||[27 Nov 2003|04:46am]
I made a new journal. this one is too old and has too many bad memories. I'll add you if you were on my friends list.
soo long you fucken horrible bastard journal
|it's like god..... with a mullet
||[26 Nov 2003|08:03pm]
everyone is glowing except meeeeeeee.
I am going down to florida. if you would like something, please tell me. I would be happy to get it for you.
I quit subway. it was the best thing I ever did. I am going to apply for a job at A&G. I went to the school yesterday to take tests for the GED program. I only had 2 wrong on the reading and 3 wrong on the math. so I am in, I start in Jan. Hopefully I'll be done so I can start fall term at HVCC.
sat. is 3pt reunion show.
Keeli and I went to see cat in the hat the other day. It was fucken awesome. we waited for timm-ay to show up. never did. fucker. then we bought gloves that matched our shoes :O). and when we went into the movies, there were no seats so we had to sit in the isle. then they kicked us out like bastards and we had to go to a later showing. all in all it was very exciting.
tommarrow is turkey day. another useless excuse to waste money on tons of food and gather the whole family so we kill eachother. sad sad world. anyway i am going to watch a scary movie. later
|you can't stop what you can't end
||[19 Nov 2003|07:29am]
Words can't descibe how awesome the Andrew W.K. show was. All I can say is that it was fucken non-stop dancing and rock and fucken ahhhh partying!!!! I have never been so happy in my life.
Anyway.., I guess 3 point turn is having a reunion show the 29th at winners. I might make an appearance. It might not be the only reunion that night.
I have an interview at the school on thurs. for my GED. Classes start Dec. 1st. and if I pass my test I might go to college, but I'm not sure what I want to be yet. bleh.
I'm hanging with Angel tomm., that will be sweet, haven't seen her in months.
Nothing else new. Besides that the drummer of Mr. Wednesday is fucken hoooott.
|Prisoner of Azkaban Movie Trailer Out!!!!!!!
||[15 Nov 2003|10:42pm]
holy fuuuuuuuuuuuuck. the new harry potter movie trailer is out!!!! it fucken kicks ass. ahhh i am sooo excited :O) :O):O) :O). i am sort of disapointed in dumbledore but who cares, as long as they dont butcher the movie. ahhhhhhhhhh :O). i have sad news though. lola the chameleon died wed. :*O( it was sad. butwe made her a grave her last night. these winds are craaaazy. what the fuck is going on with this???? i thought we were suppose to have global warming!!! anyway, jimmy and jeff both work at subway now, which is sweet. me and jimmy worked yesterday together, it fucken rocked. we threw food at eachother. ummmm.... i might go to london for a HP Fan Tour, led by Chris Rankin who plays Percy Weasley. but... it's about 3000$ in total costs, and someone you have to be 18 or have someone 18 to go. so that fucken blows. anyone who is 18 and wants to go with me, tell meeeee. PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you see that hottie over to the left. yeah that's tom riddle, whooaaa he is fiiine.
timm-ay and keeli are like whoa in the office.
andrew w.k. at northern lights sunday. i will definitly be there. no doubt about that. but i need to head out to work. laaater
||[12 Nov 2003|11:55am]
so... work sucks. the only reason i stay is because of my friends. i haven't been in touch with the school yet so i don't know if i am returning soon. but then again i don't really want to. i want to save up some money and go to england for like a month to live. sounds sketchy but, i think it's possible. christian coulson is the hottest mutha ever. ::drooooooool:: yeah, i've been researching a lot of harry potter shit and i am writing a book. but not about harry potter, about tom riddle/lord voldemorts life. some girl wrote a story about snape when he was in school and posted it on www.the-leaky-cauldron.net (something like that) and i thought it was fucken awesome. yeah i know, i am a freak. i heard that the texas chainsaw massacre was one of the scariest movies out in the theatres. i might just go see it :O) i love being scared. i rented the exorcist the other day, man i never laughed so hard in my life. thats a good movie.
keeli + timm-ay = love at subway smooochy smooooooooochy. hehe.
