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Blurty for |Don't cut out my paper heart, I aint dyin anyway|.
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| Monday, September 29th, 2003 |
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I've moved. Where, you might ask? To GreatestJournal.com. ( The New Journal ) |
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| Saturday, September 27th, 2003 |
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Disorder | Rating Paranoid: Moderate Schizoid: Moderate Schizotypal: High Antisocial: Low Borderline: Moderate Histrionic: Moderate Narcissistic: Low Avoidant: Moderate Dependent: Moderate Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv URL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/disorder_information2.html I find this all quite interesting. *nods* |
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| Sunday, September 7th, 2003 |
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Rock the Universe was so fucking awesome! I saw Mercy Me, Audio Adrenaline, and got to hear some of the Skillet performance! I also got to go through a couple of "rides": Twister and E.T. I only got on 2 rides cuz most of the time we spent at Universal Studios was seeing the bands and walking around. But it was so awesome, though! Mercy Me and Audio Adrenaline kicked ass! And, like I said, I got to hear some Skillet, which was fucking awesome!! That was the FIRST time I ever heard Skillet. When I heard them playing, I had NO FREAKING IDEA that they were a Christian band!! Their music didn't sound Christian (unlike Mercy Me and Audio Adrenaline), which really impressed me. They had way more of a hard rock sound. So I'm gonna have to find some Skillet cds. **nods** And I got pictures of the Audio Adrenaline concert!! All I have to do is get them develpoed and up in my Picture section in my site. I was so tired by the end of the night! I got a headache from the loud music and I felt sick to my stomach, but Amy had asprins with her so I took one of those. And that helped so much!! Thank you Amy for being prepared!! Anyway, when we all got back on the bus, I was so tired. I fell half-asleep during the last 3 or 4 songs of my Stone Temple Pilots [i]No. 4[/i] cd. I finally fell completely asleep after I put my cd player away. I slept the rest of the way back to church. Once we were back, we had changed into our sleeping clothes and all that, and we went to bed. But somehow I didn't fall alseep for like 20 minutes...go figure. Anyway... Rock the Universe was so fucking awesome!! |
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| Monday, September 1st, 2003 |
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| Tonight my parents and I went out for ice cream. I got an ice cream cone, and learned that I should've gotten a shake. The ice cream was dripping so much at the base...it melted fast, and I mean FAST! I got ice cream all over my right hand, and it made it's way to my freakin elbow!! I had never had so much "fun" with ice cream beofre. ::laughs:: No more ice cream cones for me! ::laughs again:: | ||||||||
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| Friday, August 29th, 2003 |
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Last night was their best VMA. **nods** The first performance where Madonna kissed Britney then kissed Christina...still freaking me out, but at least that look on Justin's face was fucking PRICELESS!! **dies laughing** LINKIN PARK WON BEST ROCK VIDEO!! AND GOOD CHARLOTTE WON VIEWER'S CHOICE!! I'm so glad GC won Viewer's Choice. 50 Cent already won 3 awards earlier that night. Coldplay already won a few too, Justin Timberlake is a loser, Kelly Clarkson is worse than Justin, and Eminem had won it previous years. So GC deserved it! And AFI won the MTV2 Award, which is so awesome!!!!! Coldplay's performance rocked **love**. And Good Charlotte had dead cheerleaders!! **dies laughing** WOO! Finally SOMEONE killed the friggin cheerleaders! And Metallica....**dies again**....SO FUCKING AWESOME!! They still have it....they still fucking own!!!! Lars Ulrich is my hero, dammit! And finally MTV did something so right that I forgave them for The Real World! They put Avril as a nominee for Best POP Video. Yes, they admitted Avril's popness!!!! Finally!!!!!! Anyway, the show was fuckin awesome. **nods** |
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| Monday, August 25th, 2003 |
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I have to add a new band name. Anthony came up with it. Possessed Bunnies of Doom |
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| Saturday, August 23rd, 2003 |
