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In need of a VACATION [31 Aug 2003|06:05am] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | Higher by Creed ] *wakes up and sees Mandy sleeping next to me with my arms over her. I smile slightly and I look over at the clock and notices its early in the morning. I quietly yawn as I crawl out of bed and go to the bathroom where I wash my face. I walk to the the desk and I open the drawer and take out my journal. I come back to bed and lay next to Mandy with my back resting on the board. I skimp through the pages looking for the pen and continue where I left off.* Chris is getting ready for tour and I don't know why but he decided to not reschedule the tour dates and go on with it. I don't know if Janie is going to go with him and I just hope their doing ok. As for me I've been busy working on my other movie that I haven't been coming home at the usual times. I've been rehearsing some lines with the other actors and we've already done some scenes. Its really taking up my time and Im upset about it because I don't have the chance to spend time with my baby. *looks over to Mandy* I come home at about 11pm and usually she waites for me which by far is the sweetest and cutest thing I can imagine. *smiles* I remember the other night I saw her sleeping on the couch waiting for me so I carried her off to the bedroom. I just feel so complete and I just love it when I see her sleep. She looks so peaceful and cute. *smiles* She is the girl I've always wanted in life, our relationship is going great andm ost of all we completely love each other. Anyways I have to get going. I have a couple more hours before I begin another day at the set. Bye! *places the pen on the page and closes it and places it on the counter and I slip through the covers where I resumed my sleeping position by placing my arms over Mandy and I drift slowly off to sleep* 1 Knows I'm Thinking About Mandy As They Look Into My Eyes

Hanging out with friends and spending time with the woman I love [26 Aug 2003|10:20pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | Higher by Creed ] *carries a box full of clothes from my truck and places it onto the laundry room where I begin to divide the colors and the whites. I walk over to the detergent and place an amount that equals the amount of clothes I put in the washer. I close the lid and walk to my journal that was placed in the rec room. I sit down on the couch and searches where the pen was placed so I can continue my entry.* Just finished moving everything from my old house to the new house. Basically I’m just washing all the clothes that were kept in my truck that was drenched with chocolate. I found some peppermint patties in my clothes and noticed one of Chris’ button shirts with chocolate stains and when I brought it out chocolate liquid formed and went over my clothes. *shakes head and laughs a little* I guess he just couldn’t keep his sweets to himself. Anyways Janie helped me finish packing this morning; I needed help on carrying some boxes that were loaded with alcohol. We had to put them on the shelves and in the liquor holder in the living room and in the rec area. Once we finished packing I had to leave to the realtor’s office and provide them information of my previous home that I wanted to sell. I had to tell what kind of problems that I had in the past with the house. After I left I decided to call up Christina and see what she was doing. I came over and I guess she wasn’t feeling too well and so I bought her some ice cream and some medicine. Just say when she saw that ice cream she got hungry. *laughs softly* I spent some time with her and I caused a huge ice cream war with a pillow. It always has to start with a pillow. *laughs* It was fun but I knew it was getting late so I left and came home. When I arrived home Mandy wasn’t home yet from grocery shopping so I called up Michelle to see what she was doing and we hanged out for a little bit. We went running on the shore and well it wasn’t long until we started splashing water at each other. It was so much fun; I had a great time hanging out with her. I dropped her off after we went to do some exercise and I came home about to sleep when Mandy called my cell. She was coming home from grocery shopping and I waited for her to come before I fell asleep. When she arrived we put all the food in the fridge and I showed her the view of beach just from our deck. It was so beautiful and she loved it. We decided to go out for a swim in our swimming pool and we spent some time together holding each other. When the sunset came down we were still in the pool and we watch the sun setting. It was remarkably beautiful and it was just gorgeous. As I look at the sun and I look over at her having that radiant color beam to her face. I say it was like I was breathless, I had fallen in love head over heals with this girl in my arms. It was something and it meant something to me, more than just being with her it was the fact that we both have a place together as our home, to where I would sleep in the same bed with her as to waking up and seeing her face in front of me. *smiles* Anyways let’s stop talking about the mushy stuff and go on with this entry. So yeah I made a pen for Max and Maude. I don’t want them to run around the beach and wreak havoc to whoever walks around. *laughs softly* The last time I let Maude go was when Janie and I exercised by walking around our neighborhood and the beach and boy Maude was crazy. I wasn’t able to see Milli and her that night. They went off running throughout the beach. Well anyways I have to get going it’s getting kind of late. I have some business with realtor’s tomorrow morning and then I have to read some scripts for my other movie. Bye *places the pen in between the pages and puts the journal on the counter of the rec room and goes upstairs where I see Mandy dressed in her night gown waiting for me in the bed. I crawl into bed and I put my arms around her as we begin to fall asleep into each others arms* 1 Knows I'm Thinking About Mandy As They Look Into My Eyes

