite sex: (for ray) Ej -- (for me in my life) this kid that i kno lol (famously) DC Chris Crabba
.x. The weirdest person you know: countney lol love you
.x. The loudest person you know: courtney
.x. Your close friends: Shel - Rach - Lib - Dana - Sher - Jewel
.x. The person that knows the most about you: Blaze and Rachel and Shel
.x. Most boring teacher: MRS FREAKING FLECHTER!!


What is?
.x. Your most overused phrase on IM: thats rad - sweet - gnarly - cool - great - so on...
.x. Last image/thought you go to sleep with: How i want a boyfriend -- someone who will love me
.x. Your best feature: Shoulders - neck bone - eye brows - (faceial things) -
.x. Inside joke: WERE GONNA TRY ON SOME JEANS -- dana lol MILK AND CEREAL AND CEREAL AND MILK! -- sam and dana


Do you?
.x. Take a shower everyday: depends
.x. Have a (any) crush (es): yea -- maybe -- not telling a soul
.x. Think you've been in love: Yah --- young love
.x. Want to get married: O yeh -- deffantly -- and children!!
.x. Have any tattoos/where?: Want one someday
.x. Piercing/where?: 6 on ears and one day on belly button
.x. Get along with you parents: depends ---


FAVORITES...
NUMBER: 4 10 and 983508275904387560
COLOR: Black and hot punk and neon green
DAY: Saturday and friday
MONTH: november
SONG(S): Taking backk sunday -- theres no "i" in team & Dashboard - this bitter pill
FOOD: food -- lol courtney FOOD - where'd you go? - FOOD - What does that mean? -- FOOD -- SHUT THE FUDGE UP -- food!!!
SEASON: fall - autum
DRINK: diet mountian dew

PREFERENCES....
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT?: cuddle
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE?: hot chocolate
MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE?: dark

[IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU]
CRIED?: yes -- when i was talking to shel
HELPED SOMEONE?: Shel -- i love you chick
BOUGHT SOMETHING?: Yah -- movie tickets and popcorn and SNOW CAPS! woo whooo!
GONE TO THE MOVIES?: lol yehhh.. harry potter 3!! awwwwwwwwwwwwwwesome movie
GONE OUT FOR DINNER?: Yah -- kinda we had boaston market at Danas house. While we were eating Ryan and his GF liz were fighting about his hair. AHhh hes insane. Long hai on guys is sexy -- but it needs to be nice/wild looking not JuNgLe like
SAID, "I LOVE YOU"??: yah -- shel -- shel -- many times in our conversation
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER?: Yah -- im my journal
TALKED TO AN EX?: Nope
MISSED AN EX?: Nope
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL?: Yah -- quinkeydink!! it was IN my journal! lol wowozers..
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: mm hmm =-- shel
MISSED SOMEONE?: yah -- shel
HUGGED SOMEONE?: yah -- shel --- well cyberly!! lol it was disturbing! But you got the message!
KISSED SOMEONE?: Nope -- not romanticly
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS?: Yah -- always
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND?: Yah - i think i dont remember





THIS IS MINE!! WOOO WHOOO!!

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-- Ha my conversation with Matt -- [05 Jun 2004|07:21pm]
[ mood | blank ]
[ music | Milk and Cereal -- Cereal and Milk!! ]

convosation with matt:

lxThisbitterPill: you all clean?
snafumathu: yup
lxThisbitterPill: coolness
snafumathu: yeah i guess
snafumathu: so whats up
lxThisbitterPill: doing retarted stuff ona claries sight and this thing..
lxThisbitterPill: http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/milk.php
lxThisbitterPill: listen to it it amusing
snafumathu: ok
snafumathu: are you tring to kill me
lxThisbitterPill: me?
lxThisbitterPill: nawww
lxThisbitterPill: i like it
lxThisbitterPill: its about cereal
snafumathu: i know but its kind of retarted
lxThisbitterPill: oo i love it
snafumathu: your whack
lxThisbitterPill: ha! yeh -- im a loser with only a few friends - i actuly like reading and i love to sing horibly when people are listening (even though i sing descent) and i love stupid retated things and and i dont kno where the heck im going with this
snafumathu: ok
snafumathu: your not aloser though
lxThisbitterPill: oo thanks
lxThisbitterPill: i apreciate that
lxThisbitterPill: you arent one eithers
snafumathu: yeah


i though that was nice -- im not a loseR -- thanks matt -- you help make my day -- that was priceless

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Tonight was interesting --- woo wwee [04 Jun 2004|11:03pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]
[ music | Raffy barking and BrandNew in my head -- good band ]

Thursday --

last day of school!! YAY!! NO MORE MRS FLECHTER!! WOO WHOO!! Life is good!! LIfe is good!!
WEe im soo happpy!! ((hap-pay!) But im not gonna see Sheryl as much. That sucks the most. I love my Sheryl an dim gonna miss her badly! You hear that sheryl!! Badly!! lol well im broed. Wee.

