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new journal [28 Feb 2004|04:20pm]
I got a new journal it's xmiss_viciousx add me on that one!
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BLAH BLAH BLAH DI BLAH [26 Feb 2004|02:07pm]
[ mood | HATED ]
[ music | anything on drive-thru ]

awww, today we had to switch seats in 4th block it sux, ashley this is for you: bring that note you wrote richard so i can sign it, i helped raise money too wigga! and yeah 4 days til the kill hannah show, i guess nick is gonna give me money to buy him an imarobot shirt. yeah, i'm bored today nothing has happened all day that even begins to interest me. no one answered my post about the icon thing, thanx guys you hate me! well i'm gonna go because i really have nothing to talk about...PEACE!

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5 days [25 Feb 2004|11:33am]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | THE EARLY NOVEMBER ]

oh yay, 5 days until the Kill Hannah concert! i can't wait, today i am in a good mood, i sat and talked to nick today for awhile, and i hate to say it but he looks better and better everyday. there is this new schedule thing at the school now about when you can come in the library.....GGRRRR..... now i am only gonna be able to update every other day, because i am banned from mine. except today because jeff isn't in town...oi, what to say! the other day i found out that amy was in girl scouts...wow, thats odd because she is a sophmore and yeah whatever. aj asked me to marry him the other day i told him i hate him because i really do wanna get married and he just did it because i said i'm waiting til marriage to have sex....haha, i get it. nothing left to talk about so i am out like a light bulb...PEACE!

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[20 Feb 2004|11:56am]
someone help me, i want to change my icon to the early november, senses fail, someone on drive-thru records where do i get them help!
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[19 Feb 2004|11:45am]
[ mood | loved ]
[ music | brand new ]

talk later, andrew e-mailed me back and he said "HOLLA", AWWW, I LOVE HIM!

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everything is so complicated these days.... [18 Feb 2004|11:32am]
[ mood | blank ]
[ music | story of the year, funeral for a friend ]

so i don't know why but i think i am gonna take this time to talk about the wrecks that recently happend a few days ago. two teens were killed in a car accident and one gradutated from our school. i seen it on the news the other day and i can't seem to believe that all these people are dying and so fast. another girl died in a wreck in franklin who was only a teenager and on top of all these deaths we had an assembly today on drunk driving. i am straight edge...now, so the thought of all those people who died in innocense of others mistakes frightens me. i haven't yet relized that were all gonna die, i have this feeling of i'm gonna live forever...and i know i won't! i have been so far away from faith lately. i haven't prayed in a couple nights and for some reason i let it slip my mind and don't really be hard on myself about it anymore. i did want to play in a christian band, but all these things keep telling me that i'd only do it for the reasons i feel intimidated to. for some reason i feel like God won't bless me with the attention i hope to get in music if its not for him. and then i look at bands like Good Charlotte who say they believe in God and show it, but are not a christian band. it's not that i don't won't to spread His word cause i do, but theres other issues in my life that the only way i can express them to the full extent is through my music because other than God, music is all i have ever had, thats why i would turn down doing homework to pick up my guitar. and i don't wanna live a life of lies. i am not a great christian i try to be, but i'm not. i know people like tyler and dustin who play in a christian band, and go to church, intimidates me. because i think their perfect people they don't ever make mistakes, and i don't want people to look at me like that, i want them to be open to me and then maybe better open up to God too, someone once told me that in a christian band you can give a message about God to people but you can't keep preaching to the same crowd. and as of right now i want to play about everyday issues, while i am open about my beliefs...is that bad? i wanna go on tour with new found glory, and good charlotte, and rancid and all these bands i look up to. i want people see where i come from as far as you live a normal life, but no life is really life unless you know who blessed you with it.....and just to notice it!

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howdy! [16 Feb 2004|03:48pm]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | ALL THATS LEFT ]

i am in the best mood ever you guys! i am listening to all thats left right now, and i haven't heard them in forever and it reminds me of how much i love them! please everyone check them out on purvolume.com! one of their songs as additional vocals by ryan key for those of you who don't know who he is...he is the lead singer of Yellowcard! i love them, and i just found out friday that their playing on the surf and skate festival in april in new jersey with bands like rufio, the early november, coheed and cambria, which ash is dying to see! so i am gonna try to get them a show here in ohio cuz i love them and i want everyone to know how great they are. so check out www.allthatsleft.com RIGHT NOW!!!!!!