The season of moving [25 Aug 2003|09:26am] [ music | Right Thurr by Chingy ] *walks over placing belongings in the boxes for the move. I walk over to the counter and place all the things that are non-breakable in boxes while the ones that are breakable I cover them with newspaper and place them in boxes with towels surrounding it. After finishing my bedroom I walk over to my journal placed on the kitchen counter and I begin to write* This is like the second day of moving, Mandy already had some of her stuff well all of her stuff was put into the new house yesterday except for a couch. *grins* Well that's something else but yeah I only have my things for my room to be sent there and I'm putting them into the escalade. Damn this ride so hot, I mean its like the one thing I ever wanted ever since I saw it come out. Well yeah Mandy and I have the same ride but hers is white while mine is black. Well anyways I'm going to bring this over to my place and maybe stop by at Janies new place. I guess they spent the night at their new house. *smiles some* Well then bye! *places the journal into one of the last remaining boxes and puts in the back of the escalade and goes into the truck and starts the ignition and drives off* Look Into My Eyes

Don't know whats going on.... [22 Aug 2003|12:48am] [ mood | weird ] [ music | Spready my Wings By Shawn Desman ] *crawls out of bed and walks towards the window looking out at the stars. Feeling something is wrong I put on a sweater and some sweat pants and walked out of my room and checked out Janie. I open her door slowly and I see her sleeping peacefully. I slowly close the door and walk to the ocunter and grab my keys and head out to my car. I drive towards Mandy's house. I look over to her room to see if she was still awake but her light is off so I slowly get in my car and drive. I start to make the turn to my house but I still have the feeling of somethings wrong. I drive towards Chuck and Lena's house and look over to the window but she's asleep and I drive off slowly trying to avoid making a noise. I have the feeling of something is truly wrong but cannot explain it so I drive off to the Hospital where Chris is at. I walk up to his room and see him lying down asleep. I lay down on the couch next to his bed and I think about what's happening to me and I slowly fall asleep* 1 Knows I'm Thinking About Mandy As They Look Into My Eyes

Dreams are dreams but this one is truly real to me... [20 Aug 2003|11:02pm] [ mood | loved ] [ music | Carry This Picture by Dashboard Confessional ] *looks over and sees Mandy on my side as we're curled up on the bed with my arms under her and wrapping around her. I lean over and I kiss her forehead and I see her smile for a second. I think what she's dreaming of as I know what I dream of every night and day, her. I look over to my journal on the drawer and I stretch my free hand to it and grab it making sure the pen won't fall off in between the pages. I bring my free knee and place the journal onto it and I start to write slow and cautiously without waking my baby* Today we finished doing the scenes and now we are departing back to the states tomorrow morning. We were supposed to leave Monday but we weren't able to finish the rest that day causing us to all back a couple days. Anyways after we finished I got a voicemail from Mandy and I headed to the hotel as soon as I can. I really missed seeing her, I mean she's the only thing I can think of every night and day, *sighs as I look at Mandy*, I can't believe I have her. I love her and I am not afraid to say it. *smiles some* Carry This Picture By Dashboard Confessional I'll carry this picture for luck. Kept in your locket, tucked in your collar, close to your chest. Make it a secret shown to the closet friends. Meet me at quarter to 7. The sun will still shine then at this time of year. Well head to the inlet and we'll share a bottle there And color the coast with your smile. Its the most genuine thing I've ever seen. I was so lost and now I believe. And follow me south of the big docks with the big boats, And teather the boats with rich men revere are so important. They hire our fathers to stear. And down to the edge of the water, We'll spill our guts and we'll leave our fears. I'll give you this picture and keep it and dont be scared, And color the coast with your smile. Its the most genuine thing I've ever seen. I was so lost and now I believe. I believe in the coast. Your smile its the most genuine thing I've ever seen. I was so lost and now I believe Now I believe So yeah we spent sometime and I enjoy loving every second, minute and hour with her. *starts to yawn* Anyways I have to get going, our flight is early tomorrow morning. Bye *places the pen in between the journal pages and lays it back on the counter and slowly lay my hands onto her hands and entwines with mine as I fall back asleep.* Look Into My Eyes

