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alright guys hate to say it, but i think im done with my journal. i may come back one day.. or i may not. i really dunno wuts gonna happen. yea so its been fun, but its the summer now and id rather be outside with my friends then inside on the computer. cya guys ill miss you!
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[24 Jun 2003|11:35pm] |
oh god it was so much fun. i got to see everyone that i hadnt seen in FOREVER. oh wow it was great. lauras boyfriend christian was there and he kept spraying me with water. way to go lol haha its ok he seemed pretty nice. yay for laura. lol anyways, yea so i wasnt gonna go in the pool but billy and nick picked me up and threw me in! lol thanks alot guys i love you too! hmm... yea then stuff happened. like.. yea. i wasnt expecting that at all haha. well i guess your all just dying to no wut happened so... i kissed mike? uhhh alot? haahaha yea. the whole time people were like splashing us and everything. i no its not great, but i realized i dont have a problem with doing things in front of other people. i actually feel more comfortable doing that. i dunno i guess its not so great for the other people, but ya no wut i mean? its almost like an insurance lol.. like you cant rape me my friends are sitting right there they will hear me scream and mutilate you. haha ya no? yea well anyways i dunno wuts up with this now. i dont like the idea of randomly hooking up with someone that im not going out with. but i dunno.. oh well ill figure it out later
hmm blurtys being a pain and not letting me comment.. it wont load? oh well.. ill definitely do it tomorrow you guys .. cya
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[23 Jun 2003|10:19am] |
HEY GUYS! haha did you miss me!? of course ya did hahaha yaaa riiight. im FINALLY done with school! i had my last final today and wow it was the easiest thing ever. hahaha yay i actually passed one.
yay so its summer finally. all that crappy weather finally led to somethin good! i got to come home early bc i only had 1 test and i walked out side with jon expecting to be freezing and as soon as i got out "wow its nice out here"
nuges party is tomorrow! yay i cant wait i get to wear my new bathing suit hah its so pretty.. wanna see it? of course you do
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damn that thing was so expensive woww mommy was not happy. oh well. i need a job this summer... ive got like as much skill as a potato just so you no lol
heyyy i got these nails put on and they are impossible to type with. i think i scratched half the world today... sorry guys haha.
yea so the past few weeks have been busyyyy oh god. non stop studying, being with friends, reading harry potter haha. ive never been so busy. haha i feel so loved everyone wants to spend time with me. i really needed to see my friends lately. i needed to be able to act like a complete idiot and not have anyone care.
yea soooooooo today im home at 10 niiice ive got the whole day to do wutever i want. im definitely gonna try and get a tan for sarahs party tomorrow.
yay so i missed you guys so much! everythings normal now lol dont worry. cya guys
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[03 Jun 2003|07:02pm] |
hey guys
no update today sry
but im not gonna be here for a while.
finals are coming up and i gotta pull my math grade up or vollyball camp is out.. lol hayley
plus, ive been too busy to give a real update lately. just little ones arent that great i no, but its been the best i could do.
so thanks for bein here for me, but im gonna havta leave yall for a while.
dont hate me lol
i still love you guys
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[02 Jun 2003|09:52pm] |
ugh i dunno wuts wrong with me.. i guess im jealous maybe? ugh this is gay
i hate being like this
i hate talking about people and not being nice
im sorry
but who cares
... i do
who else
no one
yea i didnt think so either..
oh well i gotta snap outta this. maybe later..
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yea watch -them- be the nicest person in the world.. doesnt that make me feel great. im just not nice to people. thats why i lose people so quickly. i dont mean to but.. i dunno when im upset i get bitchy and take it out on anyone.
so i guess this is a sorry to anyone i pissed off these last couple weeks. and to anyone i was rude to or anyone who i screamed at when i didnt mean to. anyone i ignored or anyone i didnt leave alone. and im sorry to the people who read this and havta deal with my bitching and complaining and feeling sorry for myself. all ive written about these past couple weeks was bad. i never wrote about the good things. i dunno i guess i wanted someone to feel bad? just someone to tell me that they cared and that it would all be alright. but in doing that i left out the things and the people that mean the most to me. like how me and chris went back and forth to the mall for the past 2 weeks nonstop. and how many parties with my friends ive been skipping just so someone would ask wuts wrong. everything ive done, everywhere ive been these couple weeks i havent even mentioned bc after its done, thats it. its done. it doesnt help me anymore. like when me and morgan went to the mall. it helped while i was there but as soon as i got home it all went away. wutever thats besides the point.
