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Ok, so I know I haven't updated in a very long time. Things have just been so hectic and I completely forgot about this thing. I'm surprised I remember the user name and pw. Anyway, here's the rundown of what's been goin on in my life in a nutshell.
I broke up w/Allen back in March, he decided to swear at me and use some choice words and I'm surprised I didn't hit him. I haven't talked to him since we broke up though I did drive by his house yesterday and he was actually home. I didn't go up to the door or anything. I'm not gonna chance it after the letter that I wrote him basically telling him how much he disappointed me and such. I have no need to talk to him ever again.
Also, in March I got my license back (Yay for me!) and then in April I bought a new car (well, new to me). Its a white 2000 Cavalier, 4 door, no power windows or power locks but that's alright and I got it for $6,000. I got it from my dad's dealership that he works at. Its a pretty sweet car. I love it.
And lastly at the end of March, I started school to become a Massage Therapist. I just ended my 1st quarter last Thursday and the 2nd quarter starts on the 23rd. I'm really enjoying my vacation and all right now so I'm not looking forward to going back to that and to work. Since I had my break off of school, I decided to take my week vacation from work too.
I dated this guy Tyrone for about a month or so but things just weren't going as planned because for one, he had a daughter (Alyssa, 4) and he lives on the west side of Detroit which is an hour and a half from me and he never came out here to see me so I was starting to get a lil teed off about that. Driving an hour and a half just to see someone for a couple hours just really isn't worth it in the long run. I waste 3 hours round trip just driving. It really sucked so I ended that and I'm glad he understood.
Right now I'm interested in this guy Sammy who is my good friend Melissa's ex bf's roomate (did ya get all that? lol). We've been seeing a lot of each other mainly because we've been having bonfires in front of one of their neighbor's apartments lately. Its been some good times thats for sure.
Last weekend I went to see my friend Dana in Nebraska. It was a lot of fun I must say. I was just there from Friday til Sunday but it was good none the less.
Well I can't really think of anything else to write about. If I can think of anything, I'll for sure update about it. Buh bye.
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[09 Jan 2003|01:33am] |
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So yeah, the evil cold has kicked in. I seriously hate being sick. I've literally been sick every month for the past couple of months. Its terrible. That's one of the reasons why I hate my job. All the damn germs circulate and everyone ends up getting sick. My mom told me today I should start taking a multi vitamin. I think I'll start tomorrow morning. Like I said, I hate being sick.
So I obviously called into work because when I woke up at 7:30am, I felt like shit. My nose was stuffed up and I was coughing like crazy. It was nice to get an extra 8 hours of sleep. I didn't wake up til 3:15pm. It was great, lol.
I'm not really looking forward to going back to work in the morning. I'm gonna have a shitload of work at my desk. That's gonna suck. Oh well, I'm not caught up as it is.
I got to see Allen yesterday which was cool. He picked me up at Kroger cuz I was grocery shopping with my mom and he knew I didn't wanna be there. He was on his way over to his uncle's house to drop off a cell phone case and his uncle lives right by Kroger so he picked me up on the way. I love spending time with him even if its not for that long. I think I only saw him for an hour and a half but it was good enough for me.
Well I think that's enough for now. I should probably go to bed now considering the fact that its 20 to 2 now and I gotta get up at 7:30. Thing is, I'm not really that tired, lol. Blah. Mornings suck. Goodnight all.
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[07 Jan 2003|08:11pm] |
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I have come to the conclusion that Tuesdays feel like Mondays because on Monday, you're still stuck on the weekend and the day goes by faster but then Tuesday comes and you're like "Damn, the week has officially started. Is it Friday yet?" That was my discussion with Patricia at work today. On our way outside for break, we always talk about how the day is dragging and such.
Of course, my supervisor keeps piling me with more and more work and she wonders why I'm not caught up. Well if she wouldn't give me so many things to do, I'd be caught up with my work. I think in a way, its good NOT to be caught up because then I wouldn't have work, lol.
