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Thursday, June 17th, 2004
1:12 pm	haha.. i just need to remember this. dearest thomas and i had an incredibly stupid conversation today. LakeOfFire09 (11:38:35 AM): ;0 xsingxchildrenx (11:40:18 AM): that reminds me of a pokemon or something. LakeOfFire09 (11:40:34 AM): lol :P LakeOfFire09 (11:40:37 AM): no LakeOfFire09 (11:40:41 AM): i hate that show xsingxchildrenx (11:40:48 AM): i do too. LakeOfFire09 (11:41:03 AM): u know i always wondered something about that show xsingxchildrenx (11:41:10 AM): what? LakeOfFire09 (11:41:36 AM): they eat meat the ppl so does that mean the ppl eat pokemon and do pokemon eat other pokemon xsingxchildrenx (11:41:51 AM): hmmm... that is a good question. xsingxchildrenx (11:42:03 AM): i mean.. the pokemon would be considered animals i guess. LakeOfFire09 (11:42:25 AM): ya but u never see em kill em and nothing dies xsingxchildrenx (11:42:59 AM): maybe that's what happens when they capture them, and you never see them again. xsingxchildrenx (11:43:08 AM): they actually take them home and eat them. xsingxchildrenx (11:43:15 AM): or feed them to the other ones. xsingxchildrenx (11:43:20 AM): but only at night. xsingxchildrenx (11:43:22 AM): so you can't see it. LakeOfFire09 (11:43:30 AM): lol xsingxchildrenx (11:43:32 AM): it's like a sacrifice! xsingxchildrenx (11:43:40 AM): that show is so evil! LakeOfFire09 (11:43:41 AM): lol LakeOfFire09 (11:43:45 AM): ya xsingxchildrenx (11:44:00 AM): man.. those kids are all in a cult... LakeOfFire09 (11:44:11 AM): yup, always happy xsingxchildrenx (11:44:19 AM): psh.. i see how it works now., LakeOfFire09 (11:44:26 AM): drugs xsingxchildrenx (11:44:31 AM): yep. xsingxchildrenx (11:44:31 AM): man. xsingxchildrenx (11:44:35 AM): we should sue. LakeOfFire09 (11:44:38 AM): lol LakeOfFire09 (11:44:53 AM): would that yellow rat thing be dead by now like dog years or something xsingxchildrenx (11:45:05 AM): lol xsingxchildrenx (11:45:14 AM): it probably did die. xsingxchildrenx (11:45:17 AM): they just replaced it. LakeOfFire09 (11:45:20 AM): lol xsingxchildrenx (11:46:02 AM): but i don't know. xsingxchildrenx (11:46:12 AM): if they were real, i'd probably have one. xsingxchildrenx (11:46:21 AM): i'd make it so violent.. it would be my attack.. thing. LakeOfFire09 (11:46:22 AM): lol me too xsingxchildrenx (11:46:39 AM): my pokemon would totally kick your pokemon's ass. LakeOfFire09 (11:46:46 AM): i get the big fire ones xsingxchildrenx (11:47:29 AM): mine would end up being stupid or something.. xsingxchildrenx (11:47:33 AM): like.. it wouldn't have any powers. LakeOfFire09 (11:47:38 AM): lol i would steal yours xsingxchildrenx (11:48:03 AM): i would kick you in the face if you tried. LakeOfFire09 (11:48:14 AM): nope my pokemon would protect me xsingxchildrenx (11:48:38 AM): no, no.. i would have a secret love affair with it. LakeOfFire09 (11:48:53 AM): lol i have u arrested LakeOfFire09 (11:49:06 AM): pokality xsingxchildrenx (11:49:10 AM): hahaha LakeOfFire09 (11:49:34 AM): lol xsingxchildrenx (11:50:02 AM): i'd take you down with me. xsingxchildrenx (11:50:09 AM): i'd say that you stole your pokemone. xsingxchildrenx (11:50:14 AM): *pokemon xsingxchildrenx (11:50:22 AM): and that you molest it. LakeOfFire09 (11:50:25 AM): so i be a member of the evil team xsingxchildrenx (11:50:25 AM): and beat it. xsingxchildrenx (11:50:56 AM): well.. then you'd like die every time. LakeOfFire09 (11:51:12 AM): lol they arent dead xsingxchildrenx (11:51:46 AM): they should be. LakeOfFire09 (11:51:51 AM): nope LakeOfFire09 (11:51:57 AM): bad ppl dont die :-P xsingxchildrenx (11:52:03 AM): yeeah.. xsingxchildrenx (11:52:05 AM): but.. LakeOfFire09 (11:52:14 AM): but xsingxchildrenx (11:52:20 AM): i forget what i was going to say.. and you can't forget: xsingxchildrenx (11:56:12 AM): hey, everybody knows the easter bunny is cooler than jesus. haha... i'm a retard.. ehh. fucking steve. i despise him now. harry potter! EVERYTHING GETS DROPPED WHEN HARRY POTTER COMES UP! BUT NO! Current Mood: hungry Current Music: afi: synesthesia (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 25th, 2004
10:33 pm	you broke it all apart we saw kill hannah. we met greg + garret. our pictures are going on their tour page. fahhh kyeah! chicago owns me. though, the tour could've sucked me off. it was horrible. i'm incredibly tired. i don't really feel like updating this right now. maybe tomorrow.. maybe not.. i have to go with my father to eat at the hopwood's house tomorrow. bleh. love me. love you. ps. i am Andy Warhol, bitch. here Current Mood: tired Current Music: kill hannah: nerve gas (Comment on this)
Friday, April 16th, 2004
