SPOKANE>>>>   
08:12pm 22/02/2004
 
mood: full
music: Friends DVD
Im in spokane with my sister, and aj, and erica, and shawnda, and everyone else. I havent posted in forever!!! Wow, i forgot i had this journal, how weird. So hmmmm... where to begin. Umm... life has been very interesting, very interesting i must say. So much has happened yet so much is the exact same. I still cant stand school, my social life is still a bluhr. Ahhhh... well its good to say hi to my blurty, its been soooo long. Im out though, peace!
 
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Boring Life...   
12:43pm 04/02/2004
 
mood: content
music: JP
Well i just got done working out. Rightnow i am so frustrated, there are some people i just cant be around or talk to, i just dont understand them. Uggghh, its so annoying. Well this weekend i am going up to seattle for a formal dance, with some kid i have never met. Me and 4 other girls are going, it should be way fun, the guys are paying for everything, they are loaded. So that should be a good get away. Im staying at justines on friday night, that will be fun too, i wish she was going to seattle, oh well though. Man almost done with my senior year, thats crazy. I need a cute guy to hang with, man, oh well! When i go to school ill find a hot boy all for myself. Well i dont have anything else to write, peace!
 
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What to do...   
06:10pm 31/01/2004
 
mood: drained
music: Jamison Parker
Well my parents just left for the night or atleast until early morning when which they will stumble in from a drunkin party, ha i love it! Well since my last update im doing a little better, i just man, i dont know, i hate so many things. Its really hard to explain. I dont know what to do tonight, Im supposed to hang out with brian and ben, its been so long since i have seen them, im excited. There isnt anything to interesting that has occured in my life. Except pure drama, ha! I am real proud though, i worked out 5 times this week and 4 times last week, im on a role baby! Last night me and justine went and ate at the montage, it was good, but awkward, we sat into between two married couples. I felt like i couldnt speak, as if they were going to pry in on our conversation. Our waiter carl was an absolute doll, plus he made me an airplane and justine a 3 foot tall giraffe, it was great. Last night was an okay evening, a girls night out on the town. Not to mention the interesting and entertaining pit-stop at Java Bay, that was classic Justine, a real classic! Well i dont know what to do tonight and i am sick of typing, peace!
 
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one shitty night...   
11:08pm 27/01/2004
 
mood: crushed
music: The Spill Canvas
well i wont go into detail, its too hard to explain, and not something i want to think about so much. Im so sick of life right now though, too much to deal with. Nothing seems to be going my way. Go figure though right, isnt that how it always is, or maybe thats how its supposed to be, and your supposed to be strong and fight back. I've been fighting this for too long, i have nothing left in me anymore, i just want to hide from it. That wont help though, i just hate it sooooo much. I just want to sit on my porch and smoke and drink a damn good beer and be happy. yea i may laugh alot, im good at being what i dont feel inside, i cant do that anymore either. Maybe i just need to be alone for a while, alond from the world, everything. That whole idea kinda freaks me out though, i dont know what i need. I feel as though im at a dead end, im broken down, and now im stuck in a horrible place!
 
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I love food..   
11:10am 26/01/2004
 
mood: awake
music: Death Cab For Cutie
Last night i ate at the Montage, it was soooooo freakin good. They have the best mac and cheese and bread with pesto sauce, it was my weakness. I could eat that all the time, everyday for the rest of my life, that and cookies and cream ice cream. Justine got these mushrooms, they were really good too! Then when we were done they wrapped out food in left overs. This bitchy lady did it, she made me and kitty, justine a snail, and she made katie a freakin scorpion, pretty weird! Well i had fun there and want to eat there again right now, but i wont! Peace!
 
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HELL CHILDREN!   
05:56pm 24/01/2004
 
mood: drained
music: Ozzy Osbourne
Im never babysitting ever again, today has been the most interesting day of my life. I got there this morning at 8:30am and didnt get dont until about 15 minutes ago. This child is psycho, she layed on the floor for 1 hour screming because she wanted string cheese, she wouldnt eat dinner, oh man she is nuts! Im so glad im done, but im way hungry and my dad is going to walstreet for me, im excited to eat. Last night i watched requiem for a dream again with nate, michael, and smokey, it was good. Nate was moving a lot, he ate lots of brownies, and then he fell asleep! I dont know what im going to do tonight, i hope i have fun. Smokey better have made my hoody or ill be pissed! Man i dont know what else to write and im pooped, so im out! Peace!
 
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Long day...   
10:09pm 22/01/2004
 
mood: lethargic
music: none
So im talkin to elise right now, shes a rad girl, me and justine are chatting too. I just got back from babysitting and made $20, so it was pretty much worth it. I have to babysitt on saturday from 9am-6pm, its gonna be hell! Oh well im broke and need money, i should just be a prostitue or stripper, they make good cash! Today is my 3rd day or working out in a row, thats soooo good for me, i need to be skinny, think skinny! I hope I have a good weekend. I just have to say that i hate immature people, they need to be moved to another planet. Its just an idea though. Hmmm.. what to write, i am at a loss for words. Man i need to boogy, its been a hella long time, hm! Plus i wouldnt mind being miss spirit happy this weekends, i havent toughed any alcohol in a while, i think im due! Well im going to go to bed, its been too long of a day, peace!
 
