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Thursday, May 31st, 2007
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| 1:21a |
some people won't like my answers to this. oh well. "but we are responsible for who we have or will become". I love who I've become, sometimes you have to go backward to go forward and me drinking again has proven I can go back and move forward successfully.
"I BELIEVE that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in awhile
and you must forgive them for that". says who? they hurt one too many times? adios, kick em to the curb where they belong and have one less headache to deal with.
" I BELIEVE that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to,
does not mean they don't love you with all they have". that's bullshit and have too many examples to prove it wrong.
"I BELIEVE that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love". debbie proved that wrong with her sick bipolar behaviors. so nope, another one bites the dust.
"I BELIEVE that it's taking me a long time to become the person that I want to be" it took 3 beers and I realized it so nope, didn't take long at all, less than a half an hour.
"I BELIEVE that you should always leave loved ones with loving words.
It may be the last time you see them". depends on the "loved one" some if it's the last time you see them? good. won't have to bother seeing them ever again.
"I BELIEVE that we are responsible for what we do, no matter what we feel". I know alot of women who don't believe that and believe that blaming others for their bad choices, bad behaviors and being emotional fuckups is "normal" because they don't want to own up for what they do and who they do them to.
"I BELIEVE that either you control your attitude, or it (harmfully) controls you". I'll agree with this. I love my in your face bold attitude that puts people in their place as need be. works for me.
"I BELIEVE that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you are down, will be the ones to help you get back up". I used to be like that, now I just prefer to kick em when they're down, they obviously did something to get that way and deserve to be kicked, HARD!
"I BELIEVE that sometimes when I'm angry, I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel". bullshit, it gives you every right and if the people on the recieving end can't take it, they shouldn't have done whatever they did to get you angry. they basicly have it coming.
"I BELIEVE that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you from thousands of miles away". I doubt that, never happened with me so that one is proven wrong.
"I BELIEVE that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help". not me, not anymore. I tell them to move it along and find someone who might actually give a shit.
| | 10:31a |
noimbill journal got OWNED by me. and they admit it. It's Bill. Same IP he uses all the time. noimbill 2007-05-31 11:12 (link) Of course nothing we said hurt you. You hate yourself so much, NOTHING we say CAN hurt you. We have only stated the facts and truth. Not everything is about Bill. I know you find that hard to comprehend, but the world or it's people, do not revolve around you. Only YOU believe it does. You're so tough and badass you can't follow through with a challenge. You can't even post your name and have to talk in third person. No one likes you. Not even yourself. Until further notice -whether by me or Tesco -you will not be commenting here at all
here's my reply to them since they've officially punked out. the way I knew they would. netwussys are always so predictable, they alays react the same way every time.
good, don't comment. that just validates me even more that you got defeated. you posted nothing that was true. I kept calling you out to post these "lists and facts", and funny. you always screened like a pussy on that topic, and others that truly made you look dumb.
"You hate yourself so much". I do? I have a greatjob that pays well. I have a house, a motorcycle, a great woman in my life and I can drink like I want and be very successful. yeah...I sure do hate myself, NOT! dumbass.
"NOTHING we say CAN hurt you". it's about time you realize that, it only took you HOW MANY WEEKS of e making you idiots into my puppets? hahahaahahahahaha. "Not everything is about Bill" everything you say here is, you and tescopussy made sure of that and look what it got you, nothing after wasting all that energy, you got nothing. hahahahahahahahahhahaa. how's it feel to know I played the both of you so easily, and my truths reigned over all the stupid shit you lied and made up. LOL!
"You're so tough and badass you can't follow through with a challenge" rriiigghhtt. that's why my 10 year reign will still remain untarnished. Tesco punked out not once, not twice, but three times in a row. my neighbor found out the hard way too, so keep scratching.
"you will not be commenting here at all". this whole journal has me commenting on it. DUH! dipshit. slap, slap, slapslapslap. you just got shitslapped again.
i'll just copy and paste anything anyone says and reply to it on my journal and in my community. DUH! in the end, I still get over on you two dipshits. How's it feel to know you're still my little puppets that I make dance when I see fit? hahahahahahahaha.
