| and will you tell all your friends? |
[16 Sep 2003|01:09pm] |
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Im done counting down the days in the library. day 6. haha.
I feel like shit. Im sad and all that fun stuff. I have a headache :'[
I cant wait to go home and take a shower and go to bed. I almost missed my bus this morning. :/
anyway...
across the street from Dunkin' Donuts this morning there was a hold up/shoot out thingy. Dunkin' Donuts = down the street from our la escuela. scary shit. then there was a brawl in lunch. I couldnt see anything cause Im too short :[ but I heard it was this white kid and this black kid and one hit the other with a chair or something. I hate my school.
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| Tomorrow |
[15 Sep 2003|08:47pm] |
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is national kiss day. who wants to be my kissface partner?
maybe..if Shane goes bowling..he can be my kissface partner, but a few hours early ;]
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[15 Sep 2003|01:18pm] |
10-03 Birch Hill Old Bridge, NJ w/ Matchbook Romance, Fallout Boy, Acceptance
they chaaaaaaaaaaanged the daaaaaates and the baaaaaaands and the plaaaaaaaace. where the shit is Birch Hill Old Bridge, NJ?! I think its up north.. what.the.fuck.
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| Im hungry |
[15 Sep 2003|01:05pm] |
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Day 5 in the library instead of study hall. Im on a roll man. woo.
anyway
Jerry came back today :] I mished him.
I showed Boker that beautiful emo boy, Shane. <3
Im hungry dude. I cant wait to go home and buy my pictures and then shower and then eat food. yum. then bowling tonight with Erica aka Itchy and Boker aka Twat. :D Boker wants me to invite Shane<3. Ive only known him for a day, but Ill still ask. its up to him if he wants to go.
Im bored..
I MADE SKINNY-STEVE KISS ME TODAY. OH MY GAWD. he has no lips. and it was like..a peck. so it doesnt count :'[ shitfuck.
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[14 Sep 2003|08:50pm] |
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Im in love...
I just met the most beautiful boy Ive ever seen. more beautiful than Vince. I seriously wanted to cry.
and he lives in West Deptford. score
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[14 Sep 2003|06:56pm] |
Dan just left for Florida.
I love you Dan :]
have fun.
make sure you call me the second you get back.
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| all i wanted was to see her naked |
[14 Sep 2003|06:45pm] |
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Thrice [To What End] |
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me and Vince are actually talking. holy shit.
anyway..
work was okay today. it was for Congressman Andrews. that fucker.
we went swimming in the lake.
I got paid. tomorrow Im going to pick up my photos from Shop Rite fucking finally. expect photos tomorrow. hooray.
my feet fucking kill. I walked home barefoot cause I didnt want to get sand and all that fun stuff in my shoes.
I talked to the coolest guy last name. his name is Josh. hes fun.
I wanna go out, but Ill only go if someone carries me around.
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| youre a bitch but I love you anyway |
[13 Sep 2003|08:56pm] |
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8:57
still havent did my chores. I did one load of laundry. thats it.
Im lazy.
shitfuck.
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| please turn that fucking radio off |
[13 Sep 2003|04:17pm] |
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Alkaline Trio [We've Had Enough] |
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its such a beautiful day. its sunny and then there are just random down pours of rain. <3
mom works late tonight. she went in at 1 in the pm and wont be home til 11/12ish. I slept in til like 12. I watched a movie that Jamie's friend let her borrow. good stuff. Kare Kano..one of those anima DVDs. I finished that around 2. its now 4:20 and I still havent done any of my chores.
I want to do something tonight. I want to go somewhere. I want to meet new people. like..I dont want to just wander around Bellmawr.. I want to actually go somewhere. I want to kiss someone.
I havent talked to Jerry in a while. he's been online, but hes not answering me. what the hell, I dont care.
I want to go to a show. I havent been to one in a while. I miss going to local shows and meeting lots of people and seeing all the pretty boys and girls.
someone come over. 30 bucks if you snuggle with me.
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| what makes us burn every bridge we cross? |
[13 Sep 2003|12:06am] |
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Matchbook Romance [14 Balloons] |
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I didnt have to work today. the fuckers decided that they didnt need me cause it was a small party. soooooooooo..I slept until like 7..got up..called Boker.. then we went out wanderin. met some goofey freshmen at the track. talked to them a bit. that was my Friday night.
I asked Bokaluv to take me to see Thrice, Yellowcard, and Matchbook Romance for my burfday. theyre playing at the Electric Factory in Philly on Otc 3rd @ 8 in the pm. she said shell see what she can do. hooray.
mom went food shoppin today.
Nick said there are emo boys in his gym class. I think Ive said this already. well..whatever. hear it again, and like it.. bitch.
I found a million and 20 pictures of Johnny Depp for Jamie.
this past month, Ive only been listening to the sad songs.
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| yer mom is ugly |
[12 Sep 2003|01:11pm] |
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Im in the library. Day 4
Im feeling just the same as I did yesterday. :/ shitfuck.
I got sick this morning :/ I had like dry heaves or something. ewness.
I gave Manny the link to this journal so he could read it instead of ask me. sometimes I hate it when people ask me and I dont want to be all mean like so I just say "Ill tell you later", which I never do..because I dont feel like it sometimes. soooo..I either wait and let them nag me..or I write it down and show them. whatever.
yeah so...I have work after school today. fucker. I dont feel good and Im tired :'[ I hear your little violins (sp?)playing for me.
Im starting to like TJ again. :/ what to dooooo.
Nick (boker's <3) told me that there's lots of emo boys in his gym class. I hope I meet one.
Study Hall Hawt Kid aka Kevin<3 has kinda been talking to me a tad bit more. hes a funny kid.
Stephanie is hawt as balls. Im gonna bang her and have her babies. like whoa
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| poetic tragedy |
[11 Sep 2003|10:06pm] |
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The Used [Noise And Kisses] |
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I went to see Jamie sing in the choir for 911 out back at the park. she did good :] Im proud of my stinky. she's finally getting involved in things other than sitting on her bum and eating. after that, Al took me and Jamie to din din. we went to Chilli's. it was alright. I still feel ew about things. I dont know why. I just want to sleep and distance myself from people. like Boker, Manny, Jerry, mom.. people I hold close to me, I want to push them away. I dont know why and I wish I did. I dont feel like crying or anything. I want to be left alone, but at the same time I dont. I dont know, I feel crowded or something. I feel like I need personal space. but I dont want to hurt anyone. :/ I dont know what to do. I want to not care sometimes. Im bored with life. Im bored with school, already. and this was my first full week. Im not depressed, I dont think. sometimes I feel sad. I feel outcasted sometimes. I feel insignificant and little and weak when Im around Boker, and Manny, and Nick, and everyone. I feel dumb and loserish. I feel ugly and fat. but I love them. they make me feel like crap (not on porpouse..its just the way I feel around them sometimes) but I love them to death. what Im saying is obviously coming out wrong, so..dont take this the wrong way guys. I just need some serious vent-time and dont ask me about it because when Im ready and figured everything out, I will tell you guys about it and try to explain things more. today before I got on the bus, Manny knew I was feeling shitty but I told him I was tired. the old "Im tired" excuse. how gay. gawd Im so..s;dlkfj. I dont know what I want. I think I do, but its just because of how I feel this second. in study hall, I wanted everyone to just shut up and ignore me. pretend Im just a fly on the wall. please.
I think Im done.
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[11 Sep 2003|03:09pm] |
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Vengaboys [Boom Boom Boom Boom] |
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yeah so I deleted thatxgirl. it just wasnt working for me. plus, I was bored.. and xemoishx fancied more.
Ill update later.
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