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Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion||||||||||||50%
Stability||||||||||||||58%
Orderliness||||||||||34%
Accommodation||||||||||||||||62%
Interdependence||||||||||||50%
Intellectual||||||||||||||54%
Mystical||||||||||||||||70%
Artistic||||||||||||||||||76%
Religious||||||||||||50%
Hedonism||||||||||||||||63%
Materialism||||||30%
Narcissism||||||||||||43%
Adventurousness||||||||||||||||63%
Work ethic||||||||||36%
Humanitarian||||||||||||||||||76%
Conflict seeking||||||30%
Need to dominate||||||||||||43%
Romantic||||||||||||||||70%
Avoidant||||||||||||50%
Anti-authority||||||||||||||||63%
Wealth||||||23%
Dependency||||||||||||50%
Change averse||||||23%
Cautiousness||||||||||||50%
Individuality||||||||||||50%
Sexuality||||||||||||||||||||83%
Peter pan complex||||||||||||||||||||83%
Family drive||||||||||||||||63%
Physical Fitness||||||||||||||||%
Histrionic||||||30%
Paranoia||||||||||||||||63%
Vanity||||||||||||||||63%
Honor||||||||||||||||63%
Thriftiness||||||||||||43%
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Stability results were moderately high which suggests you are relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.
Orderliness results were moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.
Extraversion results were medium which suggests you are moderately talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting.
trait snapshot:
messy, disorganized, not rule conscious, rebellious, rash, weird, ambivalent about chaos, likes bizarre things, anti-authority, not good at saving money, not a perfectionist, leaves many things unfinished, low self control, strange, desires more attention, romantic daydreamer, abstract, impractical, unproductive, leisurely, likes the unknown
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[14 Apr 2009|04:05pm] |
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I want to smoke and drink coffee and get lost in a Bukowski book.
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[18 Nov 2007|12:51am] |
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pray for calvin.
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[06 Jun 2007|01:36am] |
Do you have Justin Timberlake music on your iPod/mp3 player?
no.
Where were you July 4th, 2006?
@ guess working.
Do you like oatmeal?
with fruit in it.
What was the last movie you watched, and who did you watch it with?
pirates three, alone.
Who was the first person you wanted to be like?
ariel.
What are the basic colors of your bedroom?
apircot & deep pink.
What is the first thing you do when you wake up?
wipe my eyes.
When is your parents anniversary?
they're divorced, dad & stepmom's is sometime in august.
Where were you when the 9/11 attacks happened?
in mrs blanks art class.
Where do you wish you lived?
somewhere warm.
How many different people are in your text message inbox?
oh lord knows, i'm not about to look.
What is your best friend doing tomorrow?
working.
Where do you plan on attending college?
fuckin marywood university.
Where is the last place you ate out at?
mickey d's
Whose bed did you last sleep in, besides your own?
the extra bed at jenns.
Do you have a TV in your room and how big is it?
yea, psssh i don't know or care, big enough to see.
Where was your default picture taken?
mah room.
Are you good at saving money?
i'm good at spending money.
When is the last time you went over your cell phone bill?
never.
Do you like Ramen noodles?
mmmm only when there's nothing else.
Do you remember Furbies?
never had one of the things but yes.
Does it strike you funny when people freak out about Top 8's?
it's lame, but human nature i suppose.
Does your mom smoke?
no.
Where is your favorite football team from?
don't follow the stuff.
Who were you with Friday night?
trav, mike, corey, luke..
Did you go to church Sunday morning?
no, mom hates me.
Are you taller or shorter than the rest of your family?
always shorter.
How long does it take you to get ready?
depends on what for.. anywhere from 3 seconds to half an hour.
Does laundry really need to be separated?
never.
Are you in a relationship?
yes ma'am.
Do you own a web cam?
yeah, and i'm horney.... JUST KIDDNG. no.
Does dissection creep you out?
oh no, i love it.
When is the last time you played basketball?
like middleschool maybe.
Do you like orange juice?
blech! no!
Have you ever gotten locked in a trunk of a car?
no.
