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well i've officially had it. everything is going crazy and my life is fucked up. todaii sucked, and so did yesterdaii. i sat home doing NOTHING. i even CLEANED...thast how BORED i was. new years ruled though, i need a good holiday... compared to last years, :( yeah. well, new years eve, i met jess at her apartment in nyc, and she had a few people over and then we went down to times square (we walked, shes only ten blocks...not far lol) and waited a long as time, but it was fun. the midnight came FiNALLy lol and something happened. i dunt no if im like ready to tell every1 its so ...messed up. ok, fine. ill tell lol well ryan... um... sorta... likes me. he kissed me at midnight i had to like pull back it was like BAM! um, i had NOOO idea of this. so i never thought of him this way, its all so...new. but i dont like him, and i need to tell him. :( yeah, speaking of boys, im torn between hating and loving them. urgeee i dont know, im in a terrible mood rite now. i wish someone good would like, ask me out and sweep me off my feet, but then again it'll never happen, of course. my brother is leaving 2morrow, and i hate saying goodbye, i cant live without him, hes like my only hope for surviving my crazy family... theres nothing else to rite, nothing is intresting. oh christmas was cool, i still have money to spend so anyone wanna go shopping? lol... i need cheering up -im ready to cry. theres a lot of shit going on rite now, and im not riting it; its too depressing. i think ive officially had it, im tired of everything and i dont feel like going back to school either
ah thats it, im calling jamie, fuck it, even if its 3 in the morning i miss her! my whole body hurts, its like..... i dunt know anymore, i think im tired of...living. i wanna just get school over with, and just leave on my last day and move back home. there was NONE of this stuff in my old life, i was...happie. i dunno, maybe i just need a break
im rambling on.. i shud go i need sleep
comment if u wanna make my life a little better
just give me a chance... please. u know who u are.
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