Tuesday, June 5th, 2007

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12:17a	welcome back, welcome back my naughty little monkeys 1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was your first thought? boy is this day gonna suck 2. Do you read while your in the bathroom? today i did, I got a wrestling/audult themed newsletter called betty paginated from australia ysterday, gonna write for it again 3. What's a word that rhymes with "fit"? shit 4. Favorite planet? This one will do 5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list? 4 people don't ever call, they email. 6. What is your favorite ring on your phone? have land line so it's a regular nagging ring 7. What shirt are you wearing? a black t-shirt with white lettering that says "I'm allergic to bullshit" 8. What were you doing 20 minutes ago? stealing this survey 9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing? biker boots 10. Bright or Dark Rooms? dark 11. What do you think about the person who posted this survey? man could I get in trouble for them kind of thoughts, lol. 12. If you're in a room with two beds, which one do you sleep in? the one julie or maybe a "crush or two" I have were sleeping on 13. What were you doing at exactly midnight last night? putting down a pitcher of beer and a vcr at Sharky's sports bar 14. What was your last text message you sent on your mobile? don't have that 15. How do you like your eggs? scrambled with salt or onions and salt 16. What's a word/phrase that you say a lot? there are times when i really like you...and then there's NOW! 18. Last furry thing you touched? neighbor's dog earlier today 19. How many Drugs have you done in the last three days? does alcohol count? I don't count on how many in that department 20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? None. i don't own any cameras 21. Favorite age you have been so far? now 22. Your worst enemy? emotionally? she's still breathing so I won't say who. 23. What background do you have on your computer right now? a pic of julie that'll never see the light of day anywhere else 24. What was the last thing you said to someone? go buy your own fucking beer and stop begging here 25. If you had to choose between a million dollars or to be able to fly which would you choose? the million dollars...i can fly anywhere then 26. Do you like someone? depends what ypou mean by "like" 28. If the last person you spoke to was getting shot, what would you do? take the bulet for them, even if it's someone I'm feuding with 29. If you could punch one person in the face, who would it be? um...no comment. it wouldn't give a good impression of me if i said who 30. What is the closest object to your left foot? garbage can 31. What was the last thing you threw away? empty bottle of viper apple schnapps 32. When was the last time you went to the bathroom? 5 minutes ago 33. What's one of the most annoying sounds for you? nails on a chalkboard 34. What's one of your FAVORITE sounds to hear? the moans women make when we're....you get the what i mean 35. What's been your biggest purchase so far (excluding your car or home)? motorcycle...9mm baretta and ammo...soon might be shotgun (3 Comments | Comment on this)
3:09a	blah blah this is just a bunch of random thoughts and opinions, most have no real reason other than I just wanted to say it. i look thru my email box and I get this thing that says "lose 30 pounds". Do I look like i need a fucking diet? i'm trying to gain wait moron, not lose it. saw some homeless people when i was in milwaukee the other night. I've finally found something that so annoys me. fuckers like these just sit and beg people for money just so they can get a bottle of cheap ass rot gut liver killing wine. they don't want to work, they just want handouts and things given to them. if you have enough time to spend all day begging for your wine money, then you have enough time to go out and find a fucking job. I swear I want to ask tescovee for his stun gun and shoot a few homeless people with it. i'd use my 9mm i just recently bought but name me one homeless person who's worth dirtying a bullet over. and I did ask tescovee this today(yes, he and I aren't slinging insults. we both have some trying things on our minds right now and I stepped up for him in his situation. he in return has stepped up for me. for the ones who loved seeing use sling insults and threats at each other...well. for right now it's not gonna happen. maybe if we sell enough tickets then it might happen again but for right now, no. anyway i ask tescovee why shoot hookers with a stun gun? if they're not aids infected maggot looking dogfaced gremlins, then they'll be good for, well at least "one thing", lol.hey... I've seen some very HOT looking hookers in my time. have i been with a hooker? um....er....um...i have the right to remain silent, anything I say can and will be used against me in the court of blurty, lol. now