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[24 Oct 2003|02:58am]
ok so its 2:58 in the morning im sittin here drinkin talkin to dominica. i should be sleepin but fuck it im not. fuck you if you think i should be sleepin. so anyway i havent updated in forever. You know why? ill tell you why life fucking blows thats why. its the same shitty life over and over again nothing new nothing interesting. i dont know why i even bother. anyone own a shotgun? let me borrow. k thanks. so to9morrow will blow the day after will blow and so will every day after that its the story of my life and im used to it. no wonder i listen to emo crap. i might as well just blow out my fuckin brains with a shotgun. don't like? fuck you. i dont care. kill ur self. as far as im concerned everyone except a handfull of people, and you know who you are can go jump off a fukin cliff cause im soooooooooooo done i hate everyone including myself. I'm just a fuckin bum and i fukin hate it. Ok i know i have more to say but i think im gonna stop cause i said so.

Sum up-

fuck you
fuck me
fuck everyone

the end

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true punk, not that i give a fuck what you think...... [06 Oct 2003|08:53am]
[ mood | sick ]
[ music | marilyn manson- wrapped in plastic ]

Your a true punk! u dont care what people
think,like to be original and different, and u
hate the government! go burn something

are u a punk or poser! true answers! with pictures!
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[30 Sep 2003|09:21pm]
[ mood | cranky ]
[ music | Dashboard Confessionals- Standard Lines ]

Your Ideal Love: Revealed by xburningpinkstarx
Your Username
Your Favorite Color
Their Eye Colordark blue
Where they ShopH&M
Their favorite BandMXPX
Where will you *do it*?Haunted House
Created with quill18's MemeGen!

i just have one is h&m???? k lol
peace out

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My personality disorders [27 Sep 2003|09:40pm]
[ mood | drained ]
[ music | Misfits- American Psycho ]

Histrionic:Very High
Narcissistic:Very High

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\m/ [16 Sep 2003|03:49pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]
[ music | ataries - i remember you ]

im writtin cause i havent wrote in a is goin ok......the more im in this house the more im soooo happy i moved. We went down to the city sunday for the first time since we moved and I didnt realize how much I dont miss the city. I actually hated every minute of being down there. Its so dirty and loud and It represents everything I hate. I know thats hard to understand..but its the truth. This move was like a new beggining for me. The kids are happier, Rob is happier and I find myself smilling alot more too. Theres always people here lol. Which is good....cause I like having people over its fun. I just can't wait till I get my licience and Gia starts school next year its gonna be great. I feel like Im actually accomplishing something...and I am. A better life for me and my family. Gia's party is gonna be October 5 she wanted barbie lol so i have princess barbie commin..and for after I want Mike's band Bliss to play hah that would be the shit to have a live band play......we were meant to be we were meant to be lol but..we'll see he needs to find a new drummer first......and i changed my aol sn again.....its now sb for president....10 guesses who sb is hah. Ok I'm gonna ggooo im makin homemade from scratch chicken soup.....mmmmm and dowloading songs from crackhead bands on \m/

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I'll be lovin you.... [27 Aug 2003|08:51pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]
[ music | Evanescence- Going Under ]

I always thought I was doing fine
Spreading myself around another good time
Then it hit me from out of the blue
I was falling in love with you
But now everything's been changed
My hopes my dreams are rearranged it's true
And it's all because of you, my baby

I'll be loving you all my life
Till my dying day is through
I'll be loving you, forever
I'll be loving you all my life
Till my dying day is through
I'll be loving you, forever

Every night I wonder if you know
No matter what they say I won't let go
Don't ask yourself if I'll always be there
Cause forever's how long I'll care
As time goes by and the feeling gets stronger
To be in your arms can't wait any longer
Look in my eyes and you'll see it's true
Day and night all my thoughts are of you

Just thought I'd do a kristine, and instead of writin how i feel. i just copy n pasted the words to a song that sums up how i feel, and is also one of my favorite songs. Its got alot of meaning behind it, and it never got played out. You know alot of people talk alot of shit. Not so much the people that are close to me, but the people who think they know me and they know what my life is about. They think that because I got pregnant early that I'm nothing besides a statisic, low-life on welfare who has no life and will raise her kids to be drug dealers and all that crap. But I dont define my life on how successfull i am financially or how many degrees I have under my belt. I just wanna be happy and raise my family. I love my kids with all my heart if i had a bank full of money that wouldnt make them be loved anymore. I love Rob too. Sure we act retarted around eachother and we have our fights. But thats because we're eachothers best friend. We depend on eachother for everything he is my life and i know im his. I've been with him for 6 years ( minus 2 or 3 mths we broke up once) and i kno him better then he knows himself. And he knows me better than I know myself too. And i couldn;t be happier even if i married vin disel and made $20 million a year.......and not everyone has that with I concider myself lucky. And even tho we're not broke and we are buying a huge house out of the city with tons of ground for the kids to grow up and be happy and become little prissy brats and skateboarders lol......Id be just as happy if we were livin in a box out on the street. And I just thought that some people needed to know this. Whether or not they can read this I dont kno...but at least I wrote it. And now everyone knows just how happy I am, and if i could go back and change anything, I wouldnt change a damn thing.

