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XInNaMoRaTa11X: woooo! only 11 months and 27 days!
x0sh0otin star0x: yess!! scoree
x0sh0otin star0x: lol
XInNaMoRaTa11X: lol
XInNaMoRaTa11X: !!!!!!!!!!!
x0sh0otin star0x: we gotta wait so longg.. haha
XInNaMoRaTa11X: lol
XInNaMoRaTa11X: its be so great the day it comes
XInNaMoRaTa11X: itll*
x0sh0otin star0x: i n o we should have a party!!
x0sh0otin star0x: it'll b 'the day drea suggested i put this in .. ' party
XInNaMoRaTa11X: !!!!
XInNaMoRaTa11X: yes!
XInNaMoRaTa11X: ur brilliant
x0sh0otin star0x: hah i no thank you thank you 8-)
XInNaMoRaTa11X: lol
XInNaMoRaTa11X: *bows*
x0sh0otin star0x: **throws hair around like im all important**
XInNaMoRaTa11X: lol
XInNaMoRaTa11X: *immitates u to look important too*
x0sh0otin star0x: lol ppl will b like wow they must b royalty
x0sh0otin star0x: n well be like muahahah yes.. we r! 8-) ;-) :-D
XInNaMoRaTa11X: lol
XInNaMoRaTa11X: wearing purple and all
x0sh0otin star0x: n then theyll b like ooohh. n well b like o plz don't touch my $3 shirt.. it was so expensive.. so we walk away sayin whos good? oh yes were good
XInNaMoRaTa11X: lol
XInNaMoRaTa11X: lmao
XInNaMoRaTa11X: we'll name everything sEan
x0sh0otin star0x: hhaha yeass!!
XInNaMoRaTa11X: and say it all kool
x0sh0otin star0x: ppl will b like damn i wanna b able to talk all cool like them cool cats
x0sh0otin star0x: n i want to be able to run into random little freshman boys saying LETS GO
x0sh0otin star0x: hahaah
XInNaMoRaTa11X: lol damn straight
XInNaMoRaTa11X: LEZGO
x0sh0otin star0x: hahaha
XInNaMoRaTa11X: lolol
XInNaMoRaTa11X: lmao was he freshman
XInNaMoRaTa11X: oh man
x0sh0otin star0x: i have no idea i think so
XInNaMoRaTa11X: i totally forgot
x0sh0otin star0x: haha
x0sh0otin star0x: him n his lil bright blue scarf.. who does he think he is?!?! come on now..
x0sh0otin star0x: haha
XInNaMoRaTa11X: ??!!!
XInNaMoRaTa11X: he had a bright blue scarf?
XInNaMoRaTa11X: lmao
x0sh0otin star0x: hes jealous n hes tryin to b better than us.. uh oh i think we may need to take him on
x0sh0otin star0x: haha yeah
x0sh0otin star0x: it like blinded me wen he ran down the steps
x0sh0otin star0x: i was like woahh my eyes haha
XInNaMoRaTa11X: lmao
XInNaMoRaTa11X: lmao
XInNaMoRaTa11X: oh mannnnnnn
x0sh0otin star0x: haha
XInNaMoRaTa11X: hahaha its in my profile!
x0sh0otin star0x: hahha scoreee! 8-)
XInNaMoRaTa11X: i scared some other freshman today
x0sh0otin star0x: haha good job!
XInNaMoRaTa11X: i was screamin laurens name and she was next to laur, and she just stared at me
XInNaMoRaTa11X: lol
x0sh0otin star0x: haha
XInNaMoRaTa11X: lol
x0sh0otin star0x: poor freshman r prolly like damn watch out for that crazy italian sophmore.. she likes to scare us by yelling in our faces
XInNaMoRaTa11X: lmao
XInNaMoRaTa11X: shes crazy man! i heard she makes countdowns on days she says stuff!
x0sh0otin star0x: haha
x0sh0otin star0x: omg today i slammed my arm into those damn metal things comen out the wall
XInNaMoRaTa11X: awwwwwwwwwwww
x0sh0otin star0x: cuz i was waven to sumone behind me n i was like slam putten my arm bac my my side. n then u hear me sssshhhhitttttttttttttttttttttttt
x0sh0otin star0x: lol
XInNaMoRaTa11X: awwwwww
XInNaMoRaTa11X: i just broke my nail off at the skin
XInNaMoRaTa11X: :-(
XInNaMoRaTa11X: it was soo long
x0sh0otin star0x: awww
XInNaMoRaTa11X: and now it hurts
XInNaMoRaTa11X: and its ripped in my skin
x0sh0otin star0x: NEED A NAIL FILE!?!? i got one
x0sh0otin star0x: haha
x0sh0otin star0x: ahh!!! ouchh
x0sh0otin star0x: aww
XInNaMoRaTa11X: and ouchies
XInNaMoRaTa11X: lmao
XInNaMoRaTa11X: danielle needed one the other day
XInNaMoRaTa11X: we were laughin
x0sh0otin star0x: haah she saw me walk into lunch n the 1st thing she sed was like u got ur nail file!? lol i was like lmao
XInNaMoRaTa11X: lmao
XInNaMoRaTa11X: oh man
x0sh0otin star0x: hahhahahaha omgg lamo
x0sh0otin star0x: u should see my dad
XInNaMoRaTa11X: ??