Right now im over Dana's house. IM staying over night and then going to Berlin Day with her and meeting up with her friends. I love some of her friends. Alexis and Jamie i really click with. I have known Jamie since preschool -- i just haven't talked to her that much over the years tehe -- I have lived in winslow my whole life. I attened overbrook preschool. ((With jamie.))----(the place thats now an office - butt holes)) We both went there for two years. Shes really nice and we have a lot in common. Alexis is crazy like me. Hah - when i get in my moods around my POSSE man. Any way ic an't wait till tomorrow. Changing subjects.


I have to get up ealier than i uausally do so i won't get to type that much more. Im also talking to Donnie and this other girl Steph in a chat. Earlier he was telling me about his school trip he went on. A midevil(ish) thing. Quite interesting. Disturbing -- but interesting. Now im sitting her wathcing their conversation, fun life i have right? Anyways im gonna post this then write my poems. Then prolly talk to Donnie some more about tomorrow. And getting to know Steph.

what i just read :
Ben (chavs currant boyfriend): From the brief moments in the hall to the long phone calls to the quick hi's and good bye's to the long movie nights chavonne your all i could ever want.
omygeEz!! Im sooo jelous. Haha i want someone to say that to me. Damn Chavs your soo lucky. Love you girl! And obviously someone eles loves you too. --always a((bRok'n heaRt'd))loser --lauRenmaRie

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Im soo tired and ahh I still have to pee!! lol lib and ray [01 Jun 2004|12:14am]
[ mood | groggy ]
[ music | Rachel, Oreo snoring, the dryer, washer - like a quartet heh ]

--- I know i haven't up dated in a few days -- ooops! -- Here's a little update ---


Wed -- late eveing -- Blaze came to youth group -surprisingly- and sadly so did Jemma. It would not have been the same if she was not there though. The way Blaze - Rachel - and I - made fun of her I was rolling on the floor I swear! Its soooo hailrious. I know you might think that just making fun of someone who you don't 'personly' like is just like "woo who amazing" But that night had to be the best night I had in ages. Now tonight (Awhile ago - I think I liked Blaze. Now i realize that he has become one of my very close friends. My only friend I can actully tell things and kno that he will NOT UNDER ANY CIRCIMSTANCES repeat anything of what I said. I mean I trust that they (meanin-Lisa-Ray-Lib-Court-Sam-Sher-Shel) Would all take a bullet for me, as I would do for them. But I mean there GIRLS -- FO' SHOR' -- hah just playing. All girls have a problem with that kinda stuff. When we are told something about someone we kno, we can't help but to share it with our bestest friends. I have learned to just write my feelings out on paper, but others -- lets just say that they do the total oppisite. No matter how much you trust them -- or how long you have known them. (trust me) Anyways all im saying is sometimes it is good to have guy friends. Now if their are feelings involved, it might get a little tricky. And confusing - frustrating - exsausting - i don't kno but i kno people who do lol. Anyways -- Blaze made youth group soo much fun. It was alot like the recent retreat. ( Im also surprised that me and him are friends again. Cuz of what I did, the chance I took because his life was endangered. Good and bad memories... ) And when I told him that my family and I are moving SuPeR close to him he smiled and looked excited. I can't wait till we move. Im starting over -- finally.

-- Night -- OOOOO and kinda switching topics . . . Jemma -okay- is till unbelievably obessed with Blaze. To the point where is flat out annoying. And disturbing at some points. Anywho - what I wanted to write - She had the nerve to call me a bitch. Behind my back also. I mean I could really careless about what people think about me because I know I have true friends and self confidence so she has shizz on me. Not to mention that shes beyond scary looking. Red - cRiSpY fRiEd AsS hAiR - with - a UNIBROW - and and she has no azz and or chest. Hah noooo i'm not looking at her. It's just hard to notic such a annoying ugly person. AND PEOPLE, im KNOW i'm not ajust because I ("saved" in my words and Blazes) "stole" Blaze from her. JUST BECAUSE I FREAKING SAT NEXT TO HIM. It dosen't even really matter because him and I were laugh/talking (about Jemma) and his oldest brother who helps out with our youth group seperated us. He sent Blaze up to the first row and same with myself but farther down the row. If something we though was funny/amusing we would end up looking at each other and smile/snearing. And when they divided us up into to prayer groups. The first two rows when with Tony (youth pastor) and the third and fouth rows went with Rory. Blaze and I were lucky because Jemma was in the fouth row and we were still in the fourth. As we went our different ways -- I went behide Tony to sit infront of the door. Samantha told me to come over and sit next to her (also next to Blaze). Quink-key-dink. And as we went around offering our prayer requests. Him and I were talking a little throughout the whole thing. Till it came to his turn. He asked for prayer for -- How he was having problems with "someone who was to remain nameless" ( who name begins with a "J" and ends with a "emma" ). And how he needs paients. It was funny though. He was doing that to amuse Myself and Sam because he does have more serious problems then Jemma. It was a great night I will never forget. I cannot wait till next wens.

