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Wednesday, March 29th, 2006
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12:01a - missed
there were some things that i only posted on my myspace. so i will post them for you now. stay tuned.
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12:01a - Movin' Out
Orginally posted: Sunday, March 26, 2006 @ 12:46 AM
I want to move out of my house. Anyone want to be my roomie?
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12:05a - Movin' Out Part II
Orgianlly posted: Tuesday, March 28, 2006 @ 7:05 PM
Well, my last post was about wanting to move out. Well listen to this. Sheenagh's finally moved into her apt. I was over there yesterday. It's so so cute. And Tiff has her own palce. And well see, I used to live out of my parents errr my Father's house. And it's hard coming back to living with him again. It's real hard. Which is where that last post came from. But now with all my friends moving out, and seeing Sheenagh's place yesterday. *sighs* it really makes me want to move even more now. And even faster. Oh and yesterday Mind you the day after I write my post, Ken says he's thinking of moving out. He's lookin at this job which would have him up in the Western CT area. And he's looking at places up that well. And one of his friends is trying to get himt o move to Jersey which sucks. Sucks a lot. I so so so don't wnat him to move that far. That would suck so bad. i don't know what I'd do. And Western CT is kind of far, but not impossible. Specially once I get my car. And when I starts chool at West Conn... that will have me in that area as it is anyway. *sighs* I'm just so upset. Everyone is really starting to get their life in order and on track. And seriously, I'm trying. I'm trying real hard, but it still seems like everyone is doing so much better than I.... fuck
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12:05a - So I've had an epifiany
Ogrinally posted: Tuesday, March 28, 2006 @ 11:46 PM
So I've had an epifiany. I realized I've fallen hard. Real hard. Harder than I would have liked to this quickly. I'm down for the count. Yeah this girl has it bad. I haven't talked to him once today. And that makes me really sad. It's the first time in 2 1/2 months that I've gone a whole day without talking to him. I'm like ready to cry. No scratch that, I did cry. And that is when I realized how hard I have fallen. And it made me think about how mean I've been at times to him. I mean that's awful. Absoutely awful. I should never ever be that mean to someone I care about. And that made me feel so sad and so bad. And so competely awful. He definately does not deserve to be treated that way. So I must make a point to be better. Cuz this one is a keeper. This is one that I do not want to give up on. Not yet, and hopefully not ever. But I must talk to him and see how he feels... if he doesn't feel the same then we have a problem. And it's time to bail ship before I fall even more. I'm competely teetering on the edge of no return right now. So I must chat with him and make him see how I feel. I must state it clearly and smipley. And if he doesn't feel the same, and doesn't feel like he could feel the same in the future then I'd have to let go now. Cuz if I continued, then I would only end up getting hurt. Really hurt. More so than if I ended things now. Not that I am ending thinsg now. Wow this is getting all sorts of confusing. And I want to state this clearly and smipley? Wow... this is going to take some work. I just wish he'd call me so I can talk to him.....
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12:05a - end
end of posts. u are now caught up
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