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SHWING! [12 Feb 2004|11:31am]
[ mood | annoyed ]
[ music | HELLOGOODBYE, THEIR GOOD! ]

oh, today nothing happening today, i am so bored outta my mind. okay yesterday josh decided to pay a visit to the library and sit right next to me! for those of you who don't know, i'll make a long story short. josh is a senior i have gone to church with for a few years and he goes to my school. i started liking him alot and he led me on, he kissed me at homecoming and told me the only reason he couldn't date me was because he had to much going on his life. he tried to get me to mess around with him, but i told no after i heard he was messing around with this nasty fat lesbian whore, so he said ok lets just be friends then. i didn't wanna be just friends i wanted that rumor to not be true but he lied about everything else so what would have made me believe him. anyway, he started dating this midget named libby, right after he told me he didn't wanna a relationship, and started telling people that i was obsessed with him that he never really liked me he was joking and i believed him. i liked josh alot and he crushed my heart into so many pieces i don't think i could ever forgive him. no everyone knows his little lawn elf lover was the one calling me and ashley the "good charlotte girls" in a negative sense. so he sat by me talking to me like i cared and then asked me to open the door for him and when i did, he said "oh your so sweet, thats why your my best friend"....BEST FRIENDS? AFTER WHAT HE DID TO ME, HE CALLS US BEST FRIENDS! I DON'T THINK SO....NEVER, NO ONE HAS EVER HURT ME LIKE HIM....I HATE YOU JOSH, AND I HATE YOUR STUPID J-LO ASS MIDGET BITCH OF YOURS....I HOPE ONE OF YOU READ THIS!

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[11 Feb 2004|11:42am]
[ mood | angry ]
[ music | a static lullaby ]

i don't feel like talking today, tell you why later!

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to carrie! [10 Feb 2004|12:09pm]
you, ashley, and bethann are my best friends and i appreciate that post a lot. thanx for that it makes me feel better! and terrah and jocyeln can be pissed about the chris thing.lol, the tyler thing really crushed me!
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today.... [10 Feb 2004|11:51am]
[ mood | calm ]
[ music | hidden in plain view! and bad apple... ]

everyone ignore my last update! i was really bummed and even tho i can say suicide is the option, i can't bring myself to do it! i lost a friend to suicide a couple years ago it was the end of my 8th grade year and she killed herself 4 days before we got out for the summer. it does suck and i don't know what my problem was yesterday but i let everyone and everything get the best of me. i am glad that 4th block was full of laughs it cheered me up and made me relize i don't wanna go back to those times where crying to seemed to be hobby. i prayed for awhile the other night, one of the longest prayers ever...and i just asked God to make a permanent stay in my life, but i don't understand why i feel so..."empty". i think going to those shows are a big slap of reality to me, until i go back to school the following week. i fall into sin, and bad habits i can't seem to drop, like cussing! as hard as i try to control my mouth sometimes i say things not even realizing that i said it. grrr...just like the other day my ears are gaged and i started gaging my second hole...i had a 12 g in them and my mom took them!!! she is not aware of my first hole which is a shock ashley can see through them i feel bad about hiding it under my hair when i'm at home, but i really don't care. i wanna obey her but i can't bring myself to do it, yet! she's needs to ease up. anyway thanx for the support, i think today is better i think i act really weird sometimes and i don't even realize it til later, so ignore that beatch.....things i think would be weird without me, i swear my friends and God are the only things keeping me alive!

