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[08 Nov 2003|12:01pm] |
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Thrice"To What End" |
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erggh. I had a freaging mental breakdown yesterday because my brother unplggd the interent on me twice and because I couldn't find my Death Cab for Cutie cd, and my mom decided that I Can't go to any shows this month.
Fuck I dont wanna b stephanie anymore,fuck.
do hugs mean absolutely nothing to anyone
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[05 Nov 2003|03:33pm] |
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Story of the year "anthem of our dying day" |
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I keep forgetting about this. Damn.
I hate girls who do that flippy thin with there hair.
I hate girls who wear butterfly print jeans.
I hate girls who like the boys that I like.
fuck....
I hate alot of people
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[29 Oct 2003|03:29pm] |
I hold in my hand THE NEW LAWRENCE ARMS...o yeah.
whos the bitch noww?
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[20 Oct 2003|05:37pm] |
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The Unseen |
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can I be shot in the leg now, thanks.
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| I miss you less...every day. |
[19 Oct 2003|01:37pm] |
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Jimmy Eat World-"Lucky Denver Mint" |
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jees..I'm confused.Good, confused, I think:-/. So we went to Allens last night and this time it was only Allen and Kameron, and me and amanda left leeza and went to jakes house to get amanda money or somethin, and then amanda and leeza decided they wanted to sleep at my house...good times?
We fell asleep to Jerry Springer. Yay.
o yes, and Allen and Kamron think Mike likes me, but wont tell me why they think so. kshfohfkfhgklfh what THE eff ?
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| I dont wanna say I'm miserable or anything... |
[13 Oct 2003|04:17pm] |
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Thursday |
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my weekend went something like this:
Friday:ABSOLUTELY nothing, but I did tallk to mike on friday and started liking him..o shit.
Saturday:went to Leezas with amanda , and the crashed allens house where allen,jake,mike,andre and Kameron were uhh raking leafs? got home ,talked to mike AGAIN and discovered that andre and daniel (two of is good freinds ) like me....o shit.
Sunday:sat around confused like a biyatch and then went to the mall and bought NOTHING
Monday:skool, sucked, got even more confused.
Did I mention that im quiet upset that Anna is kissing and not telling? uhuh
im off to watch Degrassi.
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| I dont wanna say I'm miserable or anything... |
[13 Oct 2003|03:57pm] |
my weekend went something like this:
Friday:ABSOLUTELY nothing, but I did tallk to mike on friday and started liking him..o shit.
Saturday:went to Leezas with amanda , and the crashed allens house where allen,jake,mike,andre and Kameron were uhh raking leafs? got home ,talked to mike AGAIN and discovered that andre and daniel (two of is good freinds ) like me....o shit.
Sunday:sat around confused like a biyatch and then went to the mall and bought NOTHING
Monday:skool, sucked, got even more confused.
Did I mention that im quiet upset that Anna is kissing and not telling? uhuh
im off to watch Degrassi.
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| I dont wanna look at you ....ever again |
[05 Oct 2003|10:24am] |
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I have to go out today to get new pants.What I'd ather do is stay home ,curl up in bed and die.I'm so weak Sam blocked me and I cant even bring myself to rip his god damn picture. I can't do much of anything right.
I'm off now, to put on a happy face and pretend I don't feel dead inside.
consider this my official blurty break.
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| blahblahblah |
[04 Oct 2003|11:39am] |
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Dexter Danger |
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woah. the internet sucks.My moms on a date until about 9 tonight with richard and im nt going to SF with amanda and molly so im stuck at the homstead. You know what I miss ?sleepovers with my jessicaness *hint*hint . I went ove lanas yesterday and we filmed our spanish shit and ate german chocolate cake and laughed our asses off. The video is only a minutes and 30 seconds ut it took us 2 hours to finish.Ha.Good times?Im off.
oh wait , joey and his g/f make me nausious...good god.
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| watch me unravel |
[02 Oct 2003|07:00am] |
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Weezer |
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I'm not living my own life anymore.
I dont know who I am.
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[29 Sep 2003|07:09am] |
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Story of the Year |
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My weekend fell apart. The show was allright but the fact that people thought it was acceptable to mosh during Brand New was just sad.By the time mxpx played i was on the balkony with molly throwing money at people.The show was ok...just...ok.
I'm done with Taber, since I was dissed and dissmissed and do not care to go into it, and the rest of my weekend involved the woods and lots of marijuana(which i was not smoking)
I have to go to school,
I hate school.