i think im gonna take a break. im just gonna stay home this weekend instead of going out like i normally do. maybe ill have someone over, i dunno. but i dont think im gonna go out. hah who nos maybe ill actually spend the night with my family. haha sounds fun... or not. oh well.. all that matters is im gonna change. remember when brian said i was the new jackie instead of the old jackie? well we're gonna see if that can happen. im definitely gonna change who i am. im rude to people, and thats not good. im rude to people i dont even no, which is even worse. i take advantage of people who mean everything to me. and i always put someone else before myself. thats gotta change to. jael was talking about it in her journal also. i need to start thinking about myself and not just someone else. so after this weekend, ill be the new jackie hahaha right brian? and i dont care if you like it or not, bc i gotta do this for me. i hate being a bitch to everyone and i hate being jealous of everyone.
yea so sorry to anyone i pissed off. i didnt mean to and im really sorry.
bye guys
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names arent important (hah like you cant figure it out) but.. thanks i needed this. and im not kidding. after ive been a bitch i needed someone to come and yell at me for it. people just look past it and think i'll get over it but i really needed someone to come out and tell me. so thanks.
----: i read ur convo in ur journal
----: got a problem
SpearBrtny2: yea i did
SpearBrtny2: ive been a bitch
SpearBrtny2: and im sorry
----: well how bout u dont talk shit about my girlfriend
----: thankz
SpearBrtny2: i said im sorry alright wut else do you want
----: u to stop talkn shit
----: thats all
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[02 Jun 2003|07:40pm] |
hey guys
today was so boring! omg.. me and julie in gym today had a good talk while we walked around the track like 8 times lol. then chris mack stopped us to talk lol that was nice.
i get my yearbook tomorrow.. $68 i dont need to pay bc mommy and daddy are kind lol.
SpearBrtny2: who should mommy make the check out to
SpearBrtny2: bc im not paying for it haha are you kidding
BriaNewj44: lol
BriaNewj44: wow
BriaNewj44: im paying for mine
SpearBrtny2: hahahah
BriaNewj44: jackie ur sooo spoiled
SpearBrtny2: lol haha no im not
BriaNewj44: hahha
hahah poor blind brian
BriaNewj44: i saw ur picture!
BriaNewj44: omg ur hot
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[01 Jun 2003|05:31pm] |
well i didnt go to the mall.. my parents were gonna go out and my stupid gay sister didnt wanna go with them so i hada stay home and watch her. oh well its alright i guess
my parents left at 1 and its 530 and they arent home yet. they called at 330 and said theyd be home in a half hour but.. yea its been more than a half hour. so now i definitely cant go out bc its gonna be too late. nice going
[edit] ok they just got home and.. we got a dog? lol yea his names gibson (daddy named him after a guitar haha) and hes a shihtzu or somethin.. my sister laughs at the name.. shes so stupid lol shes like, omg guess wut word i can say now..
wow can you say loser haahha im so loving.. aww puppyy
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[01 Jun 2003|10:44am] |
wow i actually started studying for my math final this morning.. theres a million days till the actual test and im already studying for it. haha nows where you say jackie you have no life
today i think im goin to the mall with amanda brian and chris. i think.. i dont exactly remember who but i think its them lol. sorry guys i get confused sometimes. lets hope mommys being kind today and will let me go
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[31 May 2003|06:32pm] |
i went shopping with mommy today and ended up getting NOTHING. i feel so deprived lol but tomorrow im goin to the mall with .. i dont exactly remember who.. but ill buy stuff there..