Thurs - morning - I origianly had a rehersal practicen at WINSLOW HIGHSCHOOL but I had to attend my weekly classes. Algebra and Grammar and Composition I. After that class I have only one more day left. YAY! No more scary homeschooled freaks who talk about cloning and earthly functions for fun. Scary. The only down fall to not going back to Westminster (thursday school) is not seeing Sheryl as much as i'm used to. Twice a week. (Westminster and youth group) Youth group ends on the last week of June. Sucks -- but NO MORE JEMMA!! yay! -- Noonish -- Later on (before the WINSLOW concert) that day I called Lisa's mom to make sure that the Beach Road Trip was still on. When I called her Jamie answered the phone and gave me her work cell phone. I was kinda disapointed at first when she said that her van was in the shop getting new tires and wouldn't be ready till about one o'clock. She also stated that the weather wasn't gonna be all that great anyways and that we will schedual another trip. So she said that after her bible study at the Hurtlers (around my area) was finshed she would come and pick me up and take me to her house where Lisa was. I couldn't wait.
-- Late afternoon -- Then to my surprise - Jazmyne called my house. [ Jazmyne -- the girl I was bestfriends with till about the end of last year. It started when she totally ditched Shelby because of the kind of music Shel was getting into. And she would plead that they had nothing in common anymore. Whatever I would say. I knew they did but Jaz just didn't wanna put fouth the effort to keep their {and soon to come our} relationship tight. Then after that a little while pasted and we didn't talk to each other. Soon or later I would forget that she even went to my school, WINSLOW (where I just go for orchrastra lessons and classes) - ] Since she is in Orchrastra I do see her - ocasinally - and since to tonight is the night of the last concert -- she would be there. -- ANYWAYS -- she called me and we talked for about 10 mins or so. She asked me if I was still going to the concert. - DUH - I was already dressed and was ust about to leave before she called. Im not quite sure wha eles we talked about because I was still in shock. When I arrived there I set my instrument up and went to the cafe. She was there and she said hey Lauren. I said hi in return. She was like your outfits cute ... but not hotter than Jazmynes ya'll! Kind of rude but that's how Jazmyne is now. I miss the old Jazmyne. But whatever Shel (Shelby), Court (Courtney) and I have the memories. That's all what counts. The concert was okay. Court - David - Caroline did radical on their solos. I was kinda jelous but whatever -- violas always get the boring parts I just have to learn to deal. I went home right after we were done playing -- even though the Chours and Band (BAND -- the best part of the night) didn't play yet.
-- Nighttime -- I was at my house for awhile, till about ten o'clock. Then finally Cealy (Lisa's mom) came to my house and picked me up. I was soooo happy she finally came. When I got to Lisa's house she was laying down on her liing room couch watching Bambi. Hah -- she loves Disney movies. She was extreamly tired after her (whole) school trip. From Monday night to thursday day. (..I think..) After we watched Bambi she asked me to put in Pocohuntaus. I was actully sweet seeing those old movies again. I haven't seen them in soooo long.

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ch-ch-ch-check it out [26 May 2004|10:11pm]
[ music | Thursday - war all the time ]

This is a song that One fifty played this at there benefit concert and I cried. Dane and Julie sound amazing. The other were great, but the words were much more than just lyrics to a song to me. Dude it made me cry. The only other two songs that have made me cry are:

Dashboard confessional; this bitter pill
-- why -- The first time I cried to that song -- i was either 'self mutilating -- or thinking about it" and it just stroke a cord in my mind. I listen to the lyrics and it's an amazing song. Not to mention --- cough Julie cough ---Dashboard (Chris Crabba) looked at one of my close friends while she was at his concert in new jersey. Doesn't she feel special. I WANT TO GET LOOKED AT MY CHRIS!! It's not freaking fair. Anyways -- and how he just loves his voice at the end -- amazing -- So much emotion.

::to Julie:: Don't forget to get me a Dashboard Tee at the next concert!! -- i'm soo jealous man lol

Second reason -- why -- The night my cat of 18 years died. I grew up with her. And she even used to sleep beside me when i was little. I still miss her. LOVE YOU GRUMPY! ha I know i'm a loser.

