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[11 Aug 2004|03:22pm]
Hmm..so the passed 2 days have been quite fun.
Went to the fair both days.

Monday..not much happened. Went with Ashley..then I was with Nancy..then I was with Tracy Kyle Colleen and Sean..then I was with Tracy and Colleen..lol. So I had fun I suppose.

Now Tuesday was more eventful...James gave me 5 dollars and then we sat down and heard over the loud speaker his name and then we spent 10 minutes trying to find the main information booth and I thought somebody died..but turns out he lost his wallet. He thinks the moral of the story is that he was saved by jesus or soemthing..but I think it's give me money:]. Hmm..Me and Megan made friends with these 2 guys. JD and Clinton I think? Idk we only talked to JD. Lol, we went on the ring of fire with him..and this other kid sitting across frmo us was liek..really gay. "I've seen better" Ew. Haha. Me and Meg going on our spree to find free things in tents..which led us to the tent where James welcomed jesus into his heart. Haha..And me and Nancy are liek...No we're good..Ohh boy..even though I;m the one who like..made us have to sit down and listen to that entire speech thing..Haha.oh well. Ohh and then me and meg got scrunchy bubbles. Ha, and we met up with Tracy and Kyle and other people..and Kyle was liek..blowing bubbles..and then Tracy and I decided to drink them. Because..we are smart. I will never do that again. It burned my throat like...badly. And then I spent liek 40000 hours trying to get money to get something to eat to get the feeling out of my throat. And then finally JAmes gave me 5 dollars. And I already told you that part. So yeah..that was quite fun. But I think I'm done with the fair.
She wants someone to see her

[07 Aug 2004|02:43am]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | K Rock. 92.3. ]

New Journal..
http://www.blurty.com/users/xjustam3moryx/

I'm going to be using both of these journals..
That one is soley for ranting/complaining/mumbling.
So don't go there if you don't like one of those 3 things.
K.
And it's also going to be open.
So don't yell at me for saying something in that one.
Just don't read it.
And whatever.
Okay....

Later.

She wants someone to see her

[06 Aug 2004|02:37am]
Ah, so life has been pretty boring lately.

Soccer today....
Oh joy.

Tomorow babysitting...i hate my fucking sister.


I need to get out of my house soon.
I've been spending too much time alone...
And thinking..
I need to never think again.
That'd be very cool.


Eh, I'm not exactly sure what is going on anymore.
Things keep changing too quickly.
My mind keeps changing too quickly.
Something needs to slow down..
And other things need to speed up..

I don't think I'm going to post very much anymore.
There isn't anything to post about...

So why should I .t.a.k.e. .y.o.u.r. .h.a.n.d. when you can't promise happy endings?
She wants someone to see her

[02 Aug 2004|01:09pm]
[ mood | pessimistic ]
[ music | Mercury Rising-FATA_-- ]

Ohk,..So Yeah.. Saturday I was like...tricked into going to dinner with my grandparents?. Ew.
I hate my grandma...and my grandpa...
So my parents were liek "yeah were going to go out to dinner cause we don't have any food here.."
And I was like starving so I went...
And then the next thing I know were in like penselvania meeting my grandparents so we can pick up my little sister who spent the week there..
Whatever..

Anyway..then Sunday I had to spend time with more family...
My other grandma and grandpa..
My great aunt..
My aunt and my 2 cousins.
Ha, my dads mother is the funniest old lady I have ever seen.
She's so bitter.
It's great.
But she's nice too me. Why?
Because I am thin.
Ooh boy..haha she actually said this
"Emily, How do you stay so thin? Your the only female in your family who isn't huge...Even Nicole is starting to gain a lot of weight."
I'm like..uh.?
So I'm not the only one who thinks my entire family is fat...
And then my grandma started bitching at my grandpa.
And saying he ignored her and shit.
It's great...she's liek 80 something and has altiemers and arthritus..
And she never moves..

Hmm..So now today I have to go to the doctor to get my physical?>.
Yeah something like that.

And tomorow I believe I am going to the movies to see the village..
That is if we arrange for some sort of transportation.
If you'd like to go ask me...but only if you'd be able to bring home 4 peopel plus you from the galleria at 6:30. Otherwise don't ask. Cause yeah.. Lol...

Uh So later then>,,,


Hello my name is .d.i.s.t.a.n.c.e.
And I really don't care if I never wake up again

She wants someone to see her

Surveyyy things. [31 Jul 2004|09:15pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]
[ music | Asleep..the smiths. ]