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feeling stupid! [06 Feb 2004|11:58am]
i know this is stupid...but how do i join communities? i wanna join the drive-thru records one but don't know how!
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I JUST DON'T GIVE A FUCK! [06 Feb 2004|11:44am]
[ mood | devious ]
[ music | RISE AGAINST! ]

wow, yeah whats up! man today is friday i love it! and hopefully this weekend me and ashley can hang out or whatever because the show in kettering today is to far and starts to late to even go. i know carrie "loves" jeremy but i think she should go to some shows with us and meet some new people MONROE IS DEAD! there are hardly any cool people here. me and brandon herron have been getting along lately, and him and mike were talking about this picture i had taken of myself over the summer, which was the big talk there for awhile, and how they would have "bashed" me! yeah i have to admit i don't get hit on at all anymore...and i don't know if that was meant as a joke or a complement! i don't care every guy i had class with asked me to see that picture if i can i will try to put it on here. i'm hot...what, what HOLLA! LOL

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[05 Feb 2004|11:32am]
[ mood | aggravated ]
[ music | tsunami bomb ]

oh today, oi,oi,oi! well theres not a whole lot going on there is a bunch of 7th graders in here and i think their teacher is trying to make me feel obligated to give my computer up! that guy that looks like sid vicious is in here he is like 2 yrs. younger than me but he's hot! this sucks it's snowing outside I HATE THE SNOW, but knowing monroe we'll never get out early i hear the roads are supposed to be bad. we had to write this thing in 2nd block for the kids over at the elementry(spell check) and i have to draw all the pictures. i am so sick of hearing about all this art crap yeah i kinda have a talent for it and my art teacher is wanting me to do art shows and contest and the only thing on my parents minds are do it you can go to college! that word makes me sick because i know thats not what i wanna do. i wanna play in a band and tour 11 months outta the year but no i have to live in middletown one of the deadest cities in ohio, and on top of that i go to school where theres a bunch of farm kids or drug adicts! this is so crazy.....if someone plays anything let me know.

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READ!!!!! [04 Feb 2004|11:51am]
[ mood | sad ]
[ music | NEW FOUND GLORY ]

ok so i am a hypocrite, that _decay chick told me that i didn't respond to her journal so she told me to take her off....and i got mad that she wanted me to take her off for someting like that but no one responds to mine and i feel like i am just typing for no reason i'm sorry...i'm quoting joel.....say anything, say anything!

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this song is in my head fo sho...... [03 Feb 2004|11:44am]
[ mood | groggy ]
[ music | NEW FOUND GLORY FO SHIZZLE DIZZLE ]

tell all my friends I'm dead
I'm leaving you, this time its for good
tell all my friends that I'm dead
it won't be long before you forget my name

can you tell
that I'm losing myself
I think I'm trying too hard to
let it show
to let you know
Don't trace your footsteps back to me

cause I've been gone for a long time
waiting on the sidelines
hoping for a chance to play
well I thought I would never leave anything behind
I also never thought I'd say

tell all my friends I'm dead
I'm leaving you, this time its for good
tell all my friends that I'm dead
it won't be long before you forget my name

can you tell
that I don't know myself
I need someone to remind me
to let it go
please let me know
Don't trace your footsteps back to me

cause I've been gone for a long time
waiting on the sidelines
hoping for a chance to play
well I thought I would never leave anything behind
I also never thought I'd say

tell all my friends I'm dead
I'm leaving you, this time its for good
tell all my friends that I'm dead
it won't be long before you forget my name

and if I had the chance
to do it all again
I wouldn't expect anything less
and if I had the chance
to do it all again
I wouldn't expect
I wouldn't expect anything less

tell all my friends I'm dead
I'm leaving you, this time its for good
tell all my friends that I'm dead
it won't be long before you forget my name

forget my name



i am going to ashley's today after school and after i got the nfg dvd i am obsessed with them! GO BUY IT!

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[02 Feb 2004|11:31am]
[ mood | chipper ]
[ music | all thats left ]

people walk so slow in the hallways, it makes me so mad, there is this girl who made me late for 3rd block because she was taking her time down the hallway smiling and waving at every guy who passed her, and then i was trying to get around her when the lunch bell was ringing....come on, anyway the kill hannah show, i hope we can go because mat devine's voice is so addicting...and yesterday i got the new found glory dvd. which is really funny and i left my guitar over at ashley's house so i got to go get that. i am yet to hear from that stupid telemarketing place that i put in an application for i need a job! yeah this library guy is trying to make me buy a candy bar which i am sick of hearing because he has asked me all last week and i don't feel like hearing it. we only got about 60 dollars for dklimb and i want more because we're sending the money to richard this week. i have not talked to andrew in forever but i told steve this weekend that i can get them a show up here if he would let me know, but no they would rather play 3 hrs away so we can take time outta our lives to go! lol, just kidding i would drive how ever long it took so i am gonna go now before something makes me mad and i start complaining!