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at home...   
10:05pm 20/01/2004
 
mood: peaceful
music: Coheed and Cambria
so i just got home from smokeys, we chilled for a bit, chatted, it was cool. Before that i was at justines house, me and her and josiah had burgers and watched american idol. That show freakin cracks me up, those people are crazy! My friend brian is back from corvallis, AMFA's old drummer, i love that kid. Im excited for the weekend, finals will be over. Im going to bomb my math test on thursday, it sucks, too bad im failing the class already! dang, lifes a bitch i guess~ hmmm what to do tomorrow, i get done with school at 9:48am, hell yea! I should go work out like i did today, good job amelia! I still need to change and be skinny, yes im excited! Me and nate and smokey may go to hawthorne, im sure the plans will fall through though, ha! Well i dont know what to types now, so peace!
 
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Lazy girl!   
10:19pm 19/01/2004
 
mood: indescribable
music: Jason Mraz
Im so lazy, i didnt do anything today. I tried to study but that didnt work too well! Then i sat around on my fat ass like i always do and watched some tv! Man, i need to be more active, im getting fatter and uglier everyday! Im going to change that though, and be freakin hot this summer, ha! It would be great! last night me and nate and smokey stopped by a "party", man it was definitley different, somewhat trashy in a way, but whatever floats your boat i suppose! I think i need to change something about myself, this is my soul searching entry! Besides my weight, i want to change myself. I mean yea im a cool chick to hang with, but i dont know. Nevermind im not sure what im talking about! I just want to find a hot boy to love me, thats my new project! Man tomorrow is finals. That blows sooooo much! Oh well, it must be done! Well im at a loss for words, so peace!
 
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HMMMM....   
12:24am 18/01/2004
 
mood: drained
music: Dashboard
So ya i just got back from nates. You would figure that if you told boys you dont like something, that they would see your freaked out when your hiding in a bathroom, and maybe they would stop? Yea right! Im stuck in a bathroom with smokey, while josiah and nate sit outside like little girls giggling! Yea it was somewhat funny at first but not later. I know its stupid, but it scares me shitless! Thanks guys! Im soooo tired now, my heart hurts~ I just finished up my project for the day, it turned out pretty good! I wonder what my day will bring tomorrow? Hmmmm.... i guess i will just find out when it comes. I feel kinda grouse, i didnt take a shower today, i wore my head wrap, i like it! I went to another concert last night, Desert City Soundtrack! It was a pretty good show. Then i recieved a telephone call from the one and only sloth. He was drunk, even though he wouldnt admit it. It cracked me up! I dont know, my weekend has been pretty different, i dont know how to explain it, but it has! Oh nevermind. Well im going to go to bed now, peace!
 
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FUCK YEA!   
12:16am 16/01/2004
 
mood: ecstatic
music: Jamison Parker
Oh man, i love concerts! I just got home from the coheed show! it kicked ass, not to mention, me katie and justine got in for free from jamison, of jamison parker another band playing tonight, they did rad too! Man i am in such high spirits. Plus daniel and stephanie showed up, how classic, considering when i talked to him wednesday, he said no im not going. Oh man oh man oh man. I hope jamison calls katie, although he can have my number too, haha! I met this hot guy drew, dang he was fine! I shoulda got his digits, damn! oh well there are more shows and many of hot boys, ill find one sooner or later! Well im out, but my night definitley kicked ass, i rate it a 15 out of 10 for sure! Peace!
 
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SUCKY TV!   
10:11pm 14/01/2004
 
mood: awake
music: None
Oh wow, the OC really sucked tonight! I have to say i was very disappointed! Oh well the show is tomorrow night! YES!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
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A long day...   
03:46pm 14/01/2004
 
mood: pensive
music: Coheed and Cambria
So I was really tired when i got up this morning, i actually hit the sack at 11:00pm which is early for me. I had my easy classes today at school, so it wasnt too bad, but then i had some gay senior project meeting! It was so boring! Then i went to my mommys work, speaking of hair, mine looks really cute today! It is wavy, and it looks kinda natural, its never done this before. I need to go to the store with my mom when she gets home so i can get food for my diet, so im not ugly and fat anymore! It will be great! Im determined to be a M.I.L.F when im older, so i might as well get a head start on it. Im going to nates tonight for the O.C party, it should be an okay time. Man im excited me and justine are going to the nocturnal tomorrow night, its going to be soooooo fun! We have been waiting for this for soooo long! And im excited for the weekend, i dont have any plans but hey its better then school! i cant wait to be 18, it will be great! well im going to go talk to smokey some more, peace!
 