[ series 1 ]
Name: Emily McCambridge
Birthday: september 29 1990
Birthplace: Ridgewood, New Jersey
Current Location: Wantage, New Jersey
Eye Color: Brown
Hair Color: Brownish blonde
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Zodiac Sign: Libra
Font: Uh..Arial 8>
*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*
[ series 2 - your favorite ]
Music: Emo
Cartoon: Daria
Color: Grey or White
Car: Uhm..idk.
Slushy Flavor: Blue rasberry
Magazine: none
TV Show: Degrassi..my so called life..daria..or real world.
Song at the Moment: She Will Be Loved--Maroon 5.
Language: Ah, English accents..from england.
Spice Girl: Posh? haha idk.
Food & Beverage: Pizza + Bacardi.
Subject in School: Writing
Weekend Activity: Something involving people?
Frozen Yogurt: None ew.
Roller Coaster: Talon.
*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*
[ series 3 - what is ]
Your most overused phrase: wtf is this or i dont care.
First thing you thought when you woke up: i need fucking advil.
Last image/thought you go to sleep with: my ceiling.
First feature you notice of opposite sex: eyes.
Best name for a Butler: Ooh I want a butler named like..hercules or something.
Wussiest Sport: Footballll ha:]
Your best feature: Uh..idk?.
Your greatest fear: Being Alone..that and like..little 1 inch fish that surround
me in the ocean at night.
Your greatest accomplishment: Idk.
Your most missed memory: Can\'t remember haha.
*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*
[ series 4 - you prefer ]
Pepsi or Coke: either one of them cherry.
McDonald's or Burger King: ick neither.
Single or Group Dates: if i like the guy a lot..single..if i dont..group.
Adidas or Nike: both.cause my sandals are adidas and my cleats are nike..ha..
Chicken nuggets or Chicken fingers: chicken fingers.
Dogs or Cats: dogs.
Rugrats or Doug: DOUG OMGGG
Single or Taken: Singleee.
Monica or Brandy: Brandy?
Tupac or Jay-Z: Tupac
Shania Twain or LeAnn Rhymes: LeAnn Rhymes
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton
One pillow or Two: Two
Chocolate or Vanilla: Choclate
Hot chocolate or Hot cocoa: Hot cocoa?
Cappucino or Coffee: Cappucino
*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*
[ series 5 - do you ]
Shower everyday: Yep.
Have a crush: Nope.
Think you've been in love: Nope.
Want to go to college: Yeah, NYU.
Like high school: Haven\'t started yet.
Want to get married: No.
Type correctly: Not really.
Believe in yourself: Sometimes.
Have any tattoos? Where: Not yet..but I\'m going to get one on my back of a rose
with rain on it and a ligtning bolt through it. and another oen somewhere of
liek..something in chinese.ha..
Have any piercings? Where: my ears + cartiledge..belly button eventually.
Get motion sickness: No.
Think you're a health freak: No.
Get along with your parents: No.
Like thunderstorms: YES<3.
*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*
[ series 6 - the future ]
Age your plan to be married: Never.
Number and names of children: None.
Where will you be at age 20: Either at NYU in new york city<3. Orr a hooker.ha.
Dream wedding: None.
How do you want to die: Idk but its going to be before I turn 40. In a mosh pit
maybe?.
Dream job: Something with writing, or acting..or if i cant get one of those ill
settle for a hooker.
Country you'd like to visit: England. Ah I love the accent<3.
*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*
[ series 7 - opposite sex ]
Best eye color: Brown.
Best hair color: Brown.
Short or long hair: Um..idc.
Best height: Like..5\'4\'\' or something? Idk.
Best weight: Idc just not leik fat..
Best clothes: Somethin easy to get off;]
Best first date location: The movies or somtehing.
Best first kiss location: In the rainnnn<333
*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*
[ series 8 - other ]
Last time you slept with a stuffed animal: Ah, I must have been like..6?
Rings before you answer the phone: I normally don\'t answer..maybe 2 or somethin
What's on your mousepad: its just blue.
How many houses you've lived in: two.
How many schools you've gone to: three.
Bedroom carpet color: whiteish.
Shave your head for $5,000?: NO
Stranded on a desert island. Take three things. No people: My computer..my cell
phone..and my cds/cd player..idc if thats 4.
Best time of your life so far: June 26th 2004 at the Concert with Alex Nancy And
Beesh. THOSE AMONG THE FENCE<3

