| im speechless. which says a lot! |
[26 Feb 2004|07:34pm] |
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evanescence - forever gone, forever you |
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well ok, like ive said, im not gunna be like updating on boring things i did today, instead im writing more of feelings. i mean, it is a journal. go away if u dont like it. <3333
ok so today i expected to have a bad day, and like they say, wut u expect usually doesnt happen... first period we had a pop quiz and i thought i was gonig to fail yet another math test, but instead i got a 90 which meant that maybe it wasnt going to be such a bad day after all... and so now second i was talking to people and i realized that i really have stopped caring what people say about me. everyone is all talk and no play. but im not gunna complain bout it....
and so in lunch, i also realized that there is only ONE person who makes me uncomfortable, and she was absent. so i actually enjoyed lunch and noticed that some people act totally different when they are around other people. its wierd.
now im gunna skip to 9th period. doug was playing his cd, and it had "u got it bad" on there and i like started crying right before the end of school and it was really unexpected. i dunno wut happened that song just brings back some memories, and so i met ryan and i was like...HELP ME! yeah so i went to his house after school. not need for details im shutting up now. i m confuesd about soemthing though...
now also, i kept holding back from things today, like usually im outgoing and i go for it, but ive been shy. i guess its like what anna said on the oc "when uve got something that youve wanted, the biggest fear is losing soemthing u actually have now" and so, from now on im just doing and saying what i feel and im not gunna care so much like i have a habit of doing..;] i confused myself todayy... i need to just go for it.
and i need a social date. lol <3333 goodbye for now
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