ok wow i was watching the news on e and they were talking about some new reality show called boy meets boy. its about this guy who hasta pick the gay guys from a group of both straight and gay people. if he picks the straight one, the straight guy gets 20000 for confusing the guy. if he picks the gay one, he gets the 20000 AND the guy lol. somehow thats a little.. weird for me. very deciving.. lol
its raining and it sucks so im gonna go watch a movie or somethin .. adios
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[30 May 2003|06:16pm] |
nothin happened today at all except me and hayley stayed after for a vollyball meeting. holy god im gonna havta run a mile everyday at practice. wowwww not cool lol. and the camp is pretty expensive too my parents definitely wont be paying it lol. ughhhh i gotta do something with my life i cant just sit here and eat lol. after the meeting, me and hayley walked around outside and went near the tennis courts and i heard john mayer! it was coming from some car with NO ONE inside.. it must be a sign lol
oh yea some guy in lunch today comes up to me and goes, my friends thinks your hot he wants you to go and talk to him. i didnt go bc he sits on the scaryy side of the commons lol and i was scared id get raped or something but i looked over and he was kinda cute ehhhh sorta. eventually the same guy came and asked me to go to his table and i actually went and they asked me my name and now im scared this guys gonna attack me lol
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heyyyyyyyy
haha im hyper right now im not sure why but thats okk
i was on the phone with chrislyn last night and it was so funny. he says i have this "sexy phonesex voice" and i never realize when im using it lol.. haha funny.
joe said hi to me today oh my god lol
i commented the people who showed up on my friends page, so ill be commenting more later when more of you update
byeee
[edit] haha ok the sexy phonesex voice needs some explaining. he says that sometimes if i whisper or if i just talk normal i sound like one of those girls on the phone sex things. lol how he nos wut they sound like is something i dont need to no.. haha he said when i grow up i should work as a phonesex person haha id make alot of money. sounds like a fun jobb right lol
omg today i was talking to mike and he said that mike (the one i like sorta kinda .. i dont exactly KNOW him but thats never stopped me before lol) talks about me everyday in his math class. thats soo good lol bc i dont actually know mike, and he doesnt know me and yet he talks about me everyday! ahh nice lol
today in 8th period i walked around and found chris and ryan. eventually sean showed up and he walked around with us for a while. ha wasnt that lovely.. ehdsfjhsdf
anyways, chris found this ruler thing in my locker and took it and tried to pick my skirt up with it and it was pretty funny lol. haha.. and no it didnt work im not that stupid lol
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[27 May 2003|07:19pm] |
yea today was boring but since ive got nothin else to say and i havent really updated in a while, like with a real update, ill just get it over with
wow first of all people are gayer then i thought. i wonder if they no who they are..
ok actually nothing happened today lol so im not gonna write cya guys
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[26 May 2003|12:16pm] |
im goin to the mall in a little bit with chris and maybe brian? hopefully we'll find hayley and morgan there too bc theyre going also. yup.. should be fun...
ew then i gotta go to my neighbors girlfriends birthday party. shes like 40.. and ive never met her before. ive never really met my neighbor either. hes french and he says my name funny lol. yup so that should be interesting.. dont you just LOVE being with people you dont no and cant really understand..
hahaha cya guys
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[25 May 2003|10:06pm] |
i wonder if you can hate someone who you havet even met yet.. and have no interest in ever meeting ever. you just want them to die or something. does anyone else think thats weird? bc i do.. but i cant help thinking that this person should just get run over by a car or a bus or something..
arent i nice
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[25 May 2003|06:31pm] |
heyyyy
i went to the mall today with mommy. it was fun she was buying me all these things bc of wut mean things she did to me yesterday lol. yea so i got some shoes 2 shirts a jacket and really good smelling cream from bath and body works. lol oh boy. wow ive been eating all day and im still hungryyyy geez
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alright.. i guess yesterday my parents felt like being funny bc they were jokin about the whole thing. wow lol nice going
im goin shopping today with mommy lol it should be fun.. bye guys
[edit] hmmm ok.. my friends page isnt working for me so ill comment as soon as its back up. i went on my sisters computer and its working there so im probly just pressing the wrong button or somethin lol. figures right|? haha.. alright soo ill comment later i promise
oh ya im thinking about using a new journal name, but stupid blurty people changed everything to free users and they have dumb limits on stuff. so tell me wut you think i should do alrightt|? byee [/edit]
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hmm.. i havent even left my room yet and mommys already yelling at me for "ruining her weekend" how nice of you mommy. shes in a bad mood obviously so i think ill just stay in here for a while.