x0sh0otin star0x: hahah hes gettin ready to take my dog out n he had like 3 pairs of pants on n he had this huge puffy bright blue n bright orange jacket with the hood up n his pants were tucked into brown boots.. haha i couldn't help but bust out laughen wen i saw him
XInNaMoRaTa11X: lolol
XInNaMoRaTa11X: awwww
x0sh0otin star0x: he was like wut .. in his brazilian accent .. n i was like nothin dad u look goood 8-) haha
XInNaMoRaTa11X: !!!! awwwwwwwww
XInNaMoRaTa11X: lol
XInNaMoRaTa11X: he has an accent
XInNaMoRaTa11X: how cute
x0sh0otin star0x: haha yea
XInNaMoRaTa11X: mmmmmmmmk
XInNaMoRaTa11X: im gg get some beauty rest
XInNaMoRaTa11X: i wont b in homeroom
x0sh0otin star0x: y not
XInNaMoRaTa11X: dentist
x0sh0otin star0x: aw :-(
x0sh0otin star0x: lol
x0sh0otin star0x: go make urself beautiful 8-)
XInNaMoRaTa11X: heheheh
XInNaMoRaTa11X: yes yes
XInNaMoRaTa11X: xoxoxoxo
x0sh0otin star0x: lol lyl
XInNaMoRaTa11X: ditto
x0sh0otin star0x: ill miss u u make my homeroom everydayY!!
XInNaMoRaTa11X: !!
XInNaMoRaTa11X: *sniffle*
x0sh0otin star0x: hah i will try n survive tomorrow
XInNaMoRaTa11X: keep it alive without me!
x0sh0otin star0x: i think i can do it
x0sh0otin star0x: lol
x0sh0otin star0x: i will!!
XInNaMoRaTa11X: u can!
XInNaMoRaTa11X: i know u can!
x0sh0otin star0x: haha i think i can i think i can *like the lil train person*
XInNaMoRaTa11X: lmao
XInNaMoRaTa11X: u will have to b powerful without me
XInNaMoRaTa11X: and if i miss that kid in the hall
XInNaMoRaTa11X: trip him for me
x0sh0otin star0x: haha you got it captain ;-)
XInNaMoRaTa11X: *salutes*
x0sh0otin star0x: *salutes bac*
XInNaMoRaTa11X: over and out
x0sh0otin star0x: lol night
haha wow drea our convos r the best.. they crack me up!! <3 ya i dunno if i can do everything u assigned me.. but ill try my besttt!
i put touched as my emotion b/c i feel touched by the all might drea !! hahaha
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ain't it funny how the small things in life make u smile?
ive been so friggin emo today n jus hearin one thing made me happy :)
i'm proud of you !!
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see that song bitch.. thats me n christinas songg! haah HOLLAA <33
hey..
like i said earlier i would update my jouranl again.. so here i am .. lol
bac on the sad topic of christmas.. it makes me tear almost everytime i talk about it.. it sux,,, but christmas is my favorite holiday along with thanksgiving.. im not in it for the food or presents its just the atmosphere that cheers me up.. but this year is a lil diff .. i don't understand why everyone can't jus b happy n all.. i no like everythings been goen wrong but we should b happy we r still here n all.. but like my house is so depressing b/c like my dads been outta a job n hes tryin everything to make money n my mom hasta pay all the bills. n like i feel bad b/c i think im given her a hard time.. i asked her earlier if we were gettin the other tree today.. n she was like we gotta do that n i was like ok i guess were not n then i was like can we goo look at cell phones *b/c she sed we r getten em* she like flipped out on me n was like elyse we don't have a lot of money n all n its christmas n i gotta buy all these presents n shit.. n i started to cry b/c i felt horrible.. i hear of ppls lists that are like worth $500 n shit n i could never do that b/c i don't want to see my parents upset that they coudlnt get me what i wanted.. i looked over my list today n i had 13 things on it n i felt bad so i took off 6 things that i really didn't need i figured i could save my own money n buy my self.. it doesn't help nemore that my dads walken around the house sayen 'the shits gunna hit the fan n all n that we r gunna have to move n shit.. it jus brings me down...i thought i was the only one goen thru this... i no someone that is goen thru it too. n it makes me sad wen i hear the story n like how much i can relate to it.. i hate gettin gifts from my friends too b/c i feel guilty n all.. i give all i got but i hate gettin it bac.. another reason why i love christmas is b/c im around all the ppl i no n love.. n that cheers me up =) i love my friends n if i didn't have them i think i would hate christmas or something more.. i wish i had someone that i could jus b with n b happy.. yeah not sayen my friends don't do taht but i want something more than that .. more than a friendship.. i no ill prolly never get that.. <3 n i no who i want but hey u can nvr have who u want .. rite? sux =( n i also want to say.. i am not doen this for one ounce of pity.. i no ppl might read this n b like this is all bullshit.. well its not.. its sadly the truth.. n i guess im not afriad to admit it.. i no wut a bad time my family is goen thru n i jus needed to say it .. i wrote all this b4 in a earlier entry but it deleted it.. so i will add nething from now on if i remember..