Busy in Paris [18 Aug 2003|03:58pm] [ mood | busy ] [ music | Politik by Coldplay ] *I lean back on my chair as I look over at the scripts and then I lay silent as I peer into my bag and notice my journal overlapping with the 2nd bundle of scripts. I walk over and take out my journal and slowly take a pen out of my pocket and begins to write* Today is an awful hot day for doing some scenes outside. Its like over a 100 or 120 degrees, thank God I have water. *laughs softly* But I feel bad for all those who have passed away these couple of weeks. *shakes head* Anyways I've been working out some lines with Brad Pitt and I say he's one good actor. Mandy and I have been in Paris for a couple days now and these couple of days together is a blast. I mean we both are soo into each other and we can't stop seeing each other. I miss her already. *makes a sad face* I mean she is the love of my life, the light that guides me through times of stress and darkness. I love her so much and I just dont know what to do if I lose her. I wouldn't have any reason to live. She means the world to me and she means a lot to me more than life itself. *sighs* Well I hope I get to see her tonight, my director is gettin' bitchy because we haven't been going through a whole day accomplishing some important scenes. I have to get going though. Bye *puts the pen in between the journal and walks back to my chair and continues where I left off in the script* 2 Knows I'm Thinking About Mandy As They Look Into My Eyes

The girl I've been wishing every night and day...has finally come true [15 Aug 2003|09:08pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | Here I Go Fallin' In Love Again by One Voice ] *walks over to my room and lays on the couch thinking of Mandy and I crawl to the edge of the bed and takes my journal and begins to write* Today I spent the morning with Mandy before I went to go do some shooting over at the beach. We filmed a part of the movie at a deserted beach where I was walking with "Helen", which was is my co-star of the movie. I can't actually remember her name so I had to call her as the movie characters name. *laughs softly* Anyways we spent some time talking about the move, we're planning to move next week to the new house over at Long Beach. So yeah after spending a couple hours with Mandy I left to do some scenes. We finished the scenes at about 3pm and I came home for break and I hanged out with Janie for a little bit. We were talking about the deal with O-town and about Chris' performance in MTV. I left a little bit early thinking the traffic would be terrible Fridays but I decided to call Christina and see what's going on with her. She didn't sound right on the phone and I kept it to myself thinking it might be one of her usual stressful days and so I when I arrived she didn't look or feel right. She started crying on my shoulder and so I swept her off to her couch and I layed her on the couch and told her it was going to be alright. But she said it wasn't going to be alright and I told her she deserves better but she couldn't live without him and she couldn't want to be without him. As she told me this I felt the same way, for Mandy....I can't live without her and I can't be without her and if I did lose her what will I do with my life. I breathe for her and my heart beats for her, every single time I'm with her I can feel both our hearts skip a beat. Its like a dream come true, a fairy tale becoming a reality and ofcourse two people falling in deeply in love. Well Christina decided to swallow some pills and I tried stopping her by taking the pills from her and putting them in my pocket and suddenly she ran and took some more and she collapsed. I tried doing the CPR maneuver but I wasn't able to wake her up so I called 911 and the medics came in 5 minutes later. They took her in the ambulance and they pumped the pills out of her stomache in the Emergency Room. She woke up and I guess their having her stay in the hospital for a couple days, they don't want her to overdose again so they have nurses watching her 24/7. So yeah I went back to do some filming and the director has advised us that we are leaving for Paris tomorrow morning so he wanted all of us to go home and get some rest for the big flight tomorrow morning. Rather than coming home I went to Mandy's place and we spent some time together slow dancing in her room and meeting the new member in the family. Its a puppy that she bought for Maude so Maude won't have to spend time by herself in the new house. I love Mandy with all my heart, I know words can't describe how I feel so I gave her a key, a key that can only be open a place, my heart can only be opened by her and only her. *smiles* This is truly remarkable, this is a dream that I don't ever want to wake up. She's the love of my life, she's the brightest star throughout, to this she's my destiny. *yawns and looks over the clock* Oh my its getting late, I have to get some rest before the big take off. Bye!! *lays the pencil in between the pages and slowly falls asleep on the bed* 1 Knows I'm Thinking About Mandy As They Look Into My Eyes