What sport would you improve at, if you could?
well i don't really do sports anymore, baseball i guess.
Do you wear chains?
? no.
Can you sleep in jeans?
i can do anything and everything in jeans.
Your favorite fruit salad would contain what fruit:
oh goodness! everything!
When you get out of the shower, do you put your clothes on in the bath or bedroom?
bedroom.
Have you ever eaten duck?
god no.
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| life is what happens when you're makin plans |
[18 May 2007|11:21pm] |
i feel like doing one of these bitches...
Five years ago, it was the year 2002 ...
Take this quiz, post the results, and see how much things have changed since then.
5 YEARS AGO
How old were you?: 15
What grade were you in?: i dunno middle school
Where did you go to school?: st marys
Where did you work?: Nowhere.
Where did u live: same place.. fairplay rd
Where did you hang out?: friends houses, the mall
How was your hair style?: long no style really
Did you wear braces?: Yes
Did you wear glasses?: sometimes
Who was your best friend?: katie
Who was your girlfriend/boyfriend? i was single
Who was your celebrity crush?: lance bass HAHA
Who was your regular-person crush?: UUUUHH ? well there were only three boys in our class so probably nobody
How many piercings did you have?: none
How many tattoos did you have?: Zero.
Who was your favorite band?: mmm greenday
What was your biggest fear?: never getting a boyfriend
Had you smoked a cigarette yet?: nope
had you gotten drunk or high yet?: nope
Had you driven yet?: Nope.
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LETS SEE WHERE YOU ARE NOW!
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How old are you?: 20
What grade are you in?: 16th? hah!
Where do you go to school?: marywood
Where do you work?: picture people
Where do u live?: same jaun
Where do you hang out?: stephs house, jenns house mostly
How is your hair style?: same shit.. no style im lame
Who is your best friend?: BRADLEY! hahha jenn, kelly, steph...
Who is your girlfriend/boyfriend: bradley!
Who is your celebrity crush?: bradley pitt!
How many piercings do you have?: three
How many tattoos do you have?: none
Who is your favorite band?: the beatles
What is your biggest fear?: being a failure
Have you gotten drunk or high yet?: mmmm
Have you driven yet?: yesum
well that was lame, and some shit. so hey i sound like a whiney girl but i really miss brad.. like all the time. ugh. i think im gonna take a bus up there to his place which should be interesting i've only ever rode on a bus once before in highschool with christine dudich to the mall cause her mom wouldnt drive us. it was an experience. hah. joes watching the oc i love that shit. but only the first two seasons. well even the second is i kinda meh. ya know.. trav wanted me to come to some party tonight which would have been fun i guess but whatever im not in the mood to be around a lot of people and act nice and have bullshit conversation with drunk people. so marty was here the past two days. he's goin on tour along the east coast to promote his cd which is pretty cool. he played at port city and then we had a bonfire here at the house afterwards it was pretty cool, mostly joes friends were here though. i cant stand highschool kids these days. man sometimes i kinda wanna teach but then again they dont have photo in elementary school and i'll be damned if i wanna put up with thouse highschool fuckers for the rest of my life. let's do another survey...
Name Four Things That You Wish You Had:
+ grass
+ brad
+ an unsore throat
+ a million bucks
Name Four Scents You Love:
+ grass
+ grass (ahhem.. those are two different things mind you hah) im lame
+ brad
+ op juice
Name Four Things You Did Today:
+ took some pictures
+ was a bitch to my mom
+ said bye to marty
+ watched the oc
What is your current relationship status?
i have the most wonderful boyfriend in all the world..
What is your sexual orientation?
straight
What sort of people do you like, as far as what their interests are in life?
open minded, artsy, intelligent, people who know who they are.. shit like that
What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest?
i'm all over the place... right now im really into good hair... :)
What kind of fashion-sense attracts you?
little to none.. hah jeans and a t-shirt man... though i can't take it when a guy looks downright scruffy all the time a little effort is nice
What kind of hair style do you find attractive on a potential mate?
nothing too styled thats just weird.. i hate gel
What is the usual age range you look at?