i wonder if that sounded weird.
newaysss .. yesterday iwoke up n it was still snowen .. it was cool lol .. i sat around n then showered n went out wit my dad to the mall n to this ladys house.. n then i came home n made plans to go to the mall so i started gettin ready n all.. then i chilled for like 2 hours lol went to the mall n dane keep maken me call jay n nick seein if they were tehre... ugh finally i got a hold of jay n he was at target.. haha weirdo.. lol j/k ;D... we went to friendly's b/c dani n dane wanted ice cream.. haha i love <3 that place n the convos that go on there.. haha wtf were all the employees doen.. haha it was so weird we think theres like somekinda like weird air in there.. hahah n i hit my head on the thing behind me b/c i was laughin so hard.. i couldn't stop coughin either it sucked.. my head hurt n my abs n chest hurt.. weird.. lol neway came home went online took medicine went to bed .. had a bad night sleep woke up chilled went online .. tina asked me to go to nicks wit her n dane n i sed sure but i fell asleep.. hahaa oh well i bet they didn't miss me that much. n im bored now n no ones rly talken.. so yeh i guesss thats alll foorr nooowww..
oh yeh bitch stop tryin to make u look important n like steal my firneds.. b.c it really ain't cool.. i dun wanna say nething b/c thats jus not me.. i actually did say sumin the other day n she was all like oh yeh this is it i promise its a one shot deall.. can yall say bullshit?! wen u im someone every single time they r online n come bac to me tellin me wut ur talken about n all this other shit THAT I ALREADY NO! i dunt think thats a one shot deal .. haha please leave him alone .. thanks very much :) :\ ...
christmas
DeCeMbEr 27tH
amys partyyyy!
i love you even though i no we will never b
nothing really matters anymore to me
ur u nd im me it looks like we'll nvr be
~nd i can't go on with out you ~
katie im glad we got everything squared away ! <33
x0danii babii0x: DaNiElLe MaRiE + ElySe Uhhh = bffae;-)
haha i love you danielle.. u crack me up
now im goen to danis.. cuz its a date ;) hahah j/k
x g babygerl x: i wunna get it on like right now
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"Wait for the boy who pursues you, the one who will make an ordinary moment seem magical, the kind of boy who brings out the best in you and makes you want to be a better person, wait for the boy who will be your best friend, the person who will drop everything to be with you at anytime of the day no matter what the circumstances, wait for the boy who makes you smile like no other boy makes you smile and when he smiles you know he needs you, wait for the boy who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats and have no makeup on...but really appreciates when you get dolled up for him wait for the boy who will put you in the center of his universe most of all wait for that cause thats where you belong"
u'll be leavin for the winter
ut i can see that its true its the right thing for u
but its tough to be moved with the holiday spirit
but to tell u the truth i had big plans for christmas
nd high hopes for u...
i want u here by my side
cold nights nd fires nd white wine
nd dreams of holidays to come
but Ill wait for spring to bring u to me
only gift that i need
ill be livin off ur phone calls in ur letter and ur postcards
every single word is like a secret wish come true
but who cares if were apart for the big days
since the small ones that made me fall in love with u
i want u here by my side
cold nights nd fires nd white wine
nd dreams of holidays to come
but ill wait for spring to bring u to me
only gift that i need
only gift that i need
only gift that i need
only gift that i need
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yeh i jus wanted to say that in the last entry it supposed to say holy shit it snowed but instead it sed holy it snowed.. i could go bac n edit it but i dun feel like it.
christmas is comen.. i got a lot to say about it..
BUTTTT i jus typed a really long entry n it like exited on me.. gad damn it always does it to me n wen i got all this emotion on these entrys.. maybe im not meant to say wut i say.. god i dunno i dun feel like typen it all again right now. so ill do it later on today...