if they actually are aids infected maggot looking dogfaced gremlins. why waste a good stun on them? just take em back to the zoo and the zoo keeper will thank you for returning them. it's not our fault they're so ugly they were put on the side of the swing that faced the wall. it's not our fault halloween they open up the door and kids give them candy. at work the other night a waitress comes up while i'm helping the cook on the line, "can the people in booth 1 have a side of mashed potatoes"? I said "I don't know, can they"? what the fuck you think this is, burger king where you can have it your way? how about if they have a side of shut the fuck up instead? I said this which made the waitress and cook laugh, they got their mashed potatoes, and no, I didn't spit in them either. the difference between where i work now and stuff's restaraunt(where I left) is night and day. stuff's gets basicly, the misfits and the dipshits, the ones who want you to cater to their every little whim and weird quirk. one guy if you don't take his empty platre right away he gets mad and takes it back into the kitchen himself. any other restaraunt I work at, and the moron tried that shit? it'd be "get the fuck out of the kitchen, the waitress will take it when she gets a chance, sit down and shut up".one woman, she comes in and if she can['t get booth 3 by the window she causes a fit. GOD FORBID that an actual "normal" customer has that booth. I actually told her once(and almost got fired because I had the balls to say it, and she deserved hearing it) "the booth's taken, sit down, shut up and be glad we even want to tolerate your ass long enough to take your order". the owner tolerates so much unneccessary bullshit because he wants to try and get every little nickel from these idiots, even if it costs him a buck fifty to get that nickel. he has a great reputation for food, I'll always give him that, but he runs his business like an idiot.if you stood up and stop catering to the misfits and dipshits you'd have a better clientel of people in there. but hey, what do i know, i've only worked in restaraunts in 3 different states and seen the difference upfront. which is why I am a kitchen manager and no longer at stuff's. speaking of that....sunday night? for all those who ever wanted to jab a former boss because you quit and got a better deal somewhere else? I did it for you, lol. my former boss at stuff's came into where I work for dinner. Now I make it a habit to go out and say hi to the customers and make sure their meal came out ok. i have a solid staff of decent cooks that have worked here for years and I see how good they are. but since I am a manager (and they actually put "under new management" on their L.E.D. sign) I want to make sure people are happy. we don't get the misfits or dipshits. totally different class of people. so i see my former boss, say hi to him and everything was fine when it came to the meal for him and his wife. he asked what i do here and I told him "kitchen manager". he didn't believe it so i grabbed my boss's wife mary and said, "explain to this couple my job title please". Mary said "Oh, Bill's our new kitchen manager, his experience from other restaranbts has been a great asset for us this year". you could tell by the look on his face he wasn't happy hearing that, lol. he asked me if i like it here and I said "better than working for you".his wife gave me a look from hell and i said "truth is truth...more money, more hours, treated so much better than you two treat employees, and above all...your way of doing things is the way of an idiot. this place is like most places where things are done which is universal of most restarunts in this country. you do things like a moron because you chose to be a moron, that's why you only get the dregs and the slugs for customers now". I offered tham a comment card in case they wanted to complain about me putting them in their place, they declined..and I told the waitress to take 10% off their bill. it was the least I could do for giving them a tougne lashing they've had coming for a long long time. they needed to be put in their place because the reality check of me getting something better than them was so satisfying in so many ways.i'm sure they left saying, "he can't say that stuff to us". and you know where they probably said it? out in their car where they belong. I just saw this commercial for viagra. "some side effects include... yak yak yak and yak..."and if you have an erection lasting for more than 4 hours, you should contact your doctor". hmmm. if you have a hard on lasting that long? someone's not fucking you right, lol. i had that and julie's not around? I'd be begging one of two people, one who lives in indiana or the one i know who lives in michigan to let me ride all the way there and they can take care of that um..."problem". I'm sure they both would have no problem knocking that fucker down, lol. i