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testing this out
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[21 May 2003|01:18pm] |
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Hm. Just one more night. Thank the Gods. I don't think I can handle it anymore. Last night, I had to chain myself before I transformed. It was painful. More so than usual. I really hate being what I am. I just want to go through life, saying that I have one. -sigh-
I tried to make it down to breakfast. Not that I was hungry, but it helps me if I see people. Talk to them, atleast. But I couldn't, so I just stayed in my containment, now waiting the last time. I know I feel more rejuvenated after this night, which is what I need, with the gloomy attitude I've been having the past week or so. Maybe I will finally squeeze some time in to visit the 'Black Shack', like I have been promising for the past week.
On a happier note, I will say: I AM NOT ADDICTED TO SLEEPING DRAUGHTS!! -ahem- But I might need one tomorrow night, I -never- sleep right after a Full Moon. So, Severus, if you read this, I will swing by tomorrow to try and persuade you out of one. So, be prepared.
-Remus
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[15 May 2003|10:31am] |
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Life is so grand. Isn't it? I want all of the world to know how bloody -grand- it is. Won't you all agree with me? -glares- You bloody better agree with me.
-pause- Sorry about that. I am not in the best of moods. I have a headache. I just stubbed my toe on my dresser. I can't bloody get my hair to stay put back. I can't do anything right today. -sighs annoyingly- Sorry again. I do not know what had come over me. I just want to go to sleep, but I can't. I accidentally drank two Sleeping Draught Potions last night, when I was already half-asleep. And when I take too many, it sort-of reverses the effect. So, yeah. I haven't had any sleep for the past day or so, and it also has made me more active. Bloody hell. I really wish to talk to somebody. I really -need- to talk to somebody. Heh. Even a cute little fluffy buny rabbit would do if no one else wants to.
Well, I best me off. I have to prepare for tonight.
-Lupin
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| 4 Days Left |
[09 May 2003|01:18pm] |
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I woke up this morning feleing something that I had not felt in a -long- time. Not weak. I felt energised. I hope I haven't jinxed myself now. That's always the case ^ ^. And it is extremly odd since I am so close, yet so far from the Full Moon. It perplexes me. It's never happened before.
I am also feeling very....mischievous today as well. Like how I felt whenever me, James, Sirius, and Peter would feel when we were doing a prank, or making one up. And I can't say how long that I haven't felt -that- way. And you know, as a side note, whenever you get into one of those -feelings-, it doesn't go away until you've doing something...well...mischievous and prankish. Maybe I will try and get ahold of Sirius one of those days I feel like it again. I would today, but...he has never answered my owl to meet him somewheres. I really hope he isn't mad at me anymore.
Severus was extremly mad at me when I locked the two in my room together, fore he threathened to kill me with some Silver indused potion afterwards. Oh, well. I am not afraid. He's been threathening that for years now. Maybe one day he might take the plunge and do it. I seem to aggravate him a lot of the time. Well, I must be off. I have some planning to do. Until then.
-Remus Lupin
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[05 May 2003|07:50am] |
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Dear Journal,
I feel so horrible, with this bloody hangover. This why I try not to drink. Plus, I forgot to ask for the supposed 'Morning After Potion'. Peachy. Just fine and peachy. Not only did I make a fool of myself at the Ball, but I made a fool out of myself infront of many other people. I know for a fact that I embarrased the Wazoo out of Severus and Sirius, which, if they read this, I am terribly sorry. But it is sort-of too late now. The damage is done to my calm, and reserved attire. They tried to get me to bed, but I kept wanting to go back for those bedamned Muggle Animal Crackers. They should of just shot me then. Pity Miss Granger didn't have a Muggle gun located on her. They could come in handle if she didn't have her wand on her. That would have been nice if she did. I bet Severus and no doubt Sirius would of loved to cram my mouth shut with those crackers. Maybe I would stopped then.
Well, I sort-of feel my friendship right now with Sirius is a bit strained, because of...stuff that we need to talk out. We many not even say anything, but atleast we would try. I really need to write him a letter, or something, asking if we could talk alone, while I am not pished. I might actually be able to ring around a set of normal sounding words. I also feel horrible about locking them in my room, trying to force them to be nice to each other. It has to be gradual. They think it is 'impossible'. It is -NOT- impossible, only improbable.
Well, I really best be off. I am feeling ever more horrible than before. Maybe I can ask Albus to just let me skip the whole week? It is a Full Moon soon. And Bloody Heck. I still need to get that stronger dosage potion from Severus.
-Remus
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[04 May 2003|07:06am] |
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Dear Journal,
Here's my costume. I don't care what people think, or how scared they wil be of me. They are scared of me when I am in human form, so why not go dressed in my other one? It's not that it looks anything like a real one. This is what the Muggles think they look like. Severus threathened to beat me up or send a formal complaint to the Ministry of Magic if I did. He just wants to have a chance to do it, and will take any chances he can to beat me up. -=pretends to sniffle=- Why everybody not like me? -=lip quivers before smiling=- Don't fret. I'm used to it. People try to curse me up to the wazoo with curses, unforgivable and not. Or atleast try to beat me up, all year round. Like I said, it's normal for me.