Series
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ABOUT YOU
Your full name:: Emily McCambridge
Age:: 13
Height:: 5\'3\'
Natural hair colour:: Dirty Blonde
Eye colour:: Brown
Number of siblings:: 2..
Glasses/contacts?:: no
Piercings:: cartelidge + ear lobes...belly button eventually.
Tattoos:: not yet..i want one on my back of a rose with thorns being rained and
and a bolt of lightnig through it..lol.
Braces?:: not anymore
FAVOURITE
Colour:: grey
Band:: dashboard..brand new..or thrice.
Song:: Lover I don\'t Have to Love--bright eyes/
Stuffed animal:: none?.
Video game:: uhh/does emogame.com count?.
TV show:: Degrassi..My So Called Life..or Real world.
Movie:: Identity
Book:: Perks of Being a Wall flower by Steve Chbosky
Food:: Pizza
Game on a cell phone:: my cells cheap and doesnt have oen.
CD cover:: uh if thats the thing inside the cd case thenn atreyu the curse.
Flower:: Rose
Scent:: Chamomile or Guavaberry
Animal:: I don\'t like animals.
Comic book:: Uh, super man?
Cereal:: cinamon toast crunch or rice crispies
Website:: blurty/emolyrics.
Cartoon:: daria
DO YOU
Play an instrument?:: no:[
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?:: No..i don\'t think so.
Like to sing?:: Yes.
Have a job?:: No.
Have a cell phone?:: Yes.
Like to play sports?:: Yes.
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:: No.
Have a crush on someone?:: No.
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?:: No.
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?:: No.
Have any special talents/skills?:: Not really.
Excercise daily?:: I try.
Like school?:: No.
CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?:: Idk haven\'t tried?
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?:: Uhh no?
Speak any other languages?:: No.
Go a day without food?:: Yes
Stay up for more than 24 hours?:: Yes
Read music, not just tabs?:: Uh no?.
Roll your tongue?:: Yes
Eat a whole pizza?:: Probably not?. Idk.
HAVE YOU EVER
Snuck out of the house?:: Yes
Cried to get out of trouble?:: Yea when I was liek 4.
Gotten lost in your city?:: No..
Seen a shooting star?:: Yes.
Been to any other countries besides the united states?:: Yeah, cananda and the
british virgin islands.
Had a serious surgery?:: Yeahh.
Stolen something important to someone else?:: Not that I remember.
Solved a rubiks cube?:: No.,
Gone out in public in your pajamas?:: Yes.
Cried over a girl?:: Not in a while.
Cried over a boy?:: Not in a while.
Kissed a random stranger?:: No.
Hugged a random stranger?:: Umm idk i tihnk so?,
Been in a fist fight?:: No.
Been arrested?:: No.
Done drugs?:: Not yet.
Had alcohol?:: Yep.
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?:: No ick.
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?:: No.
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?:: No..
Swore at your parents?:: Yes.,
Been to warped tour?:: No but I want to.
Kicked a guy where it hurts?:: Yes.
Been in love?:: No.
Been close to love?:: No.
Been to a casino?:: I walked trhough one in atlantic city..hah..
Ran over an animal and killed it?:: Yeah.
Broken a bone?:: Yes.
Gotten stitches?:: I can\'t remember..but probably.
Had a waterballoon fight in winter?:: No.
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?:: No ick i hate milk.
Made homemade muffins?:: Uh..cupcakes>
Bitten someone?:: Yes.
Been to disneyland/disneyworld?:: Yes.
More than 5 times?:: No.
Been to niagra falls?:: Yes.
Burped in someones face?:: No ick.
Gotten the chicken pox?:: Yeah.
WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth:: Like..an hour ago.
Went to the bathroom:: an hour ago>?
Saw a movie in theaters:: On tuesday night..anchorman with alex + james.
Read a book:: On the plane during vacation..catalyst.
Had a snow day:: In like january.
Had a party:: Idk dont remembeR?
Had a slumber party:: Uh.if that includes having someone sleep over..then liek
last week.
Made fun of someone:: Liek 20 minutes ago.
Tripped in front of someone:: last week i think.
Went to the grocery store:: i dont remember.
Got sick:: im always sick.
Cursed:: a minute ago.
PICK ONE
Fruit/vegetables:: fruit
Black/white:: white
Lights on/lights off:: off
TV/movie:: movie
Car/truck:: truck
Body spray/lotion:: lotion
Cash/check:: cash
Pillows/blankets:: blankets
Headache/stomach ache:: headache
Paint/charcoal:: paint
Chinese food/mexican food:: i leik chinese chciken and mexican tacos..lol so
both.
Summer/winter:: summer
Snow/rain:: rain
Fog/misty:: misty
Rock/rap:: rock
Meat/vegetarian:: meat
Boy/girl:: boys
Chocolate/vanilla:: chocolate
Sprinkles/icing:: sprinkles
Cake/pie:: cake
French toast/french fries:: fries
Strawberries/blueberries:: strawberries
Ocean/swimming pool:: ocean
Hugs/kisses:: kisses
Cookies/muffins:: cookies
p33n/bewbz:: if i knew what that was i could say...
Wallet/pocket:: pocket
Window/door:: window
Emo/goth:: emo
Pink/purple:: pink
Cat/dog:: dog
Long sleeve/short sleeve:: long sleeve
Pants/shorts:: pants
Winter break/spring break:: spring break
Spring/autumn:: spring cause it rains a lot.
Clouds/clear sky:: clouds
Moon/mars:: moon
FRIENDSHIP
How many friends do you have?:: I have a lot of friends.. I only like 4 of them
thoujgh.
What are their names?:: I cannot say or those who aren\'t the 4 would kill me.
Do you have a best friend?:: Not really.
Have you ever liked one of your friends?:: Yes.
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?:: It\'s pretty equal.
Have you ever lost a friend?:: Yeah.
Have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend?:: Yes..Dorney for my
birthday \'03..and dorney for the 8th grade trip.
Whats an inside joke between you and a friend?:: Uhh the most recent one i can
think of is Whales Vagina.
Have you ever gotten in a big arguement with a friend?:: Ohh yes all the time.
Whats the nicest thing youve ever done for a friend?:: I can\'t remmeber.
Whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you?:: I can\'t remember.
Do you miss any of your old friends?:: Uhh, britany.
What friend have you known the longest?:: Brittany.
Do you regret anything youve done to a friend?:: Not really.
If so, what is it?:: n/a
How often do you spend time with your friends?:: Whenever I can.
Do any of your friends drive?:: No.
Has a friend of yours ever died?:: When I was like 4..
Whats the dumbest thing youve done with a friend?:: Probably something with
Alex..like jumping in the aids infested brook full of crabs and drinking the
water...
What do you think your friends think of you?:: Idk. They probably all hate me or
something?.
LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP
Have you ever been in love?:: Nope/
If you have, with who?:: n/a
Are you single?:: Yes.
Are you in a relationship?:: No.
If so, for how long?:: N/a
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?:: Nope.
What is your idea of the best date?:: Ah, something involving walking on the
beach..and then ending in the rain making out and the guy giving me a
rose..cause i liek rain i like roses and i like making out..so yea
What was your first kiss like?:: It was on the slide at preschool ohh boy<3.
How old were you when you got your first kiss?:: I was 4. Haha.
Do you think love is a load of shit?:: I do.
Whats the best experiance youve ever had with the opposite sex?:: Idk?.
If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?:: Yeah..like
7 or something?
Have you ever been dumped?:: Um..twice?.
Have you ever dumped someone?:: Yeah.
Whats the most sexual thing youve done with the opposite sex?:: Arg, haven\'t
gottenn far yet. My goal is to have sex very soon<3.
WORD ASSOCIATION
Slippers:: Bed
Hat:: Baseball.,lol
Hard:: Penis.,
Free:: Samples?
Space:: Astronoats,
Taste:: Good?
Good charlotte:: Poser.
Red:: Blood
Deep:: Cuts
Heart:: less
Cord:: strangulation.
Cheese:: camera
Rain:: joy.
Work:: useless
Pedal:: bike
Head:: less horseman.
Bed:: sex.
Fluff:: marshmellows?
Hardcore:: Poser.
Race:: Slow>
Knife:: Cut
Jump:: off a bridge.
I....
am:: tired.?
want:: to go to sleep
need:: alchohl
crave:: sex?.
love:: no one.
hate:: everyone but 4 people.
did:: uh
feel:: blank
miss:: brittany>
am annoyed by:: probably something james did?
would rather:: die then turn 40?.
am tired of:: life.
will always:: not give a damn about you>
SILLY STUFF
What is your favourite genre of music?:: emo
What time is it now?:: 1:10 PM
What day is it?:: Saturday
Whens the last time you called someone?:: UhI was just on the phone with nancy a
half hour ago.
How much money do you have right now?:: None>?or maybe liek 30 cents.
Are you hungry?:: Not really.
Whatcha doin?:: Filling this thing out.
Do you like parades?:: No.
Do you like the moon?:: yes
What are you going to do when youre done with this?:: sleep again or something
Isnt cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over?:: no.
If you could have any magical power what would it be?:: read peoples minds.
Have you ever had a picnic?:: yes.
Did you ever have one of those skip-its when you were young?:: yes.
What about sock em boppers?:: yes.
Are you wearing any socks right now?:: no.
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
funny?:: i suppose so.
pretty?:: i suppose so.
sarcastic?:: yes.
lazy?:: yes.
hyper?:: sometimes.
friendly?:: not really.
evil?:: idk sometimes.
smart?:: not really.
strong?:: emotionaly i am..physically no.
talented?:: not really.
dorky?:: not really.
ASSOCIATE THESE WORDS WITH SOMEONE YOU KNOW (or dont know)
high:: ugh meg?idk.
skip:: James?
dance:: Tracy
lonely:: Nancy..its in her sn?.lol.
pen:: James?
flower:: Alex puts flowes in her hair?lol..
window:: alex+nancy
psycho:: Megg
brain freeze:: no clue.
orange:: alex.
sassy:: no clue.
jelly:: idk?.
FOR OR AGAINST
suicide:: I\'m not against it.
love:: I\'m not for it..
drunk drivers:: against
airplanes:: for.
war:: for.
canada:: for..cause degrassis from canada haha.
united states:: for>?
rock music:: for.
gay marriage:: against.
school:: against.
surveys:: for?.
parents:: against.
cars:: for.
killing:: for.
britney spears:: against.
coffee:: for.
pants:: against?,
WOULD YOU EVER
Sky dive?:: Yes.
Play strip poker?:: Yes.
Run away?:: Yes.
Curse at a teacher?:: Yes.
Not take a shower for a week?:: No.
Ask someone out?:: Idk.
Lie to someone to make them think better of you?:: Yes.
Visit a foreign country for more than a month?:: Yes.
Go scuba diving?:: Already have.
Write a book?:: Already am..ha tracy + James>3
Become a rockstar?:: Idk? YEs.
Have casual sex?:: Yes.
LAST QUESTIONS
What shampoo do you use?:: garnier fructis
Whens the last time you did something sexual with the opposite sex?:: eh idk?.
What kind of computer do you have?:: dell
What grade are you in?:: going into 9th
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?:: oh yes?.
Or just make out?:: both?.ah idk,?
How many posters do you have in your room?:: Um like..3 i had a lot but i ripped
them all down.
How many cds do you have?:: arg liek 4...i literally lost 50 of them.
What time is it now?:: 1:31 PM