11:20 pm	i feel like a fucking idiot. i don't know why i did that to myself. i promised i never would. once i started, i just couldn't stop. after the rush of emotions last night, it just felt right. stephanie made me promise i would never do it again. i told her i couldn't do that. i mean, i can't. almost twenty scars. twenty. i couldn't stop. i just sat and let the blood run down my arm. it was so soothing. but i went overboard. twenty is too many. but, being the sick person i am, i document everything in my life. i'm sorry.. love me. love you. Current Mood: dirty Current Music: vendetta red: ambulance chaser (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 15th, 2004
3:00 pm	i'm going to my dad's house tomorrow. my pants are too big. my aol just froze. i have to pee like whoa. i don't know whether to spell it whoa or woah. my socks got wet when i walked home today. i'm going to go to sleep after i write this. or.. after i eat my butterfinger. faaaahhhh kyeah! mm.. chicago is so close. i can't wait. i want to get my septum pierced, i want to badly. blah. love me. love you. Current Mood: mellow Current Music: system of a down: sugar (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 11th, 2004
5:02 pm	it took me all day to find my book. i need to write these in here in case something actually happens to it one day. blech. this once majestic house is falling apart the windows, broken and boarded up the walls that were once bright and colored are now brown and dying piece by piece the floors hold so many of our memories retracing each one as i walk down the hall my friend, you've come a long way but i'm afraid our journey is over it once was that a burning fire couldn't tear us apart not for long though, because you're so far away i'm wishing you the best of luck and i'll see you at the show the grass is dead and wilted, walking through the back yard old toys still in the sandbox, where we once sat going down the sidewalk, i hoped for the past but as i reached the gate there was no turning back the court still stands tall from those days do you remember? did you remember me? --- the bodies keep falling from the sky into the crimson river where the angles hang their heads to cry shedding for the children who are scared why is this happening what have we done why won't the darkness leave us alone what did they do to deserve this pain that keeps them hiding all day and fighting for their lives out in the rain no matter what they say it will never be okay god stop the violence end the suicide stop this pain from coming help me on the inside the destruction of everything is so near the gorvernment keeps crushing your dreams they try to make the future so clear the end is coming, so it seems this reign of terror is coming down and the enraged children are still screaming but no one can hear the unlawful sound the hearts are still bleading but the bodies are leaving --- your stares are etching scars into my mind just please let me be, i'll be fine i can't take away your opinions of my being and i can't help your eyes from what they are seeing i don't fit into your faux fashion trend and i can't help the way my fingers bend i won't give into your stamp just leat me breathe i want to be alone i just want to be alone let me out of your binding box where no one has courtesy for knocks my intentions will remain the same i want to break free of this undying game just look past my ripped up, faded jeans and i will tell you that i don't know what hollister means to you --- save me i think i'm fading i think i've fallen off the edge of reality but what is reality when everything is a nonconformity and no one believes that there is hope but there is still hope in my eyes because i see the light and it's still burning bright so take my hand and we'll find the way to a new life where we can walk all day everything can fade to gray it will still be okay because we can paint it black when we get our vision back from the blinding bleach of your thoughts --- i look at your picture every day and as each day grows old you picture fades away you're not coming back to this vacated town no, you're not coming back because there is no one around i can see you right in front of me but you can't look back at me there's nothing inside of you i'm non-existant to you but i'm not giving up i can see the pain when i look into your eyes my life will never be the same without you behind me all the way the dull pick can't save the pain no, not today and you can't help me no, not today --- hey, thanks for everything you've given life to my eyes and now you've fiven me the world always ther eby my side astray away from giving advice i'd give it all to keep you forever and a day please, god, don't leave me tell me taht you love your life