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i feel like god punished me..idk nemore..i dont get me anymore? what am i doing here? i wanna be wherever katy is bc i know this would make sense then..but i cant and i hate it..all i have are memories..i never thought this could happen..why did they havta take her away from me..i was the only one left..i loved her with everything i had..i dont get it..i just wanna fly out to AZ..id really do nethin to be with her..she was really the only person who got me..knew what i was thinkin..could finish my sentences..understood me inside and out..she made me so happy..and i hate when ppl ask about her or say retarded remarks like oh "i feel bad for you"..ugh i hate my life its not what it used to be and by the time were back together idk shell prob would have forgot about me..or what if we cant be together and go to separate colleges..we had our future planned out everythin i was so excited..her xmas present is in my closet and its not moving. i want katy backl i have no1 to talk to..my bffl to sleep over have our lil dumb beast feasts =]..i want her back so badly..=[..you know u make those bffl friendships freshman year and we had that..and u take her away the mid of my jr year..i havta start all over again?..i dont want to...ugh..i needa wake up and see that this is reality and im not gunna be with her for a long ass time..im glad i have TBBs but sometimes idk ..i wonder if they get me..i hope..but idk..im just lost..w.e
i just wanna say i love you katy. <3 + im still thinkin bout u...
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ok so yesterdaY me and katy went to GA. u know it only took her 3948203 hours to get reaDY. but neway we got there at like 6 30. blah blah it was gay. i didnt wanna be there it was retarted and sick out...joe wouldnt even look/talk to me. w.e. when we got home i IMed him..and yea were friends now well not best of friends but we're ok with each other. thank God. lol RAchel confessed to the lil games she was PLAyINg there pretending to be other pPL. well she did get out some info i didnt want to KNow.
todai was funnn well i worked 1-9:30..ugh work is so sloww..and for like 5 hours Steve K kept askin if i liked him im like F*CK No. and he got mad and asked why i hadda curse. he was writin lil notes on receipts to me and sH*T sayin do u like me..u keep flirting i think ur cute..im like sorry if u think im flirting..lol but hey w.e. i do u do it bACK. i was just being nice i didnt think i was FLIRTING. and TJs like u like sTeve now! im like no..hes like what about JOe and DAn. im like shut upp..hes like ur gettin aorund the whole company.. im like uhh shut up be4 i tell katy that ur retarted and ugly as F*Ck haha. hes like yea YEA. w.e. i got to work with Enrique hOLLA! i love that kid hes so nice. when i was doing my bank hes like when u went in the back i saw a yellow paper fly (aka my till slip) im like r u serious? and i like ran out the stand looking for that SH*T piece of paper and i saw him laughin it up. im like yea thanks asshole gettin me scared like dAT. jesus i was scared as HELL. lol hes good. throughout the day chicks would stop by the stand and id be like why dont u hit her uP and hes like nah shes ugly eww. im like who do u thinkk ui are ME. christ. oh i also made up with Gil..hes like i dont rememvber sayion all that mean stuff to u and i never said i hate you..im like yea yea keep on lYING. neway after work my brother came late at like 10. we went home and i was hungry so him and his friends we all went to applebees! lol i changed my clothes then i wanted to go with slug and brian dautolon however u spell his last name..and sweads was in the back so slug yanked him outta the car and threw him onto the grass! lmao it was so funny. and im like thanks sweads! and i sat in the back. we got there and ughh their conversations were about girls the whole time..im like get me outta HERe. lol then i went with brian and slug to go home and i sat in the front..ugh brian is hot as HELL. i couldnt help myselfff. lol we were makin the U turn to get to WaWa for gas and Brian went into the left lane and there was another guy in the right lane. so when we were about to turn Brian figured that the guy was gunna go str8 cuz he didnt have his blinker on so brian drove into the right lane but the guy was turning! so he like ran off the road. lmao he sped up next to us and was cursing and sh*T. so brian went into the WaWA. and the guy went into the next entrance for it and followed us so Brian sped outta WaWa and into the neighborhood streets and the guy sped up behind us and then went in front of us. so Brian turned around and sped back to WaWa..we were gettin gas and the guy in the truck oulls up in front of us..he ggets out and starts cursing out Brian sayin u cant fuckiun say sorry for the shit u did u almost fucked up the noe of my car learn how to fuckin drive ur lucky i dont pull ur ass out of the car and kill you. ill beat the shit out of u...and Brians like learn how to use ur blinker. lmao the guy went back in his car and left thank god he was scaringg me. haha slugs like see arent u glad u came with us! im like DEFINitely that was awesome. Car Chases are amazin!!! neway now im home..bored..and StufFed..my stomach hurtsss. im OUT
