So, I am just a worthless piece of crap that doesnt stop complaining. And I annoyed her... or pissed her off... I dunno and yea it does matter to me and it has potential to stop me from talking to her for while, but I dunno. I really don't. Fuck I dont even know if it was me. probably
I am very tired and I think I'm gonna go to bed at like 8 tonight. maybe I'll actaully sleep.
Last night was hell, when I am at home everything gets worse because I have the ability/time to dwell on stupid shit. So I finally broke down to the point of tears, and unfortunatly I cut. But I also wrote all stream-of-conscious about everything that was running through my head. I got a little sick (mentally) towards the end and... kinda exagerrated certain points with blood... ergh not good. not healthy. not me. but basically I realized I feel very alone, unloved, unwanted... and worthless.

worthless

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