know. that just sounded SO bad. lol. if we had a nuclear disaster? the only things that would live would be cockroaches, cher, me and tescovee, lol. don't ask me why I said that or what in the bloody hell had that thought come into my head. ok..ok you pesky little penquins, I think I'm done for now. what was the point of this post? not a fucking thing, lol. just shit I felt like getting out of my system. Sadie...I look up to the sky and hope you are in a better place my friend. the tears I have shed over the last couple days I haven't shed for anyone this much in many many years. as i always have I'll never judge you for the decisions you make. I will probably shed more tears as i feel it coming again as I write this. we knew each other but we weren't as close as we could've been, we knew each other enough...and it was a good arrangement for the both of us. i wish you could've called me before you did it. yes I would've done anything to try and talk you out of it. that was how i was and you know that from experience. i would've dropped everything and rode nonstop from wisconsin back to NH. you're one of the so few that's worth that. the number of people i'd do that for is less than I can count on one hand. you're the reason why I like acouple lacy j. dalton songs. for all the hard rick you liked and your love of melissa ethridge, you made me, insisted i listen to some of her songs one night when we were in the eagles together( eagles was faternal order of eagles, cheaper to drink and shoot pool there than loud pipes biker saloon). you're the reason i have two of those songs that stuck with me in my media player. I know you're looking down on me and you hear me playing "black coffee". i made a vow to myself, to keep your memory alive in my heart sadie i'm gonna make "black coffee" a staple song I sing at karaoke every week. it may sound stupid to some people to do that but your memory sadie is one worth keeping in my heart and my soul. damnit...you know i hate showing a "human" side of me. you were so used to "Bill being Bill". I'm probably gonna cry and cry again, and then cry even more until I can't cry no more and then, cry some more after that. that's not the "bill" you were so used to, but know what? tough. you can look down from heaven and see that yes. you were a special person not just in my life, but many many others as well. you mpacted many people's lives just by you being you. i'm so sure if you heard this version of "Maybe I'm amazed" from the OC soundtrack that I'm listening to now, you would've made me listen to it, and I would've allowed you to talk me into it. so much i always wanted to say to you but never did, but as you once told me, you can tell by my actions more than any words I can say. then you know you saw more in what i felt than I ever had the guts to say or should've said. it was just the way we were. from "up above" sadie you're finally seeing something you always stated you wanted to see from me. you wanted to see me "feel". feel more than the anger and the sarcastic ways I always have. there were easier ways for you to see this sadie but i know you, you have your own way of doing things and if you really felt this was best, what you did. Then as the true friend I always was with you. I'll never judge you on it no matter what I may feel inside. the true friend will back you on this. you "up above" looking down, just know I'll always love you in a special way that you know, and I'll miss you. I can only hope that in some way, some days or nights you might touch my heart from heaven and let me know you're still keeping an eye on me. your memory...will never die in my heart or my soul. you meant too much for that to ever happen. please let God give you the serenity that you couldn't find yourself. you truly deserve it no matter what. Current Mood: crying my fucking eyes out,ok? Current Music: Jem-Maybe I'm Amazed (from the OC soundtrack) (2 Comments | Comment on this)
7:31p	for those who wanted to know Lindsay is on left. Sadie is on the right. Current Mood: blah Current Music: watching tv (2 Comments | Comment on this)
11:11p	favorites...another survey Book: started reading "in Broad Daylight" again. it's a true staory about how a small town in misouri shoots and kills the town bully TV show: devinci's inquest Movie: at the moment it's "one eyed king" Artist: steve earle Actor/Actress: steven seagal Food: chicken casadillas I have a manic obsession for them) Drink: beer Animal: none Band: motorhead Song: maybe tomarrow by the stereophonics and hold me down by tomme lee Instrument: i'll burn em both Facial Feature: on me? nothing. on a woman? um..it may not necessarily be a "facial" feature Color: black Place to visit: the wunderbar Room in your house/apartment: bedroom Fictional Character: billy jack Teacher: Mrs. parker, just cause she looked so hot when i was in high school Grade: my second junior year.that was when i threw all the