i'll give you my eyes just so you can see that it would be impossible without the strife just believe me and sing to me again i swear i'm doing my best just like you did for so many years you'd sacrifice yourself for our lives i could never ask any more from you please, just never leave my side and i promise i'll buy you everything you could ever want and more i'd never do anything to hurt you i just don't want you to feel pain ever again, breathe for an eternity just take my life, it's more than i deserve you can have it forever, or just a while i just want to see you smile one last time --- when the world doesn't want you what do you do your parents don't love you it can't be true these days are getting harder but we'll make it through we'll just keep fighting through the black and blue your life is a struggle but you act okay and you'll just keep lying until the next day we are the youth of tomorrow we sing of sex and sorrow from our broken homes and the shattered bones we are tomorrow you keep fighting your freedom in your locked up room there's no way escaping this third class doom just stop shooting those bleak drugs and wash off the blood stains just go on outside and scream insanity in the rain break down the door of your abuse and violence and come save us from this Current Mood: melancholy Current Music: modest mouse: sleep walking (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 7th, 2004
3:09 pm	is anyone here alive? i knew today was going to be a bad day. last night i woke up at 12:30 because i felt something running down my nose. suprise, suprise, it was blood. i quickly put my hand under the downfall of blood as i ran to turn on my light. i sat there letting it all drain until 1:00. my garbage can was filled with bloody tissues, kleenexes (oh, fuck me if i spelled that wrong. i don't care) if you please. i had to go into the bathroom to wash everything off of my hands. i fucking love nosebleeds. OH, THE SARCASM! i woke up this morning. i took a shower. i missed the bus. i waited for my mom to get up to tell her to take me to school. she flipped. not cool. librarian wasn't in school today. didn't get my notecards turned in. that means my A turned into a C in english. fuck. took my test on the martian chronicles. passed with flying colors. the smelly girl sat next to me on the bus. i recieved a card from ray sr. he sent me $20 for easter. i love having a grandfather. even though he's not my grandfather. i love having an old man around to give me money. my mom got my chicago paper notarized. i need to turn that bitch in like WHOA. it was due like.. last week or something. i'm bored. i have money. i need to do something. bleh. saaaave meeee love me. love you. Current Mood: mischievous Current Music: incubus: aqueous transmission (Comment on this)
Monday, April 5th, 2004
6:30 am	living in your letters it's early. i woke up last night, i don't even know what time it was, i thought i was going to die. i felt like i was going to throw up for hours, but i didn't. nothing at all. i almost passed out while i was walking back to my bed. i was just lying there, facing the completely opposite side, trying not to let myself pass out because i knew i wouldn't wake up in time for school. i finally got out of my dizzy spell, situated myself, and tried to go back to sleep. i'm feeling a little better this morning, but still not so well. bleh. OH. i didn't write about this. i thought i did, but i guess it didn't save. fucker. i can recall a conversation stephanie and i had. it was about jr. prom and whatnot. she pissed me off. s: so andy was there? l: yeah. s: what do you think of him? l: i think he's quite gorgeous. s: so you like him? l: i didn't say that. s: but you do. l: i don't think so. i don't want to. s: sure. SO, stephanie told nick, and i guess nick told andy. what the fuck. i never said i liked him. i think he's a cool kid and all, but i don't like to like people. if i did, i most definately would like him becuase, of the times i've actually been around him, he's deck as fuck. i always get fucked over in the end. i don't like when that happens. i don't know. that just really made me mad, i mean, she's supposed to be my "best friend", and she goes and does something stupid like that. even if i did say that i liked him, why the hell would she go and tell other people? whatever. i'm not in a good mood. oh, and fuck aim. love me. love you. Current Mood: sick Current Music: quench: everything i want (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 3rd, 2004