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She wants someone to see her

[30 Jul 2004|12:01am]
[ mood | blank,, ]
[ music | You Oughta KNow--alanis morisette ]

Hm, so I went and slept over Beesh's,
Talked on the phone with Joey who was at Chris's
Then the 2 of them came down to Beesh's in the morning.
And then me and Beesh went to mountain creek.

I'd write details but I'm exedingly lazy today.

And your gaze tore a slit in her dress
Because
I'm not beautiful
Because I'm not
__B_e_a_u_t_i_f_u_l__
And you
L.o.v.e. .b.e.a.u.t.y......

She wants someone to see her

The Bucket:-) [28 Jul 2004|07:41pm]
Ha, today was another adventure with Alex.
Went walking to lorenzos again.
This time took our pizza and went over to Mikes for liek..20 minutes.
Then his little sisters came downstairs and we had to sneak out.
Ha, oh cool.
If you'd passed by us at all today you would have thought we were homeless.
Or stoned.
Or both.
We found this bcuket..and a license plate..and some other random metal objects.
That just like made teh day 50000 times better.
Oh, and we found out how to get to the waterfall:-).
Awesomeeee.
We didn't get all the way down cause we ran out of time.
And we went back down to our little brook thing.
Under the bridge...my tihng was broken and I had to throw it cause I heard a noise.
So sad.
And a crab liek bit my foot.

Anyway, now I am getting ready to go off to Theresas House.
Haven't seen her in a while.

xRetrospectionsx (7:36:57 PM): can you play monopoly with me????????? in the wee hours of the night?

So that is what we'll be doing.

Laterrrrr.
She wants someone to see her

Brittany Speroni..my best friend,. [27 Jul 2004|10:09pm]
[ mood | blank ]
[ music | the radio.. ]

oXoShOrTnCuTeXoX: i was reading a book and i found a poem i couldnt help but read over and over..i started crying last night as i read it becuase it fit you and me perfectly....i just want you to read it and know that no matter what emily..iLy and i always will
oXoShOrTnCuTeXoX: "Friends Forever," you promised.
"Together till the end."
We did everything with each other.
You were my best friend.
oXoShOrTnCuTeXoX: When i was sad, you were by my side,
When i was scared, you felt my fear.
You were my best support-
If I needed you, you were there.