15-25 HAH
What traits turn you off?
cocky guys
Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly?
play it by ear
Are you afraid to ask people out on dates?
never
If you're single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship?
...
What are the positive points about being single?
ya only gotta worry about yourself
What are the negative points about being single?
It gets lonely.
When single, do you often find yourself longing for companionship?
who dosen't
How well do you handle rejection?
rejection? what's that?
Do you miss your last sweetie?
not so much.
Do you think it's better to look for love or let it find you?
let it find ya
What's the longest relationship you've ever been in?
almost 2 years i guess
The shortest?
2 weeks
Do you think couples should spend a very large amount of time together or space things out a tad?
every second of every day... no, im kidding. i dunno i like spending lots of time with brad but it can be bad sometimes for some people
Have you ever found yourself worrying about commitment?
of course, im human.
When involved with a person, do you try to think about the here and now or do you often think of the future?
i try to stay in the present but my mind wanders.
How do you prefer to handle disagreements?
walk away, have my own space to think about it and cool down, then confront the person and talk
How do you feel when your mate is mad at you and won't tell you why?
pissed
Do you have a crush right now? Do they know?
bradley baby... oh yeah he knows.
What's the longest period of time you've ever had a crush?
well if you count brad pitt thats like i dunno a good number of years
Have you ever confessed your feelings to a crush?
yeah
Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush?
nah man.
Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you?
yeah
How do you feel about long-distance relationships?
shit man they suck! and i'm horrible at it, but i'm gonna make this one work
Have you ever pined for someone when you're not around them?
but of course
Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already?
mmmmm i dunno man, thats tough depends
What would you do if you got pregnant while in a relationship?
kill myself
Would you get involved with someone if they were previously married?
well maybe in a few years... anyone whos my age and already divorced... they're not my type
How big of an issue is religion to your compatibility?
you won't see me dating any religious freaks... and thats both ends of the spectrum. i like my men well balanced.
How big of an issue to you is your mate's ethnicity?
i think im subconsciously racist
In a potential mate, how important is intelligence to you?
rather.
In a potential mate, how important is a sense of humor to you?
rather.
What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face?
brad. the end.
What was your first kiss like?
drunk.
What part of a person's body do you find most attractive?
eyes
now wasn't that fun? hah yeah well it wasnt really for me either i guess. i wanna do some quizzes....
| Your Personality Is Like Cocaine | 
You're dynamic, brilliant, and alluring to those who don't know you.
Hyper and full of energy, you're usually the last one to leave a party.
Sometimes your sharp mind gets the better of you... you're a bit paranoid! |
| Your Birthdate: September 8 | 
You love being in love... so much so that it's very hard for you to be single.
Unfortunately, it's difficult for you to stay in love over time. Too many people intrigue you!
Only your true love will be able to keep you interested over time.
Number of True Loves You'll Have: 2
Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 3
You are most compatible with people born on the 8th, 17th, and 26th of the month. |
oh my goodness.. sometimes these blogs are just sooo accurate.. or maybe vague.
| You Were a Polar Bear | 
A bit of a loner, you enjoy introspection and solitude.
You are a fighter, and you will seek revenge on those who harm you. |
| Your Career Personality: Original, Devoted, and Service Oriented | 
Your Ideal Careers:
Art director
Book editor
College professor
Composer
Film director
Graphic designer
Novelist
Stage actor
Psychiatrist
Writer |
| You Are More Yin | 
Feminine
Devoted
Forgiving
Fall
Winter
Afternoon
Moon
Time
Passive
Metal
Honey |
| You Are 76% Sexy | 
Your Sex Appeal Is: Extremely High
You're very sexy. You just have that certain something that takes over a room.
You know how to attract, entice, and keep whoever you want. You are truly appealing. |
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[21 Feb 2007|08:47pm] |
CobraR00: mom is burning palm leaves from last year (shes 'doing her own ash wednesday') and I SWEAR it smells ALOT like weed
CobraR00: ps- get drunk for jesus
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[06 Feb 2007|10:35pm] |
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your abuse of this friendship makes me pray for your failure.