10:13 pm	everybody's doing the fish. yeah yeah yeah. it's time to update this shiz for rizzle. i just realized that easter is coming up. i don't want to go to my dad's house. i don't want to tell him that i'm a vegetarian. i know he wouldn't accept it. he's like the fucking ted nugent of fayette county. he understood the whole "i can't really eat anything besides chicken because it makes me sick." ordeal, but this is just like.. cutting everything out. i don't know. i just need to suck it up. i'm so sick of fayette county. i hate the people here. i can basically count my friends on one hand. i've been talking to all of these kids online, and they are all so incredibly amazing. i want people like that around here. i just want to get away from this hellstricken town, infested with stupidity. i hate the kids at AG as well. i was walking back from the art room one day and some kid had the nerve to compliment me. some random kid in the hall: you're shirt is really cool kid: i'm being serious me: fuck off *keep walking* i was wearing my red rancid shirt. i'm sorry. i don't like rancid quite as much as i did before. they've somewhat sold out. i still like them though. BUT if you didn't know them at least two years ago, you don't have permission to compliment my shirt, fucker. whatever. i'm just not in that good of a mood. i'm getting even more sick. i wish it would just go away already. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. love me. love you. Current Mood: envious Current Music: noise ratchet: away to the heart (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 28th, 2004
8:43 pm	knnnnigit i just want to see if this works. if it does, i'm adding some peeektures up in hurrr. Current Mood: silly Current Music: sugarcult: memory (acoustic) (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 24th, 2004
6:42 pm	you need to die ray brought marcus home today. i hate ray. i hope he dies. he is the one person in the world i think desersves it. "don't touch my hair, don't touch my face, don't touch me, don't look at me, don't talk to me. leave. if you leave, chloe will stop barking. don't tell me she likes you, if she likes you she wouldn't bark. i hate you. you're not my father, you will never be my father. i don't care what opinion you have of me. it doesn't matter. i don't care what you think of my hair, it's not going to change. you need to leave. goodbye." that is what i told him when he started bitching to me. i hate that man. i don't know what else to put in here at the moment. i'm too fucking frustrated. i hope he wrecks. love me. love you. Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: dropkick murphys: spicy mchaggis jig (Comment on this)
Monday, March 22nd, 2004
6:43 am	i did this last night. Layer.one Name: liz Birthdate: 02/21/1988 Birthplace: Morgantown, WV Current location: Masontown, PA Eyes: brownish Hair: black and red Height: 5'3 or so Righty or Lefty: mc'righty Zodiac Sign: pisces Layer.two Your heritage: scots-irish, english, german, and italian Your weakness: music Your shoes you wore today: red chucks Your fears: spiders, drowning, just.. getting hurt a lot.. Your perfect pizza: cheese Goal you'd like to achieve: becoming a rockstar. mmhm. Layer.three Your thoughts first waking up: "i don't want to go to school." Your best physical feature: is hair a physical feature? sure. Your bedtime: whenever Your most missed memory: um.. anything that has been extremely fun Layer.four Pepsi or Coke: pepsi i suppose.. though.. i can't tell the difference McDonald's or Burger King: ick.. but.. mcdonalds.. Single or group dates: whichever.. i don't go on dates Adidas or Nike: adidas Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: lipton Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla Cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino Layer.five Smoke: no Cuss: yes Sing: yes Take showers daily: i try Have a crush: yes Think you've been in love: no Want to go college: yes Want to get married: possibly Believe in yourself: sometimes Get motion sickness: no Think you're attractive: sometimes Think you're a health freak: not really Get along with your parents: somewhat Like thunderstorms: yes Play an instrument: yes Layer.six - in the past months Gone to the mall: yes Eaten an entire box of Oreos: i don't like oreos Eaten sushi: nor i don't like sushi Been on stage: yes Gone skating: no Made homemade cookies: yes Gone skinny dipping: no Dyed your hair: i've never dyed my hurrr.. pfft.. loser Stolen anything: no Label.seven - ever.. Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: i guess Been called a tease: possibly Got beaten up: no Layer.eight Age you hope to be married: ehh.. mid twenties Number and name of children: my mom said if i ever have a kid, it's name will be chang.. lol Dream wedding: dark and somewhere unique How do you want to die: whichever is least painful Where do you want to attend college: nyu, seattle, san francisco, ..somewhere in pittsburgh.. Dream job: something with music Country you want to visit: england Layer.nine - In a guy/girl... Best eye color: green.. i suppose.. Best hair color: black, or something unnatural Short or long hair: shaggish Height: taller than me Best weight: skinnyish Best clothing: anthing Best first date location: i don't know.. a show? Best first kiss location: your mom? Layer.ten Number of drugs taken illegally: :\ Number of people I could trust with my life: fuck that Number of CDs that I own: haha.. NO! that's too too too much work Number of piercings: only seven.. and they're on my ears... no no no! my lip is still open! SCORE! Number of tattoos: one Number of times my name's been in the news: dunno Number of scars on my body: many Number of things in my past that I regret.: feh.. Current Music: weezer: smile (Comment on this)
6:27 am	she's a knockout pish posh. i'm not going to school today. my stomach hurts.. and nobody will be in my house until tuesday. i haven't updated in quite some time. let's see... junior prom was on friday. after being pissed at that fucking pirate, i finally left with my mother at like.. 10:30. we went into town to buy hairspray, and then i came back and started to get ready. my hair looked like hell. i hated it. elle came to get me at about 5, and then we went to go get dave. we ended up at elle's house, waiting for andy to arrive. he came, and then we left. the ride there was quite uncomfortable.. i sat between andy and dave. yes, quiiite uncomfortable. about two minutes after getting inside we all wanted to leave. we waited in line for about an hour and then sat down at the table. ...so.. uncomfortable.. we stayed until 8. teehee. and then went to eat 'n' park. THAT was the most fun i had that day. it was great. we waited outside for a bit for brandy to come. it was cold, and i kicked my foot and my shoe flew off at elle.. hm.. she stole it.. my sock type things got dirty. *sigh* i went to my house to change, and then we went to elle's house for the night. kerri came after a bit. we took some pictures. lol. that was the end of that. ..haha.. i forgot.. elle, andy, and i also walked around the mall in our prom attire. mmhm. on saturday, i found out that my lip wasn't closed. i thought that was bitchin'... except for the fact that i don't have any of the balls for my rings. rawr. elle called me after awhile and we headed out to the mall. we talked to kenneth about his lesbian girlfriends and i taped elle dancing to.. i think it was the power puff girls. heck yeah! we went to the dollar store and i took dollar store whore pictures. ummm... we stalked tim.. shh. my day was ruined when i saw the dirty dirty girl. bleh. i don't remember too much from that day.. uhh.. i uploaded a lot of pictures.. hmm.. i fell asleep rather early.. on sunday, i woke up at like.. 12.. sara came over at about 1 and woke aaron up. she left, he got up and told me that we were going over our father's house. hooray.. we left at about 2 and talked about the stupid things we always do. i miss that stuff. lol. we stayed there for about 15 minutes. he lost his phone in the invisible boat mobile. haha.. we called it 8 times before i found it. good times.. he left. i was sad. *sigh* but he'll be home in may.. or so he says... my mother left this morning for altoona. she won't be home until tuesday. i have nothing else to write. we saw a sign on a church thing that said "give pessimists a kick in the cant's" ...and we thought it said "give pessimists a kick in the cunt" hahaha.. oh.. jebus.. what is that? phantom planet? from when? 1997! FUCK ALL OF YOU NEW SCHOOL PHANTOM PLANET KIDS! muahahahaha love me. love you. Current Mood: envious Current Music: the offspring: bad habit (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 14th, 2004
3:07 pm	let's get married i'm so bored. i've been on the dilly and ftj all weekend. it has been my only way of communication, besides msn, which rarely lets me sign on. i stole this from elle. [Spell your first name back wards]: yeldir htebazile [The story behind your msn name]: i love the ataris to death, and nerd rock reminds me of myself. [Where do you live]: a hick town. [3 words that sum you up]: ridley, weird, passionate(the word used by my teachers) {DESCRIBE YOUR} [Wallet]: social distortion. [Hairbrush]: i don't own a brush.. [Jewelry worn daily]: earrings, hemp necklace, hemp bracelet, benji bracelet, jelly bracelets, bead bracelet, earrings, green/yellow/blue bracelet. [Pillow cover]: at dad's: stars and moon. moms: orange, on aaron's: penguins [Shoes]: numerous chucks, boots, volatiles, two pairs of roxy sandals, blue/white etnies, julius star sandals, greenish