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i can do so much better..TRUST ME
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yea this week has been death..tuesday i wasnt allowed to go to band. wednesday..idk wth i did i stayed home and then went out to dinner with my fam and cAssie. it was funny we went up north to eat and i was like hey cassie hot plACe HUH. lmao. haha we were laughin at the ice cream man cuz he was out at 9 when it was dark as hell out. oh well. thursday i worked..it was ok. Me and Rachel went together but when we got into the gate her ID card said terminated!! ugh she hadda leave. i was so mad she was supposed to follow me everywhere lol. iut suckedddd . but i was breaker so i was like everywhere. and Jon W. like put me in a headlock i was scared cuz i didnt know who it was but then when i did im like oh now ur talkin to me. god hes like ppl were sayin u were jealous that i started goin back out with my gf. im like yea..uh NO. lol. i was like i was mad cuz we didnt hang out that one day..w.e. it was like a mONTH agO! idc nemore but neway and i felt like he liked me and i started likin him but then he had a gf all of a sudden so i forgot bout it. but yea idk hes all into hangin out at the mall again. im like no thankS..then i said ok! hey its the mall. i <3 the mall so u cant turn that down. yea it was an ok day. yesterday i worked with Steve and SAm most of the day. Steve's funny as hell i love working with him and Sam is too. haha we got #s again. its funny one of the guys was Billy this kid Rachel hooked up with last year. and he gave sam his # and then im like wait heres Rachels # why dont u actually CALL hER. and then the next thing we know his gf is at our window sayin " thats my bf u just gave ur # too and id greatly appreciate it if u didnt talk to him" im like ok bitch that wasnt my # and 2nd of all he gave us his ...and she shut up and walked away. looks like some1 is gettin DUmPED. then we stayed till closing and then went home. today was like the worst. i came in 2 hours early cuz my brother came in at 12 15 and i had to come in @ 2. i stayed at Keiths stand. then working at OC i felt so sick. i wanted to go home i felt like i was gunna faint...then gil came by wow he doesnt talk to me at all..i guess its cuz i said to him dont talk to me im not ur friend nor do i wanna be. he deserves it hes the one who told me never to believe joe and shit and then all of a sudden hes on joes side sayin I led him on yea ok.i say like shut up everytime he talkes to me cuz he called me a bitch and shit. fuck that. then i saw joe a couple of times..im basically dead to him..i dnt exist when hes around. its MurDer. why cant he just be my friend!! ughh wth did i do i wanna kill myself..its not fair. working there isnt the same nemore i used to have lots of fun and now i just wanna die. i want to look at joe but then it just brings back memories and i doubt the kid wants to even talk to me neway..so whats the point? i hate him.i love him. w.e. im no one nemore. hes no one nemore. neway i left at 10 20 thank god i wanted to get out of there it didnt help that joe and gil were outside the door. Keith took me home! YAY it was fun his car= SICK. we picked up his GF and took her to work then on the way to my house i called Jon hah im like holla its keith and jons like my ass is it keith. lol he hung up on me! oh well now im at my house and theres tons of ppl here im scared. oh well im done with this sh*T cant wait for work tomorrow...thank god my brother will be there i think id probably die if he wasnt there. oh yea and he wanted to call DAn and talk to him im like no..if he wants to talk to me he shud call me why shud i run back..i guess i never meant anything to him.
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Had some interseting convos this morning. frist gil ims me sayin i led both JOe and Dan on and neither of them likes me anymore. what i dont get is how u lead some1 on when u actually DO like them. i mean i did like DAN. honestly but when I met Joe i really enjoyed having him around and wanted to become friends. but everyone was sayin.."no ur flirting with him ur leading him on" wth i told joe i liked dan so thats bullshit. ppl are so DUMB. idc anymore i lost both of them. so it doesnt matter anymore.