Current Mood: validated
| | 11:13a |
here. try this (I know someone's gonna steal this, lol)
. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool... (It will compromise the divination :-) )
7. When you're finished tag some other people to do it!
Opening Credits:
"I'm no Angel"- Greg Allman
Waking Up:
"In the City"-Joe Walsh
First Day At School:
"Scarred for Life"-Rose Tattoo (line in song about school being a waste of time makes the song fit)
Falling In Love:
"everytime I look at you"-Kiss
Fight Song:
"don't you need"- melissa etheridge
Breaking Up:
"i don't care anymore"-phil collins
Prom:
"colour my world"-Chicago
Life:
"cat's in the cradle" Harry Chapin
Making babies:
"Dancing in the sheets" Shalamar
Mental Breakdown:
"I go to extremes"-Billy Joel
Driving:
"running down a dream"-tom petty
Flashback:
"maybe tomarrow"-stereophonics
Getting back together:
"what would happen if we kissed"-merideth brooks
Wedding:
"wedding song"-paul stookey
Birth of Child:
"isn't she lovely"-Stevie wonder
Final Battle:
"Thunder and lightning-Thin Lizzy
Death Scene:
"fight for all the wrong reasons"-nickelback
Funeral Song:
"free bird" lynard skynard (cause this bird you can not change)
End Credits:
"Go Back Home"-Stephen Stills | | 11:28a |
here's another one. no stealing now (yeah right, lol)
S U M M E R S U R V E Y
Pool OR Jacuzzi: neither, I live near the wisconsin river, I go a block away and jump on in (even though that is a wee bit illegal i think, lol)
Ocean OR Pool: been in a pool and been to the ocean. doesn't matter
Ice cream OR popsicles: ice cream. vanilla.
Lemonade OR iced tea: lemonade. good with vodka
Flip Flops OR tennis shoes: neither. my boots
Fans OR Air conditioning: either or, don't matter
Sprinklers OR slip n slide: Sprinkler
Water Balloon fight OR Water gun fight: water gun
Y O U R F A V O R I T E S U M M E R . . .
Drink: dirty mother or beer
Food: pizza or steak done on a grill
Song: "maybe tomarrow" by stereophonics or "hold me down" by tommy lee
Hang out: where I've been hanging out all along
Camp: no way
Holiday: 4th of july
Vacation: haven't been there, yet.
L A S T S U M M E R :
Where did you go: work, stuff's restaraunt and catering
Who did you hang with: Tim, jason, mike, josh, becca, clancy, etc etc was dating alicja from poland then.
Did you do anything illegal: still do in a way of drinking and driving. have to get the motorcycle home somehow, lol
Did you go to a concert: no. but might go to summerfest in milwaukee if there's a band playing there I like
What was your best memory: past or recent? neither of which would be of a PG-13 rating
T H I S S U M M E R :
Where are you going: strurgis motorcycle rally
Who are you going with: Julie
G E N E R A L S U M M E R :
Your best summer was: last summer
Your worst summer was: every summer before that
Why was it the worst: too many reasons. I'd be here all day explaining them.
Name five things you're most looking forward to this summer: working, drinking, riding the motorcycle all over the midwest on days off from work, getting closer with julie, living my life to the fullest even more than i do now. | | 11:33a |
what a day this is going to be It's payday, I have it off and don't have to be at work until tomarrow night, so if you know me, you know what this day is gonna be like for me, woo woo!
getting paycheck in a half hour and by 2 I'll be on my way to milwaukee to pick up julie. what will i be doing between noon and 2? hee hee. I think you already know. have a couple in milwaukee and then drive back to the dells. karaoke at the german bar tonight and then last ones at chalet. doubt any "netwimps I've made back down as of late" will show up. they talk about doing so but funny how when push comes to shove, they back down and try to talk around how they pussed out even though in the end that's just what they did, puss out.
so it'll be a nice day and night all the way around. I might think of you when i have a beer or a "dirty mother", then again...probably not, hahahaha.
Current Mood: being the me I was meant to be
Current Music: Gillan-Trashed (i'll be that before the night's over, lol)
| | 11:47a |
Once again I get proven right. debbie just never learns she wrote this asa reply to me last night that I kept screened. I didn't delete it because I just knew she'd prove me right. and she did. not even 24 hours later she proves me right, and what a dipshit she is.
oxsunshinexo
2007-05-30 21:15 (from 65.175.235.100) (link)
hahaha Keep on writing The more the better..you are so lame! hahaha This is the last I will be writing to you or about you, you are just not worthy of my time.
Go over to her journal http://www.blurty.com/users/oxsunshinexo/ as you'll see the first two posts at the top of the page are...what? about me.. when was the last one written? this morning. so you see. Debbie for the LIFE OF HER can't ever stick to what she says. she is the true definition of "say one thing yet, do another".