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holy it snowed.. haha it did the other day too but it was like 10000000000000000000000000000th of a millimeter.. haha i dunno if that makes sense but there wasn't alot.. but like i heard there was supposed to b snow n for sumreason it either didn't click or i didn't really care.. but i woke up n there was like snow on the ground! haah so neway i went runnin outside wit my dog haha n then i got ready n then took my dog out for like 20 minutes b/c she was dyien to go out.. went to school n got out a whole 15 minutes earlier.. how awsome.. hahhaha neway the game was rescheduled ... but thats ok b/c i didn't feel go0d newayz.. it was so borin i sat around n did nothing all day.. but i did go to danas n then i came home to clean n i forgot to call her bac.. sry.. n then i talked to christina on the phone.. n i was up til 2 in the morning coughin so hard :'( it hurt so bad... o yeah earlier wen i came home from school n like 3 ish i took 2 cold relievers.. n then they didn't work so i took 2 more like 5 ish n ppl sed i overdosed lol n colleen was like oMG WHAT DID U DO!?!? haha i felt bad b/c im jus so stupid i didn't relize it.. haha oops... so i finally fell asleep n i woke up at 8 coughin some more.. god i hate being sick all the time.. n it was still snowin.. lol so that means we can't get our big tree =(!!!! boo hoo... but i made my christmas list =D hehehe.. i can't wait.. i didn't ask for much.. i nvr rly do i feel bad wen i ask for expensive things.. so i jus ask for like nail polish maybe a cd or someclothes.. ya no same ol shit.. but yeahh guess whaattt.. shane told me today that i am in the thank yous on the cd.. haha score ! =) colleen may get mad at me.. lol sry coLL! ill explain later.. but yeh ive been thinking lately.. yesterday like almost everyone was being so ignorant to me.. lemme see it was 4 ppl.. n like we'd be 'talken' or arguing i gueess n w/e i would say they all would b like yeh no i doubt it but ok.. like okk guys u kno me better than myself... like ok u all go tell me what to do b/c i don't kno myself.. n everything that comes outta my mouth is a buncha worthless shit talk.. so basically everything i sey i really am lying.. ok so everyone jus to tell you all wen i talk im lying to you so u should doubt it.. n its funny b/c no doubt jus came on.. haha ok neway.. its like i don't have enough to worry about n i gotta deal wit ppl no believen me.. n kt i don't talk about your friends.. i said KD n caitlin r gay but look at ur journal entry.. look how much u hate caitlin.. n if i did ever say something about them i prolly either didn't mean it*but thats a lie rite..* or i was talken about the situation.. liek u sed they were cryin over something i would say THATS GAY not THEYRE GAY.. theres a diff.. n it pisses me off how everyone interprets what i say wrong n then trys to hold it against me.. this is all bullshit.. ok so yeh ive had enough bull shit for a while.. maybe ill jus like not come online for a while so maybe it will all die down.. maybe i should go sit around being sick n study another 4 hours n still fail tests.. b/c tahts how fucken stupid i am.. ok thats all i have to say.
bye
n if u have a problem with what im writing in here. don't come bitchen bac to me.. either leave a comment or stop readen b/c i can put what ever the fuck i wanna b/c its MY journal.. thanks have a very nice day.
sry for being so bitchy i jus am pissed :)
christmas
DeCeMbEr 27tH
amys partyyyy!
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23 days!! yeah baby
haha yeahhh!
aight i wanna first start this entry by talkin how pissed i am... one.. yet again im fucken sick again... two.. my dad is the biggest douche bag in the world.. he makes me cry almost everyday n its gettin like out of hand.. he was sooo nice to me the past few days n i guess he got everything he wanted from me... i can't take it nemore n i dunno wut to do.. my mom doesn't really kare b.c shes always watchen tv not payen attention or sleepin wen it happens.. so shes like yeah w/e .. he rreally hates me n for neone that says no he doesn't.. he does he even told me... :'( like seriously i wish he loved me like other fathers love their daughters i was nothing but nice to him until he i started realizin how he treats me so i started talken bac to him but it was on laughin terms.. it was only b/c wut i sed was funny.. but nooo i say nething bac to him i get in more trouble.. UGH!! n three... ppl jus piss me off.. the other night everyone was upset so me being the person that cares was asken wuts wrong b/c i no that if ur haven a bad day its nice to talk to sumone.. even tho it nvr happns wit me.. so then like they flipped out on me sayin that i don't kare about people n that i am never there n that when ppl want me to care im not there.. ok thanks that was a nice stab in my heart... jeezze it made me feel so loved.. n now its like i don't rly wanna talk to neone b/c yea im really sensitive n i take everything to heart so now i think no one wants to talk to me ... grr akejbgaskldfsajfj fuck this.. no ya no wut fuck u... haha yeh u no who u ppl r... n four.. ppl stealin my friends.. she doesn't kno she is but ive talked about it wit a few of my friends.. god man it pisses me off.. i thoguht she changed but noo its the same ol bullshit from b4.. n not that it hurts.. it makes me upset .. jus b/c ur like jealous no need to goo like ya no stealin my friends.. n then like errr i dunno! does this shit only happen to me??... n five.. im the fucken stupidest person in the world n i am prolly gunna fail school soon.. o joy
so neway.. i needed to get that off my chest.... sry bout that if i offended you or if u were one of the ppl or if u weren't that was prolly a waste of your time... umm yehh so lets see wuts been goen on... tuesday i did nutten rly.. its the week i nvr really ever do nething.. n then wednesday woke up ran got ready went to school n had an ok day.. i seriously wanna kill mrs. meyer i think she has a major stick up her ass n shes so ignorant these days.. god i think its like menopause.. hahaha b/c ya no shes like 55 yrs old.. iuno i guess it could happen.. ok eww onto more 'pleasent' thoughts.. then came home n did nothing .. i was supposed to go bac to school wit coll n sara to do shit for meyer but 'my parents weren't home' but i rly didn't feel good at all n i didn't wanna b there sooo i didn't go.. makes sense.. i felt bad b/c sara was there by herself on her n mikes 7 month anv. w/ cramps =( sry sar.. so newayy woke up this morning n went runnin again same ol same ol went to school .. found out i got 20 write on a honors history test n there was 41 questions.. n i studied for 4 hours.. jesus crist i am so fucken stupid [as i sed b4] so now that wonderful score of 7/20 i got on my other quiz is gunna stay!! OH JOY!!! my damn test scores for that class is.. a 45 (*may not count tho =/*) 67 ... 6/20.. n 20/41.. yay everyone clap ur hands for the retart in the honors class.. i dun understand y i still go to school nemore b/c i no i am so gunna fail .. err! well neways i came home got changed listen to music n went to put the lights up outside.. so i get done almost all of them n im frozen by now so i go try em out... fucken 1/2 of em don't work .. ok everyone clap for the dipshit over here... so i jus like threw everything bac b/c i was frozen n im sick.. god damn n then my computer was being gay.. but the only good things im looken forward too.. christmas 21 days DeCeMbEr 27tH 23 days n amys partyyyy! 16 days so yeh tomorrows finally friday dunno wut to do ... may go to the play off game.. [ go twp! ] but ill update later. hopefully ill b able to get *ppl* to go to the mall on saturday. lemme kno if ya wanna go..