rules out the window and the "me" people see now was born Mythological Creature: it's not mythological but i love old gozilla movies Web site: wrestlingobserver.com Thing to do: drink and sing karaoke Day of the week: any day I work night shift. Season: spring or fall Month: april it's my b-day month Type of weather: cool. Do you... Drink?: absolutely Smoke?: hell yeah Drive?: ride a motorcycle Kiss on the first date? if the connection is there Have sex on the first date?: if i'm attracted to her Do drugs?: alcohol count? Live outside your means?: sometimes Obssess over your looks?: no Abuse your family and friends?: friends sometimes, family, no Get good grades in school?: i majored in detention Get sleepy during the day?: sometimes Own a car?: a motorcycle Own more than 15 pairs of shoes?: oh hell no Own more than 5 pairs of jeans?: yep Have you ever... Smoked a joint?: yes Stayed up all night?: yep yep Cussed in front of your parents?: yes Hurt the feelings of someone you loved?: that a bad charactor flaw of mine Had your feelings hurt by someone you loved?: yes, a few times Failed a class?: failed alot of them Been really really scared?: not in years Had to face a phobia?: yes Cried in public?: yes, yesterday Thrown up at school?: no Been kicked out of the store?: was kicked out of the chalet Been in a car wreck?: yes Dumped someone?: yes, it was the right thing to do to get rid of a headache that wasn't worth having around anymore Been dumped?: nope Had a one-night-stand?: had quite a few.. wish i could have a few more actually, lol. Kissed and told?: yep Cussed in a Church (or some other religious structure)?: yes Beaten someone up?: recently I did Been beaten up?: not in many a year Broken a bone?: yep Been willing to sell your soul to the devil for something?: at one time for one person but not anymore Lied to someone you loved?: yes Stolen from a friend?: yes Eaten an entire gallon of ice cream in one day?: not eatren, used it for home made milkshakes Gotten an award?: yeah. not worth talking about Told a joke no one thought was funny? no Laughed so hard you cried?: all the time Cried so hard you laughed?: no Been to the opera?: that'll never fucking happen Fallen asleep in class?: during detention i did Been cheated on by your boyfriend/girlfriend?: yes Cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend?: yes because she did same to me it was with my nephew's exgirlfriend Been in love?: yes. didn't work out Gone out with someone who was married?:yes, debbie, had sex with her durinfg that time too. Gone out with someone a lot older than you?: when i was 25 i was sleeping with a woman who was 39 Been stood up on a date?: yes.. Looked horrible in a yearbook picture?: yes Done something life-threatening?: yes Cut school?: all the time my second jr year Bought a lottery ticket?: yes Cheated on a test?: no coment Can you... Swim?: yes Ride a bike?: its been a while Draw?: not good Sing?: hear me at karaoke and then you decide Dance?: only between the sheets Skateboard?: hell no Speak a second language?: very little Spanish Play an instument?: tried drums once Recite the Gettysburg Address?: why would I fucking want to? Label all fifty states? see above on gettysburg address Name all the US presidents in the order they served?:zzzz Read Tarot Cards, runes, palms, and/or, tea leaves?: zzzzz Cook?: enough to get by Whistle?: not well Snap?: yes Cross your eyes?: no Touch your nose with you tongue?: nope Balance a book on your head?: yes Sew?: no Recite the ABCs backwards without pausing?: only during a sobriety test have i. If given the opportunity, would you... Kill someone you hate?: yes Have sex with someone really really really hot?: a few times Star in a movie?: hahahahhaaha that'll never happen Be on the cheerleading squad/football team?: no way Become the king/queen of a country...hell no Cheat on a lover?: I already have Let someone cheat on their lover with you?: that has happened with me as well Experiment with someone the same sex as you?: ho HELL FUCKING NO! Live the life of someone else?: for a day only. depends on the person Sell your soul to the devil in exchange for something you really want?: depends Go back in time and change something from happening?: yes absolutely Go to the moon?: no, would rather go to hell instead Run for president?: never Pick one Coke or Pepsi?: either one Cats or dogs?: neither Really smart or really hot? hot Really successful or really popular?: successful, i'm already popular Really rich or really famous?: want to be famous for being rich Smart and depressed or stupid and happy?: stupid and happy Summer or winter?: I hate it being too cold and too hot... Spring or fall?: fall Hot or cold?: cold because I can always grab a blanket Love or lust?: lust fulfills more fantasies Chocolate or vanilla?: vanilla Skateboarding or surfing?:neither (Comment on this)

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