Thanks debbie, you proved me right again. validated me and my opinion again, and proved that your word don't mean a thing because you keep breaking it and can't stick to it no matter what. Must be the bipolar because she always flip flops. too bad she couldn't "flip and flop" good in bed, hahahahahaha.
Current Mood: validated,thanks dumb debbie
| | 8:12p |
update of sorts if anyone cares I'm at julie's right now. we're gonna come back to the dells in alittle while for karaoke at the german bar. she's in the shower. believe me I'd like to join her but we've um...er...um..."already had some fun". lol.
I picked up my paycheck, looked at my schedule for the next week. and I'm on night shifts from tomarrow until next weekend. cool by me, I love night shifts. i get so much done on prep list, inventory, etc etc. they're seeing the advantage of me being on night shifts because I get alot of things prepared for the next morning or two that way. They don't have to worry about "did we run out of this, was that made up...". they know by how I work I get it all covered for them.
After I deposited some of it in the bank. went home and called up the company I have handling doing the buying of stocks, I have in the past bought a few stocks in walmart and harley davidson. I arranged to get acouple more stocks in both companies. always good to plan ahead. my neighbor who he and I had a fight the other night (he was drunk...i showed him online how I made tescovee punk out to me 3 times in a row...he decided he wanted to be a tough guy since the booze was talking for him, and well. he lost. my landlords know abut it and told me he's had a habit of doing that when he's drunk. I told the landlord that if keeps it up with me, he's gonna have a habit of being knocked down, lol.) comes knocks on my door. I braced for what I thought would be round 2. He apologized for the other night. he said he was drunk, he shouldn't have tried messing with me, yak yak yak. he has a nice shiner on his left eye, lol. I accepted the apology on face value. He wondered how I took him down so fast, lol. all he remembers was he mouthed off(he was going for a good hour or so when i decided i was tired of it, back in the day it would've been 30 seconds, so an hour or so before I get tired of it is great progress, lol), and then out of nowhere I popped him and then took him down on his own deck. I told him again that I took a year of judo and 2 different courses in self defense (will be taking another one during the summer as well) so I don't fuck around. I'm not the biggest man in the world but what I know has taken down some big men and I have no qualms about doing so again if need be. My other neighbor who I barely talk to (just "hey how you doing") came over and he heard what happened. He's the one who told the one i beat up to apologize. I thought to myself "good idea" but didn't say it. for the moment everything's been cleared up so we'll have to see what happens the next time he gets drunk. if he tries again, well. down he'll go again.
anyway I had a beer and a half a glass of my Viper apple schnapps then drove here to milwaukee. got to the shell station here in milwaukee where I always go(I have a shell card so it's nice thing to have, lol) to fill the tank up and get some cigs. two couples who were on harleys were filling up as well. they belong to the HOG group( Harley Owners Group). they noticed my iron justice patch and asked then obvious question(what is iron justice, lol). I explained to them what it was and then told them I knew a guy who was a member of their group in New Hampshire (Biker Dan who's in aa). They were in from michigan and asked if I knew of a decent place to eat. as one guy said "we saw you and decided to ask you since you seem to know the gas attendent". I always buy my gas and gigs there so I do know a few of them. I said "funny you should ask, I'm on my way to this little diner about 4 blocks from here". I told them mexicans own it but it has the best food I've tasted in this particular area. one woman in the group asked me if I go to this diner often, I chuckled and said "seeing that my girlfriend works there and her mother owns it, yeah, I'm there often". te other guy was worried because they're bikers if they'd be served (some places still discriminate against bikers and won't serve them. the stereotype and all). I told them her whole family knows I ride and they always hear my bike when i pull into the parking lot so no worries. they serve anyone.
we all pull in and it was pretty busy. julie was waitressing and didn't notice i walked in with the other bikers. it's a place where you seat yourself. so we went in a corner of smoking by the jukebox they have. they only had 2 waitresses working today(found out later the thirds called out sick or something). I said to the other bikers "watch this...she'll know I'm here now". I went to the jukebox and looked thru the search mode for one song, and played it. "Maybe Tomarrow" by stereophonics. it played right then and she shot a look over to the jukebox when it started. she knows it's "my" song. her eyes lit up and she smiled when she saw it was me who played that song. she knew i was coming to pick her up but she didn't know "when" i was gonna show up,lol.