Spending Quality Time with my baby girl and the search of the mischevous dogs.... [12 Aug 2003|11:47pm] [ mood | loved ] [ music | Heaven by Bryan Adams ] -opens the door and slowly sneaks in my room trying not to wake Janie and Chris. I turn the nob and gets in and starts to change into my sleep wear. I walk over to the window and I grab my journal and skimp through the page where I left off and begins to write- Last night Lena was so drunk, I mean really drunk, she called me up after I came home from Mandy's place and I went to pick her up because she was driving in the influence and I didn't want her to hurt herself. It was funny watching her drunk and all but I didn't want her driving. I let her stay at my house last night and by early morning she fell asleep and I drove her home and dropped her off. This was way early in the morning, I think I dropped her off like around 5am. She's my bestest best friend and I just get worried about her when she gets into something. Today was one of the best days of my life. I spent mostly the whole day with Mandy. -smiles- This morning I picked her up from her house and brought her to mine and I made her breakfast. I made her some pancakes, eggs, and bacon. It was actually the first time I cooked breakfast in a long time! *laughs softly* After we finished eating we spent time together and just it feels when I hold her, I mean its like I never want to let go. Just the feeling of someone who is totally in love with me and the affections that we both express in either words or action is truly something. Truly remarkable and true love. I love her more than anything life itself. *smiles as I look up at the stars* She told me how all the wishes she had wishesd for has already paid off and it got me into the "aww" mood, I mean when she tells me these sweet things, she lifts me off my feet. Just the way she says it and the way she expresses it, I mean its indescribable. I surprised her with a new set of keys of a white 2003 Escalade EXT and its in the shop being detailed with a set of rims, beat and lowered. Just the look on her face when I handed the keys to her and the picture I took before it was sent to the shop, she was so ecstatic. She was very happy and I hope she enjoys her new ride. Actually as I bought her new car I decided to get one myself, but a black one *laughs softly* I had to call Chris to drive her ride to the shop while I drive my car behind him to pick him up. I put my ride in the shop tomorrow morning and I'll be picking her car up at the same time. After we spent some time together I went to do go back home and read over my scripts before the next shooting which was an hour by that time. I became the procrastinator and happened to hangout with Janie and the dogs and we walked them on the beach. It was nice but just how it was deserted got me the creeps, I mean there was no one in sight. Thank God I got Maude. *laughs softly* We only spent the time in the beach to let Maude and MIlli play on the water and as we watched them they happen to disappear so we looked for them. We spent like about 30 minutes at the beach but it felt like forever because the search of the two mischevous dogs. *laughs softly* At least I had the chance to talk to Janie, we never really have our best friend to best friend talk in a long time and it was cool. We talked about how Chris bought a new house and actually *scratches head* my new house is next to his. *laughs* I helped him out with the first year payment and I decided to get a house like a few blocks from his. I just hope he can afford the house, its well over a million dollars. *smiles* After we finished walking the dogs I went to the movie shooting of Troy and did a part for an hour and the director just decided to call it for the night. It just got me mad because I drove to do my scenes and I only did one for an hour. I could of spent time with Mandy for that one hour. *pouts but then realizes Im at my house* Anyways I'm getting sleepy and I have to wake up early morning to do my running, I haven't ran for awhile and I look like I'm getting fat! *laughs jokingly* Hopefully I get to see Mandy tomorrow night and I already have plans for our "little trip" next week and I already decided to buy a new house. Its a very big house, I mean its big and its in a gated community and everything. bye! *sets my pen in between the pages and lay the journal in my drawer as I crawl in bed and fall asleep* 1 Knows I'm Thinking About Mandy As They Look Into My Eyes