You were the greatest friend,
You always knew what to say:
You made everything seem better.
As long as we had each other,
everything would be okay.
oXoShOrTnCuTeXoX: But somewhere along the line,
We slowly came apart.
I was here, you were there,
It tore a hole in my heart.

Things were changing,
Our cheerful music reversed its tune.
It was like having salt without pepper,
A sun without its moon.
oXoShOrTnCuTeXoX: Suddenly we were miles apart,
Two different people, with nothing the same.
It was as if we hadn't been friends;
Although we knew deep in our hearts
Neither one of us was to blame.

You had made many new friends
And luckily, so had I
But that didn't change the hurt-
The loss of our friendship made me cry.

As we grow older, things must change
But they don't always have to end.
Even though its different, now,
You will always be my friend
oXoShOrTnCuTeXoX: ...iLy emmy...just always remember that ...BFF!!!

Britt..we've been through it all together. And we've been friends since we were 2. I miss you so much and the fact that we are starting to fall apart kills me. We definatly need to chill sometime. Just remember, no matter how long we don't see eachother or don't talk.. even 10 years from now if we haven't spoken once since today...I'll still be here. I love ya no matter what Brittany. Best friends forever



Well that's basically it..
Cause I slept until 2 today and then when I got up I had to clean.
Bleh whatever.
Tomorow I'm probably going for a walk with Alex to lorenzos or something again..
We were supposed to do that today but like I said I slept till 2.

Anyway later.

She wants someone to see her

[26 Jul 2004|11:03pm]
[ mood | refreshed ]
[ music | She Will Be Loved-Maroon 5 ]

Ohh man today was great.

Went to see anchorman in middletown with Alex and James..

Oh boy that was funny. Whales vagina,retarded guy with the grenade, mixing up what city they are in, the girl who looked like fucking ugly, the kid in the hat who we decided was checking out...james? oh man, that movie turned me against gay cow boys. So much more. Great night with you 2. Love ya guys.



So yeah. Later.

She wants someone to see her

[25 Jul 2004|11:32pm]
[ mood | chipper ]
[ music | Some spanish radio station? ]

Just got home from rhode island..

It sucked..

And I'm like sick..dying sick..
okay maybe not dying sick but i cant breathe
I refuse to see a doctor too.

Lol oh well.

I'm in a good mood/
Ha, been having some funny conversations.
If only these 3 individuals like..died..the world would be at peace.

well im not in the mood for typing.

so bye.

She wants someone to see her

[22 Jul 2004|05:10pm]
[ mood | Extremly drained+very amused. ]
[ music | Play Crack the Sky--Brand New.x3 ]

Ohh boy:-). I finally left my house.

So, started tuesday?

day one--
Yeah.. Tuesday me and Chrissy decided to be cool.
And we rode our bikes.
Ha, and met up with Colleen at some point..
Alright so here the 3 of us are riding our bikes up the road the high school is on and then im going fast down a hill..
If you know me well enough you know I am an idiot.
And what do idiots do..
They fall of bikes.
So that is what I did.
And if you have seen my knee and elbow you know.
Ah, so I was liek "yeah guys um I'm sitting for a second"
And then they looked at it and the color of my blood was the oddest color ive ever seen.
Like bright bright red.
And then it faded to an orangeish.
Anyway, we still decided to be complete geniouses and ride all the way back to chrissys house.
Another..5-10 miles or something on a really busy road..haha.
Then we got back to Chrissys and her mom fixed me all up and shit..
Colleen left around 5:15..
And me and Chrissy just chilled for a whilee.
And then ate really good soup:-).
Hah and made fun of the ugly people on tv..
Then at some point we started watching soap operas.
Why?
Because we are cool.
So yeah then it was late at night and Chrissy went to bed.
But seeing as I do not sleep I stayed up and watched tv with Mike.
Till like 4 in the morning.
Gay ass music videos..liek some nelly thing bout eagles..he should be stabbed..
Then yeah..

Day 2---
The next day me and Chrissy were cool again.
And we walked from her house up to High Point High School.
And then we ran the track.
Me, taking off my shirt..and Chrissy yelling cause she thought she saw people we knew.
But I was hot.
And I didn't care.
Then her mom picked us up we went back ate ramen noodle soup and just hung out for a couple hours.
So by then it was around 6:30 and Tracy came and picked me up from the Espositos and we went to Michelles house for Dingers surpise party.
It is hardly worth explaining.
I made 3 people cry..without saying one word..and I was hit in the leg with a stick by one of these people.
And Jesus hates me.
Oh so sad.
I basically spent the entire night being an outcast with Tracy and Alex. Ha, they are cool.
Then Alex came back to my house.