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OMFG [22 Aug 2003|10:32am]
[ mood | hot ]
[ music | Bush- Glycerine ]

Guess what?? I know its been forever since I updated, im sooooooo sorry for all the people who religiously read this journal, cause I know theres like millions of you hahahaha....ok anyway.....I finally got my damn house. After all the bullshit we went through it was the most ridiculous loan I have ever seen. Even the realator, the mortage people and the title people said it. Everyone messed up. The sellers werent even on time for settlement because the title people told them the wrong time and these people were commin from 3 hours away!!!!! So now we have alot to do with the house. Alot more than we thought, and we only have this weekend, and next friday cause were movin sat the 30th..blah. So now I have tons of packing and painting and all that happy crap. And of course I have to do it with the kids, because everyone has to work or whatever so thats gonna make it more difficult, but hopefully I can have everything done anyway. I found out they had the pool open last summer, so at least I kno it works. I also found out its like 10 yrs old, so we wont have it for that much longer but o well lol its better then the hose we have now. OK I think i'm done I dont know whatelse to write besides its really hot and I have alot of shit to do, and if theres anyone in the philly area out there that wanst to babysit or pack my house for me i will pay you $ 1.7 million hah ok im outtie peace out my nizzles fo shizzle.....wUn hahahah

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blah [30 Jul 2003|06:44pm]
[ mood | blank ]
[ music | POD - Death Defying Leap ]

ok, im really really bored, i have nothing to do besides some minor cleaning shit. The baby's sleeping, Gia is down the all alone :( it makes me really hate the fact that Rob works till late. It would be nice if he had a 9-5....he'd be home already. I feel so friggin fat. Im orderin one of those workout balls and a set of weights..maybe i can loose a few million lbs. Ugh. And i went shoppin this morning. it was the worst. Im a size 11. I guess thats not too bad.....I just really hate my shape i need to get ride of all this shit from the kids, its just this ring around where my stomach USED to be. i have like and extra stomach, thighs, and ass. And thats what it looks like too. it looks like it doesn't belong on my body. ok enough of that.....i changed the layout again lol. It matches my website layout, as usual, so if you get a chance, check it out :) im outtie, i have to go accomplish something before i shoot myself in the head.

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EmO [24 Jul 2003|08:37pm]
I am 51% Emo

Well.. I've made the cut! Now I'll go buy some promise rings and knit myself a sweater.

Take the Emo Test at

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blah [24 Jul 2003|07:38pm]
[ mood | nerdy ]
[ music | Beck.....Loser ]

ok i just got done reading kristine's journal, and she is officially the BIGGEST DORK EVER hahaha. i'm tryin to decide what i want my new layout to look like, i want it to be punkie.....but i don't know what to make it look like :( i have no friggin clue. blah. im hot. & bored. i don't kno if im gonna get my house cause the mortgage lady is really messin everything up and it looks like we're gonna have to push settlement back at least like a week. which really blows. I WANT MY GODDAMNED HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!
ok well thats it for now, im gonna go sulk in my misery............
punkie forever

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what my life is rated...... [22 Jul 2003|01:41pm]

My life is rated NC-17.
What is your life rated?

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IM BACKKKKKKKK [21 Jul 2003|07:42pm]
[ mood | tired ]
[ music | Deftones....Minerva ]

got back from down the shore last night.....late......i was so tired trafic was friggin horrible, we didn;t get in till like 1 or whatever....o well it was worth it tho we had a good time, the kids LOVEd it i have no complaints about them whatsoever, the only thing that sucked was the baby really doesn;t liek the sun or the pool too much, so he pretty much played upstairs with the other kids, and yesterday we finally got everyone together to go to the beach, but as we were walkin he started gettin cranky, so i took him back to the room for a nap. it sucked cause i missed gias last day on the beach and i didn;t get to go, but i got to hang out by the pool in peace and got a good i really can;t wait to go to six flags cause we didn;t get to go on any rides, just the kids did. I CAN"T WAIT TO MOVE i want my own big house with my own pool, i want to put the kids into day care so that they have somethin better to do then sit around and watch Nickelodeon, or go to the gla~~ and trash infested parks, and i want to go back to work....i obly have 10 more lbs to lose, and i swear im gonna start strippin for cash so i can go back to school. You laugh?? haha just wait....u'll see....what shoudl my stripper name be?? hmmmmmmm i have no idea lol if anyone does comment and let me know...for once i don';t have any idea lol.....ok im outtie i have to go clean the me~~ whackjobs 1 & 2 made.....then off to night night......peace out punkies....OOOOOO and check out Kristine's (my sis in law) new journal layout (which i made ha) make sure u comment...let her know how nice her layout is and how shes a big dork lol