Taking Back Sunday; There's no 'I' in team -- why -- "best friends mean I pulled the trigger, best friends means you get what you deserve" hit me hard after my 'incident' with blaze at the retreat. Yah -- as Julie might say - "That's just not a pleasant sight! You shooting your best friend, that's not really nice.." It goes beyond that fast of speech. Just like in 'Am i missing" by Dashboard Confessional -- He relates a break up to a car crash/boat ship wreck/some kind of freaking crash --



I just wanted to say how much I love this song!

-- Thief --

I am a thief.
I am a murderer.
Walking up this lonely hill,
What have I done?
No I don't remember.
No one knows just how I feel.
And I know that my time is coming soon.

Its been so long,
Oh such a long time,
Since I've lived in peace and rest.
Now I am here at my destination,
I guess things work for the best.
And I know that my time is coming soon.

Who is this man?
This man beside me,
They call the King of the Jews?
They dont believe that he's the Messiah,
But somehow I know that its true.

They laugh at him in mockery,
And beat him till he bleeds,
They nail him to the rugged cross and raise him,
Yeah they raise him up next to me.

My time has come,
I'm slowly fading.
But I deserve what I receive.
Jesus when you are in your kingdom,
Could you please, please remember me?
He looks at me still holding on,
And the tears fall from his eyes,

(something like)
He looked at me and said
Dont worry cuz today you'll be in paridise



im gonna find out the real lyrics soon

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Heres a poem that i wrote... [26 May 2004|05:44pm]
[ mood | content ]
[ music | The early november - they rock! ]

/||-eteRnal-pain-||\


There lives a pretty girl
She lives in a quaint house
She has kind friends
Who kno their manners
They wear their emotions
Like 4th of July banners

Underneth her flesh & bone
Wher they cant be reachd
Her serects are hidden
Lockd inside her taterd heart
There lies a sad child
Who plays the pretty girl part

Inside this being
Ther dewells a lonely child
No person truly understands-shes always smiling & always laughin
To her these are a demand

This pretty girl has problems unknown
They push & pull at her mind
They are runnin wild & rampted
Are are unspoken and untold
Inside shes dying slowly
Outsides shes acting bold

Her family assumes she well rounded
Her frens believe she so well grounded
Noone bothers to ask
How she really feels
only she knos that she cant deal

theres more but i just don't feel like getting my note book right now
tell me what you think
And be honest

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Hmmmm [26 May 2004|09:56am]
I like punk music alot -- i love indie rock -- but i think Emo is better


and i still got this...



postpunk
You're a Post-Punk. You know 70s punk was cool, but
it was mostly just a stepping stone for the
greater intellectualism of what would come
after. The 80s were amazing. You quite possibly
have huge hair, and may wear lots of black.
Snare drums need reverb. Lots and lots of
reverb.


You Know Yer Indie. Let's Sub-Categorize.
brought to you by Quizilla



so what ever it's just some test -- always a
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Life sucks [24 May 2004|03:31pm]
[ mood | angry ]
[ music | The Inferno -- funn ]

Oh my freaking geez -- my mom keeps getting in the way of me meet Jake. Im soo pissed at her. I couldn't get a ride to the atco movies and i had to tell him that. It broke my heart. I was soo unbelievely excited. Then the great news hit me in the head. I was writing portey last night - < nothing special i kinda just do it > - And it was all about him. I hope one day i can meet him. He's soo nice and we have a lot in common. AND i get along with his friends. Their basicly my friends now. Anyways -- im out -- i'll write more laters

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life sucks [20 May 2004|05:07pm]
I HATE MY LIFE! Im so pissed off at Dana and Tony. Phuck them.
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haha it's funny!! [12 May 2004|06:21pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | sam lol ]

Celevivor
:Survivor music, horns: :island chants:
1) Jennifer Lopez 2) Ben Affleck 3) Britney Spears 4) Johnny Depp

Day 35, Team Money
Britney " I can't stand this place my boobs hurt!" :papparazzi takes pictures!:
Jen " Psht wat a trick, that mama gonna have to go and i have to be in the end oo yea ooo yea"
Johnny " Ummm am i still here??" :looks at hand:
:far distant:
Ben " I am almost at the end, i shall win this money and rid of all these evil blacks! them and there pot.. ooo i shall win this, mu hahahahahahahahha!"
:host walks in:
Jen " Wth are u doin her papi, oo i haven't see u in a while, are u gowin to give me a present" :moves butt:
Host " Uhh ok :cough hoe: anyways i am here to tell u there is no reward challenge since there is no need to do one so uhh we are going to have go straight to the Immunity challenge, everyone on the move!"

Immunity Challenge
Host " Today immunity challenge is to go through this obsticale course, first u have to climb this wall, then u have to get this kinfe cut a rope and swing to the other side of a boat, then there u have to climb down a wall, go under a bunch of nets and finally grab a torch and light ur post or w/e it is called. So lets begin!"