Ummm.....what else? I settled things with Dana yesterday. We talked about Clint and stuff and I think her telling me all of that was just at a really bad time, ya know? Between the fight between me and Ashlyn and then the comment that Allen made. I hate when I get into my depressed moods. I don't even know why it happens. I don't have anything to be depressed over. I have a good job (as much as I don't want to admit it, I've learned a lot from working there) and a bf that treats me like gold. I also have a roof over my head and I have both my parents. There's really nothing that I should be depressed about. I just get that way sometimes. It sux.
I haven't talked to Allen at all today so far. He should be getting off work soon. I feel bad when I call him at work cuz I know he's always busy. Somedays I just can't wait til 8:30-9pm to call him.
Well, I think that's about it. I don't have anything else to write about. Buh bye!
P.S. Might I say that Norah Jones has an awesome voice. The girl is only 16 years old. I wish I could sing like her. *majorly jealous*
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[07 Jan 2003|12:41am] |
| I am the Siren A man is often secretly oppressed by the role he has to play - by always having to be responsible, in control, and rational. The Siren is the ultimate male fantasy figure because she offers a total release form the limitations of his life. In her presence, which is always heightened and sexually charged, the male feels transported to a realm of pure pleasure. In a world where women are often too timid to project such an image, learn to take control of the male libido by embodying his fantasy. Symbol: Water. The song of the Siren is liquid and enticing, and the Siren herself is fluid and ungraspable. Like the sea, the Siren lures you with the promise of infinite adventure and pleasure. Forgetting past and future, men follow her far out to sea, where they drown. |
What Type of Seducer are You?
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usually my days are pretty good and they have been up until about a couple days ago and i am starting to really question myself about how good of a friend i am. i just lost 1 friend a couple days ago and i almost lost a 2nd friend because of something stupid that i, in a way, shouldn't be upset about.
my friend Dana got back together with her ex Clint a couple days ago. i should be happy for her seeing as that she is my really good friend but i'm really not. when i went to go see Dana in October, she was with Clint and i was really happy for her. well then he started not answering his phone, deleting her e-mails and then he was supposed to come down and see her and he never showed up. that royally pissed me off. i want to be happy for her but he's making it very hard for me. i hardly know the guy and i would probably give him the dirtiest look if i saw him.
well, a couple days before that, i had gotten into a fight with this girl Ashlyn who i am no longer friends with and she basically confirmed that by bitching me out. she had written an entry about how she was designing a wedding dress for a friend that was getting married. then her next sentence was "another friend of mine is getting married. they've only been together for a month and they're already thinking about marriage. i give it a year." i automatically assumed it was me because i have been back together with my bf Allen for a month today and we have thought about the possibility of marriage. so i made a comment saying something like "i'm not getting married. i was just REALLY REALLY bored when i showed you those pictures of wedding dresses. to be technical, Allen and i haven't been together for a month. we've been off and on for 3 years. call me crazy but i think its better to plan now than at the last minute."
so then she retaliated and told me not to put shit in her journal and assume stuff when it had nothing to do with me. i had a right to assume though because it *did* make sense. she then dropped me from her friends list so as soon as i saw that, i deleted her from mine and blocked her on all my IM lists. there is so much to that girl that i could talk about but i think i'll save it for another entry.
another thing that added to me being on edge today was a comment that Allen made. i know he was probably joking around because i know that he would never intentionally start a fight with me because he doesn't want to lose me again over a stupid fight (which is how we broke up 3 years ago). this was kinda how the conversation went:
Him: Man, I so do not want to work today.
Me: Yeah I know. I just felt like doing nothing at work today.
Him: But you don't work 12 hours a day and stand on your feet all day.
Me: Don't even start that shit with me.
Him: What? Are you trying to say you're better than me?
Me: No, that's not even close to what I was saying.
My parents are kind of in the same situation as me and him. Both him and my dad work 12-13 hours a day. My mom and I work 7-8. My dad *never* rubs that in my mom's face. Allen needs to know when to watch his mouth and I think I need to make that clear with him. Today was just not my day. I had a friend msg me w/a smiley face with a tongue sticking out. I asked him what that was for and he told me that he wanted to bug me. The last thing I need for today was to be bugged.
But anyway, I think I have bored you all to death so I will shut up now. Hopefully I'll be back tomorrow with more shit to write about.
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so this is my new journal. i hope people read it, lol.
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