AeroGuy16: i just dont, i wuz attracted to u, thought i liked u, got to know
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right ok then why were u all over me yesterday at the mall. weirdo. i really dont get guys. fuck it im just not gunna talk to anyone at GA anymore cuz it doesnt work out. i shouldve thought of that and knew what i was gunna get myself into. now im gunna be so weirded out at work and upset having to look at JOe knowing the kid hates me when i dont hate him at all. even tho he made me cry and everythin. in my heart i cant forget him and move ON. i want to be his friend more than anything but he thinks im just a bitch that led his ass on. i wont call IM him nothing not even say anything to anyone at work so they cant say shit about me. i hate everyone.
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ps Mike D. disgusts me...
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yea..today def sucked..well at least at night it did..i got up at like 9 30 am cuz i thought i was goin to the beach with Dan but no his ass woke up at like 12 when it wasnt even worth going. so yea he took me to the park and we played tennis. i told his ass i couldnt play but he made me neway and i sucked real bad. oops it was funny tho i wouldnt run after the ball or anythin i just stood there. then we went for a lil nature walk and then he took me to the mall yay. but i only had like 7 dollars and he borrowed 2 so make that 5. yea it was ok we just walked around. then his friends met up with us..these 2 chicks i think one of them liked him cuz they werent really talkin to me and didnt seem like they liked me. oh well what can u do. they didnt say bye to me either when we left. its ok tho i dont care.(he called me beautiful too but i doubt he meant it..cuz u knw im not.) after that he took me home cuz my mom was being mean and said i could only be out for a couple of hours..by then it had been like 3 hours. so he dropped me off home..and tried to kiss me but i was like yea ur gunna go and hook up with some other chicks aka megan.. and try to kiss me? f*Ck that i turned away. and hes like thats not fair..right cuz its fair to me that i like u and u hit up other chicks when im not around..whats with guys these days! oh well he grabbed my head neway and kissed me! mean! lol jp oh well...then bill called me and he wanted to hang out so he came over we watched pirates of the caribbean..he was all like holding my hand and sh*T im like ok..i thought we were just friends heRE. but then katy came then rachel and dave. we all went outside and dave went in the pool. let me say his hair was lookin might hot too. haha. jp i love u dave ur there to beat ppl up for me! yay. ok Bill left hes like i dont wanna be here;..he was sayin we were bein mean to him..right..w.e. i think he was weirded out that rachel and katy were there. but he could have been mature about it and stayed..weirdo. yea then Rachel left and Tj came over..and we hung out in my room . me and katy were both dancing and sH*T haha. it was funny. Joe was callin tj like crazy and he was sayin sh*T about me. i got on the fone with him and hes like i need room to breathe thats why im not talkin to u right now..im like r u fucking kidding me? bREATHE? why couldnt u take the hint when i said that to U..hes the one who called me in the beginning like crazy when we met..stayed outside my house for hours on end till morning came..told me to call all the time and wouldn let me get off the fone when i started calling him. hes like ur so far up my ass right now that if u spit it would come out of my mouth. fuck that yo..i call him when he tells me to so his BS about me blowing up his cell is his fault hes like i asked cuz i cared then..oh when was that..SATURdAY?! what a retard. hes a fucking MORon...hes like ok u wanna know why i started tlaking to u? cuz i heard u were a fuckin slut and i was gunna use the shit out of u...right he hung out with me and tlaked to me a lot at GA and i didnt even really show affection towards him. i wanted to be his friend the whole time..he knew i liked dan..then he comes up with that shit? right i even said im not gunna do shit with u and would u wait if u were my bf? hes like yea i would id wait for however long u wanted and he would also say im not all bout being a player and just trying to get u in bed i really like u i wanna be with u and blah blah. hes an idiot..when he told me that i wanted to die i gave the fone to TJ and ran into my room..broke down and cried. Tj was like u know he did like u hes talkin out of his ass right now. dont cry. yea JOes a loser..i told TJ i liked him too but why shud i like some1 after they said that..ugh it makes me sick cuz guys lie just to regain their dignity. it makes no sense when uve told a girl the complete opposite the whole time and theyve been waitin and never left but when i tell him i dont like him like that and i like some1 else its.."oh i was just trying to use u" replacing "i wanna be with one girl right now and settle down".guys are such assholes. for real..i REALLY wanted to be his friend but i should have let go a long time ago. maybe when he started calling me PYSChO?! hes the pyscho. im done with this i hate joe.