The shooting of Troy and spending time with my girlfriend... [11 Aug 2003|12:11am] [ mood | happy ] [ music | Girlfriend - N'Sync ] *opens the door slowly and creeps inside my room from a hard ays work from the shooting of Troy. I take off my shirt and walk over to my journal and takes out the pen from the cupboards and begin to write* Today was very hot for the shooting of Troy, I mean I was sweating in my costume and it wasn't good. I had to re-apply deoderant every other hour. I don't want people to think I stink. *laughs softly* I started filming about 10am this morning and I had a 2 hour breaks ever 5 hours of shooting scenes. The first break I spent time at the studio with Chris, he was preparing a song for his wedding in November. I can't believe he's getting married. I really am happy for Chris and Janie, they've been their for me through thick and thin. As he sang a couple of lines it made me think of Mandy, I mean really think of her. Yesterday I went over to her to talk about all the things that are happening around the both of us. Everyone is voicing out their opinions about Mandy and I and I respect it but truly I don't care what people think. Christina I know how much you hate me but the thing is we had our time together, OUR TIME, and we had the time to spend every minute together and now we both have found that special someone, you found Pierre while I found Mandy. Anyways I spent my 2 hour break with her and she was really understanding, I mean she is with me all the way on this relationship and I am truly blessed to have someone in my life especially her. *smiles* I am so happy to be with her, every single moment we spend time together it's like a dream come true. From the moment I see her and the moment I leave it's like falling into a dream and then waking up at the end all over again. *sighs* I miss her and I can't wait to see her when I can. She even bought me a cell phone, *looks over at the phone*, Its nice and it has all these gadgets but I'm scared to use it. *laughs* I'm not really into cell phones but to hear my baby's voice I'm willing to do anything. *smiles* Today when I came to see her on my break she surrprised me with dinner, she made some pasta and salad. It was romantic, a candlelight dinner with wine and to top it off, a kiss. *smiles some* I can't describe this feeling but the way she gazes into my eyes, it feels like all my problems and all my stress disappears and the warmth of the love seems to overcome it. *sighs* We have fallen for each other and I believe she's the one for me. *smiles* Well I have to get going, another work schedule again, tomorrow night Janie is helping me out with the scripts of Troy and hopefully I get to see Mandy before and after my script reading. I have to go now, it's getting to late and I have to wake up at 8am. *puts the pen in between the notebad and sets the journal on the table and walks over to my bed and falls asleep* 1 Knows I'm Thinking About Mandy As They Look Into My Eyes

My kind of Girl [09 Aug 2003|08:42am] [ mood | loved ] [ music | My Kind of Girl - Justin Timberlake & Brian Mcknight ] *walks over to my journal and takes out a pen and begins to chew on it nervously, thinking what I should write, I look over at the cappuccino reciept and I begin to feel warm and tingly* Last night I spent the time to get to know Mandy, not Mandy Moore but Mandy Lameche. We went out for some cappuccino and this girl is so amazing, she has everything a guy could ever want and more. Well the first time I saw her I was nervous, like really nervous, my hands were all getting sweaty and everything. *laughs* Anyways as we started walking I guess we just clicked, holding hands and holding each other. She told me it was like love at first sight and I foreone, believe it maybe. I mean just the way she looks at me, she doesn't look at anything else around her just me and I feel loved. I mean I feel like somewhere else, up high in the sky with her.*sighs and begins to bite the end of the pen* As we talked and as we got close I had the feeling of this is the right time to ask her to be my girlfriend. I mean the whole entire time I was thinking if I should or should I get to know her and take it slow but I couldn't resist. A beautiful, sweet girl was in fornt of me, her eyes seemed to capitvate me while her voice soothed me. I just wanted to kiss her at that moment I met her. As we kissed after I asked her out, it felt perfect and right. I mean I think this is one of the most happiest days of my life. As we walk towards to my house the stars shown brightly up in the sky and when I looked at her the stars were reflecting from her eyes it just caught me and I couldn't stop looking at her. All the stars combined can't match her eyes. I mean the stars brighten up when shes around. Anyways I have to get going. I have to be on the set of Troy at acertain time. I hope Mandy can come with.*smiels* Can't wait to see her again. Bye! *drifts off the pencil and slowly gets up and gets ready* 3 Knows I'm Thinking About Mandy As They Look Into My Eyes