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[26 Dec 2006|01:31am] |
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oh things are weird im now in a weird mood watching breakfast at tiffanys and just surfing the web if you will i looked through all the old pages i have bookmarked on here lots of journals most abandoned one caught my attention and now ive just gotten to thinking about things i dont understand these journals or the allure that they have yet i continue to write in this one periodically ive had several this is the only one thats lasted first and last how fitting why why why i dont actually want people to read what i write i purposly write lengthy paragraphs with no structure in an attempt to make my entries seem unappealing and troublesome to read oh what in the world i think ive become for the most part completely emotionally shut off and i want to say jeremy is largely to blame for that but i dont really think its fair to place that blame on him how can someone be such a huge part of your life and then so simply slip away how did i let that happen it wasnt like i mean to just reading your journal makes me realize i dont even know you at all anymore maybe you like it better that way you seem satisfied in the life youve chosen well i hope so anyway i just hope things work out for you most of the time i think your in way too much of a hurry to grow up im the complete opposite weve always been opposites you and i clashing personalities its a wonder we got along so well when we were younger even when i do see you its akward like we broke up or something strange the way things are so i never actually stated my grades i failed hunger failed it ugh it makes me hate myself just thinking about it why am i such a fuck up sometimes why cant i just do simple things like homework and study like its really not that hard to do id just rather run around and be with friends other than that none of my grades were impressive bs and cs no as of course thats not my style hah how horrible to be wasting all my mothers money i mean really what am i going to do with my life who knows im not entirely concerned with that at this point i just want to get through this next semester well actually lets get through this break first then worry about the semester i have my portfolio review comming up stress stress stress and thats all that is i have to have mom help me get my portfolio together shes good at that sort of thing oh why do i even waste my time on you when its more than likely doomed from the beginning but for whatever reason i just keep going with it actually pusing for it almost oh uhhh the anguish you cause me sometimes being here without you just makes things ten times worse too meh i guess im only human
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[25 Dec 2006|11:17pm] |
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christmas began with a sore throat for me i first woke up around eight something but i think it may have been physically impossible for me to get out of bed at that point i wanted to be excited and go wake everyone up and open presents and make omlets for breakfast but it just didnt seem to work out that way christmas always blows for some reason or another so mom and joe at to sing at the ten oclock mass and got home at i suppose eleven something woke trav up and then eventually got me to crawl out of my cave i basically then laid on the couch with a cup of hot tea while opening presents with one hand and showing no enthuasism towards my gifts not that i didnt like them or didnt care but i just wanted to be asleep so badly that i couldnt care so then we put in its a wonderful life and around three went over to nans to eat which was probably the best meal ive had in a very long time and that to me is the best part about christmas after eating i basically just laid on nans couch it was a pretty low key holiday this year cathy will and molly wernt there and neither were jane and jon but it was pretty decent im basically just relieved that its over i just want to get back to school im already tired of working and i got decent money from christmas even though i know that wont actually last long i need to conserve and im really trying to get myself psyched up to do well this semester being that the last was probably to worst one ive had so far i need to make this one the best maybe that evens things out a little i dont know ugh grades part of me thinks that if i was just on my own then i would do better that you hold me down i dont know if thats completely true but meh i mean i blame you but i know that its mostly my fault well its just easier to put the blame on someone else as always i dont know why being home is so frustrating for me maybe because i feel restricted who knows im almost thinking about seeing if i can move in with jenn or something over the summer maybe i could convince mom that it would be a good trial run like moving away from home only not really since its only ten minutes away so i think im going to be picking bradley up and then going to scranton for new years i guess only time will tell how that whole scenario actually pans out in the meantime im just going to be working everyday for the next few days trying to make money save that up i just really want something in my life to be solid right now.