please don't kill me keeli i love you soooo:O)
but i must flaunt.... I TOLD YOU SO!! HAHAHAHAHA
so, my florida vacation is getting nearer. and my cash load is getting bigger. and i want christian coulson. and yeah, thats my life. i want to try and start another band. some guy (who was fairly attractive) came into subway with some other dude and they were talking about writing a new song. so next time they come in i am going to beg to join in. haha. ---->LOSER<----
|wjknkfjaf drugs rock
||[04 Nov 2003|11:42pm]
well, the other day i went to the school to chill with jeff jimmy and colleen. i think colleen hates me. i am trying to make friends because jimmy is like one of my best homies and i want to be able to chill with everyone and not worry about the past shit. but i am so retarded. right after we picked up colleen after detention i chucked a book at jimmy and hit colleen in the head. i felt like an asshole. she must seriously hate me now, haha. but i had fun. jimmy and jeff are crazy kids. thats why i love them. keeli and i went trick or treating. that was fun. i had to work til fucken 8 though >_<. i had this fucken giant red wig and matt put it on and he stuffed his shirt to make it look like he had tits. man he looked so fucken funny i couldn't look at him. me and keeli only went out for like an hour and a half and we got a shitload of candy. um today at work i took tussin and got really fucked up. i couldn't even function. i don't even remember half the shit i was saying. i didn't even take alot. it was weird. i can't find weed anywhere. anyway i feel like i am going to pass out. later
||[29 Oct 2003|05:00pm]
well. work has been paying off, i have close to a thousand bucks saved up and i am taking a vacation to florida in december :O) i already bought the tickets. i am returning to school for like 2 hours a day. and in 2 months i can take my GED test, hopefully i will pass. because i am applying for NYU. who needs a diploma? i get to go to college a year earlier and i get tons of finacial aid. rock. me and keeli are going trick or treating friday. it's going to be awesome. i miss chilling with my old bandmates. i want to hang with them sometime, it's hard to get in touch with everyone. i've been hanging out with jimmy all the time, he always comes into subway and steals food. i am probably going up to potsdam for a weekend to see my cousin maria, i miss her. angel and geoff are getting married :O) in vegas by a guy dressed up as a pirate. i get to be a witness!!! whooo!! so i am saving up for vegas next spring.
SantaclauseS5: my names marissa and im gay
SantaclauseS5: and slow
HiMyNamesMarissa: my names jimmy and i have cerebral palsey
SantaclauseS5: dude i love you
HiMyNamesMarissa: i love you too man
good times. man at work the other night, it was keelis first night back, and she went to the bathroom and i thought i was all alone, so i farted. it was kind of loud. so i walk over to the oven and i see a guy sitting there. i wanted to die. so anyway i tell keeli about it and shes almost pissing her pants laughing, then jimmy, jeff, stewies g/f and colleen walk in and keeli tells them what happened and colleen gives me the dirtiest look ever. haha whateva. it's not like girls don't fart. work has been cool. tom and matt are awesome to hang with, even though they fucken harass me all the time. me and matt has a battle on sunday, it's never busy so we are always bored, we both had plastic bow and arrows, it was fun. tom got vinager up my fucken nose the other day, he didn't mean it, but it was hilarious. we laughed for like 20 mins. i am so happy keelis back at work. we always have fun. anyway, ash said she might come trick or treating with us friday so that will rock.
i was digging around the archives and i found a pic of me and kylie.
|it's fucken october
||[03 Oct 2003|03:47pm]
well, life has been good. i've hung out with a bunch of people the past couple weeks. Ashs' party was sweet, we all chilled at Kris' house after that and watched jackass and family guy :O). those guys are a blast to hang out with. i hung out with my old friend lindsey :O), she's on crack (not literally). work has been fun... matt, tom and me all smoked last night ^_^ matt wasn't working though so me and tom were left there all fucked up, haha it was fun. making subs while stoned is fucken crazy. me and matt might get an apt. together, i think he's just fucken around, but he said he's serious.... we'll see. i am going to florida for 10 days by myself, eaaah!! that should be fun. i am going to see the new jack black movie tonight, he's a funny man. colin ferral is fucken hott. yep, and that's my update
|your ass is grass and worthless is the lawnmower.
||[14 Sep 2003|10:52am]
friday was fuuun. i needed weed and christian came through.
him, brian b. and billy showed up at my house and we all decided to smoke.
so some kid drove us to brians house, and christian and the dude left.