The news... [02 Aug 2003|12:40am] [ mood | restless ] [ music | I'll be - Edwin McCain ] *walks over to my room and sits down on the edge of the bed and begins to write* I don't know what to say or think of what I just heard. Christina and Pierre *shakes head* I guess having her have some time to think was a wrong decision to do or was it the right thing? *shrugs* But I know for a fact I'm not going to leave her in times of confusion. *looks out through the window* Even if it means just being friends *looks down and begins to cry* I guess destiny doesn't want us to be together but I want to prove it wrong, show the whole world how much I love her and care for her deeply *sighs and looks at the lyrics I wrote for her* Maybe one day I will be able to sing those lyrics to her, maybe someday we'll be together or maybe one day we'll become friends. Christina....wherever you are, remember to look up the stars and you'll find your way home. *tries to smile but brushes my tears away with my arm* I have to go, getting too emotional. *turns over the notebook and crawls into bed and falls asleep* 4 Knows I'm Thinking About Mandy As They Look Into My Eyes

. . . . [31 Jul 2003|02:03am] [ mood | scared ] [ music | A Nightmare ] *Stood up from laying on the bed, sweating and called out her name* CHRISTINA! *tears begin to get up onto my eyes and I look around only knowing it's a bad dream, slowly begin to lays back down and fall asleep* Look Into My Eyes

Walking through this journey alone... [30 Jul 2003|06:52am] [ mood | sad ] [ music | On Bended Knee - Boyz II Men ] Where should I start off, this has been the most depressing and stressing day of my life. I mean once in my life I actually found someone who really loved me for me, who I am from the inside and out. The love of my life, the one who I want live my life through the fullest days by walking in this world with her has now left me. And now I'm here alone in the world, walking through this journey alone. It happened like a thunderstrike, in an instant I was really happy, really in love and then after a blink of an eye, everything was taken away from me. I can't make excuses of what happened and I have to accept the fact that I cheated. I don't even want to explain it because I've got messages by people and responses of how I'm a scum of the earth. *shakes head and bites lip* I couldn't sleep last night especially when I realized I slept in the bed while Christina slept on the couch. I don't deserve to sleep on the bed and I would of rather slept outside, in the cold where I belong. I had a nightmare where my foot was covered in concrete and I see Christina calling out for my name, for help, and I tried all I can to try to help her but I couldn't and then I see people, who I don't want to give out their names, making fun of me. *tries to hold out from crying* I guess I deserve this nightmare and more to come. But even though I don't deserve the people who are helping me through this, I feel that they are in my life for one thing, as my friends, my brothers and sisters, my love ones. Chris Carrabba, Jani, Lena, and Lance, thank you for your guidance and your lending shoulder during this time of my weakness, I love you guys with all my heart. *sighs and looks over to the mountains* I hope God isn't playing with me by placing me in this beautiful place with everything life has to offer except for the love of my life. *sighs* I miss her already, I love her with all my heart and soul and I wish I can turn the hands of time and correct everything but I can't. I'm sorry for everything and to everyone and I've tried talking to some people but they already had their minds set to a conclusion. I hope I can talk to her and I hope we can patch things up because that's what I really want to do. On Bended Knee by Boyz II Men Darlin' I can't explain Where did we lose our way Girl it's drivin' me insane And I know I just need one more chance To prove my love to you If you come back to me I'll guarantee That I'll never let you go Chorus: Can we go back to the days our love was strong Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong Can somebody tell me how you get things back The way they use to be Oh God give me a reason I'm down on bended knee I'll never walk again until you come back to me I'm down on bended knee So many nights I dream of you Holding my pillow tight I know I don't need to be alone When I open up my eyes To face reality Every moment without you It seems like eternity I'm begging you, begging you come back to me Chorus Gonna swallow my pride Say I'm sorry Stop pointing fingers the blame is on me I want a new life And I want it with you If you feel the same Don't ever let it go You gotta believe in the spirit of love It can heal all things We won't hurt any more No I don't believe our love's terminal I'm down on my knees begging you please Come home Chorus Wanna build a new life Just you and me Gonna make you my wife Raise a family.... 6 Knows I'm Thinking About Mandy As They Look Into My Eyes

