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| 05:10pm 22/06/2003 | ||||
we just came back from Mission valley where i got myself some new glasses at lensecrafters. i look even more like a nerd but eric says that i can be his fione like whoa nerd grrl. aww no complaining! we went to pacfic eyes and tees so i could buy some new Hurley pants but they didn't have the ones i wanted so we settled for buying shirts for each other. HURLEY! haha kind of stupid since we could have bought our own shirts but we decided it would be cooler that way. uhhh we sang some songs while we drove around. i <3 singing songs with someone. esp. cool boys. we dodged those annoying cellphone stands. i basically held out my phone in front of me and eric pretended to talk on his phone. i took some pictures with his digi cam while we walked around. he needs to upload them so i can post them. AHEM AHEM AHEM. we might be going to a show later. ehh i think it starts at 7, to support mikey's band. uhh yeah i should call mikey soon to ask huh eric. well i'm taking a step back from southside. the past 2 years i've been getting myself brokenhearted from people over there. ehh college is coming up and that should be a good way to meet people. and who knows things are meant to happen on their own and if the things i want to happen are going to happen it'll happen on it's own. haha did i lose anyone on that one? hmm talking with rick right now and we're trading books to read. awww thanks rick! i'm truly blessed to have great friends even despite all the crap i've gone through with some of them. <3 eric + me =killer! |
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energetic| Things are better this way | ||||
| 03:12pm 18/06/2003 | ||||
None of this C.R. drama. I will not play with anyone's mind or heart. My hearts been broken and my mind has been toyed with. I would never want to do that to him. even if he did screw up the chance that darren and i could have had. i'm not mean or coldhearted...much It just sucks that as much as i want to talk to darren... i can't it's too soon. i miss him. a lot. i can't talk to him. leizel says so too. Doing the right thing is never easy.... and never without the feeling of heartbreak.... |
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nauseated| I know this feeling all too well | ||||
| 12:40pm 17/06/2003 | ||||
Stupid car that never worked! le sigh I need a boyfriend. That would be nice. Someone that i can care for, make dinner for, trust, love, make happy, make laugh, and have him enjoy my company. It's really simple when you think about it. I just want to laugh, smile, feel cared for, have someone to trust, talk to, go to shows with, etc. I guess you can say I'm still a little sad about Darren. Yeah that hurt...that was the first time i cried in awhile. i miss talking to him but he made things awkward. I don't want to make the effort of talking to him all the time, that makes me look pathetic. umm just kidding i'm already pathetic. but honestly i do miss talking to him, i at least want to be friends with him but i guess this needs more time. GAH and deng when was the last time The Violence of My Heart practiced? My drums are just chilling at Mike's house. I miss my drums :\ I haven't played in motherloads. Maybe I should find some other people who are looking for a drummer ;] haha but who wants a chick as a drummer? Last night was fun, hung out with my best friend since forever, Justin and the whole "gang." hmmm I'm going to show him how to make a guitar soon. that would be good since i have to make a buncha guitars for people and i have no time to make all of them myself. ASSiSTANCE! right justin? anyway i'm beginning to not make sense. bah. i want someone to love.... |
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| 08:06am 17/06/2003 | ||||
I miss him and i'm scared of Him. When my luck finally comes around it seems like there are too many consequences. but i guess unfortunately that's how life goes. I just want to forget him. The way he smiles his laugh his corny jokes the way he drives the way his hand felt when he held mine the way we hugged... it all went well. we form something so beautiful. so beautiful we close our eyes. |
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