some freshmen girls showed up, they were infatuated with billy
so me brian and billy smoked. and billy did an elevator hit or something
really fucked him up, he was saying how he saw all this shit
hahahaha then he was pretending to be jack nicholson, that was funny
we watched minority report with the volume all the way down and iron maiden blaring
that was fucken rad.
then i went home.
work was fucken sweet. keeli is the funniest person ever.
we were talking about languages and how when you are little
you think everyone speaks english, like the santa clause lie.
and keeli says- yeah then you grow up and realize there's canada
it was fucken hilarious, then she fell off the chair.
she shook up a soda bottle and opened it and it got all over the store.
it was crazy.
the cars fixed so now i don't have to worry about stalling anywhere.
i want to go to the great excape so bad :O(
no money though >_<
ash's berfday is coming up <333333
i took off work sat. to go to her party.
i still don't know where it is though, haha.
a lot of old friends will be there, so this shall be interesting.
i have to go visit angel soon. i miss her.
i want to go on a trip to see chris d., he told me he'd send me directions :O)
wow being out of school fucken rocks. i feel like i am on vacation...forever
<3333 drop outs ^_^
anyway, i have a couple hundred saved for my apt.
i think me and kym are still getting a place...
but i am not totally sure, since jimmys being stupid :O)*
got to love him though.
i was suppose to chill with him this weekend :O\
that fucker. i'll go to his house sometime this week.
anyway i need to go back to sleep for a couple hours.
|why are guys attracted to girls who want to kill themselves.... it's beyond my comprehention.
||[09 Sep 2003|09:29pm]
||face to face
whoa. i watched the most ridiculous movie. some subway "training video" HAH. it was a fucken joke. half the shit they said or did was absolutely nothing compared to what we do. they were all like "Welcome to subway..." as they name every single subway select sub, half weren't even the ones we have. i watched it twice :OP it was hilarious. hehe. uhm.. i am suppose to be going to school to take a GED course, but fuck that. i'll do it next year, i just want to get the fuck out of my house. hopefully that will be soon. well, me and teresa, guisi and steph went to the drive ins the other day to see freddy vs jason, but the fucken bulb blew and we couldn't watch the rest of it. that sucked. my dad stole money from me, i'll fucken kill him... and my mother. >_< i hate them. i have to work tomm. at 4. me and jimmy are suppose to chill friday, i am going to talk to him about his recent decisions and try to make him change his mind :O). i love jimmy. i am looking to start another band, and seriously, i really don't care anymore if it is happy emo or kill yourself emo or pop punk, because getting into a political punk band is like... impossible. so i don't care anymore. maybe if i go into an emo band i can get famous and make money like all the other saps. and obviously guys like emo girls (refer to the subject). so, i don't care if i am in an emo band anymore. at least i'll still have my beliefs. well. lets get drunk :O)
||[06 Sep 2003|10:17am]
last night rocked. i picke up kym <3333
and we went onto some road and jimmy and rigney skated over.
i love them, i missed them so much.
we drove into some weird dark alley place.
kym and jimmy got their grove on in the back seat :O*
then we all just chilled.
then me and kym drove home and the car stalled
hahahaha. there was smoke coming out of it
and kym was on the phone with jimmy and she's like
"the cars on FIRE"
so we got stuck for about an hour, then we go a jump.
then we came to my place and slept.
tonight we all might go to the drive ins.
beat up william for turning into a pussy.
blah, well i must go to work.
||[04 Sep 2003|10:49pm]
today was good.
i went to work around 12.
it was fun, especially with keeli
she's so fucken funny.
clute and davey came to see me <333333
me and clute were suppose to have english togehter :O(
sorry clute that i can't save you from the psychopath smith.
meee and kym are probably most likely getting an apt.