i wanna go to the mall again today but i dunno if i will. its raining again so i just wanna lay down all day. chris wants me to have a party tonight but i dunno if i will. i doubt it.. i dunno who to invite anyways so i guess i wont be havin one. sorry chrissyyy
wow the same song is on 3 radio stations.. i guess ill listen to justin timberlake...
ill edit this later
cya guys
[edit] wow ok i just got into the biggest fight ever with my parents. im not sure how it started really, but it ended up with my dad saying he wanted to kill me and my mom saying he went to far and that he lost her. that really isnt good at all.. yup so then daddy got mad and started throwing things around my room and.. yea.. we'll see how everything turns out, hopefully they said some things they didnt mean and were just angry.. yea
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[23 May 2003|10:30pm] |
no update today guys lol sorry
i went to the mall with chris and i saw MIKE GULLBERG again. i miss him so much
alrightttt im gonna comment <33 see ya
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[22 May 2003|03:25pm] |
mike said hi mike said hi mike said hi mike said hi
the other mike told me that this good mike talks about me EVERYDAY!! oooh boy
[edit] hah sorry i was excited i didnt say that very well lol. alright so remember the mike from the last entry? WELL this other guy mike told me that the mike i like talks about me all the time, even tho he doesnt no who i am. hahaha niceee. well anyways, i told mike (not the one i like) to tell the one i like that i was talkin about him. so then today i walk by and both of them are talking and i knew they were talking about me, so i kept walking. then mike (not the one i like) starts yelling my name and then i turn around and mike (the one i like) starts waving at me and says hey and i said hey back and i kept walking to gym. lol there we go.. so now does it make sense lol? [/edit]
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[21 May 2003|07:27pm] |
wow im in the best mood right now.. i mean not considering how stupid some people can be but wutever lol
first of all, i just turned on the radio and guess whose on it? john mayer! hah nice. alright..
on the bus i was kinda quiet bc i wasnt in sucha good mood, but then once me and hayley started walking around i felt better. but then during 1st period i felt bad again but then it was alright once i got into 2nd period. it was soo hot so i took off my jacket and then nick goes, jackie i like your tits i mean your shirt. haha it was the funniest thing in the world. the whole class was laughing it was great. jon kept talking about it in science lol. then in lunch amanda abandoned me to go sit with brian and then jeff comes over and asks if im mad at her. wow wut is this, person number 10 already? i swear if one more person asks me im gonna scream. but anyways, jeff came over and really made me feel alot better about stuff. thanks jeff lol. math was boring but oh well. then in gym i actually hit the ball with the bat! it was an amazing moment lol. spanish was.. i dont exactly remember. we had a quiz and that was really easy so i no i did alright on it. brad is so funny lol. hes always fighting with either ana or chelsea and its the funniest thing. then glenn told us how he broke his ribs sleeping. no wait that was yesterday lol.. wow wut am i talking about haha? ok wow now comes the good part. i went to study hall and then after a while i got bored and walked around. i saw chris downstairs and he called my name and i walked over and noticed he was standing with doug and this realllllly hot guy john. doug says hey i said hey back and then the hot guy john goes, hey! and im like, hi! in my really, omg your so hot so i cant really talk, voice. lol it was funny. then after i dragged chris to my locker and i was like, omg did you just see who talked to me. lol it was nice.
ooh i forgot to talk to mike about mike! ughhh.. ill just do it tomorrow. someone remind me to talk to mike about mike! oh i better not forgettt.. i dont think ive told you about mike? oh no i havent lol.. wellllll mike is the guy taking someone elses spot... yes. maybe. i hope lol
hey there brian
BriaNewj44 : i forgot to take under consideration the jackie factor
BriaNewj44 : it just knocks me off schedule and i the end result is me lacking in much needed sleep lol
hah the jackie factor. nice
oh yea chris wanted to be in here.
HI CHRIS!
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