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does he not know what his friendship was worth to me?...
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hAPPy BIRThdAY TO mE YAY
this birthday fuckin sucks.
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ok like 9 days later..lol...yay this weekend was fun! sat. katy came over and a bunch of family too and it was just sick. lol. Me and kAty were dancing like crazy for my cousins cuz no1 outside would play music we liked so we blasted sh*T inside. My cousins were like we dont know how to dance like that...who cant dance??? so sad. well then JOe and TJ came over at like 1 30 GOOd job guys. u know i only said come at like 10 30. yea and they had to leave an hour later cuz my mom was yellin at me to come inside and go to bed. so they left and blew up katys cell with a call every hour. christ can u say we ignored that sh*T. they were like come out...right at 4 30 am. no thanks u know we love to sleep. haha they had no ride home until the police found them at 8 am and brought them to the station. haha that is just too funny they were lOCKed UP. haha no they werent but thatd be neat.
yea so then sunday i didnt work either and didnt do nething really cept some shoppin and dan came over @ like 8. we did a puzzle! it was fun then we went to BK and Ritas so i could visit katy. i was like Dan i wanna see katy u asshole shes right across the street and he took me yay but i didnt get to say nethin really cuz there were tons of ppl there. theen we ame back to my house and jesus my parents were like goodnight over and over aka his cue to leave. so he left at like 11:30.
MOnday i worked..with Phil ughh i hate workin with him he doesnt stop touchin me hes so annoying. ew..oh well then i found out Bill quit and i like almost died cuz we were gunna carpool and i would miss him.but its ok i saw him yesterday he came back lol thank god. after work..Joe calls me and hes like SC ice cream party at ur house! next thing i know steve joe tj and gil are at my house raiding my driveway and backyard. i felt loved! haha they left a lil bit later cuz they all hadda be home then i like talked to joe online and he was yellin at me sayin all this shit and it made me cry cuz it was mean and about dan. i wanted to die and i called katy but she didnt pick up it was death.
neway yesterday i was breaker yay i got to be at like all the stands instead of just one all day. i had fun i hit up tj and joes stand the most cuz i like being around them. theyre so nice and i love being friends with them. im so glad i hang out with them a lot. i think joe likes me but to win me over he needs ot buy me sh*T a sAP. i mean shoppin GALORe. ok. haha and TJ likes katy and for him to win her over he needs to buy her clothes as well. does it look like we come @ a free cost. god. B*tches these days. lol JOn Gumble took me hope he was strikin up some sick convos..yuck. but hey w.e. gets me home. lol
ok today i have work..DAn came early as hell like 9 :15 am and walked right in my house and straight to my room. lmao i was supposed to get up and be ready at 8 45 but i woke up at 8 45 and hes like ok lets go. im like yea..my mom said no i cant go with u to play tennis haha. she told me to call her in an hour so i hadda be home since my cell is still not HERe. but hes takin me to work cuz he wants too..wierdo..who wants to drive all the way there. but hey i dont miND. i love that Kid. and my mom actually is letting him. shes funny shes like dont let him rape u im like right.... ok im off tom aka MALL. katy HOLLA @ me for tom.
My birthDAY is SAtuRdaY!! yay and SAt. every1 is coming over..