:O) :O) :O) :O) :O)
that makes me happy. i love kym, she's the best.
i hope we find a nice cheap place (but not dirty- haha kym)
jimmy is home :O)
kym and i are suppose to chill with jimmy and rigney tomm. :O)
that will be sweet, haven't seen any of them since before summer.
william and most of the hoosic valley people are gay
no one wants to hang or anything, fucken gay.
maybe he found out i stole his hoodie or something
and that's why he is being a fuck to me.
oh well i don't give a fuck anymore, he doesn't want to chill...
well i am going to sleeeeeeeeeep. g'night
|no rights no future
||[01 Sep 2003|11:41pm]
today was so fucken sloooooooooooow. i hate rainy days :O(
work went by slow, hardly any customers.
i went to jimmys pizza and talked to sarah for awhile.
that kept me occupied.
i talked to william today, i haven't uttered words to him in weeks.
it seems he knows more about what's going on in my life than i do, haha.
am i the in topic this weeks gossip? hehe...
catch 22 and worthless united are coming
oct. 11 ^_^ i can't fucken wait.
i am going to see if lindsey will go with me.
we can have a fucken reunion party with worthless
i miss steve, he was awesome.
me and olivia are text messaging eachother...
i had my cell phone for about 2 years and i just discovered text messaging tonight
i am such a winner.
i hope she goes to worhtless and catch too!!!
hardly anyone is online.... >_<
the only people i am talking to is claude and dan.
i have to work tomm from 5-7... then i have a doctors app.
i wanted to hang with william and kylie tomm... but kylies comp. was all fucked up
so we couldn't make plans.
weeeell... thats about it. later
||[31 Aug 2003|11:30pm]
today kids i went to the one and only schaghticoke fair. i was sooooo fucked up :O) twas fun. they had some sweet rides like the ferris wheel thinger that spins upside down. i went on that a bunch ^_^ good thing i didn't puke x_x i thought i was going to die.... guess not. sarah called me tonight :O) i haven't talked to her since the night we got fucked up and ended up in a car with two guys ass naked. i miss her! she got a job at jimmys pizza right next to subway!!! and the girl joanne that i am going to room with works there too and they are friends. so that rocks. sarah is a good friend. IF YOU LIKE PINA COLADA!!! that song has been stuck in my head all day. i <3 Jimmy Buffet :O). but um.. i need to sleep because i have to work tomm. nite
||[31 Aug 2003|12:00am]
this week has been very long. the summer is dragging. but i looooove the fucken autumn air <3. wow... i'm so drunk :-* ummmm i dropped out the 28th :O\ ....everyone probably hates me. i found a roommate, my old bio lab partner Joanne. she just moved back in with her mom... but she said if i wait a year she'll get an apt. with me. which rocks ass, that gives me a year to make enough money for all that shit. i might move in with aunt viv til then.... then again i don't know if i might get another place with someone else til next year. so confused :OX kylie came into subway the other day. haha she gave me lovely knickers. he he. i miss everyone :O( i want to throw a show somewhere, but i don't know any places that let people have shows... except the community center... but that place is small and gay. i want a big place... like my b day party 2 years ago. that rocked. everyone was fucked up, we had awesome bands play (Worthless United, Rising Influence, Midnight Sun), and everyone got laid. so it was fucken rad. i want it to be like that again. well i want to play some harry potter then maybe go for a walk in the town. i'll be around tomm... it's my day off, call me cell if you want to chill 9285044
for all those who want a reasonable expl. for why i dropped out then i will give you a vauge answer... if you know me very well you will know my mothers "condition". well things got alot worse.... i mean ALOT! and i don't want my life going back to the way it was and i WILL NOT allow it to happen again. so i dropped out so i can work alot to get myself my own place. i really don't have anywhere else to go that would appeal to me. but, if you know me then you will get all that. and you can call me "fucken stupid" and whatever, but fuck you because you haven't been through shit. :O)
||[26 Aug 2003|10:00pm]
i am looking for a roommate, i am moving out... and dropping out as well. subway is my fuuuture.... ehsgds i rather not go back to b spa i don't have to be near the degenerate scumbags that populate it i hate the childish fights and the ridiculous gossip. and the fucken suburbian morons that consider themselves repressed, heh. i hung out with the old cleave gang the other night we went mid night bowling in clifton park i missed kristin and joss i saw maria and lovey. haha i love them. i also saw matt vertefeuille and brendan <3333 he is so hott. too bad he went back to college :O\ i've been in love with him for years. work is gay. i have to work all week (except sunday, they gave me that day off). i am working on buying a car this weekend. :O) that's good news. ummm.... besides that, the only thing that is really coming up is my trip to pottsdamn to go camping with ria, chris, pedro, kristin and anyone else who goes. mad drugs yo. hahaha....