-Remus 
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[02 May 2003|05:21am] |
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Dear Journal,
Well, Dumbledore finally informed us when the Dance was. I mean, I was guessing it would be on...you know, Halloween, but there are times when Dumbledore holds them on different days, just because he can. I still don't know what I will go as. I probably won't go as anything. What would I go as? There are not many things to go as. Maybe I'll be lucky, and my creativity will kick in before the Ball. Probably not. -=sighs, but perks=- But atleast I'll be able to go for a bit, before I have to go do Rose-Bush duty for a bit. But atleast the adults will get to stay a bit longer after the kids leave.
Anyways, I must be off. I am way too tired to write anymore. Damn it. I love that cloak that Severus lent me, but it gets me so hot! Whew!
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[01 May 2003|08:14am] |
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Journal,
I just got ahold of a box of chocolate. I don't know where they came from. If somebody asks, I'll say they came from the kitchen. But, truth be told, I found them in my room. Maybe a House-elf has a thing for me? -=shudders suddenly=- Oh,well. There was no note. Maybe the House-elves know that Chocolate is my weak spot. Weak spot, yet still the thing that makes me hyper the most. Bleh. Caramel. I hate that one. Oh. There's a Coconut, but I am not too fond of that one either. Maybe I can find people to eat the ones that I don't want to eat. That could work.
Okay. I am not feeling too good now. Maybe they were drugged? Nah. I probably ate too much. See? -=holds up a box that is nearly empty=- Hmph. Well, I am hyper now, and I need to go to the Three Broomsticks, because I believe Severus stayed there, since he was not in his room last night, after I returned. Plus, I need a drink. Of something. Probably water. Until then.
-Remus
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[25 Apr 2003|04:07pm] |
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Well, I decided I should write a bit, even though I don't have the slightest bloody idea what I should write about. I am feeling quite well, despite the fact that I have a desk full of ungraded papers that really need to be graded. I'll get to it one of these days.
I really need a drink. I don't care what people say about me writing about in this journal, but I do. Maybe I will visit the Three Broomsticks and have a chat with Madam Rosmerta, which I promised her one day. Well, this is short but felt good to write. Well, I must be off. I have to find something worthwhile to negiotate when I go to get the Sleeping Draught from Severus tonight. Heh. Can't find anything. Maybe he can tell me something, and I will repay him? I hope so, because I don't have anything that is considered 'negiotatble'. Until then.
-Remus Lupin
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| Learnage of the Ball |
[22 Apr 2003|02:43pm] |
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Well, I just received (late) word that there will be a Halloween Ball this year, which I have to say, I think will be rather exciting. I don't know why though. I've been to a few before, but not as a teacher, but as a student when I went here.
Hm. I am guessing that since Albus is going to try to go as Ulric the Oddball, then the other professors can dress up as well? Maybe I should dress up as a werewolf. I know I'd scare a lot, because..well...I am one. Oh,well. I am going to try and find out what other people are going to go as. Hopefully, they will go as something. I hate being the only oddball at a party(no pun intended). Well, anyways. Last night was entertaining to an extent. Madam Rosmerta came to visit Hogwarts, after she closed up her shop, and she ran into me, Severus, and Bill. Colin Creevey joined us a bit later, but he had a funner time staring at Rosmerta's bosom, than anything else.
My stomach is feeling bloated now. I ate too many rolls with butter. I actually gave away one of my secrets to Severus last night. What is it? Whenever I see people eat, I get just as hungry. That is one secret that I kept to myself, but now he knows this. Gr. He is going to use that against me next time I am not feeling hungry again. I swear he will. Just wait and see. Okay. That wasn't really a 'secret', but it could be....sort-of. It's too late. I really need to get some of that Sleeping Draught that I told Severus that I probably didn't need tonight. And like always, I was wrong. I always need the bloody stuff. Damn this mind of mine.
-Remus Lupin
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[21 Apr 2003|10:35am] |
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Well. Here I am. Writing in this journal, that was given to me. I have not always been fond of writing in journals, but if people are forcing me to do so, I guess that I must do it.
Well, I got lost. I must have picked up the wrong instructions, because I could not find anybody. Anywheres. That is what I get for taking the Wolvsbane Potion before receiving anything that has words on it. Bloody Potion. I really hate it. I think Severus enjoys administrating it to me, since that means he will take over my class on those 'ill' days, and give my students an extra amount of homeowrk to do, than they normally do.
Oh,well. Well, the effects of the Wolvsbane Potion have passed, and hopefully, people will not take my absence as saying that I did not want to show up. I did....I just got lost. Well, I hope no one wanted a length to this bloody journal, because I don't think I can write much anymore. Gaah. Someone put caffeine in my drink. They will pay.
-Remus Lupin
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