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yea..its raining so gross outside and i didnt go to work bc..why should i lol. my boss wont pick up his cell so w.e. i got my belly button pierced finally on wed. then worked the rest of the week. saTuRday i went to the mALL w. Cassie it was fun. we bought matchin pants and shirts lol. and other stuff. i saw devon!! ewwwwwww. then kATy CaLled me to come home quick to go to mike daltonsz party so i tried rushin my sis to go home. then i got home and changed and called and she kept ignoring my calls and kasie said she kept hittin no when i called her cell. ok so u call my friend and havta ruin our fun by tellin me to rush home but when i get home like 15 min later u leave w.o. me...wth is that. that is the stupidest thing ever. i coulda stayed at the mall longer with cassie or sumthin. ew..(deff not talkin to her anymore)! yesterday i worked with dan. crazy stuff he said im a bad server wth is that! he kept hurtin himself too. hes retarted he made me inhale the air in the whipped cream and i made him do it too. we were fucxked up and then like 45788235 ppl came and got ice cream and we were like fallin over and shit. it was so funny!! i deff wanna work with him again. oh weLL that was like the first and last time were gunna work together. and JOn Wis just gay. hes like i didnt go to the mall with u cuz u were working! i was like wth how did u know i was urt ass didnt even call me so u cant use that as an excuse instead he hanged out with some other chick..thats just nice! and he was yellin at me for leaving a voice mail im like that wasnt me stupid ass it was katy hes like yea im not retarted it was u..im like w.e. such a dumbass...so..then after work my bro wanted to go to ritas. so we picked up cassie and went and biLLy was there. hes like im here all the time now! im like wow thats really sad...neway today is crappy its grossssssss out. and i wanted to go to work! suckss.
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i really like never update wth..prob cuz im like always working...well nothin has really happened except..
_ KAte got a job! yAy
_ im gettin a raise!! go me :) cuz i just got one 2 weeks ago lol
_ Me Katy And CaSsIe r hangin out a lOT now
_ I got Dan KAtz tattooed on my back..hey he pAid
_ im not friends w/ Rachel nemore
_ i think im fallin for JOn Wallach or w.e. from work.. lol oops? hes hot as HELL
well..i dont really wanna go into what happens at work..the guys are weird..i mean i liekd dan like a LOT but hes shady..he gave a chick we work with a hickey..wth. then hes always sayin i like u but icant date u its a work issue..yea im SURE.oh well. i havta work with him sunday lets see what happens with that. so neway yesterday omfg!! what a night..the fourth of july how i love you! my brother had a lil party or w.e and we had a fridge full of alcohol. ok so i bring Bill over..and he meets my parents and stuff then starts like hangin out with my brother and his friends while i take a shower and get dressed. then when i get down there im with cassie and we decide to have some mikes hard lemonade..well 1 turned to 2 then 2 turned into like 8 haha. then we took smirnoff and i had a sip of a swager bomb? ew! Brian Datolun gave it to me it was disgusting. then katy came over and i made her catch up to me. then we started acting so drunk and cassie was like bangin her head against the wall and kept sayin hit me! so her friend tara like smacked her so hard. and katy smacked the hell outta me! then my brother was yellin at us bc we were being so loud cuz we were laughin about this chicks outfit..slugs like lil gf or w/e, they had just met and they were already having sexx in the laundry room. she was wearin a sick outfit and katy screamed what are you wearing? and taras like wth was ur shirt 4.99 and cassies like did u hit up the 3 dollar rack at dots?! lmao we were like free 99 outfit! and she starts crying she was like 20..loserrr. she was nasty neway. then.. JOn showed up! with Keith i <3 joN! lol my mom said i was all over himn w.e. and i think i said i love you i was all drunk i dont know wth i was doing..so w.e. and omg Dave S wouldnt go away ! Cassie was gettin all emotional and cuz my brother was yelling at her cuz she was all drunk and dave was tryin to be like a Dad. hes a rapist! neway i had a fun nite!! lol even tho i didnt hook up with JOn katy was yellin at me for that..i dont even know if i WOULd if i had the chance..i hardly know him..and yea katy wanted to hook up w/ Bill but he left he got all pissed over nothin. hes retarted. neway tom im goin to the mall w. kASie cAss and kATy cant waIt love those girls! im DoNe!!