Day 3---
So today..well early this morning around like 1..me and alex have a craving for alchohol.
Ah, little did we know what was to become of us.
We go downstairs..
And I decided I wanted to mix whiskey, some mexican shit, and lemonade together.
Big mistake.
Let me just say..I was lucky I didn't throw up because that was the single most disgusting thing I have ever drank in my life.
So me and Alex are staying away from brown alchohol.
Cause oh boy that was just terrible.
And it didn't even make us drunk.
It made us extremly dizzy to the point where we were walking oddly.
But that was the only effect.
Oh and I got hiccups.
Haha, and then we watched a movie..monster or something.
about my new idol.
an ugly ass hooker who fucken curses everyone out and then shoots her clients.
i am going to marry her one day.
even though she was exacuted on death row or whateverr.
Ha..so then around 6 we went to bed..
and then woke up at like 11?.
That is when the adventure began.
We decided to be smart and walk alll the way to Lorenzos from my house.
If you know where I live you know that isn't very short of a distance.
We staretd walking around 12..the way there we went non stop..cause we were dehydrated like crazy.
We were going to stop and get Mike because he is cool but it didn't appear that anyone was at the house.
If nobody is outside we assume no ones home.
And at this point we were too thirsty to walk up and ring the door bell.
Lol, so we get to lorenzos..and spend like 20 minutes trying to decide if we have enough money for anything.
and apparently we did.
so thats cool.
So we ate and then left..
And haha alright..walking again..
Being as we are 2 of the smartest people in the world we decided to try and climb through the woods down to this waterfall thing right near the high school..
It was like rock climbing in sandals and short skirts.
Needless to say we did not get very far.
I started sliding down teh hill and held onto this tree thing and we decided that we were dumb and couldnt make it any farther so we climbed up.
So, we started walking again..and then we discovered this little brook thing.
Again, our brain power was so immense we felt the urge to go down to it.
And this time we made it.
If you had been driving by you'd probably think we were homelesss or something..
2 girls splashing around and drinking dirty sussex water.
When you are dying of thirst anything tastes good.
Even brook water.
Haha.
And it felt good.
That was like the highlight of the day haha.
Anyway we get out and we start walkin again.
We walked too far.
Lol..This time we stopped right on my road.
In this swamp thing.
Invested with frogs and pricker bushes.
Then we go back to my house and drink real water.
A lot of water lol.

Now I am sitting here, and she has left.
And I need to take a shower because I am disgusting after today hah.
And I am waiting for my mother to get home with subway cause im acutally hungry.

So I have finally gotten off my ass and it is very cool:-).

Probably doing nothing tonight or tomorow.
But tomorow night I am leaving for teh weekend.
And I will be in Rhode Island.
So, I higly doubt I'm going to post again unless somebody dies.

Alex..we definatly need to do this more hah. We make such fun little adventures out of the dumbest things. You were upgraded like 4 times..and I was upgraded once and then downgraded like twice haha.. I think somebody is a liar. But oh so fun to toy with ;-). AND NANCY IS ALIVE:-). Just not home..oh well. ha have fun in ohio.


Adios muchachos.



OH yes..it wouldnt be a complete entry if i didnt bitch about soemthing.
so that is what i am going to do.
I hate a lot of things..but the 4 I hate the most are shape shifters(if you do not know what that is you are dumb and should learn me and james's vocabulary..)..anti druggies(i am going to do what i want when i want and if you are going to bitch about it then go die..)..naive idiots(there is nothing good left in this world.stop thinking there is.some things you cannot change..and one of those is that life sucks..)..and hypocrites(explains itself..so go die.).
Oh..and people that lie..when its like going to be found out. You cannot have 2 whole life points of view..that are completely opposite. You just can't. That is one part of shape shifters that should be burned.


Well I suppose that is enough for today.
Cause I'm in a good mood.
And complaining annoys me.
So adios for real.



Everything is (s p i n n i n g)
I've lost all sense of [r.e.a.l.i.t.y]

She wants someone to see her

[20 Jul 2004|12:16am]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | Nothing but the thoughts racing through my head. ]

Oh.boy.
another eventless day.
Tuesday I'm going to the movies.
So that's good.
And during the day I'm getting out my bike.
Haha I feel very cool.
I havta ride it like 20 miles for soccer.
I think I forgot how to though its been so long since I've been on a bike haha.

So, today I had a lot of time to think.
And I realized how much I hate clueless people.
These people that think people like them.
And think that they are all cool and shit.
When basically everyone hates them and they are nothing more then another worthless person.
At least I know people hate me.
Some of these people are living in denial.
And need to snap out of it.
I've decided that the people who are most conceited
Are the ones with the least reason to be.
You might know who you are,
I highly doubt it.
Most likley you'll read this..
And then IM me saying "Omg i totaly agree I hate people like that too"
Well wake up,cause the people like that are you.
Sorry but that just pisses me off.

And another thing that pisses me off is shapeshifters.
James knows what I am talking about.
Pick who you are, and stick with it.
Ah, but we decided that shapeshifters cannot change anyway.
Cause they are born that way.
And will forever remain that way.
And will forever piss me off.
If you are going to have a new personality every week and there is nothing I can do about it at least discontinue talking to me.
I promise it'll make us both happier.

Oh boy so I hope some of you actually get the hint.
Hmm, but hints are too subtle.
And you are too dumb to understand subtlety.
Or however the fuck that is spelt.

K. So I am done for today.

Off to sit and think of more things I hate.

Cause I'm ina hating typa mood.

Got it?

Yep.

Oh..here is a poem I wrote.

[[I told you this would hurt
That's the way it has to be cause
I finally realized what I need to put myself back together
Is to break you into peices
And you break so easy
And all my effort doesn't go to waste
So you can sit back and fall apart and
When it all starts to fade
Maybe then you'll realize what I meant
When I said I needed this to happen,
Maybe then you'll realize you meant nothing
Just don't say I never warned you
Cause that was the only thing I did right]]

She wants someone to see her

Boredom. [18 Jul 2004|10:30pm]
[ mood | Bleh/ ]
[ music | My radio. ]

I am dying.
I have nothing to do.
Maybe tomorow I will finally leave this house.
Otherwise I shall have a nervous break down.
I was home again today.
And did absolutly nothing.

Oh and I must call Nancy tomorow.
Just to make sure she is still breathing.
I was going to today but I forgot.

Hmmm so yeah..Somebody get me out of this place.

I shall love you immensly.

Well, I am off to drink more of my carribean rum.

Don't worry Alex I will save some for you.

She wants someone to see her

[17 Jul 2004|06:18pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | Five Vicodin Chased with a shot of clarity-Atreyu ]

Did nothing today.
Most likley doing nothing tomorow as well.
Because that is just how it works.
Anyway, I finally got a layout.
Thank you eaxea from blurty layouts<3.
(If you want me to credit in another way ask.)