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I have a presentation to do in US History on Tuesday. My group is covering an econimic crash and World War II in Florida. I'm very interested in the WWII part. From what I read, when war's reality came clear to the Florida natives back them cuz of German spies bringing explosives into our country and their U-boats bombing out ships, thousand of civilians volunteered to watch the air activity along Florida's coast. They did what they called a blackout, which was having black curtains over your windows so your lights wouldn't shine through when you were on watch. Here's what I noticed. Back then, if home got attacked, we volunteered. When WWII hit, millions signed up for military, and thousand of Floridians did home safety along the coast. These days...damn. September 11 happened and we were all "United we stand! We're America, and we'll do anything to protect out country!" Yeah, we said we'd do ANYTHING for our country. But then President Bush got an idea of going to war with Iraq. He announced it and what did people start saying. "Um, war? Bush, are you crazy?! No! No, no, no, no, no! NO WAR! America+war? NO!" We became hypocrits! We said that we'd go to war over 9/11, but then Bush decides to go to war with Iraq and you fuking shut him down? You fucking hypocrits!! YOU FUCKING HYPOCRITS!! During World War II, when Germans bombed out ships we didn't cower out! When German spies got into our country through Florida carrying explosives, Floridian civilians volunteered for home safety along the coast! Americans were braver back then! In the movie Tora Tora Tora, there's a scene where Japanese officials are talking about plans to attack America. The main guy talking in the scene said something close to "It is assumed that Americans only care about their luxury...and that they are morally and religiously corrupt. But this is not true." He said something close to that. And back then, that was true. But TODAY, we ARE only concerned about are luxury. We ARE morally and religiously corrupt. And we're cowards and hypocrits these days. Yeah, some wars shouldn't be fought because they're over stupid-like things. Yeah, there's too much war today. And yeah we spend too much on building bombs. But do we have to be fucking hypocrits?! SERIOUSLY! |
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| Thursday, August 21st, 2003 |
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New poem! I call it "Gothic Emo." Enjoy! Read and Review! Never Sing of joy; always sing of sorrow It makes a better story and pisses off some peers And suicide will jump for joy to know you'll soon be visiting Death is such a happy sound to those who know what to expect And fear is such an anticipation when you've known it all these years But just don't bury yourself alive It's that "gothic emotion" that you're feeling It's that insanity that's haunting us all "Gothic Emo" Insanity and gasoline is a dangerous combination Mix in some suicide and it creates a living hell Dance with danger and get personal with death Suicide is loneliness combined with imagination Death is a secret that no one's lived to tell Dance with loneliness and get personal with secrets It's that "gothic emotion" that you're feeling It's that insanity that's haunting us all "Gothic Emo" Never die without knowing who you are But some have tried to find an exception Life is too complicated sometimes Gothic emotion...it's that gothic emotion! It's that "gothic emotion" that you're feeling It's that insanity that's haunting us all "Gothic Emo" |
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| Wednesday, August 20th, 2003 |
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When I start my band (whenever that will be), it's gonna have to have a name. Today, my friend Anthony and I made a list off possible band names. Suicidal Maniacs Demented Pyros Gothic Emus Gothic Llamas Sasquatch Emus [**can't spell**] Evil Poloticians Skitsofrinic [**must learn to spell**] Gothic Skitsos Psychotic Pencils Psychotic Frogs Suicidal Monkees Psychotic Tigers Demented Dimwits Flying Fuckwits Lovable Murderers Spotted Demons Psycotic Police Officers Skitsofrinic Camels [**needs to learn to speel "skitsofrinic" correctly**] Possessed Prarie Dogs Possessed Penguins Duh I'm Lost Cardboard Assualt Riffles Plastic Monkeys Lunatic Fishes Right now, I'm leaning more towards Demented Pyros, Suicidal Maniacs, and Gothic Emus. One of those 3. |
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| Tuesday, August 19th, 2003 |
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| Yesterday morning, my brother got hit by a car when he was walking to work. He got so lucky, though. He doesn't even LOOK like he got hit by a car. He looks completely fine, he's just in a lotta pain. But what the hell is up with my family getting in these car accidents?? Really!! 2 years ago, a drunk guy hit my mom's car, last Thursday, the back of my mom's car got smashed, and yesterday my brother got hit. This makes me kinda paranoid...seriously. | ||||||||
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| Saturday, August 16th, 2003 |
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Well, I know people who are gonna love me killing him! LOL. |
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| Thursday, August 14th, 2003 |
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| Dammit. The back of my mom's car got smashed by some bitch speeding out of a gas station. Thank God my mom's alright or else I would've killed the bitch who hit my mom's car. **stops writing** | ||||||
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| Tuesday, August 12th, 2003 |
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRAD!! He's 23 years old today! Woo! |
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| Saturday, August 9th, 2003 |
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| Paul and Angeli's wedding shower was today. They look so CUTE together! Congrats to them! | ||||||||