The four celebrities go off and they start, ben soon has trouble climbing the wall but Johnny, Jen, and Britney don't, they soon start cutting the rope, Jen the first one to vut her, but she falls half way to the boat and has to start over, Johnny and Brit soon get there way to the other side of the boat, Brit and Jen then soon climg the wall and both of them fall half way to make it faster, they go under the nets but britney soons gets her hair stuck and stays there, johnny then reaches the end and lights his torch.

Host " Immunity winner agian is Johnny! u are part of the top 3 congrats."

Day 36, Team Money
Jen " Grrr that johnny should have gone but now britney must goo that bitch is gone, im the TRU DIVA, u got that papi!"
Ben " yes Jen the blonde shall go, that gringo"
Jen ' Who u callling gringo ur gringo too, so shut up ok papi"
Ben " yes mam.."
:in the ocean:
Brit " Johnny we have to make it a tie, we have to vote for Jen, she is too powerful, we have to tell Ben, but make it a tie! Ok u got it ! Shake on it, but shake on it with ur long sword."
Johnny " Ok then? "
:CENSORED, CENSORED, CENSORED:
Brit " Wow , here comes Ben Lets tell him, Ben were voting of jen today, u got it"
Ben " Do we have to , i already made a deal with her"
Brit " Well brake that deal, we can't have a tie or we have to do the whole rock thingy, u must vote for her or she shall win this game. Deal"
Ben " Deal"

Immunity Challenge
Host " welcome final four, u havemade it this far but one person shall make the diffrence today, ben i Believe thats u, go on a vote who u think shall be voted off."
:brit gives ben a wink:
Host " i shall read the vote, and it seems to be a tie!"
Brit "F*ck"
Jen " HAHA STUPID ASS TRICK CAN'T U REALIZE IM FROM THE BRONX!"
Host " well since its a tie the 3 of u have to pull out of this bag and whoever gets the purple one is voted off."
Host brings out bag.
Host " Ben u go first, this will decide if ur in the top 3"
:ben gets a rock:
Host " congrats its gray, ur in the top 3, ok britney its now ur turn"
:brit take out a rock:
Host " Its purple, Jen ur in the top 3, brit im sry but the Tribe has Spoken, well kind of."
Brit " THAT U HOE! U A H-O-E, HOE I HATE U! TOO BAD I HAVE MORE MONEY ANYWAYS PSHT!"
Host " Well theres 3 of u left, we shall see who is the next to go, go back to the beach."

Votes- Tie
Purple Rock- Britney Spears

Britney " Damn that Jen, too bad im in the jury, u go Johnny i hope u make it in the bottom 3!"

(Speak To Monkey!)


Celevivor, Episode 9
12:17am 10/05/2004
Celevivor
:Survivor music, horns: :island chants:
1) Jennifer Lopez 2) Ben Affleck 3) Britney Spears 4) Micheal Jackson 5) Johnny Depp

Day 33 , Team Money
Jen " OO this is gowing all too good , i am a diva!"
Micheal " Omg My sister gone WA HOOOOOOOOOO WHOOOOOO! I need to win sumthing or my black ass is out of here!"
:far away in a cave:
Ben " I need to vote off that wanna be nigger next, NIGGA I TELL U ! he shall be vote off next I must speak to Jen i must!"
Jen " oo no there comes that wannbe actor omg turn away.... HEY BEN! Que pasa papi, how u dowin!"
Ben " No time to speak, the next immunity challenge we vote off White Chocalate! i must go farwell!"

Reward Challenge
Host " Welcome to the last Reward challenge, today u all have to do a crossword puzzle."
Brit " A wat? wat is that a new type of cilicon!" :wink:
Host " No not a new cilicon like the one of Ocean Drive in Miami Beach called Ci-Ya-CON , were its only 1000 for a breast plant!"
Brit " Oo then wat is it?"
Host " Well its like ahh forget why dont we just do another find 10 diffrent coins!"
Johnny " Found them!"
Host " there we go Johnny won reward for the millionth time, back to the beach."
Johnny " Wats my reward?"
Host " Uhh this new stone i found, its a pet rock!"
Johnny " My new friend, i shall name u Fucker."

Day 34, Team Money
Micheal " I think i might be next britney, these people are just ignorant , ignorant! I think we should vote off johnny he is a big threat to us!"
Britney " i think so too, u kno micheal i haven't gotten a kiss in over 2 days..." :gets closer:
Micheal " Sister i don't go that way!" :grabs a picture of a boy named steven: " This boy is my tru lover!"
Britney "?????"