||[20 Aug 2003|03:10pm]
long time no seeeeeeeeee.
well... the past week or so i've been pretty busy
i worked a fucken lot [this week i have 45 hours]
i hung out with some alot of people i haven't seen in a while
like sarah holland, billy, tara divine, lindsey williams
it was definitly fucken rad
school is coming up, which is fucken gay
i bought a jacket, its black and parts of it are checkered ;O*
it's hott... even though i bought it at hot topic >_<
i bought plaid pants at the salvo <3
i went to the falling further show, they were good.
bowling for columbine is the fucken greatest movie ever
everyone should watch it.
i rented chicago and i enjoyed that one too.
anyone want to go to the great escape this week or something...
ehhh call me if you need anything
|kylie is the shiiiiiiiiiit
||[11 Aug 2003|03:52pm]
kylie made me this awesome background.
it even has my favorite song :O):O) :O)
i love kylieeeee
christian and josh came by and i bought an 8th :O)
christian is my new hero.
tonight me and sarah are going to chill.
i don't think we are chilling with anyone else.
her and william broke up.
but i don't talk to him anymore....
i quit the band today.
i don't really enjoy the music we are playing.
it's not for me...
but i guess my bandmates already had me replaced before i quit.
heh ooooh well.
i guess i am a "mediocre" guitar player
whatever, i don't have anything against them
but it seems everytime someone leaves they really get the boot
they can all dislike me if they please.
but why sit and pretend i am enjoying something i am not?
but i'll still support the band, even if i don't like the music.
i am in the making of a new website.
i love my geocities one, but it is so old.
i've changed so much, and there is too many bad memories.
so i am making a new one.
i think today is kyms birthday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KYM!!
umm.. i have to go to work from 5-7
so i must go get ready, i'll inform you on my night tomm.
||[10 Aug 2003|11:35pm]
hmm... what to say.
i went to saratoga today, and took out my lip ring.
i also dyed my hair black, i don't know if i mentioned that before.
this friday is my tattoo app.
so that is pretty sweet
i ran into scott in hess and he told me jimmy is coming home next friday
tomm. me and sarah are going to aunt vivs :O)
we invited nate ;O) ooooh yeah
claude is going to sell me an 8th tomm. night
so this shall be interesting...
drunk, stoned and nakedness
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
um what else to say...
i did some school shopping
i got 2 pairs of dickies pants and cons
i miss teresa.... and kylie.
i haven't seen them in forever.
psst. kylie... if you want to come tomm. you know where aunt viv lives ;O)
well i am going to sleep. if you want to come to aunt vivs tomm., 8 pm.
me and sarah have a policy though-
Sareeny: everyone goes
Sareeny: except warped tour goers
|rain on my paaaaarade
||[09 Aug 2003|08:05am]
well... i tried to quit subway
but asmeeta convinced me to stay
so, i tried to take out my lip ring last night
not a smart idea to do that by yourself
i got the ball off, but the ring won't come off
because i have to widen it, but it fucken hurts.
sooo today i am taking an hour off work to go and get it removed.
melissa was like- yeah i heard rumors she was quitting but i was like oh hell no she ain't quitting!!!
haha, she's a riot.
last night work was fucken crazy!
they said that the day was fucken the busiest ever. HAH
it was melissa, matty and me working
and melissa was like- lets order chinese food!!!
so we did, and we just start eating and like 50 people come in.
and it wasn't like they wanted just one sub
nooo that would be too easy, those fuckers wanted 5 or more!!!
so,it was only 3 of us and we were going crazy because we had so much other shit we had to do.
i had to stay an extra hour last night just so i could finish cleaning
and now i am going in early today to do the prep that we couldn't do last night.
yeah, it was nuts.
but today i am working 8:30-7, except i am leaving for an hour to do the lip thing.
this friday is my tattoos :O) yay.
ummm.............. claude said that he could get me weeeeed and opium
no acid or shrooms around :O(
:O) claude is my hero.
me and sarah are going to have fuuuun monday night.
but i must go to woyk.
when the fuck is kylie getting home from canada!!!!!!
i think the french took her hostage! OH NO!
anyhoo, i must run along.
you did everything fucken right