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| Monday, August 4th, 2003 |
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 You are Goddamnit. Trios first album. You kick ass. You have a kind of emo side to you. songs about death, cops, vampires and nakedness. still very good job. Which Alkaline Trio Album Are You?? brought to you by Quizilla  In the end, Rob Bourdon, Linkin Park's drummer will make you faint. Tall, dark, and damn sexy, he is a brooding ball of intrigue. Don't let the quiet front put you on; inside, he's both sweet and fiery. It's always the quiet ones... Which Rock Star Will You Hook Up With? brought to you by Quizilla  .You Are Easier To Run. What Linkin Park (Meteora) Song Are You? brought to you by Quizilla  You are Gwen Stefani of No Doubt What Female Singer are you? brought to you by Quizilla if i posted the Gwen one b4, forgive me  You're the GREEN album - new to the Weezer/geekrawk/emo fad thing, you're trying waaaaay too hard to be cool. You probably used to be into pop music, and this album made it easy to fit right into that whole "emo" thing. You're a scenester, and your depth can be measured by the length of this album's short songs... What Weezer Album Are You? brought to you by Quizilla  You're Dave Grohl Which Nirvana band Member are you? brought to you by Quizilla ::loves dave ghrol::  Lithium What Nirvana song are you? brought to you by Quizilla ::also loves the song "lithium":: |
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| Saturday, August 2nd, 2003 |
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Today was Paul and Anjolie's wedding. It was so incredible! I told myself I wasn't gonna cry, but during the wedding I couldn't hold back, I just cried. Anjolie was so beatiful in her gown! And Paul was so cute and handsome in his tux. And so did Brad. I got to see Mr Heyne in a tux. He looked good. He said it was gonna be the last time I'd ever see him in a tux. Not even at his funeral? He told me he'll be buried in jeans and a t-shirt. LOL. Knowing Mr Heyne, i bet he will be. Man, I just can't get over how beautiful Anjolie was. She and Paul are truly in love. Their marriage..it's gonna last. --Brad looked great. He was drop-dead gorgeous in the tux he was wearing. I'm not kidding, he seriously looked drop-dead gorgeous.-- --I know know that Paul's middle name is Benjamin. ::smiles deviously::-- |
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| Friday, July 25th, 2003 |
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Ok, here's a poem I wrote. It's UNTITLED, so don't ask me what the name of it is. Please leave me a comment on it, and BE HONEST! Thank you :-) You will never get off my back You will never leave it alone I can barely stand you anymore How do we call this a home? You make me suicidal You seem to always be mad at me Have I made that many mistakes? I can barely keep my temper now All my happiness has been faked You've made me suicidal You won't listen to me You hear it but do you listen to it? Ican barely smile at you anymore I drown in unloved feelings You made me suicidal You jump on me so quickly I'm crying in my sleep I can barely love you anymore And it's my secret to keep You make me suicidal And I wish it could all be ok I wish I felt you love me more I know you don't mean to make me cry But why do I think differently? You make me cry To the point where I want to die You make me cry My broken wings won't let me fly And you broke me wings for me! And I know you don't mean to make me cry But then why does my mind think differently? Why? |
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| Thursday, July 24th, 2003 |
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Brad taught the lesson in youth group last night. He taught us something I never knew about, and it totally caught my interest. He talked about how something can be ok for someone but not ok for someone else. Let me explain. It's a thing for Christians, really. Music is a great example, so I'm gonna use that. See, I love rock music, all kinds of rock music-- punk, metal, alternative, grunge, whatever. See, I can listen to stuff like Metallica, System of a Down, and all that without feeling guilty or feeling that my relationship with Christ is harmed. Now, someone I know that listens to only Christian music can feel guilty about listening to non-Christian music and feel like it's a sin. Basically, you can feel ok about listening to non-Christian music but you're friend can't. It doesn't make you wrong or your friend wrong. It's kind of like your own opinion only with like scripture to back it up. It made a lot of sense to me. When I went to a Christian school, I was their for 2 and a half years. I had a teacher named Mrs Case. To her, she didn't feel comfortable about non-Christian music. Well, I respect that it was her opinion, but she did something wrong. She said that we shouldn't listen to non-Christian music cuz it all glorifies the Satan, which I do not agree with. It's not your place to tell someone their wrong if they do something you don't agree with like in the case of music or movies or something like that. It's like, you shouldn't tell someone they're wrong for eating meat if you're a vegitarian. But, there is that line of the law. I mean, I'm not talking about that if you feel ok about stealing or doing illegal drugs you can do it. No. Legal matter are a different story here. The point is, [we're going back to the music example here] as a Christian, if you don't feel bad about listening to non-Christian music then that's ok for you, and if you DO feel bad about it then that's ok for you. It's a matter of stronger brother/weaker brother: what may not affect you could effect a fellow brother or sister in Christ. I find it all ver interesting. Everytime Mr Tweedle, Pastor Johnson, or even Brad get into teaching I love listening cuz they always teach me something interesting. |