sandals, orange sauconys.. those are the only shoes i have under my bed.. [CD in stereo right now]: something corporate: north [Piercing]: ears... [What you are wearing now]: rancid shirt, stupid zipper dickies. [Hair]: wet. [In my mouth]: sunkist orange soda. [In my head]: people... [After this]: i'll sit around and be uberly bored. [Talking to]: no one. [Eating]: nothing. [Some of your favourite movies]: trainspotting, nmbc, sid and nancy, all of the night of the living dead type movies, rocky horror, vincent, the yellow submarine, monty python: in search of the holy grail, monty python: the life of brian, the jerk, boondock saints, the ataris dvd! [Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month]: not sure.. [The last thing you ate?]: a chocolate mint thing. [Something that you are deathly afraid of?]: i've always been terrified of something scratching my eyes. i used to be so afraid of it when i was little. [Do you like candles]: yep. [Do you believe in love]: sure. [Do you believe in soul mates]: possibly. [Do you believe in love at first sight]: sure. [Do you believe in forgiveness]: it depends. [If you could have any animal for a pet]: a friggin' penguin! [What are 3 places you wouldn't mind relocating to]: new york city, seattle, chicago, pittsburgh. [What are some of your favorite pig out foods?]: man, i could pig out on almost any food. [What’s something you wish you could understand better?]: why i act the way i do around people. [Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time?]: aaron, zach, and a few of my cousins. [In the last 24 hours, have you:] [Cried:] no. [Gotten sick:] yes, that's why we didn't go to the beach. [Sang:] yes. [Eaten:] yes. [Felt stupid:] yeah. [Wanted to tell someone you loved them:] nobody in this house, but yeah. [Met someone new:] yes. [Talked to an ex:] no. [Missed an ex:] lord, no. [Talked to someone you have a crush on:] hmmm.. no. [Had a serious talk:] not really. [Hugged someone:] no. [Fought with your parents:] no. [Dreamed about someone you can't be with:] i guess you could say that. [Would you rather be with friends or on a date:] friends. [Do you like being around people:] sometimes. [Who have you known the longest:] all of my brothers' friends. their friends have all known my since i was like.. two... [Do you argue the most with:] i don't argue that much with anyone. [Who do you always get along with:] everybody. [Who has the coolest siblings:] eh.. i don't know too many siblings.. [Who is the smartest:] elle. [One more question] [Do you like the person who sent you this?] i love elle to death, but i stole this from her. Current Mood: nauseated Current Music: kill hannah: sick boy (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 4th, 2004
12:41 pm	here's a story for the kids quiz time, yo. i'll do an actual update later. i hurt too much now. You are "Waste of Paint". You can be a very over analyzing person and you are sort of lost. You aren't really sure where you're going with your life but for now you hold some hope that you will indeed get to where you are going. Oh yeah, and that thing called "love", you feel it's just a game of chance. A game you are not good at. Which BRIGHT EYES song are you? brought to you by Quizilla PRIVATE EYE (from here to infirmary) what ALKALINE TRIO song are you? brought to you by Quizilla Why do you cry? brought to you by Quizilla Vincent Which Tim Burton's movie charcter are you? brought to you by Quizilla oh, score! i love that movie! love me. love you. Current Mood: lazy Current Music: husker du: could you be the one (Comment on this)
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Tuesday, March 2nd, 2004
7:04 pm	the sun's zooming in maybe the cause to my depression is my music. NO: brand new bright eyes dashboard death cab justin sane kind of like spitting mae open hand rise against silverchair something corporate straylight run taking back sunday the early november the juliana theory those are the only ones i can think of right now. you know i'm not going to be able to not listen to these bands, don't you? i love them all too much. remember when i sold merch for sr71, and in return got into their shows for free? i do. man, those were the days. love me. love you. Current Mood: hungry Current Music: nofx: bob (Comment on this)