Immunity Challenge
Host " Welcome back to the Immunity Challenge, now this is important cause this will say the final 4! Now today immunity challenge will involve the same thing as the first episode, all of u have to carry a torch and run around the beach lighting allt he other diffrent torcher representing past players who have been voted off! SO LETS BEGIN!"
All memeber start off, Soon Micheal and Johnny are in the lead, they are two infront of everyone, but Jen soon catches up, They are all tied cept for Ben and Britney who are 3 torches behind, soon Jens torch goes out! She is eliminated, and then Britney and Ben too, so now its only Micheal and Johnny, they are both tied and one more to go, they are both tied and soon they both light the last torch and its a tie!
Host " well theres only one thing to do , a sudden death there shall be a race from one side to the other!"
The two go into a race, and they are still tied, soon johnny falls behind, and micheal seeing that hes about to win break out into the moonwalk, but then he trips and Johnny finishes!.
Host "WINNER OF IMMUNITY IS JOHNNY!"
Johnny " Huh?"

Tribal Council
Host " Well this is very important, Now lets get to the voting and see whose gonna be in the top 4."
:voting in process:
Host " Alright i shall tally the votes, well wat a suprise here, 2 votes for Jen and 3 Votes for Micheal. 12 person voted out of the Island is Micheal Jackson."
Micheal " WOOOOOOO!" :tear: " oh i can't cry my sin falling of omg stop crying."

Votes
1) Jennifer Lopez- Micheal Jackson
2) Ben Affleck- Micheal Jackson
3) Britney Spears- Jennifer Lopez
4) Micheal Jackson- Jennifer Lopez
5) Johnny Depp- Micheal Jackson

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Weee...another on of these things... [12 May 2004|05:30pm]
[ mood | busy ]
[ music | noises!!! ]

...
Last Person Who...
.x. Slept in your bed - myself
.x. Saw you cry - Libby/Rachel/Chavs/Lisa
.x. Made you cry - Dana and Tony ---youth pastors
.x. Spent the night at your house - Rachel
.x. You shared a drink with - Rachel -- then i dumped it on her lol
.x. You went to the movies with - hmm don't remember
.x. You went to the mall with - Sam
.x. Yelled at you - Mom
.x. Sent you an e-mail - Taking back sunday thingy

Have Your Ever...
.x. Said "I love you" - yes to my close friends and rents
.x. Been to New York? - Yes, 4 times
.x. Been to Florida? - Yes, 5 times
.x. California? - no
.x. hawaii? - no
.x. Japan? - no
.x. China? - no
.x. Canada? - yah
.x. Danced naked - hmm :-X
.x. Dreamed something? yah

Pick One...
.x. Apples or bananas? Apples
.x. Red or blue? blue
.x. Walmart or Kmart? walmart lol
.x. Math or English? English
.x. radio or CD? radio
.x. drawing or painting? drawing
.x. High school or college? high school

The Last...
.x. Last time you went out of the state- spring break
.x. Lucky number - 11 er 12
.x. Things you like in a girl/guy - Smart, athledic, musles, nice, funny, smart, understanding, nos how to treat a girl
.x. Weirdest thing about you? everything haha lol
.x. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? yes sury
.x. What do you think of quija board? retarted
.x. What book are you reading now? ha; mmm nothing oh wait; the giver
.x. What's on your mouse pad? Winnie the pooh
.x. Favorite board game? uno
.x. Favorite magazine? cosmo girl
.x. Favorite sound? the sound when you ceth a ball in your mit lol
.x. Worst feeling in the world? bordom; depressed
.x. What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning? going back to bed/ er not going to school
.x. Do you like scary or exciting roller coasters? yes!!
.x. How many rings before you answer? depends
.x. Future daughter's name? hannah nicole
.x. Future son's name? josh
.x. Chocolate or vanilla? Both
.x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? mm no
.x. If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be? model phssss
.x. What are you going to do after you finish this survey? talk on puter, er EAT :p
.x. What was the last food you ate? Fritos chill cheese kind
.x. you bored? FER SURE
.x. Last movie you saw? the ring
.x. Three things you are often complimented for: shortness, hair, and good at baseball
.x. You get embarrassed when: mmm
.x. What upsets you: moveing away / parents splitting up :(
.x. You keep a diary: no
.x. You like to cook: sometimes
.x. You have a secret you have not shared with anyone: mm no
.x. You set your watch a few minutes ahead: no
.x. You bite your fingernails: yah
.x. You believe in love: oh yah

Who is...?
.x. The sexiest person of the opposite sex: JIM
.x. The weirdest person you know: myself
.x. The loudest person you know: tackett
.x. Your close friends: jessica, courtney, alexa and amanda
.x. The person that knows the most about you: i would have to say; jim
.x. Most boring teacher: priest
What is?
.x. Your most overused phrase on IM: lol
.x. Last image/thought you go to sleep with: my wounderful boyfriend :p
.x. Your best feature: nothing im ugly
.x. Inside joke:dunno