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| Sunday, July 20th, 2003 |
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Here's some quotes that I found. I don't suffer from insanity, I enjoy every minute of it. [and i embrace it, too] Some people are alive only cuz it's illegal to kill them. [too bad, too] I used to have a handle on life, but it broke. [i broke it. what?? i was 5!! geez!] You're just jealous cuz the voices are only talking to me. [i know it, you know it, so suck it up and take it] I'm not a complete idiot...some parts are missing. [ok, so MANY parts are missing] It IS as bad as you think it is and they ARE out to get you. [and this one is true from personal experience] Ever stop to think and forget to start again? [yes, lol] West Virginia: 1 million people, 15 last names [i have a friend who has confirmed this. j/k] When tempted to fight fire with fire, remember that the fire department generally uses water. [screw that, i'm a pyro...always fight fire w/ fire!! mwahahahaha!!!!] There is no such thing as a stupid question, only stupid people who ask questions. [ex. "if a chicken had lips, would it whistle?"] A lady came up to me on the street and pointed out my suede jacket. "You know a cow was murdered for that jacket?" she sneered. I replied in a psycotic tone, "I didn't know there were any witnesses. Now I'll have to kill you, too!" [there were witnesses?? great, now the animal rights activists will be all over me! lol] Don't piss me off, I'm running out of places to hide the bodies! [no seriously, i am...] Want to drive someone crazy? Put them in a round room and tell them to sleep in the corner. [hey, it drove me crazy...] There are 3 types of people: those who can count...and those who can't. [oh, you mean like my friend brian? j/k. my friend brian only miscounts on purpose to be funny.] Ok, so you ready for the very special shout-out?? Ok, it's not a shout-out, it's more like me blowing off steam, so turn back now if you don't want to read it. Well, here ya go [i warned you]: JESSE, I DIDN'T SCREW UP YOU'RE THREAD!!!!! I told you. I'm going through my PMS, so I'm pissed at more than that, but that just kinda topped it off. Well, that's all for now. And Jesse, if you read this, understand that #1: I'm a girl on PMS & #2: I didn't screw up you're thread, cuz all you had to do was say "Will you guys please stop arguing and get back to the game?" just to settle things down. I don't know everything, and neither do you. |
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| Friday, July 18th, 2003 |
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| It feels like I can't have my own opinion without someone saying I'm wrong. Wow, that sounds kinda fucked up when you think about it. Someone tells you that you're opinion is wrong. Well, why should they say that to you? How can an "opinion" be wrong...it's just the way someone thinks. I'm on a Linkin Park message board. Someone on a thread got mad cuz the workers at some store think that The Datsuns are better than LP. I reply to him, saying that he should chill, than the world doesn't revolve around LP, that even I think that there are bands better than LP. Someone then says that anyone who thinks LP sucks is an ass or something like that. They put LMAO after it to signal that they're joking. I didn't find it funny, so I said it. I said I think that Nirvana is without a doubt better than Linkin Park. She came back and told me that I was getting on her nerves and that she thought was she said was funny. She thought I was stupid and din't notice the LMAO she put in her post. Well, if she could be sarcastic in her posts, then I can too. I sarcastically told her that I'm sorry for having an opinion and that having a mind of my own annoys her. Then another person comes along [one of the board moderators, i think, but i know he was the one who started the thread]. He thanked me for screwing up his thread. He told me that I don't know everything about music, much less anything at all. He's right that I don't know everything about music, but what the hell did that have to do with me thinking that Linkin Park is not the center of the universe?? And I wassn't the one who "screwed" his thread up. I sent him a private message, though, saying that I'm sorry I screwed it up and I asked him to please reopen the thread. Jeez, who knew someone would close a thread just cuz I like other bands more that LP? Some of the people on the messageboard make "linkiebopper" a bad thing. Then again, maybe it is. | ||||||||
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Blurty for |Don't cut out my paper heart, I aint dyin anyway|.
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bouncy.
calm.
creative.
bitchy.
discontent.
crazy.
bored.
happy.
contemplative.
curious.