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ok...this past week was so fun!! well..after my cell fone got stolen at graduation..thank you for that..you fat kid for takin my cell..lol..w.e. i reported his ass..hopefully ill get my cell back soon. lol i went to my brother's graduation on wed. it was so funny me and cassie were filming him and we could only get his hair..so thats what we taped for like half hour. i hope he doesnt get mad cuz in the background u here us laughin the whole time. wow shes so freakin funny i love that girl! well then thursday we left for S.C. had so much fun. on Fri. i went to the teen club..that was kinda gay it felt like a school dance, but i liked most of the music played. i danced the whole time so that was fun. then the next night i thought hmm maybe i can pretend that im 18 to get into this hot ass club called the freaky tiki lol and i got in! haha i was like hi! i left my license in NJ but im 18..yea right..then the guy was like yea so whens ur bday i said july..annd hes like i need the year and i got freaked out im like sh*t what year do u havta be born in to be 18..lmao so im like 19 uhh...83!! abnd hes like u dont know ur own birthday?!?! and my sis whos 21 was like u just made her nervous hes like no shes def not 18 but he stamped virgin on my hands and let me in. shit i had the best time everrr. yea there were like sick mexicnas everywhere grabbin my ass..so gross..but there was a really hot guy there..and he wasnt dancin withh neone so my sis kept gettin closer and closer to him cuz she really thought he was hot. and then he started dancin with me i felt so bad. but i stopped dancing with him cuz i knew my sis would kick my ass..then she was all yellin at me sayin i shouldve just kept dancin with him. she has a bf wth... neway..they like filmed me dancin and they put me on all of the tv screens in the club..like the walls are little tvs and ugh it was embarrassing! i like stopped dancin i froze haha it was funny. then the next day we came home. i had a fun vaca. i think were goin somewhere else tho later on...w.e.
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yay today was a good day. i did so well on the bio test first of all..cuz u know i had some heLP. haha then i got an A on my math quiz! and then the rest of the day was just good. Afterschool me and Andy walked to BK and met up w/ KAty. it was too funny actually we were being so mean to him but he knows we love him. I spilt a big ass cup of dr. pepper all over me. it really sucked i was all sticky. ANdy was yellin at me sayin he was embarrased when he had nothin to do with it. he was going craZy hes a weird ass motherf*cker..then we walked home. Andy scares me with the stuff he says...neway. im bored as hell right now and its so hott out ughh. im doNE.
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yea so this week was upsetting..my SECOND bestest friend in the whole world..lies to me to my fuckin face about her and my brother doing sh*T. and then my brother tells me oh by the way rachel kissed me like 387489274 times. and she tells me she loves me too.. wtf ok u stupid bitch i cant believe u could lie to me about that sh*t. sayin oh i would never do that to u and ew i would never kiss him! right..then when he starts tellin me all this sh*t shes like well i didnt want u to know bout it and i didnt want u to get mad at me then all this sh*t that shes been lYing about for MONThs starts coming out. WTF. i hate sluts and LIArs. god. out of every guy..u havta pick my brother and then make out with ur supervisor on top of that...ughh!! i hate you yet i love you soooo much! u meant EVErything but i guess i ment NOTHIng to u. even writing this is makin me cry and i dont even wanna think about this shit nemore cuz it only hurts more. i miss you so much but i dont care cuz u hurt me so bad..and u cant even apologize. well im done with this. fuck you