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"if you were a telephone you'd still be off the hook".... [30 Jan 2004|11:55am]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | Rufio ]

dude, today is going okay i mean yesterday was crappy but today is friday and yeah theres not a whole lot going on this weekend there isn't a show or anything and i cannot wait to get the Goodwen cd cause that would just be awesome! yeah something reminded me of tyler just now, he always wears his hood up and occasionally i do with like a beanie or something and just about every teacher i passed they were like, TAKE THAT OFF! whatever...yeah i learned how to play darko by slick shoes oh yeah, dude i am good my next task is to play "science fiction" by Rufio, yeah i just like the beginning and if i could play that than thats cool for me. some kid just walked in and he looks like sid vicious. yeah hot! so carrie was mad at me or something like that because her boyfriend made some big deal outta something i posted in her journal a couple days ago it wasn't bad or nothing and she wasn't mad after she read it, but he made a huge thing out of it, and it makes me mad because he wonders why all of carrrie's friends don't like him well ya know you can't treat people like crap and then demand respect. i mean he got me kicked out for 5 days because he threw water on me and i guess didn't expect me to jump up and do something about it. he has thrown water on erin sherry before too and she didn't do anything so apparently he thought that with me too. no i don't play that! i got up grabbed alicia's pop and threw it in his face and then the can at his head. yeah that idiot only got 3 days. whatever maybe he learned that he can't just do whatever he feels like to anyone he feels like. i don't let people walk all over me and you out in the studio audience shouldn't either...valuable lesson learned today don't let people walk on you......unless their bigger!

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[29 Jan 2004|11:35am]
[ mood | depressed ]
[ music | " A song for a broken heart" static lullaby ]

you know i am so used to having my heart broken, that i don't even think it's an emotion anymore. when you hear your name spoken by the one you think you could love forever it sounds so much better rolling off the tip of their tounge. and i don't think i could put into words how much this someone has made me realize that love at first sight doesn't exist anymore so i like this song and it has a good point.....



Take this for what it's worth
This song, my smile
Now take this for what it's worth
This song, my smile
Smile

I write to you from hell my song, leaving the foot against the gas
And the wall that must have said your name
Weaken me, for nothing you can say can stop this now
Would a noose replace his lips?
(Would a noose replace)

Can a song replace a broken heart?
Now can a song replace broken love?
No
On the beach, I remind myself
That holding hands is so powerless
Tonight, I don't even have the stars
To hold onto
(To hold onto)

Paint
Paint this red
Paint this red
Yeah, paint this red
Paint
I'll paint this red
I'll paint this red
Paint this red

Her picture will remain unbroken, she cries tonight,
"I fall in love"
(I fall in love)
Wipe each tear away
With sandpaper
Tonight, I'm not alone

And I just wanna get your f***ing voice out of my head

Can a song replace a broken heart?
Now can a song replace broken love?
No

Fall within the paint
Won't you fall within the break?
Why won't you fall?
Why won't you fall
On the paint?

On the beach, I remind myself
That holding hands is so powerless
Tonight, I don't even have the stars
To hold onto
(To hold onto)

Can a song replace broken love?
Now can a song replace a broken heart?
No
No
No
No

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ANGEL [28 Jan 2004|11:36am]
[ mood | curious ]
[ music | SLICK SHOES ]

i wish someone would write a song like this for me, but it reminds me of a certain someone!

Looking into your eyes I see all I want to be
And I don't want it to end
If I could only put into words the way I see you
I only know I have an angel with me now

And when I fall asleep your all that I see
You're in my thoughts and all of my prayers
I wish I could mean all that you mean to me
My angel without wings (My angel)

I wish you could see all that you mean to me
But I could never find the words to tell you

That when I fall asleep you're all that I see
You're in my thoughts and all of my prayers
I wish I could mean all that you mean to me
And when I fall asleep your all that I see.
You're in my thoughts and all of my prayers.
I wish I could mean all that you mean to me.
My angel without wings.

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