(* i love you *)
if some fat guy with a red suit and white beard comes in your house in the middle of the night
and stuffs you in a bag ... [ dont worry about it ... ] .... i just asked for you for christmas
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feeling so faithless under the surface
thats like my fav new song.. incubus .. i miss you <3 neways lol lemme seeeeee .. ok saturday hmm lets see wut i did… hmm.. started doen decorations wit the madre.. that was uh fun! [ no not rly. ] haha ok but neways we got one of our trees.. the lil one that goes in the family room.. this weekend wur getting the HUGEEEEE onE!!! :-D!!!! yeuupp im loven it .. jesus they r always like 15 -17 feet tall! haha I love haven a cathedral ceiling.. Christmas is like the bestest time.. like wen nothing will cheer me up I think about Christmas n it puts a smile on my face =) … so haha neways n then I went ta danas n we watched Night Mare on Elm Street !! =O! haha it was scarey.. haha dane wow we r losers.. we had to get my VCR cuz hers was broke n she wanted to watch it sooo bad.. lol so neway i then went home n went online n i sware i was gunna die b/c my stomach was gargglin n it was soo loud.. omg it was horrible! so my dad gave me sum medicine n then i went to bed.. n then sunday i went to my homie*s! haha (christinas) so yeh we chilled n tried getttin nick n jay to come over.. but jay didn't wanna drive b/c he hadda go to bed early b/c he had school the next day.. wah crap b/c like yeah lol he nvr left til like 11 n that enough time b/c he coulda picked up nick came over for like an hour or so n then dropped nick off n been home by 10:30 . but nO! ok forget it.. n yea 'we talked' i really jus wanted to reassure stuff.. but yeh now i gotta think bout stufffff.. wah lol thats gay.. so neways sunday was like so boring we were like sittin around waitin n it ends up they nvr came neway =( fuckkerrrss haha .. n christina did my makeup n yup of course i had a reaction to it n my face had like red spots like under my eyyes n they hurt... so i went to bed .woke up. went runnin .shower .went to school .hadd an ok day. came home did hw cleaned n then took another shower n washed my hairrrr. lol did a lil study went to bed woke up did the runnin shit again n took a nother shower went to school.. same shit diff day.. ya no how it goes.. came home n 'studied' more like slept cuz i fell asleep.. haha its all good ill only fail like i do all the time .. hahaha so yeh now im here listenin to christinas friends say how hott nick is.. um no screw u's he's ours hahahaha rite christina!?! lol my dads being rly fucken pissy to me n he wonders y i get pissed off at him wen he makes rude commentss at me.. like he sees noting wrong wit he says.. err it pisses me off... there has been things botherin me but i rly don't wanna tell everyone.. so if u rly wanna kno u can jus ask me or w/e but im not gunna go putin it in here ... theres nothing to do n i basically jus wrote shit in here b/c i dunno i jus did... so im gunna go now.. ta ta
uh huh 23 days to christmas.. wut now bitch.. haha
great great great convo w/ my grl christina made me the happiest thing in the world.. :)
x0sh0otin star0x: haha
x0sh0otin star0x: TOO BAD SUCCCKKKAAAA!!
x0sh0otin star0x: :-P8-)O:-):-D;-)
x g babygerl x: HAAHHAHa
x g babygerl x: hahah!!!!