Hmm So yeah nothing to say besides that.

Later.

She wants someone to see her

I'm Home:-) [16 Jul 2004|12:58pm]
[ mood | blank ]
[ music | Bleeding Mascera by Atreyu ]

Alright. That vacation was not relaxing. At all. Ha..

So I suppose I'll just post what I did everyday. Cause I'm bored out of my mind right now.

Monday-Got there..unpacked..swam
Tuesday-Went to a bunch of beaches and shit
Wednesday-Went on this sail boat thing called the Allora. The 3 guys that run it are amazingly gorgeous<3.
Thursday-Went scuba diving.Ha saw a sting ray and like stalked a turtle.
Friday-Went into the town. Ick its dirtyy there.
Saturday-Went into the town on the other island. Just as dirty..I was harrased by hair braiders and I finally gave in and got a hair wrap..wich is already falling out. Oh and I got 2 necklaces some earings and an anklet. Cute.
Sunday-My father and I kayaked out to a deserted island then we snorkled around said island and ate sandwiches and were attacked by 3 freaky ass iguana things. and i got some cool sea shells and fosilized rock coral shit so its cool.
Monday-Went scuba diving again. It rained<333
Tuesday-Snorkled liek the entire ocean..Then went night snorkeling and realized I'm afraid of tiny fish. Ha don't ask..
Wednesday-Played cards with some kids. Amazingly fun. The most fun I had teh entire time..ha and it had to be the day before i left.. So yeah there was Andrew whos 16 and hot and maybe bi?idk goes to an all boys school and lives in delaware..Kaitlin whos 18 and andrews sister and realy nicee and goes to an all girls school..Logan whos 16 and really funny but not so hot..Carly his sister whos 14..Whitney whos 14 and quiet..Justin whos crazy funny and 16 and not that hot..and um Dianee i think?Idk shes 17 and only came a fewminutes before i left.
Anyway we all played umm Asshole..I learned how to play that. Fun game. Except when your the asshole and you lose..you haev to drink hotsuace..Since I didn't know how to play at first I kept losing. Ha my mouth burned by the end of the night. And then wen justin and diane or diana or w.e. came we played aruba and kaitlin was my partner and we had trouble coming up with a signal. Yeah I sucked at that game too. Oh well haha. Then my gay ass father has to come over around 11 when we were getting ready to go play either down on the beach or in an abandoned tent somewhereee and tell me I havta go. Whateverrr.
Thursday-Came home.


yeah so now its friday and im hereeeeeeeee.
and bored.
welll thats all. later.

She wants someone to see her

[03 Jul 2004|11:02pm]
[ mood | pessimistic ]
[ music | Stare into the sun--thrice ]

Hmm I actually posted before midnight.
Very cool.

Okay so now I am sitting in my room listening to thrice..
Just thinking.
And writing.
You'd think since nothing has really happened thered be nothing to think/write about.
But wow there is.

I'm due for a miracle
I'm waiting for a sign
I'll stare straight into the sun
I won't close my eyes
Till I understand or go blind

Unless something important happens tomorow this'll probably be my last post before I leave for vacation.

Which is monday at 4 in the morning.

Okay..so today my mom lied to me and said we were going to the mall
And then we went like everywhere in middle town except the mall
How cool?
Yeah so I was forced to be seen in public with my family for nothing..
Except I got a tank top, a cute bathing suit, and the new atreyu cd(the curse.), a thrice cd(artisit in the ambulence), and a something corporate cd(leaving through the window)
So I got something out of it at least..
Yeah then I came home at 5:13 and head to get changed and leave again

Then I went to shell and jill's graduation party.
It was pretty fun.

Okay..so you knowwwwwww..

People arg just aggrivate me so much.
Please just fucking say what your thinkning..
Makes shit easier.
Ah never mind I'm a hipocrite.
Oh well I'm going to stop talking now.

She wants someone to see her

[03 Jul 2004|01:58am]
[ mood | awake ]
[ music | Theres Gotta be More to life..um by stacie oriko? ]

Well today was fun. Or yesterday. I need to stop doing these posts at 2 in the morning..

Cause then I get confused as to what day it is.

Well okay..so yesterday i guess..yesterday i went to shells house. cause it was a surprise party for jill deas. like 8 of us were there. yeah so that was fun. ha me and jill were lighting these lei things on fire. very cool. and we watched secret window..and i feel so smart i was like..20 minutes into it.."is he a schitzo?" and michelle and me are just sitting there laughing cause i was actually right..oh woops if you just read that and you havent seen the movie just pretend you didnt. yeah..tomorow..ah fuck i mean today... theres another party @ shells. except like instead of 8 peopel they'll be like 70 or something. so it should be funner and all.

And TODAY..got it right..today im going to thee mall and buying another bathing suit. cause i want to. ha so whatever..and um what else..oh i have to pack.

Only 2 more days until I am lying on a beach in Saint Johns(Virgin Islands) which is in the Caribeans. I'll be there from Monday(the 5th) until the next thursday(the 15th). It'll be quite fun. And relaxing. And relaxed is exactly what I need to be now. Way to much to think about.

I'm really stressed. Can't exactly figure out why.

Ha oh well. When am I not stressed.

I should probably get some sleep.

Idk that doesn't seem very likley.

I wrote another poem..

So here it is..let me know what you think.