5:14 pm	i will find you ::10. favorite shows:: 1. simpsons. 2. futurama. 3. family guy. 4. rocko's modern life. 5. angry beavers. 6. will and grace. 7. aqua teen hunger force. 8. ..ehh.. i can't think of any other shows.. 9. did you notice that all but one is a cartoon? 10. ::09. Things youve looked forward to:: 1. the casualties. 2. chicago. 3. jr. prom. 4. warped tour. 5. summer. 6. any trips i may be going on over the summer. 7. possibly going to see phantom planet.. 8. holy smack! death cab for cutie! 9. ummm... your mom. ::08. Favorite foods:: 1. peanut butter. 2. general tso's cheeekan. 3. cheese bread. 4. whatever the #7 is at wendy's. 5. sun chips. 6. enchiladas. 7. rice. 8. herion cookies. ::07.Things that annoy you:: 1. amber. 2. my brother, matt. 3. wet socks. 4. uncomfortable pants. 5. 90% of AG. 6. avril lavigne. 7. newschool good charlotte. ::06.Of your current favorite songs:: 1. death cab for cutie: tiny vessels 2. from autumn to ashes: chloroform perfume 3. thrice: trust 4. the devotchkas: hip hop kids 5. rise against: swing life away 6. ima robot: dirty life ::05.Movies you could watch over and over:: 1. sid and nancy. 2. house of 1000 corpses. 3. the jerk. 4. nightmare before christmas. 5. any monty python movie. ::04.People you want to spend more time w/:: 1. stephanie 2. achelle midamsky 3. indie kid andy 4. zach, my whore of promotion! ::03.Things you wear everyday:: 1. clothing 2. earrings 3. some type of shoes ::02.Things you couldnt live without:: 1. music 2. air ::01.Person you couldnt live without:: 1. ME Current Mood: dorky Current Music: justin sane: never want to leave home (Comment on this)
6:04 am	me and the moon i should be doing my hair, but i just felt like doing this first. someone needs to smack me upside the head and tell me to stop liking him. it doesn't matter how much we like eachother, it will never ever work. that makes me incredibly sad because i like him a lot. he's the only person i've actually cried over, other than my father. oh god. STOP IT! why? i don't want to fall for him! argh.. there are too many things running through my head. i'm going to go do my hair. hooray for another glorious day at AG..... love me. love you. Current Mood: guilty Current Music: piebald: the king (Comment on this)
Monday, March 1st, 2004
9:35 pm	i remember waiting there to find nothing at all after hearing that i have no reason to be sad, and that i shouldn't have to feel this way, i'm still pretty bummed. he kept telling me that he wasn't mad at me, and that i don't deserve this. it didn't change the way i felt. today, i told my mom about how i always think of sentences in my head and punctuate them, when i get really bored. she thought it was weird, and wrong. i thought that, too. oh well. i'm a freakin' weirdo, so what else is new. after failing nearly all of my bio tests, i seemed to pull a B, as my 9 weeks grade, out of nowhere. he said i might be able to get an A by the time grades are do. that made me happier than you could ever imagine. if i get an A in bio, i will cry. i don't think i've ever gotten an A in any of my science classes since i went to masontown. elle seems really depressed. that makes me feel bad. i really want to help her out, but i don't think i can really do anything. i hate when people are sad. it always gets to me.. i also hate to see people cry. i don't know what to do. i also also think stephanie and her mom deserve more than bill. sure, he has money, but he's a fucking cunt. i hate him. i just want to drown him in their ponds. horrible, but true. i need need need to actually finish my stun picture. bunyan came into stefancick's room today, and she asked me if i could turn her in. i told her i had been meaning to, which i really have, and she told me i didn't haaaaave to. it made me feel bad. i really did work hard on that, and i know she wanted to send it to that show. i let her down. :\ oh well... it seems like i can't do anything right. my computer is going slow. it's making me mad. i can't get onto aol. what a bitch. love me. love you. Current Mood: distressed Current Music: the commercials: vince is dead (Comment on this)
6:19 am	i'll blame it on being young last weekend was great. i can't believe ceneth got married AND is going to have a kid. i got out of school at 10:15. that was awesome. stephanie's mom is my hero for that one. i bought Die Hards by The Casualties, because i don't have any of their cd's.. i just downloaded most of their songs... BUT i left it in a bag, with my AP magazine, on stephanie's bed... that blowwwws. i really don't feel like updating right now, but i must. i think he's mad at me, and that makes me really sad. i really don't want him to be, but i couldn't appologize because after being on away for a few seconds, he got offline. i swear, he's going to make me cry again, but this time it won't be because he made me so happy. gah... i don't know.. i feel fat right now, and i don't know why. i don't have anything to wear. this sucks. today is going to be horrible. i'm going to get ready. love me. love you. Current Mood: blank Current Music: from autumn to ashes: chloroform perfume (Comment on this)