x g babygerl x: dec 27
x g babygerl x: were goen bitch
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today was so gay ugh god wow no.. a;jbg;ajkdfbgdfg ill update later wen im not so sad =(
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yeh so its friday n like i sed b4 i wasn't gunna b home.. well everything changed.. so neways.. my thanksgivin was ok.. it was kinda boring but lol its ok .. everythings changin in my family n like my family is goen thru such hard times its like depressing.. so we try n put everything aside but iuno i dun think it works.. neways lol the food was ok.. i was starvin the whole day n like wen we gotta eat i wasn't hungry so i had like a piece of turkey n sum mushrooms n that was like it lol .. n sumhow i still felt sick.. wow it was gay.. soooo yehh lol i went home with mike n carolyn n kt n i slept over there. it was fun we watched finding nemo but i fell asleep .. haha n then i woke up n kt was on the comp so i went with her n talked to jay n ppls . n then i went to bed like 2 n woke up at 8 n we jus like layed around all day like the lazy bums doo =p haha it was cool tho i haven't seem them in sucha long time it felt good to b there.. so my dad forgot to pick me up at 3 but thats ok b/c i wasn't rly in a rush but he came like 4 or w/e n i went home n called christina n then took a shower n was gettin ready n tina dana n aaron came over n we were sittin in my room n christina then like couldn't go to the show =( n then they ordered food n we decided me n dana were still gunna go n then go to tinas wen we got home.. but danes mom sed we couldn't go.. soo we were screwed outta that idea =( like god i rly wanted to go.. i coulda gone by myself but 1. that woulda been so rude n 2. i hate goen by myself lol so i dun care. n like everyone was gettin attitude wit me on the interent n i was like woowow ok no.. lol so then i got paidd!! haha wut now bitch?! n then we went to the mall n walked around.. holy fuck the mall is so boring .. lol so neways we went bac to christinas n we almost got into an accident .. but we were chillen in the basement n i like fell asleep but then like this whole big thing happened.. wah ok lol forget itt.. but neways yeh we went home n i came on here n im jus seein if jay or nick comes on cuz i wanna see if they wanna do sumin tomorrow b/c yeah lol so i guess thats all i gotta say fornow.. i hate parents sometimes.. n my dad was like insisting to take me.. it was weird lol neway im gunna go
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its a taking back sunday theme? ya like? haha i really dun care wut ppl think lol yeh im at my cousins housse! =) ill update laterrr <3
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so yeh happy thanksgiving to everyone! lol yes it is 8:17 and i am up.. in fact i have been up since 4:30 this morning! i sed b4 that i would update on saturday but i didn't kno how much extra time i would have... now wutt a crappy way to start off the break eh? neways lol my bro came home yesterday n it was cool to see him.. but yeh neways tuesday was cool i cleaned up a lil n then christina came over n we went to danas to do her hair b/c we were goen to the powder puff.. lol we were in a great moodd.. we did danas hair even tho she hated it!! lol BITCH GET ON YOUR KNEES!! hahaha do me dane n kt went together n dani tina amy n tori went together n we meet up n walked around... it was cool .. the game was unfair n yes this was the 4th yr n wutta kno... the juniors won.. even tho the seniors had a touch down but the ref whos daughter was a junior called it no good n the other 2 refs called it good... hm how weird does that seem to you? but the cheerleaders were hilarious.. i personally thought the juniors were better but everyone was like oh the senior the seniors.. they messed up a lot n yea i gota admit there field goal toss was good... lol so neways there was alot goen on n ppl were gettin mad at each other so me dane n katie were leaven n christina was cold n upset so she came home with us.. n then i came home n went online n then bed.. woke up wednesday 1/2 day!! woo lol went to school which was gay n no point in goen .. but i got it over wit... came home n did nothing really n then at 4ish i went upstairs n layed down n i fell asleep n woke up at 10 came downstairs for like a minute n then i was like screw it n i went bac to bed.. n woke up at 4:30 in the moring.. great huh.. lol then my dad took me to the store at 7 b/c i wanted to bake a cake! haah =D so thats what i did n its in the oven now n it smells soooo fuucckkkeeennn ggooodddd!! but i can't have ne =( so that sucks! lol but neway thats all i have to say for now.. n my cakes done! so ill go take that out n everyone have a good day today :)
till the day i met you i never knew
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and s m i l e for no reason at all
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[25 Nov 2003|09:55pm] |
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my bros comen home like tonite or tomorrow =\ that'll b interestinggggggggg
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shello! haha i love that word.. <3 so lets see wuts been goen on... saturday i went to the mall with dana n jess n we meet up with jordan.. we walked around n i saw jay n nick... n i think mark was with them but he didn't talk lol. so me n jay were talken n tricken dane n the puerto rican gaurd was like 'ok guys u got ta keep on moven..' so we parted lol... it was fun tho but it was kinda boring.. n jess was like chasin jordan n he was being such an asshole i didn't wanna b wit him.. but newaysss.. we came home like 10 ish n i went to danes for about 15 minutes n then i went home like 10:30 b/c i hadda b home n i didn't feel good .. i called christina cuz i promised but she was on the phone wit dani n never called bac =( haha j/k im not mad.. so neways i went to sleep at like 12 woke up at 8 o*clcok =( that so sucked... i like couldn't go bac to sleep.. so w/e i jus layed on the couch n i still felt sick then i went out with my mom for a lil while n came home n went to christinas <3 ha my love lolol .. then we invited aaron over n dana so they came to christinas n she didn't wanna get introuble so we came to my house n chilled outside .. n made fun of each other... hahaha yeh that was funny.. only b/c they never really made fun of me only the person i liked .. uh huh.. so neway aaron left n me n dane n christina went to tinas n they ate then we went to my house n then around the block.. n then we went to the hunt club.. hahahha wow lol sonnnaa bieettccchhhh lol n the paint truck guys <3 hahah scared the shit outta meeee.. haha n then we went n chilled wit ant for a lil n watched movies.. then we went to danes ate