My Fiancee..... [25 Jul 2003|06:13am] [ mood | happy ] [ music | I Am So In Love With You - UNV ] *wakes up and sees Christina's face right in front of me. She positioned herself where when she wakes up I'm the first thing she will see. This is something remarkable, something fascinating and sweet. Everything that I wished for is the person right here in front of me. I take a deep sigh and I lean over and I kiss her forehead. I then crawl quietly out of the bed and walk up to my journal and begin to write* As much I want to jump and down right now I can't especially when there's people around, I mean I want to scream and yell and do everything I can to show I am happy but it I might as well show from the look on my face. My girlfriend *looks at Christina sleeping peacefully*...my fiancee, it feels warm and tingly inside when I call her my fiancee. I love her and I am not afraid to say it, I've been keeping my eye on her the first time I met her. She came up to me and introduced herself and the feeling I get around her, its like nothing I have ever felt for a girl. *sighs* She's going to be Mrs. Christina A. Bloom, *smiles happily* Anyways last night she took a pregnancy test because she thought she was pregnant and I was with her as she took it, I read the conclusion and it was a negative. To tell you the truth, I was happy either way, I would love to be a father especially be the father of her kids, our kids. I would want to walk this world with her every step of the way. To be with her every morning and every night where I can hold her in my arms. To where we spend our lives growing old together. I can picture myself having a rocking chair with her. *laughs* But right now I want to spend every moment with her like it was my last. I want to cherish every second, every minute and hour with her. *smiles* I love her... Chris Carrabba is my best man and I mean he's the best friend that I don't ever want to lose, I love him in a friendl way. *laughs* I mean he was the first guy that I hanged out with and we get along great. He lives with me now and Janie too. I have my best friends living with me, isn't that great. The bestest best friend is Lena, *smiles*, she will always be that to me. I mean I love hanging out with her and spending time with her. Its like having a younger sister. *smiles* Anyways I'm going to ggo and tell everyone the news, my family is going to be so shocked to hearr this *laughs* Bye *puts the pen and the journal in my backpack and walk back to the room to get ready* Look Into My Eyes

A shooting star.. [18 Jul 2003|10:51pm] [ mood | blank ] [ music | This I Promise You - N'Sync ] *looks over at the stars and sees a shooting star fly by and I close my eyes as I whisper a wish* As much as I want more than one wish, I wish for more 3 wishes, the first wish has already been made, which is Christina but I wish for her to be right here with me right now. The 2nd wish is Lena to get better. 3rd wish is Chris, I wish he will find that someone he's been longing for, he deserves to be happy. *looks over at Lena sleeping. I walk over and I lay down on the couch and keep my eyes on her, hoping she will be well soon.* Look Into My Eyes

Time is too slow...MAKE IT FAST!! *laughs* [17 Jul 2003|10:33am] [ mood | giddy ] [ music | Peaches and Cream - 112 ] *walks inside the room and sees Janie resting on the couch, then to Lena on the bed and I look over to the clock and sees not on hour has past since the last time I checked it. I walk over to my journal and I start to write* The doctors been telling me how it's getting worse because of the fact that Lena hasn't been sleeping as well a she is supposed to. *sighs* I just hope she gets better soon, especially since I'm leaving this Monday to be with Christina. I really miss her, I mean to the point of giving everything up for her. *looks over at Lena* But I wouldn't want to give up my friends for her. *smiles* Christina has been soo understanding and I am still in shock that I'm with her. I mean any guy would be lucky to be with her. There are times when I look up at the stars in this hospital room thinking she's on the other side looking up at them with me. *smiles* Anyways I'm going to spend some time with Lena and probably see Janie or something. I haven't seen that girl for awhile. Bye *drops the pen and notepad in my backpack and I sit right next ot Lena* Look Into My Eyes