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ugh this weekend i basically LIVED at GA. Friday me and raCh went there for fun. (theres nowhere better to go) We had fun tho we saw ppl we work with and she saw her crush and i saw mine! : ) ahh i love GA lol. We went on nitro i love that ride..and then went on congo rapids even tho we were like cold as F*ck. haha. were soo funny. then saturday we both worked at GA. I worked with sam and phil it was fun except this asshole conned me into giving him the wrong change!. meanN!!! well neway SAm thinks steve is so cute im like damn why dont u just tell him that.so she said i could and i did haha. hope she doesnt mind!! ok well kATy, KAsie and mIke visited mE at work! that was fun except after i got off i hadda drop off my bank and i didnt have my cell phone to get in touch with them..it sucked. well me and rach chilled at the park for a lil..hit up the lonestar concert! then went home. We went to my house then called like everyone to give us a ride to rAchel's. dEvon offered to take us but ewww..hes so gross! when we got to her house i thought it would be better if i just left cuz she couldnt take me to work sunday cuz her ass hadda go on a MOtorCycLE here! JeSus. aka 2 ppl onLY. no fairrr..but then sunday we had fun. RAchel hung outwith jON! yay..and i had fun workin with dan! i love him so much! he took me into the back of the stand and we were just talkin while he smoked (ew) and my boss like came. hes like uhh whats goin on here! a party! im like yea..no. I told DAn he prob thought we were makin out and hes like ok u WANNA?! god..does he think i think hes HOT. damn i kinda do but hey. lol..well i just laughed at him and hes like u got a bf? im like no! hit me up. haha. neway then i went home after my brother finished work. then monday was gay hadda go to the parade..waste of time..then went to the movies with katY! that was fun we watched mean girls..story of our lives haha. and then wen our movie got out we ran to the mall and got purses from NY&co. i love mine!! so finally today..i had a math test im scared to know what i got..and then after school hit up BK with kaTe then it started pouring so we got picked up. now..im tired as hell but rACheL made me update!! haha did u see DOn StaRing rach?!?! lmao!!..ugh i forgot..Doug..is being mean as fuck. he was sayin the stupidest sh*T online. it was really mean..idk if it was his friend or not but still hes so fuckin gayyy i hate him. im not talkin to him..asshole..and he likes me? what an idiot. nice try gettin me to like u bAC. not gunna happen NOW. well im gunna go to bed im tired as hell
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fillIngs may huRT but SH*T KAty i got a cavity anD went to the dentist after scHOOl and now half my face is numb..ugh it sucks. ok so i got an A in bio mr hIbbard told me today! yay!!! C+- A lol go me! hopefully he wont LOSE my tests again. damn. well the bio trip today was ok..i had some fun but it sucked when it started raining. well my life is boring as heLL. so theres not much to write about it. BUt yeSterday was interesting. me and kAty walked to wawa then i saw MIke lol STArING like crazy. god. haha hes nice and funny tho so its ok. but my bro was supposed to pick me up and when he came he went back in his car and F*ckin lEFt w.o. me and screamed walk homE! ew ok wth did i do to YOu. aka NUTHIN. damn. so i walked back to kATy*s then he came. baStArdDdd. well i have tons of math HW so im goin to do that now. ill write in tom! hopefully.
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ok so friday was my sister's graduation. it was fun i saw Fern yay! and all my sister's friends. I saw MArio to ughh hes hot as helL! damn. lol. he said i looked good. yay then after that we went to a really nice restaurant. it was really fun. When i got home kAty picked me up and we went to Doug's house to work on the posters for interact...it was fun but at the end i was so mad. sOMe ppl there were being mean as F*ck and pissing me off. but what can u do. SAturdAy i worked and met a kid named steve d. it was great he wanted me to follow him everywhere when i finished working. i think hes so cute..oh well..neway i sat down for some time at the fefe dobson concert in that GA arena. i heard my fav song..everything..then left and walked around with steve while he was sellin lemonade and sh*t. yup..he wanted to drive me home but my bro was already waiting for me so i went home with him instead. Well Yesterday was my sis's graduation party. Katy and DAve came over..DAve was so bored haha it was funny. ALl my sister's friends wanted dave..well my sis Too. damn. My cousins were acting funny too they were playin dance dance like crazy and while Dave S was playin they were steppin on his mats so hed mess up hahaha. Jenny is funny as hell she pointed at him and said u have no muscles. lmao. shes an honest lil girl what can i say. Well today was boring..im tired as hell. so im gunna go lay down!
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so Yesterday i went to the mall with kAtY! yea! i got pants from bang bang i love them! theyre so hot. and pants from macys..kaTy thinks theyre sick...: ( i liked them? oh well.. but neways it was fun..we were good kids.