You always laughed
And your laugh made me happy
But I couldnt give you that power of being my happiness
So I'd call you immature
And the laugh would stop

You were always singing
Your voice was so soothing
But I couldnt let you calm me
So I'd tell you to be quiet
And say your voice annoyed me

Your brown eyes entranced me
The saddness in them ripped me apart
I wanted to take away your saddness
But I'd never admit that
I'd always say "I prefer blue"

You always confided in me
And I knew you trusted me
I loved having your trust
But I couldn't trust myself
So I told them all your secrets

You used to hold me in your arms
When nothing was going right
You made me feel so beautiful
But I don't deserve to be beautiful
So I pushed your arms away

And now your nowhere to be found
And I'm dying without you
But I can't let them know that
So I turn and smile
And act alive as I drown in regret*



Well nothing else happened really...So that's it..


She want's someone to see her
She needs to hear shes beautiful
Shes [b.e.a.u.t.i.f.u.l]

She wants someone to see her

The wise words of nancy burns...haha [02 Jul 2004|01:55am]
lonelyouth89 (1:52:15 AM): hey i just thought of something hmm you kno how parents force their kids to eat things they dont want when theyre young?
xcloudyx eyes (1:52:34 AM): yeah?
lonelyouth89 (1:53:20 AM): because the affect it will have on their bodies well doesnt that teach you to enjoy alcohol because just because it has a bad taste means it has a great affect


ha i love this gurll
She wants someone to see her

[02 Jul 2004|01:32am]
[ mood | drunk ]
[ music | the radio ]

Ha. well Okay things got better since earlier.

James apoligized for being a loser.

And whatever.

So now I'm kind of sitting here laughing about things..

Funny things really.

Oh and drinkin.

Ha cause I was supposed to bring it with me to hang out with alex and nancy nd that didnt happen so why let perfectly good alchohl go to waste?.
Just as long as I ain't got a hangover.


Oh, yes. If you'd like to be my friend with benefits, ask me.
If you don't know what that is...ha too bad.
Because I have some friends with benefits.
And I could always use more.
Okay, let me explain it to you
Just incase your dumb and dont know
A friends with benefits
Is somebody you do stuff with
Stuff youd do if you were going out with them
But then there isnt any attachemtn
And you dont have to care
It sounds like the best thing to me
Cause I never care
And that kind of hurtrs people
So rather then hurt people ill stick with this.

K so ask, ill probably say yes unless i dont like you.


HAHA WElll tomorow i have a party...

And saturday i have a party..

and sunday idk i might stay in a hotle

otherwise im goign somewhere for 4thof july

then monday im leaving for vacation

until the 15th.

in la caribeans:-).

well im out.

seeya.

5 Look right through her // She wants someone to see her

[01 Jul 2004|07:02pm]
[ mood | blah ]
[ music | So Beautiful by Dashboard Confessional ]

Ah god I'm having the worst 24 hours. Since last night..arg just a lot of shit.

Last night I broke up with Mike....people need to stop asking me why though. Anyway, yeah...

Um today..some of my friends are just so cool...and think that judging me and yelling at me helps me with things. well it doesnt. so dont do it.

And arg I was suposed to go hang out with Nancy and Alex but Alex is nowhere to be found. Oh well.

So now I am sitting home not exactly sure what I'm doing.

Listening to dashboard...

Writing poems..

Here are 2 songs one of them Tracy and said reminded her of me and the other oen i found and reminds me of me. Both by the Goo Goo dolls.<3.

Think about me:
You take a lot of chances with your feelings
No one really knows what you feel
And fiction is the only way you're dealing
You turn your pretty head if it gets real

You take it so slowly
And your eyes look so lonely
And it's only when you think about me
Oh yeah
When you think about me
Think about me

I got ahead don't let me sleep
You got a secret I can't keep
You see a little stranger in your mirror
The girl you never knew is what you fear
You take it so slowly
And your eyes look so lonely
But it's only when you think about me

Oh yeah
When you think about me
Think about me
All you want is something I can't be
All you want from me is what you need
And I'm saying

You take it so slowly
And your eyes look so lonely
But it's only
oh you,
Take it so slowly
Now it's only 'bout me
When you think about me
Think about me
When you think about me
Oh yeah
When you think about me
Think about me
When you think about me


Cuz Your Gone:
You whispered in my mouth
And I spit you words right back
How good do you think I'll look
When the words start to break and crack

You beat your head upon your wall
You disconnect yourself from it all
'Cause you know that you're so beautiful and so untouchable
And I want to get in so bad and I don't know how
No I don't know how

Cuz you're gone and you ain't coming back
Yeah you're gone and you ain't coming back

You held your hand so close
And I just can't push you away
I wished you could be my girl
But you're stuck in your a grown-up world

You beat your head upon your wall
You disconnect yourself from it all
Cause you know that you're so beautiful and so untouchable
And I want to get in so bad, and I don't know how
No I don't know how

Cuz you're gone and you ain't coming back
Yeah you're gone and you ain't coming back

You beat your head upon your wall
You disconnect yourself from it all
Cause you know that you're so beautiful and so untouchable
And I want to get in so bad and I don't know how
And I don't know how

Cuz you're gone and you ain't coming back
Yeah you're gone and you ain't coming back
Yeah you're gone and I wish you'd come back


Yeah. I don't expect you to read the lyrics. But oh well..


I w a n t a l o v e r i d o n t h a v e t o l o v e
I w a n t a b o y t o dr u n k t o t a l k
w h e r e s t h e k i d w i t h t h e c h e m i c a l s?
I g o t a h u n g e r a n d I c a n t s e e m t o g e t f u l l
I n e e d s o m e m e a n i n g I c a n me m o r i z e
T h e k i n d I h a v e a l w a y s s e e m s t o s l i p m y m i n d
B u t y o u
Y o u w r i t e s u c h p r e t t y w o r d s
B u t l i f e s n o st o r y b o o k
L o v e i s a n e x c u s e t o g e t h u r t

She wants someone to see her

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