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| god put down your gun can't you see we're dead? |
[18 Dec 2006|04:54am] |
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so im now home for break i drove back yesterday was that really just yesterday that i was last at school odd how time passes so after arriving in town i droped off some library books and visited the white household then came home to do some things and went out again to meet up with kate and her friend rachel we mostly did a lot of sitting around and waiting for something to happen then ended up at kevins with he and scott watching movies till almost four am which was vaguely enjoyable mostly i was just tired and then today i ended up sleeping till around six thirty in the afternoon which i pretty much planned to do because i didnt want to go to church well ma kept trying to wake me up to get me to go eat food in funkstown for some reason it wasnt till about one am when i finally thought about it and looked at the calendar that i realized they were at the cline family reunion which irritated the fuck out of me because i was upset that i thought i was going to be at school for that and basically figured it already happened and i missed it but noooo it was today and at no point when she was trying to wake me up did mother even mention that that is where they were going dumb bitch im so pissed honestly i dont know how she isnt more pissed at me for not going that just dosent seem to make sense other than that things are looking up i think i need to work over break well i know i really need to work actually i just need money maybe i could just save all my christmas money and just ya know quit all the bad things i spend money on hah yeah right i hate that you need money in this world life would be so much easier without it so this past semester i know that i did really horrible in pretty much every class with the exception of history of photography im kinda just hoping i dont fail more than one class one is okay one i can get by with saying i was stressed a lot this semester because of having three historys or that it was early or something but more than one i dont know about that plus im already behind in my credits i just really dont think im cut out for this whole college thing anyway im planning on really really trying next semester like i never have before like i really want to set aside time everyday to do some work and actually get things done not even just on time but possibly early imagine that early that way i wont be killing myself at the end of the semester when i have to turn everything in and ill just be able to sit back and relax right now im just messing with my myspace like usual hah oh i think i may not even sleep at all tonight well see i really have nothing to do tomorrow nothing maybe ill try going shopping for uncle terrys gift or who knows anything the skys the limit.
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| tell me im just bones |
[10 Dec 2006|08:15pm] |
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ive been reading blogs in these old sites i used to look at ah the past bittersweet what was i thinking it was a subsitiute ive been thinking about don a lot lately sitting in that room is weird not seeing him in that room is weird i really dont know what to do with myself i had it all planned out last night exactly what i was going to say and do and yet again as usual i somehow couldnt find the words when they needed to be said and i took a step backwards home soon thats all i can think about i have oh so much shit to do and do i do it no im sitting here typing in this damned thing bitching about my life and by the time im done writing a paragraph about everything ill go to late night and procrastinate some more because oh i only have one final tomorrow and then two on tuesday plus im sure a meeting with my cursed jewelry teacher ahhh then i have to turn in all my photoshop work an entire semesters worth of work and i am no where near finishing that possibly i can get an extension if i have mostly all finished ugh i dont know sam has to hate my fucking guts and yet somehow i think he understands moreso than most other people teachers and otherwise so yeah study for this oh shit and i have a paper thats due tuesday that was due last thursday but yeah i didnt have it done for that day because im mostly a worthless piece of shit the end.
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| and you can have it all, my empire of dirt. |
[08 Dec 2006|09:32pm] |
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you know everything that is going on you are perfectly aware so much as to explain everything to me in detail as if it was necessary do you think im the one that dosen't realize what's going to happen it's only a matter of time but why do i continue as though it's worth my while possibly it is maybe i'm already on the decline without knowing it maybe you are why don't you change the things that you know are going to happen maybe by actually verbaly realizing it there's a possibility to make the change but who really wants to ugh quote came to mind People don't want their lives fixed. Nobody wants their problems solved. Their dramas. Their distractions. Their stories resolved. Their messes cleaned up. Because what would they have left? Just big scary unknown. it almost bothers me that i care enough to write a blog about this or maybe it should worry me that i havent cared enough to write one until now considering the situation you would think a persons morals would have gotten in the way sooner possibly causing the entire situation never to occur basically i think im just a bad person or something whatever seems like most people i know are probably going to hell right along with me oh and another thing that bitch cindy and i wouldnt be this adiment about it except for the fact that she is just generally a bitch most of the time to everyone but i think shes chosen to hate the worst people if i could get her out of marywood i would feel accomplished and it wouldnt even matter what fucking grade i get oh shit i have to write a art history paper and do shitloads of photoshop work and most likely add more to my jewelry shit and make an appointment with that bitch for tuesday ugh i just never want to see her face again and i wish i could just confront her and ask flat out why she hates me but im not that confrintational oh brad and i went with miaka and marty to get his tattoo today looks sweet im pretty positive i want one i told joe he needs to draw something up for me maybe we could work on it over christmas maybe i could get it over christmas i think i would want josh to do it considering ive been asking him to give me one since highschool
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[18 Nov 2006|07:31pm] |
just read some old entries... i never write in this thing anymore. i was going to delete it like a year ago and that didn't happen. oh well.