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bored......can't wait to go down the shore...... [15 Jul 2003|07:02pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]
[ music | Smile Empty Soul...Bottom of a Bottle ]

man im bored, i think i may have one of the most boring lives ever lol. I woke up, ate some cereal, watched some cartoons with the kids, gave them a bath, changed some diapers, made lunch (soup & grilled cheese), did some wash, watched more cartoons, finished my layout, changed some more diapers, did some chasin and hollerin, and all the other stuff i have to do being that im the mother of a 4 year old and a 1 1/2 year top it all off the girls who's doin our mortgage is slakin off, and hasn't really done much with the loan, so we close in 3 weeks and the loan, appraisal, and inspection still hasn't been done yet. will it be done in time??? who the hell knows, all i know is if i don't get my big house with my big yard and my pool and sunroom i'm going to be one pissed off after im done this ill prob clean this basement, give the kids another bath since they ate fudge bars and got chocolate in their hair lol. then finally they go to bed, and i get to finish dishes, mop the floor, do the rest of the laundry, and pack for the shore......ok enough of my boring ass retarted life lol, maybe ill sing some karaoke later to break the monatony haha........ok im outtie, peace out punkies....

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can;t wait to go down the shore............ [14 Jul 2003|02:05pm]
[ mood | dorky ]
[ music | Bowling For Soup....Punk Rock 101 ]

guess what??? im finally goin down the shore *yay* its only for the weekend, but its better then nothin......and we're takin the kids. which is so friggin cute cause Gia can;t wait to go to the beach we got them all kinds of beach toys and stuff..and for your entertainment, here is a song that was inspired by a song that Kristine wrote, but mostly written by my retarted ass.....but fits in perfectly with bowling for soups; punk rock heres the words....u HAVE to sing it to punk rock 101 or it won;t make any sense, and the song is copyrighted, so don't try to steal my lyrics haha.....

i have lots of punkies
i like wearin dickies
you don't know what i mean
cause you like rap.....
you listen to biggie
& tu pac and Jay z
but why can;t you just see
your not hot shit


they talk shit
those rap dudes
they don't quit
they start fueds
they don't get
what i do
i dont care what u think
cause i'm different
then n'sync
i listen to weezer

i slam on my gui-tar
i don't care what i wear
can keep all your bling bling
because its all hott
keep sellin your cocaine
i hope it rots your brain
as i ride my sk8 board
at least im not high

they talk shit
those rap dudes
they don't quit
they start fueds
they don't get
what i do
i dont care what u think
cause i'm different
then n'sync
i listen to weezer

ehco thingie...
don't give that shit to me!!!!!
ill make you pay a huge fee!!!

my mikes still in my hand
i still have my rock band
you will never make it
can't run from 50

your story never changes
just your names and faces
like Tyrome, and Fat G they're still in fuckin jail.
did u just say that????



haha ok thats it, have fun jamin......

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grrrrrrrrrrrr [10 Jul 2003|07:34pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]
[ music | Seether....Fine Again ]