Do you?
.x. Take a shower everyday: yah in the morning
.x. Have a (any) crush (es): bf
.x. Think you've been in love: yah now
.x. Want to get married: yah
.x. Have any tattoos/where?: yah; my lower back
.x. Piercing/where?: 6 on ears and belly button
.x. Get along with you parents: sometimes;


FAVORITES...
NUMBER: 12
COLOR: pink/ light blue
DAY: friday :)
MONTH: july
SONG(S): tbs ;hm
FOOD: chinise / mexican
SEASON: summer fer sure
DRINK: coke

PREFERENCES....
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT?: cuddle
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE?: hot chocolate
MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE?: dark

[IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU]
CRIED?: no
HELPED SOMEONE?: dunno
BOUGHT SOMETHING?: yah
GONE TO THE MOVIES?: no
GONE OUT FOR DINNER?: yah
SAID, "I LOVE YOU"??: yah
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER?: nah
TALKED TO AN EX?: yah
MISSED AN EX?: nope
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL?: yah
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: mm
MISSED SOMEONE?: yah
HUGGED SOMEONE?: yah
KISSED SOMEONE?: no
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS?: nah
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND?: naah





not mine^^^^^^^^ ill do mines later

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Jeeez, i can't commit can i? [11 May 2004|08:22pm]
[ mood | cranky ]
[ music | American idol <--- ugh! ]

I suck at writing in here everyday. I suck i kno. Well heres Tuesday:

On Sunday night Lisa asked me if I wanted to come to her school, Baptist HighSchool, for the day. I was soo excited. I kno so many people from Hope Chapel and Westminster who either go there full time, or for a few classes. Anways, Monday i finshed my homeowrk so i could go. And my list of never ending chores my mom gives me. About dinner time Lisa and her mom, Cealy, invited me to dinner. I was a little late but i was worth the wait. Haha sorry im a lil gay tonight. Dinner was good, i got a shrimp salad rap. It took the guy 2 times to get my order right though... damn him...

We went back to her house after that. And i found a outfit for the next day. Since i had to wear a polo shirt and either a jean/kackie skirt. The outfit i finally found was actully pretty cute. We finally fell asleep around 10:30. The next morning we got up at lik 7:00. I toke a shower because i felt groady. Hate that feeling. And I was all being rushed because we had to pick up this girl Stepf. Shes nice, shes in 10th grade and she goes to Hope also.
Well, we finally got there and went into the office. I got a ticket that said i had a free lunch and soda/milk/whatever. I was like, "Oh yea free food, i like this place!!" lol When we went to homerooom it was all quiet. Lisa actully got n trouble for so called 'talking'. Even though she wasn't. Chavs kinda was, i wan't really paying attention. The second class I almost fell asleep in. *it was english* and the third class i DID fall asleep in.
*it was spanish* I didn't understand anything either so whatever.

i gtg ill tell you laters

byee


always. lauren

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..Im the only [06 May 2004|11:26pm]
Such a long day. A good day, but a long one. Classes, Baby sitting, missing survivor, THE LAST FRIENDS EpIoSoDe!! Ahhh im gonna cry! But hey, (switching topics) Rupert is still in survivor so it's all good. I hate Boston Rob and Amber. I hope they lose and the jinx about who ever wins the car(s) will never win survivor.

I was soo happy that libby is finally home. I missed her a lot. Not as much as i anticipated though. In the past she just has always so self centered on herslef. She used to think, and announce to, everyone in our lil hang-out group at Hope Chapel, that every guy in the church that was our age like her. Just because they would say 'hi' to >us< she would think that they were falling for her.
example: My family is really good friends with one of my friends parents. The Marinos. They have one child whos either in 9th or 10th grade. He has this kinky red hair thats down to his shoulders. Oh so hot man haha. Anyways, my family spent a week up in their beach house we talked a lot. The Sunday after we left, his family came to Hope. (they live all the way in Penn.) I was standing with rachel and Libby <-- the self centered one, and he said hi. He was looking at me, and i even looked at him and said hey back.

She still thought that he was sweain' her. LoL i don't understand that chick. First hes PuNk and shes a total prep. I mean the preppest looking chick i have ever seen. She may not act like it, but she appears like one. It's not like i'm obsessed with labels. But there a fact of life. So deal with it.

well im gonna make a new entre and talk about Jemma. I need to ge tmy feelings out.
always, ..the only
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weee [04 May 2004|04:23pm]
[ mood | cold ]
[ music | Recess - and joy and hannah playing ]

1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, line 4. Write down: Jana Cox - occupations -- Mail Carrier, Intrests -- Passion for dogs, Love to bake, Weedkend jogger.