Julie came and took our order she asked me what was up with me being with them and I explained they asked me at the gas station about a decent place to eat. she joked and said "and you brought them HERE"? I said it was better than sending them to burger king, and julie, in her usual fashion said "fuck that whopper". which made us all laugh. after she took the order I got compliments on how pretty she is. one of the guys asked "is she always like that with the personality"? I told him "it runs in the family brother". then we talked about how i went from chicago, to NH to wisconsin. and how they're here from michigan, etc. etc. Julie came with our beers and I asked if her mom was ok back there. She said "mom's doing very good today", then reached over and squeezed my hand saying "thank you for asking, I know you;d go back there if she wasn't well, go back and say hi anyway, you know she appreciate it". so i excused myself and went in the back. maria looked, smiled and gave me a hug saying "it's my julie's white boy". lol.she looked out and asked me about the other bikers. I explained it to her and she even joked "you brought them here"? lol. I said you want the business or should burger king have it. her ,mom said "fuck them and fuck that whopper too". LOL! runs..in the family, lol. told her I'd rather see them get a decent tasting meal for a decent price over fast food bullshit. she smiled and said "thank you. you sucking up"? I laughed and said "even if i tried, it wouldn't work with you". she laughed and said "you right, but you ok. you treat julie very good. I see, you don't think I see, but I see...what you don't say in words you do in action so i see more than you think". women do have that talent, lol.
I asked her how she was doing with her cancer and such. she was definetely in rare form today. "I say fuck the chemo today, I don't feel like being sick today". I asked her if it was wise, not that I'm trying to tell her what to do. "It ok today. I go tomarrow or saturday. everything good today, thank you for caring. i know you do". then maria hands me an envelope, I'm like what the fuck is this? she said "you ducked me twice on this, you take this and don't you say no. you work for me you get paid. don't you dare tel me no today, I kick your ass today". I busted up laughing and told her I'd let her. so i said "fine, I'll take this if you insist, but I akm paying for my meal out there. you...don't say no or else i'll find a way of putting it in the register when you're not looking". she laughed and we compromised to that.
after I ate I walked with the bikers to their bikes, shook their hands and went back inside to wait on julie. she got off after 2 o'clock. i asked her mom when she needed her back. maria asked what my schedule was and I told her all night shifts for the next week, and told her what days/nights i have off. so she said "you can keep her until sunday, sunday i have her work dinner, by then you be wore out enough to you want to bring her home". I was like OH MY GOD! before we left maria pulled me t the side and said "i know I joke with you but I want to know a serious thing with you". I was like "oooook". she said and I quote "I know what you do with julie, we not fools and you know that, if she gets pregnant, what happens"? I said "whatever she wants to happen, her body and her choice. she wants a baby, I'm not gonna run from her, if anything I'm gonna run TO her even more, i make it, i raise it and support it with her". her dad came in and overheard that and i was like "ooh shit". her dad said "I thought so about you but I'm glad I hear you say it". i'm like WHEW! he then chuckled and said "you in trouble again with my wife"? I laughed and said "I always will be I think", he laughed and said "I've been in trouble with her for the last 40 years, after 30 you come to just enjoy the trouble". LOL!
well that's it for now, julie's sitting on my lap and um...er....um...she's laughing as I'm typing this last part out because she knows what i'm feeling right at this moment. I'm just gonna end this now because, SHE knows what's gona happen..right...about...NOW! see ya all later.
Current Mood: very good
Current Music: Pussycat Dolls- Don't Cha (on her puter)
| | 8:50p |
here's some informative links for you This is being posted so you can educate yourself on the sickness that is bipolar. women who have this are well known to become emotional fuckups who tear their men apart and then blame them for what they do themselves. most are mental basket cases they chose not to want to help themselves but instead hide behind their illness as their shield or crutch to cover up the damage they do to other people's lives. my exgirlfriend debbie unfortunately suffers from this illness and all of the symptoms. she's a prime example of one who hides behind her illness to cover up what a behavioral mess in the head she realy is. it's no wonder why she sees a shrink. she is...truly..that fucked in the head and she chooses not to do anything about it. she really and seriously thinks it's normal t be this fucked in the head. she thinks it's ok and normal to be an emotional fuckup. http://www.webmd.com/bipolar-disorder/mental-health-bipolar-disorderhttp://www.webmd.com/bipolar-disorder/guide/helping-loved-one-with-bipolar |
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