Lena in the hospital.... [16 Jul 2003|08:56am] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | Superman - Shawn Desman ] *opens my eyes realizing this is not the tour bus but the Lenas hospital room. I look over and she ia quietly asleep. I crawl out of the bed and I open my journal and starts to write in it.* I flew back to L.A this morning to see Lena. She fell and I guess there was a sharp metal object that got into her arm and slit her vein. The doctors told me she's not doing well because of the amount of blood she lossed before she arrived at the hospital. *sighs* I don't like seeing her like this, I hope she gets better soon, I've been in the hospitals too much. Well Christina continued her tour without me but next Monday I will be reuniting her on tour. Christina has been very understanding about what happened to Lena and she encouraged me to stay with Lena until she gets better. Right now I just want to do my "business" on her for being there for me like that. She's soo sweet and soo caring. *sighs* That's my girlfriend and I feel so remarkably special to have her in my life. I miss her already. Just thinking about her makes me feel so warm and fuzzy inside, it's like unexplainable. Anyways Janie is supposed to be coming by soon and I shoul brush my teeth and take a shower or something. I hope they provide a shower. *smiles* I don't want to stink for a couple of days. *laughs* Bye! *stops writing on the journal and puts the date on the top right hand side and lays the journal on the couch* Look Into My Eyes

Being with Christina on her Tour Bus [15 Jul 2003|06:36am] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | I Do - 98 Degrees ] *slowly opens my eyes and the first thing I see is Christina laying next to me, sleeping peacefully. I pull her closer and I hold her in my arms letting her know of my presence. I lean over and I kiss her on the lips and she smiles. I close my eyes and I begin to fall into a dream but before I do I whisper this in her ear* I do cherish you For the rest of my life You don't have to think twice I will love you still From the depths of my soul It's beyond my control I've waited so long to say this to you If you're asking do I love you this much I do.... *looks over and I rub my nose onto hers and I kiss her on the forehead and slowly drift back to sleep* Look Into My Eyes

This is who I am....*giggles* [14 Jul 2003|01:37am] [ mood | embarrassed ] [ music | It's Gonna Be Me - N'Sync ] You are the ever-adventurous and accident- prone........Orlando Bloom! 26 years old and admired by nearly every single teenage girl on Earth, you have quite a life. That is, you will have quite a life if you don't kill yourself falling out of three-story buildings first. Which side of Orlando Bloom are you? brought to you by Quizilla Orlando Bloom: you like them dead sexy, with an orgasmic accent and looks. *drool* Which guy are you destined to have sex with? brought to you by Quizilla 1 Knows I'm Thinking About Mandy As They Look Into My Eyes

Working on my scripts while missing my girlfriend... [13 Jul 2003|06:08pm] [ mood | relaxed ] [ music | Someone To Love - Jon B. & Babyface ] *gets in from reading scripts for the upcoming movie of Troy. I toss the script onto the bed and I take off my shirt. Realizing how hot it is I walk over to the bathroom and place a cold wet towel around my neck. I walk up to the computer and begins to update* I've been working on the scripts for my upcoming move of Troy. Its been a great experience and I've been liking it so far. I already scrolled over the "Ned Kelly" movie script and it sounds pretty good especially my part. *laughs* Anyways I miss Christina, she's on tour with Justin Timberlake right now and I don't know which state she's heading off to. *frowns* I really want to be with her during her tour and I hope I can find a way to do that, even to the point of having to follow the tour bus. *giggles* But then again the more we spend time off each other, the more I want to be with her. I yearn for her. *looks around* Did I just type that! *giggles* Well I do, I miss her so much, and I will be waiting for her phone call tonight, unless I fall asleep dreaming about her. *smiles* Anyways I'm going to head out, I'm going to re-read my scripts and see what kind of flaws my character is goign to face in the movie. bye *clicks update and lays on the bed and starts to read the script* 1 Knows I'm Thinking About Mandy As They Look Into My Eyes

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