2: Stretch your left arm out. What do you touch? A picture of Joys father and Mother on their wedding day.

3: What is the last thing you watched on TV? That 70's show

4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time it is: 4:41

5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time? 4:54

6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? Thumbalina <--damn that movie

7: When did you last step outside? When my mom dropped me off for baby sitting the hoffeckers

8: What are you wearing? Black shirt, and gray pants with white/red dotted lines down it. It has two diaoginal

9: Did you dream last night? First dream - That i was pregnat and my baby came, and i had to decide about keeping it or adoption. Dream 2 - That Blaxe, Me, Rachel and some other poeple were sitting at a table in the hall way of our church and were throwing cady at each other. All off a sudden everyone left besides me and Blaze. I said i was sorry about everythig i did to him. About telling his parents finding out from me that he was suicidal, and tried to kill himslef five times. He said he was sorry for acting like a jerk like not talking to me and that he still trusted me. We were friends again and everyone though we were boyfriend and girl friend. Even though we werent, at one time i wished we were, but w.e.
Dream 3 -- i have to remember i forget!
And other things i say later in a burty entre

10:When did you last laugh? When joy was dancing and being goofy

11: What is on the walls of the room you are in? The one with a desk...?

12: Seen anything weird lately? My self! haha

13: What do you think of this quiz? its something to do while my little ones are watching a movie

14: What is the last film you saw? Thumbilina

15: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first? Bulid a church

16: Tell me something about you that I don't know: I can actully sing well

17: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
End the communism in the other nations - wait is that political? lol

18: Do you like to dance? if im in an idiot kind of mood and if im working out or something

19: George Bush: is he a power-crazy nutcase or some one who is finally doing something that has needed to be done for years?
I think that he has been a blessing to our nation.

20: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
hmm,

21: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Steve, Rick, Jacob

If I were a month, I'd be: June

If I were a day of the week, I'd be: Friday

If I were a time of day, I'd be: when ever band is

If I were a planet, I'd be: Pluto, its farest away from everything...

If I were a sea animal, I'd be: a turtle, they live long

If I were a direction, I'd be: east

If I were a piece of furniture, I'd be: a recliner

If I were a historical figure, I'd be: Mary, jesus's mother

If I were a liquid, I'd be: shirty temple

If I were a tree, I'd be: an weeping willow

If I were a clothing accessory, I'd be: jeans, they make peoples butts look awesome haha

If I were a bird, I'd be: a penguin

If I were a tool, I'd be: a nail, i just like them...

If I were a flower/plant, I'd be: rose, beautiful but they have thors

If I were a kind of weather, I'd be: a sunami

If I were a mythical creature, I'd be: unicorn

If I were a musical instrument, I'd be: guitar, they are beautiful from the outside, to they music they pernounce

If I were an animal, I'd be: Lioness

If I were a color, I'd be: black

If I were an emotion, I'd be: crying

If I were a vegetable, I'd be: tomatos, or are they a fruit! Wa cha cha!

If I were a sound, I'd be: of the "most annoying sound in the world" -from dumb&dumber

If I were an element, I'd be: fire

If I were a car, I'd be: a hot pink one lol

If I were a song, I'd be: "This Bitter Pill" by Dasboard Confessional, or "Theres no 'i' in team" by

If I were a movie, I'd be: a drama

If I were a book, I'd be: The sister hood of the traveling pants one and two

If I were a food, I'd be: meat

if I were a place, I'd be: new jersey <-- representing

If I were a material, I'd be: 100% cotton

If I were a taste, I'd be: sour

If I were a scent, I'd be: strawberry

If I were an object/image, I'd be: computer

If I were a body part, I'd be: lips

If I were a facial expression, I'd be: "go away, you don't really care about me...pernounced...lie-are...LIAR!!"

If I were a subject in school, I'd be: band

If I were a shape, I'd be a: triangle

If I were a number, I'd be: 0, lonely

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First Journal Entre [04 May 2004|03:54pm]
[ mood | chipper ]
[ music | Thumbalina singing with the evil frogs!! - baby sitting ]

Yay! This thing is actully working. My old name was just retarted and i kept screwing it up and not writing for months. This time im gonna at least write everyday, and or, twice every two days. Right now im baby sitting Hannah and Joy. Two little girls that their parents, Lisa and Jim, goto my parents bible study. Now im talking to Veronica. Were talking about camp. I can't wait to go!! This year im gonna be a purple person! Not a retarted camper. Well i want to do those kinda things where they ask you questions and shizits lol ttyl,
always, x3Lauren


"Bestfriend means i puller the trigger, Bestfriends means you get what you deserved."

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