im really startin to get mad with the baby shit, i try not to let it bother me, but of course it DOES. my b/fs ex has been stalkin him since the day they met, even after they broke up and he went on to live and have kids with me. i get a phone call like 2 weeks ago and i answer the phone and the song Black by Pearl Jam is playin in my ear and im like WTF so i call the # back (it was on my caller ID) and it was a cell phone #. some dudes answerin machine picks up, so i really don't think much abotut it. Then liek a week after my sis in law came over and was askin me if i ever found out who it was that called and i said no i never called the # back after that day i forgot all abotu it, so she starts prankin it...and she finds out that its my b/f's ex's b/f. Then the weels start turnin and im like OMG when they were goin out that was "their song" later on i called the # back and asked him if he was Nicole's (nicole is my b/fs ex) b/f and he said yea. and i asked him if i can get in touch with her on this phone, and he said no its my phone, so i asked him if she had the phone on the day i got the call, and he said yea. So i told him what the phone call was and shit and he really didn;t say much. Now this little bitch is denyin she called my house. Who else could it have been callin from her b/f's cell phone and playin that specific song? especially when i know for a fact shes stalked the hell out of us b4. i wanna kno how the fuck she got this phone # no one has it except family and friends, no one that i talk to talks to her they're all of hell of alot more mature than just curious just how much work she had to go through to get this #. oo well it doesn;t matter im movin soon and ill have a diff # and a diff addy and so help me god if shes figures out that # and shit ill fuckin kill her i swear cause shes had it commin since day one of her stalkin me. shes lucky she hasn;t done any of this shit in person. but see thats how people are. they can talk all the shit thay want behind your back on on the fuckin computer. but when it comes to confrentation, even if its not a physical fight, they just can;t deal with it. well im tired of it eveyone just but the fuck outta my life i have 2 kids and a b/f i don;t need any more drama, u have somethin to say, confront me and do it in a mature manner. im out cause i actually have SHIT TO DO, unlike some peace out punkies, keep on rockin.....

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hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii [08 Jul 2003|09:24pm]
[ music | NFG; My Friends Over You ]

im sittin here and my eyes hurt from lookin at this damn screen, tryin to find new tutorials and stuff. I wish I knew how hard this web design shit was when i first got into god. and im tryin to learn enough of it so that i can make some money off of it......yea rite. its gonna take me years to learn what other people know. I don't have the time for this stuff. oo well i finished all the new layouts and buttons and aim icons and all that crap. So now everything matches...for now. Until i get tired of lookin at them...then i have to make a new layout and make everything match that.. ugh i don;t know why but i love doin it tho......and if you visit my page make sure you sign the tag or the gb even if you already did cause both are brand knew as of today/yesterday. ok im outtie i have alot of shit to do before i can go to never ends.....peace punkies....

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omg im soooooooooo bored [27 Jun 2003|03:44pm]
[ mood | anxious ]
[ music | Avril Lavigne; Skater Boy ]

ok im bored as ever theres really nothing to do ive already eatin everything in site im gonna get sooo fat...not like im not fat already....grrrr i really need to lose weight im not even gonna tell u how much i weighed i mean it was less then what it was last time i was at the doctors...but still. Its been 18mths since ive had robert and 3 1/2 years since i had gia i think i should be pretty close to the weight i was when i got preg but im not even close. I dont understand. ooo well i guess im just gonna have to live in fattness misery the rest of my life. Maybe after we move there'll be a gym i can go to that has a daycare center. Tomorrow i have to go to my sis in laws house we;ll prob be there all day i hope i can at least get a better tan. Sittin in the yard is startin to get annoying cause all i have is a folding chair and sittin outside in 100 degree weather on a folding chair is no fun. blah blah blah. its so hott outside i can't even do what i wanna do upstairs cause its too damn hot. I don;t even think we're gonna put the air in our room. Ive been sleepin on the futon the last couple days and its sooo comfortable my back hasn't even been hurtin. Guess what??? after over 2 weeks my period finally went away yay im sure u all just couldn;t wait for that information haha.....ok im gonna go b4 i bore u soo much u kill urself

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hiiiiiiiiii [26 Jun 2003|07:21pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | Chevelle; The Red ]

same shit diff day.........haben;t been doin anything new.....tryin to get a tan. been hangin out in the babys pool lol they've been havin fun outside in the sprinkler and the pool and stuff...but i can;t wait till we move and can have a bigger yard and i don;t habe to worry about them falling on the concrete and stuff......blah im so tired of talkin about this friggin house....i can't wait to just move the fuck in already. August is a long way off......its not even July yet. Ugh. oooo well. when we have our big BBQ im gonna make me own conopy yay me lol. That is if Rob lets me lol. I saw how to do it in a magazine and it looks really prettifull. ok im really bored and don't have much else to talk about. Esp since most people either don;'t know me and don't care what the fuck im doin, or know me and talk to me about my ever so excting life everyday and don;t wanna have to read my life story on here. so on that note...i'm outtie.....if you wanna chat im on aim either im Lcequeenforever or bounangel1112. Peace out homies.....

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hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii [17 Jun 2003|02:24pm]
[ mood | determined ]

ok i haven't updated in a little bit......i've been busy lol. So theres really not much new stuff goin on....fathers day was nice i got rob some cologne and cards from the kids...i also made him french toast mmmmmmmmm so blah im in the middle of doin stuff and the baby is bitchin at me for somethin he wants so this entry isn't goin to be very long just wanted to let yas know that not much is new... and im really excited about gettin the house im gonna have to start packin soon.... peace out....

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