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Actually moving around....   
02:39pm 13/01/2004
 
mood: rejuvenated
music: Dave Matthews
OH man, i just have to say im so proud of myself. I just went and got off my ass for once and worked out, i mean cardio, lifting weights, the whole nine yards! Im going to work out everyday and then get pretty and skinny! YES! Well today at school sucked, i had p.e. and math, man i hate my teacher, she is such a bitch! Yesterday i ventured to Mr. Harbolds to retrieve my belongings, did i get them you wonder................................................ are you crazy, yea right~ They werent there, hmmm... where could they be, in daniels hands, yes im sure they are and im sure it will take fifty fucking years to get it back, ha, ha, ha, i laugh at this retarded and very old never ending situation! Hey erica just called my cell, but i was taking a pee break. Anyways.... im in this really weird mood, and i dont know why. not a bad one, just weird kinda! Well i need to shower so im out, peace!
 
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A good night!   
11:26pm 11/01/2004
 
mood: sleepy
music: Bon Jovi
So me and justine had some good bogys! man it is nice when the parents are gone! We have school tomorrow and really dont want to go! Smokey was being weird tonight, he said i had a bad attitude, apparently im a choo choo, whatever though! We will be over it, i have to have to the last word though smokey! Man i cant believe the snow is still here, and oh gosh i ran into my garage door. Im such an idiot, it is sooo funny! Not myself ran into it but with my car, haha! wait even worse my parents car, i still cant get over it! My dad was pissed! Well im going to hit the sack, alone unfortunatley, oh well, see ya!
 
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Man oh Man   
07:48pm 11/01/2004
 
mood: indescribable
music: Madonna
Well so i just ran into my garage door from the inside, while i was trying to back out my parents car! That was kind of a dumb thing to do, considering our garage door is now like and oval! Man, im really stupid, haha! So now im at justines and we are trying to do our math homework, but damn its too hard! Oh well, i hate that class so much i have decided im not going to try anymore. Oh i forgot to say, i made my sister this boyfriend in a box kit today. It is really cool, she is sad cause her boyfriend is gone so it will make her happy, and it is her birthday in a few days. Well man i really dont want to do this gay math homework. I just thought about how i really want to go to college right now, but me and justine are counting down, 6 months and counting..... im so excited! I am going to do whatever the hell i want all the time. Im going to be a rebel, haha! Maybe i will even meet a hot freakin piece that will fall in love with me and then we can get married and buy a studio apartment, and live happily ever after downtown and own our own shops! YEA! Or maybe that wont happen, but i sure hope it does! Well im goin to be on my way, peace!
 
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A movie night!   
11:01pm 10/01/2004
 
mood: content
music: Mtv on the televizel!
So right now its me, josiah, nate, justine, and heather. We watched Gummo tonight finally, smokey was here but then he left! I keep watching simon, incase he has a seizure again. Me and nate and justine went downtown today, we rode the max, it was fun! Then josiah rode the max down there and met us, we had a good time. When we got back justine and I went and picked up heather! Then we came back here, not to exciting night, but it hasnt been too bad! We are really bored though now, there is nothing to do. My mom and dad are out clubbing, haha, so i cant leave my brother here right now, that means i cant go anywhere. Oh well, im content! Well im going to go chill so more, so im out! Peace!
 
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WHAT I COULD BE DOING...   
01:01am 10/01/2004
 
mood: confused
music: The Real Slim Shaddy!
Well, me and justine got got back from java bay, a night boogy, it was nice! But damn, smokey is being retarted, we wanted to borrow the movie Gummo from him, but NO, of course, he wants to watch it tomorrow night~ What the heck, thats soooo gay! OH MAN MY DOG JUST HAD A SEZIURE! I just had to wake my dad from his sleep, and my dog was on the floor shaking and wiggling! Me and justine flew out our seats, i almost teared, i love my dog simon! He is better now though we think! Man we were eating too, and now our cereal is soggy, im not eating it, justine is though she doesnt care, she is hungry! She ate dinner at jojos, with his family, girls dont eat much when that happens! OH yea, we learned some japanese from Jin tonight! Iku Iku yarriman monka! Well im out, that is enough info for one night!
 
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FOUR WHEELING!   
12:33am 09/01/2004
 
mood: peaceful
music: Early November
Wow, i just got back from nates. Those Japanese cars kick ass at four wheeling! Nate is a pro at driving too! Nate, Michael, Smokey, and me watched this freakin weird movie. It was called Trainspotting! Man, talk about a freak show! It was fun though! Well im out!
 
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Sitting!   
08:16pm 08/01/2004
 
mood: lethargic
music: Death Cab For Cutie
Man, today has been pretty boring. Actually it wasnt too bad, I didnt go to bed til 4am last night because me and smokey sat up talking about nothing, its so weird how we can do that! Then I got up at 10:30 to go to my moms work and get my hair done. I died it and like it a lot. I had to come home and sleep, i was sooooo tired! Then i ventured to red robin with my family for dinner. The snow is getting soooo old, Im kind of looking forward to school on monday. I really need to go develop my film. Me and nate, and smokey took some pretty good pictures! Dang, Justine walked over to my house today, on her way back, she fell pretty hard right outside her fronts steps. She hit her head and said she was seeing stars! Im really sorry about that! Ha! Well Im going to go sit on my ass some more, maybe eat some more, i want the oreo ice cream in my freezer. I hope my night doesnt stay this boring, maybe something random and exciting will happen!
 
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