my life is currently a waste or so it seems.
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[08 Aug 2006|01:14am] |
changes, lots.
it's back to scranton before too long. bittersweet.
most of the reunion was tremendous. most.
i would love to go to the beach one last time before summer is over. hopefully that can be arranged.
work is killing me.. 10-4 & 5-10 tomorrow. i have no clue why i'm still up.
i should at least try sleep.
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[20 Jun 2006|12:12am] |
camping was needed, and good.
josh and i are moving to france next summer. (i wish)
today was scotts birthday. we celebrated last night with tremendousness.
i now have two jobs. training tomorrow.
i think i want things to happen because i know they can't happen, or at the very least shouldn't happen. i think that is the first step to getting over it. hah, i'm lame.
trish's wedding this weekend. rob is picking me up.
i feel like everyone controls my life but me.
i got called to jury duty, again. it's in baltimore and would possibly last a week or so. that is something i do not want to do. why do they even include brokeass college students in that? dumbasses.
i wish i didn't live here and now.
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| i feel summer creepin in and i'm tired of this town again |
[12 Jun 2006|09:12pm] |
today is a bad day. I didn't do much of anything, not even reading. I think the dream I had last night really upset me, and I don't really know why. The living room is covered in crap, my room is a mess, my computer hasn't been working properly... my whole zen is totally off today. (if that even makes sense.) whatev.
what is today? monday? I'll assume so.
stop trying so hard, please. you are only making things worse. only pushing me farther away.
AMAZING to make things worse... THEY are now watching harry potter, thanks a whole fucking lot.
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[12 Jun 2006|01:04am] |
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thinair812: goodnight future.
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| let the poets cry themselves to sleep. |
[12 Jun 2006|01:01am] |
Heat was enjoyable. Starting In the Belly of the Beast tonight. I have a good pace going right now, let's see if it can hold. Most likely not, not after I go back to work. This week off is going to be somewhat nice I think, I need to be working though. I think I'm gonna be going to the cabin instead of bonnaroo, I'm not even sure yet.
Saw Jenn at after church today. I haven't seen her in so long, it's weird. I miss my partner in crime. Oh, and it's been a while since I've seen Cor too, I mentioned something to her about the cabin tonight, if she can and wants to come then I'm def going.
(oh, this computer sucks so much.)
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[11 Jun 2006|12:42am] |
ugh, I absolutely hate having to choose. bonnaroo? cabin? gah.
Slaughterhouse Five was amazing.. polished off the last chapter this morning. Well this afternoon rather I guess. Ma decided to actually finish her room, so her and Joe have been organizing, tearing up carpet, and tearing off wallpaper all of today. Our house looks like moms room threw-up on it. basically.
Starting to read Heat. seems interesting enough thus far, it's written by William Goldman. Same guy who did The Princess Bride so I have high hopes. we shall see. Scotts sister is apparently really into books also, I love meeting book people. It makes my day.
ugh church tomorrow. time to read.
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[09 Jun 2006|12:11am] |
Things have been odd lately. Life isn't normal. I'm not sure that I would want it to be. Actually, I'm not sure what normal is. Maybe this is normal and where I was before wasn't normal.
I started reading Slaughterhouse Five tonight.. we'll see how I like that. I think I may try to go to the library sometime tomorrow, pick up some Bukowski, maybe poetry. I need to get a move on with my summer reading... I'm way behind on my qouta, but then again so is Josh.
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