| 4:37p |
Working on breathing again
trying to remember how to trust... god thats was long ago... did it ever happen?
I did IM her, confrontation, its okay.. found out I am a bit more neurotic than once thought. but it's alright
My chest feels really tight.
Im nervous about tonight, I need it to work out.
7.30 met up w. reba but first I need to talk to jen about when we are leaving.. and how we are gettin back and forth. I hate scheduling nervousness. I hate my paranoia.
Maybe its because I havent been confrontational that has forced me to keep so much inside. I don't know... I didn't sleep last night, well maybe for an hour. I am really out of it. I think I'm gonna go take a shower, again. I need something to wake me up.
The plans are set, it's all good.
Heh, Justin was a cool kid today, we talked about driving to school like he'd give me a lift once he gets a car (march) if I give him on b4 hand.. yea but like everyone else he seemed kinda down, probably just tired. Rich wasn't though, rich is cool cuz he is a funny kid. Sam doesnt like to be touched, just like me but I have gotten muchus better, I like hugs now, she doesn't still. Poor Sam
Wow, hows that for gossip and drivel... but it was my day... I'm tired and I don't want to eat dinner... |