I havent written in a while. Im such a slacker! Gah! Anyways..Since its been a while I cant remeber every detail, but Ill just say the ones I remember. So there was a dance last Thursday, for about the first hour, I just hung out and danced with Megy and yea..and got pictures made. Then Joslin started dancing with Alex, the guy I like, and I thought I told her I liked him, so I accused her of knowing and I didnt call her a slut, but I was thinking it. So it actually turned out that I told Mara, not her. So I felt really really bad, because she got upset and started crying, and I told her I was so sorry, and that I didnt mean to accuse her like that, its just..If you know Joslin, she is like a look alike of Regina George, but like nicer..once you get to know her. Anyways Im just afraid that Im going to end up being like Cady..but not end up being a bitch, just end up getting played and be left friendless, but seeing as she tells me a lot, like how her mom gets drunk at night sometimes and beats her, and that she cuts..I dont think she will, unless she is lying which I dont know...But I doubt it. Anyways, I have a new obsession, if you could call it that, I do. lol. I have made it official, to anyone that will listen, that I am going to marry Conor Oberst..if you dont know who that is, its the lead singer of Bright Eyes, which happens to be my favorite band. Anyways..I <3 him. Ok, now moving on because I dont want to obsess about him..I have enought today. I FINALLY got the book I wanted, its called Cut by Patricia McCormick..So far its amazing. I mean normally I cant find books about things like that ( the title should make the subject obvious, but for those who are going to read this and happen to be a little bit blonde, Its about a girl who cuts herself, and ends up in a looney bin.) , but Im glad I did. Its weird though, it makes me feel like I want to cut too. Sometimes when I watch a movie and the person is going through pain, and stuff, sometimes it makes me feel the pain for that person and that makes me want to cut. I know its sounds crazy..but I do. Its the same with books, etc. And like the only person I feel I can tell that is Nox, I love her to death, I can tell her anything and she will listen, and we seem to think along the same lines, so that helps us understand eachother. Well, I guess thats enough for now.