Yay today was fun kinda lol. well rach and me went to eckerd after school to buy her dye for her hair so when my mommy came home she could dye it. it came out awesome! shes so BEaUtiFUL! well then after we went to Doug's and this is how it went.........................................................................................................................................................................................................................as u can see i basically died......YEa. enough said. well my dad was yellin at me like crazy cuz i went out and im supposed to be grounded. he said i cant go out until he sees my grades...wth is wrong with him my gpa is only way above 4.0 and i get A's and B+'s haha oh well its a good thing for me cuz then ill be able to get out. thank god i got straight A's this sem. lol. well...i wanna hang out with kaTy ugh i hate not being able to walk around and stuff. its gay here. oh i failed my math test today! i thought it was hard...kind of..i hope i at least got a C if not im shooting myself. oh a funny thing that happened today..l senor blair passed ut these spanish magazines and my dad was in it aGAin. and DAve had it like open to it the whole damn period..hahaha. i told my dad and hes likei was in the paper again?! lol. oh well. and senor blair was askin me all these ?s like is he a CPA..im like uhhhhhhhh like i know. and doug's ass cut out like this pic of a fat chic and gave her a makeover..aka drew like longer hair and put eyeliner on her..then took the same pic outta mine and showed everyone a be4 and after pic...i havta say she looked prettier once doug wrote all over her face. well im OUt. its hottttttt bye!!
noW you WANna BE fReE so i LEt yu Fly cuZ i know in my heart babe our love will never die. <3
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u"ll bE baCk aGAin CUz YoU know IN uR heart baBY our love will never End x3
*CaROLyn
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let me start off with friday...DAMN ok. I went to Manchester High for a dance hosted by INteract..and Mr. Blair said it was for handicapped elders? so when i get there im expecting to see u know ppl in wheelchairs..but every1 has down syndrome! im like omg! u should def. tell a PERSON that the ppl will be like that. No one from JAckson was there...so me nd katy just stood there forever..scared..lol...then we met this guy steve and his friend george. they were so funnY! esp. Steve. ALl he wanted to do was dance lol. i had such a good time..esp when there was a hot guy there! well me nd kate took tons of pics for our school interact..and george took the camera and took a pic of our asses! im so scared of Mr blair gettin them developed lol. well personally i think some ppl shouldnt be officers cuz they dont do ShiT. and it pisses me off..ugh. well then we hit up OC mALL. sick sTUFF ok neway SAturday i worked..tons of hot guys @ GA. i think im goin Friday with Rachel..hopefully i dont work. I hung out with Mike..Kasies friend for a lil bit after i got off then went home with some Bk! holla lmao. SundaY!..for MotheRs Day i Went out to eat with the fam then we went to see Godsend. pretty good freaky movie. it was soo embarrasing tho cuz like the lil kid pops outta the water and my sister sCreams so LOUd and shes the ONLY ONE. it was like dead ass silent. haha shes funny. and finally..today..sucked. i hate mathhhh. i want an A in that class so bad if Roshan can get a 91 average with test scores of 71 and 91 i hope i can get an A cuz i have an 83 and then my 2nd test i didnt take but its higher than Roshans score up in here. god. ok well im OUt i needa study a SAP.
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ok so last friday..i went to see kanYE! at rutgersfest. he's AMAZING. hot college guys..im THERE. but i had to jump up and down to see kanye tall ppl were in front of me..they suck.god im in love with him. Then sugar ray came on and i got so close to him..freaks were like throwin themselves on top of me..and one of the girls kicked me in the nose...so my sis made me get out. well then after it was over my sister had a party. but my parents dont know bout that smalL detail. it was ok..my sis hardly had ne music and some1 drank all my smirnoff..fuckers. some girl kept sayin we did not have a wide selection of music haha true. her ass left right Quick. yea that party= SICK. haha no mario no FAIR. which means boring as hell. sundai i worked.. fuN!..not.
today i went to GA with dave and katY for FBLA. fun except daves ass was hunGry the whole dAMN Time. god damn and these ppl seem like theyve never been on a fuckin roller coaster be4 they trampled me when we were waitin for superman and like pUshed me into a vending machine. i almost died. i men even dave saw food flash be4 his eyes. i ehard donald the beast got in a fight today GOOD. his ass needs a beating hes an asshole to me sometimes and its upsetting. but oh well what can i do.
well i g2g to BEd hoLLER haha im so tired.
anDrea dont u just hate ugly BITCHES. shes gunna get her ass beat. a sap.
x3 CarOlyn
DAve S. doesnt know what hes in for....
a rUDE AWAKENING bitch.
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