then chilled n then we all went home.. i came home n went online n talked to brent after 5 weeks.. he finally called.. it was kinda weird n then i went bac online n then bed.. woke up went to school nd was haven a wonderful day!! <3 it was so great i dunno y... lol everyone was like wow u look so pretty.. i was like wow. thanks ! <3 haha so i came home n cleaned for my mom n then 'i got a job' of cleanin my house.. which is ok.. its not that bad i gotta vacumn downstairs n upstairs once a week n i gotta make sure the house is picked up everyday .. so ya no its cool but neway i went to bed last nite like 11 n woke up at like 3:40 n then like 5 n then 5:30 n then 5:40 lol i couldn't get up it was pretty gay.. so finally got up n took a shower n went to school.. had an ok day.. i wasn't sad but i wasn't as perky as yesterday .. n everyone was like still sayen im so pretty.. lol like stooppp!! haha but ya no its cool it makes me feel special <3 ! tonite im goen to powder puff. lol always sum good times there .. the guys r soo funny n they do good on their stunts .. im impressed =P haha
thanksgiving is in like 2 days.. i love it lol i getta bake!! woo! <3 i love to bake haha im sucha loser.. but lol its allll goooddd... im maken apple pie n choclate chip coffee cake.. so that'll b cool.. after thanksgiving i dunno wut im doen.. if im comen home or wut so well have to see but i made plans for fri which should b funnnn! haha me dane n christina r goen to a show n i think aarons comen now. so that'll b an adventure haha.. as always.. n yes omg christmas is one month away! <3 i think i might like decorate soon!! haha i love it .. i thought i would wait til after thanksgiving if my mom doesn't do it i will prolly do it like monday! haha can't wait omg haha.. i love this time of yr.. =) <3
so i guess thats all i got to say for now.. i will update prolly like saturday b/c friday im prolly not gunna b home all day n we r stayen over someones house.. woop
lol aw man i remember wen we usta b lil kids n have sleep overs n like we would stay up all night talken about all kinds of crap.. n now like its so weird.. b/c like me dana n christina n danielle have been friends forever! n like we have gotten in so manyy fights n we've been bitches to each other n have been jealous so many times n we have all like 'broken away' from the group but sumhow we all become friends again.. i no our bonds with each other some of them are tighter n sum rn but its weird like 10 yrs later we r still best friends n we went from playen Mother May I nd Aunt Sam outside to talken about gettin drunk with eachother n like boys n shit.. lol i guess weve been with each other soo much we've learned to put up wit eachothers bullshit n i dunno i jus wanna say wow.. i love you girls so much !! <3 yous are like my life n i have no clue where i would be without yous.. im always here for you n you kno that b/c ur all always spillin ur guts to me lol n im glad i no i have u gurls that care about me.. n to all my other friends .. jesus crist i love yous so much too!
n katie (my cousin) holy fucken crap babe weve been thru soooo much together its like so amazing lol .. we were never rly close wen we were younger but i still remember the first sleepover we had .. lol n then we jus grew closer n closer ever since .. we have soo many inside jokes i never knew it was possible.. haha weve gotten in our fights yeh n we haven't seen each other in like 5 weeks.. its kinda hard!! lol but thursday!! hah i jus wanted to let u no how much i care bout u n i no i can come off as a bitch sometimes n lol yeh u do flip out on me sometimes but i will always forgive u n love you... <3 i never ever in my life thought that i could b so close with someone in my family.. i like cherish everysecond we r together even tho i kno we will always b friends foreverrr!! lol the shows over the summer were so great omg lol we deff gotta go to more shows.. u no i love you n i am sorry wen i can't do things wit u b/c i am doen stuff wit my friends.. i hope we like never get mad at each other n we can grow closer! <3 love you bugger
so yeah wow i jus wanted to get that out b/c like ya no its all thanksgiving ish n like it jus made me think of the wonderful ppl i have in my life.. n like to all my other friends u all kno who u are i love yous with all my heart n if u ever need someone to talk to you no who to come to.. no matter how close we are i will always b here!! <3
haha
wow that was long i no it may sound gay but i jus wanted em to no
i guess thats it peace <3
haha i jus noticed i wore my socks inside out today hahaha [ im retarted !! ]
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im bored n i still don't feel good.. but i decided to update this shizznit neway.. lemme see on thursday i didn't do nething because i totally felt like i was goen to die.. but yeah i didn't lol friday went to school it was okkkk.. i still didn't feel good.. i went to sum gay concert 4th period.. wow that was stupid but we gotta sit there n do nothing which is always good.. i looked like shit n i knew it lol.. then i kept taken like medicine all day lol .. ppl r like r u overdosing .. n i was thinking in my head ohh hell yeah u kno me .. i pop dem pills lyke woah! haah i was like no i jus feel like total shit n they were like oo ok .. ya friggin retarts haha j/p.. um um um didn't pay attention all day practally.. lol then came home n i sat around n fell asleep =) lol woke up went on line while everyone was at the football game.. i rly wanted to go but thats ok i guess they won tho.. which is always good .. i was jus super bored n my dad was gettin on my case so much.. went to bed woke up this morning at 5 like coughin my lungs up.. thats always great n then i woke up like 9:30 i guess .. straightened my hair ate breakfast cleaned n then i washed my hair.. even tho i did last nite too.. o well n then i scrunched it.. i hate it it was like not workin.. gay! n now im jus sittin here bored.. ive noticed i haven't fought with my brother in a long time.. its kinda weird b/c like all we usta do was fight.. i mean no we still don't talk =/ but we don't fight either lol... its only b/c im nice to him .. i haven't fought with my mom in a while either i jus walk away wen she pisses me off n then everything jus drops after a while .. but i still like fight with my dad nonstop all the time its so friggin horrible n i hate it!! like why does he hate me? like i would like to kno what the fuck i ever did? .. i guess ill never kno b/c wenever i bring it up he jus ends up pickin an argument n then blaming it on me.. which always ends up to me goen upstairs in my room upset n cryin.. i totally hate it. ='(
but neways i guess christmas is 1 month and 3 days away!! can't wait can't wait can't wait...