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| coffee,tea..emo boys? |
[26 Sep 2003|12:00pm] |
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Finch |
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Dashboard show tonight. I'm going for Brand New. I hate Dashboard.
I hope I have fun sitting by myself since molly and amanda are gonna stand. I hope I choke and die before 7.
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| I hate you |
[23 Sep 2003|09:47pm] |
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"this song brought to you by a falling bomb"-Thursday |
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Here I go again, makin secnd best. Well don't try to fight me anymore, you've won, its over...I can't compete with you anymore. I can't compete with anyone.
Shutting off the cell, turning off the ringer.
don't call.
as a matter of fact , leave me be.
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| why dont i drink |
[20 Sep 2003|09:50am] |
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no more partys ever again.
leeza and amanda got drunk before 7:30...by 9 a shitload of people I have never seen before were there.There was this tight ass sober mexican,some bitchen ass kid who ate hot asian peas and I wasnt even tempted to drink.I spent half my night sobering up amanda and sitting with her when she was drunk and crying, and the other half of the night talking to mia and trying to sign online.
I left at 3 with molly and crashed at her place until 8.
I think that party depressed me... people only like me when they're drunk, and its hella sad how I can't even score with insanely plastered guys.
eh,
highschool.
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| life is pain and suffering....deal with it. |
[14 Sep 2003|11:24am] |
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Armor for Sleep |
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Every day the world takes the liberty of screwing you over.Once in a great while you get what you want but until you do you have to figure out how to deal with your daily "bad luck". It doesn't count for much but one day things will go your way..... you can wait for that day or bitch about all the bad ones you have instead.....I choose to wait.
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[13 Sep 2003|07:12pm] |
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The Weakerthans |
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I don't want to sound out of place.
I dont mean to be straight forward.
But would you call me selfish... If I told you I might need you
with no hopes you may need me too..
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| I would cry, if only you couldn't see my tears |
[10 Sep 2003|07:33am] |
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Thrice |
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Today is picture day(another event that envolves being completely self conscious)I'm out of laundry so it looks like an element shirt and navy dickies.
I don't care to talk about how horrible school is and how nothing ever goes my way, no, no you dont need to hear about that.
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[08 Sep 2003|04:50pm] |
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"911 for peace"Anti-Flag |
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My day was as follows:
first block-reading shit ad talking about conformity
break-friends ditch, stuck alone
2nd block- watching spanish soaps, and getting in trouble with lana
lunch-chillen on the grass with the posse , missng my cell
3rd-guitar...going over scales playing with spongebob cheezits and nearly pissing my pants from laughter at all the sexual, funny ass shit Edith was saying.
4th-zoning out during a discussion about conversions
and thats it, thats all....nothing special at all.
I'll try to write when something good comes about, and that could take a long while.
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| win a few,lose a few, for me I think, a win is long overdue |
[06 Sep 2003|10:51am] |
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school is jus eh. I've been disappointed from the start. I think he just grew out of me...and lke every other crush I'v had, I haven't grown out of him.
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[02 Sep 2003|07:54pm] |
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Brand New |
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I'm the only one who complains this much about going back to school so i made a giant list of why it is so horrible for me..ahem
1)I have the brain of a stoner/hippie...im all" why cant we alljust get along/ what the hell is 3.14?"
2)my school is 90% sheep ....ie; good charlotte/mest/nfg "punkers" and Dashboard "emo boys"
3) every other teacher is a bitch
4)cough*theblondtaberboy*cough
5)the amount of assholes who feel the need to make fun of you every chance they get
6)the assholes who feel the need to make fun of you because they like you
7)the work...I'm lazy and my brain doesnt function at 8 in the morning
8) the upper and lower class men who consider themselves"the shit,""superior" "all grown up"and "important because I'm not a ninth grader"
9)RALLYS...youo can't skip them, but yet teachers feel the need that you have to be in school for cheerleaders,mascots and dumbshits singing the school songs while the bored people are forced to sleep
10)the people who date... am i the only one who thinks people who walk around with their damn PDA'S are jackass's ..other then that i hae the term" yeeah gurrrll he's my man"
11)the player and the wiggers...nough said
12)the break dancers..can you like do that shit in your room cause I really dont give a damn if you can do the worm
13)and last but not least.....having a crush..cause its not so beautiful when they see right through you.
I'll just deal with it tomorrow...
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