uh huh n yeh i give up on guys.. ok somehow 'he' found out i liked him.. everyone prolly knows who it is.. but im pissed b/c i dunno i didn't want him to kno.. i mean maybe a lil later would have been not as bad but like uHGHH!!GG!G!H!G!G!H!! fucken shit is all i gotta say b/c im pissed.. i dunno if neone sees that but like i am .. i dunno why its sucha fucken big deal to me but guess wut ya'll?!?! it is! so i dunno wut to do nemore.. some one pleeaassee plleeeasseseses help me =(
.~' i think thats all '~.
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my bro comes home on wednesday =\ so that`ll b interesting? iuno well jus hafta wait n see
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lol i jus remembered.. todays my lil cousins b-day!
HaPpPyYy 6th BiIrTtHhDdaAyY O*LoVe*yA (*oLiViA*) =D =P
this is the song she had me singin...
" We're goen on a bear hunt!
We're gunna catch a big one!
With bright green eyes!
And a lil white fluffy tail!
Unzip your back pack!
Get some crackers n milk!
Put it in your backpack!
Don't forget to zip it back up!
We're goen on a bear hunt!
We're gunna catch a big one!"
n then it goes on n on n on lol
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ok yeh here I go for the friggin last time.. this is the fucken 4th time im doen this shit.. ok im gunna b very brief b/c I dont feel like writing 2 weeks of shit in here…but I will get into more detail later on.. so here I go.. nothing muchs been goen on.. for the resta my break I basically chilled wit ppl n hung around.. same old shit ya no.. then went bac to school.. it wasn’t that bad I didn’t think .. sunday I night I went to a show .. but I went by myself it was ok… it woulda been cool to go wit someone else but it was cool goen by myself .. it was really goood!! haha went to school this week.. it was okkk then yesterday I got this friggin virus n its horrible I think I may die … lol we got report cards today .. I dun really remember wut I got except I kno that i got NO D’S!!!! lol guess whatt [?¿!?¿!!] christmas is 4 weeks nd 5 days away -or- 33 days!i!i!i!i! thanks to my bUdDy [marcus!!] haha hes the coolest mofo you could possibly ever meet =) haha my mom sed my ring *which I got today.. hope its perrrrttyyy!!!* is apart of my christmas presents which is not wut I wanted but its ook my mom sed it will b diff this yr b/c she had a job.. I rly wonder wat that means.. more gifts? I dunno n I rly dun care b/c the presents is only a plus I jus like the atmosphere n being around my fam in the house wen its cold n snowy outside.. haha yeah I no im gay!! lol yes n thanksgiving is one week away today.. that should b cool getta see the fam again.. havent seen them in a while so cant wait for that.. as for the home family situation.. its goen okk… my rents will like flip outtt on me but then they basically jus forget it b/c I think they realized I don’t give a fuck wut they think nemore =) haha n yeh I have no respect for my family b/c I don’t clean.. yeh ok can neone sey bullshit ?!¿ lol I no I can.. n shes being really gay about getttin my room redone.. sayen like I needa pick out a more girly~er theme BUTTTT shes workin with me.. yeh ok no thats such crap.. like I fucken want stars out b/c I think it looks pretty n I want a really dark room.. but so sorry its not girly enough for her.. she seys everyones gunna b disappointed.. who the fuck cares whos disappointed whos room is it?! MINE rite n then im like I don’t kare b/c im the only on whos gunna b sleepin there… oh wow she makes no sense.. err! n y does like everyone either call me by someone elses name or seys I look like some one else?¿!?¿ I hate it b/c its like no one knows me for me n its irritating… grr! damn ppl .. lol oh yeh n my madre sed we might gotta move soon if my dad doesn’t get a job .. n it prolly will b outta twp =( NOO!! they can’t do this to me but she was like your father will drive u everyday b/c he won’t b worken n I was jus sittin there laughin goen mmmmmmkkaaay! haha I really shouldn’t b online rite now b/c im sick but I dunno im stupid.. I really dont no wut to write nemore…
I think thats it b/s …
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I think I may have moved on =) =/
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yeh no.. i updated like 20 years of events n so many emotions n my comp fucked me over n deleted it! yes.. [nO] sooooo i guess i'll update tomorrow again wen my fingers don't feel like they r fallin off.. lol yeah i love him... <3 [?]
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i so hate being nice to ppl nemore.. ill update later wen im in a better mood
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