an update and before that a message to tescovee who's now known as "tescopussy" tescovee, if you such a badass how come you ban me from your journal, huh? only a netwimp has to hide behind a ban. you're not banne dhere yet you have no balls to come here. I see, you have to hide out in noimbill because you can have your control issues stroked there when i punk your ass to pasture there. hahahahahaha. you not allowing me to post in your journal further validates the fact I've chumped you so bad you've become the bitch of blurty now. get your skirt and heels on bitch. you'll find they fit you perfectly. especially after you punked out and backed down from me three times in a row in public forums only to try and be wannabe badass after it gets rubbed in your face. so it'll now be a forth time in a row you'll backstep and backdown like the punk ass you realy are, thanks to me.
Now that I proved that when it comes to netwimps, if they're wimps once who back down, theyll always be wimps who back down. I'll update on the other things in my life.
saturday night after i got out of work I picked julie up from my place and we went out partying. we had acouple at the chalet and then decided that since she had to be back in milwaukee so she could work sunday, we rode right after. we stopped at our favorite rest stop and well, you can guess what happened there, lol. we always do our "ritual" when we're there, lol. we actually got stopped by a state trooper between madison and milwaukee. there wasn't many cars on the highway so I knew why he came after us. it's memorial day weekend and they step it up. I pulled over, I gave him my motorcycle licence and julie gave him her licence. I explained that she needed to be back in milwaukee to work for her mom and that's why we're heading there now instead of sunday. More convient, yak yak yak. I allowed him to search the saddle bags, nothing to be found except tools (in case something happens to the motorcycle) and a half a carton of cigs.
As he was running my licence he saw my patch on my jacket. He asked what was Iron Justice. I explained to him that it's a motorcycle club for law enforcement, that I have 2 cousins who are cops(one's a chicago cop, the other is a corrections officer at Cook County Jail) and since I support what they do I support the club they belong to. Come to find out he's in another motorcycle club for law enforcement called the Blue Knights (which I heard of as they owned a bar in chicago that wasn't far from where I lived back in the day).I told him about Shooters, the bar the blue knights in chicago owned and named acouple guys I had met back in the day from drinking there and acouple places. His eyes lit up wen I mentioned one name as he knew him thru someone else. I described him and it was still to a tee, minus about 10 lbs he dropped on some diet.
names came back with nothing (as I knew they would), he said he thought i might have been speeding just alittle (i actually was, lol. 85 in a 65 so yeah i was speeding "just alittle", lol). He let us off and said if i was gonna drink in milwaukee then i should be very careful driving back to the dells. I told him I'm staying at he rplace and won't be coming back until after 12 noon so I can work my job. and off we went.
we landed at the bar soon after that, was i speeding again? I plead the 5th, lol. place was pretty packed and we got lucky as two people were leaving from right up at the bar when we walked in, so we took over them seats right away. the woman bartender who served us looked at julie and i, then said "don't you two get free drinks or something"? We both pulled out the business cards we were handed last week by the owner. she read the back and nodded back to us. "I thought so". she let anothe rbartender (who I found out was a new one) what the score was with julie and I. so there'd be no problems. I do like having a free bar tab, lol.
Julie got a song book for karaoke and we were off to the races, lol. while she was looking for a song I saw a book behind the bar, it's called the "bartender's black book" just about any mixed drink in existance is in this book.you can get it just about anywhere. asked to see it and started looking thru it. Julie rocked the place doing an old abba song (s.o.s.), plenty of people dancing and I didn't she knew that song, lol. I never heard her sing it but she nailed it perfect. while she was singing I decided to try a drink called a "black sabbath". i like the band black sabbath so what the hell, try the drink of the same name.
YYYYUUUUUUCCCCCKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the drink black sabbath is the worst fucking thing I ever tasted. a martini from hell harsh ugly fucking taste to it. give me a mixture of jack daniels and early times anyday over that shit (the the jack/early times is an ugly combo as well, believe me). now...i did find one that has become a new favorite. and did the one liners come from me when i decided to try and it and found I liked it, liked it ALOT. a drink called a "dirty mother". LMAO!
julie came from singing and i had her try the black sabbath. she made me laugh the way she almost spit it out. she's like and her accent cracked me up when she said "what the fuck you trying to poison me with"? I told her what it was and she swore at me in spanish, lol. i had her try the dirty mother and she like dthat better. she then said "you're a dirty mother for having me try that other drink". I said "no, I'm a dirty mother fucker because I've dated a few dirty mothers in my time". LMAO!
right around then the dj played "Maybe tomarrow" by the stereophonics and said "this one is for Bill at the bar, you're next after your song plays". I give her the peace symbol as I always do to people when I wave hi to em. some of julie's friends came in, she hadn't seen them in awhile so as others left the bar area we all just took over right up on the bar, lol. when i went up to song my song I got the wireless mic and walked over to julie. pulled my stool close to her and asked her for her hand. I then said over the mic. "I know you like this song alot. starting tonight. I'm gonna sing it to you, for you..this is dedicated to my girlfriend Julie". I sang "Lady" by the little river band, which happens to be a great love song and one that's a favorite of hers. The wholoe bar got quiet while I singing it to her. holding and squeezing her hand as I looked her dead in her eyes and sang from my heart to her. during the middle part I took a napkin and wiped the tears from her eyes before the words came back again. it was then that i noticed nobody was tlaking in the bar and it was just centered on me singing my heart out to my girlfriend. when I was done I hugged her tight and then kissed her as people cheered. she wa still wiping tears from her eyes as I went and gave the mic back.
here's the lyrics to that song right here.
Lady
Look around you, look up here
Take time to make time, make time to be there
Look around, be a part
Feel for the winter, but don't have a cold heart
And I love you best
You're not like the rest
You're there when I need you
You're there when I need
I'm gonna need you
A long time ago I had a lady to love
She made me think of things I never thought of
Now she's gone and I'm on my own
A love song has come into my mind
A love song, it was there all the time
So lady let me take a look at you now
You're there on the dance floor, making me want you somehow
Oh lady, I think it's only fair I should say to you
"Don't be thinkin' that I don't want you, 'cause maybe I do."
Look around, come to me
I have no answers, but know where I wanna be
I look around, play a part
I was born in the winter and cooled by a warm heart
And I love you best
You're not like the rest
You're there when I need you
You're there when I need
I'm gonna need you
So lady, let me take a look at you now
You're there on the dance floor, making me want you somehow
Oh lady, I think it's only fair I should say to you
"Don't be thinkin' that I don't want you, 'cause maybe I do,
Don't be thinkin' that I don't want you, lady I do."
when i came back to the bar julie got off her stool and jumped into my arms hugging me. she whispered "I'm not used to you showing so much effection to me in public, but I like it, please do more. I feel so loved being around you". These moments just come out in spurts and tonight I just had one of them moments.
I ordered another dirty mother to go along with my pitcher of sparten lager( love beer that has over 85 alcohol in every glass, lol). I saw a guy acouple seats down who was wearing a John mayall and the bluesbreakers shirt. He looked at me and said i did a nice job singing to julie. I thanked him and mentioned his shirt. he saw the same tour i did. the wake up call tour in 1992. he saw the concert in milwaukee and I saw it two days earlier at buddy guy's legends in chicago. suddenly i remembered i thought i saw a listing for john mayall in the karaoke book. I looked and looked and looked. and under the new songs they added. they added the one john mayall song I thought I could do. I looked at the guy(I think his name was eric) and said "I'm pretty sure I can do this one by john mayall". I wrote it up and submitted it. eric said he was thinking about leaving but said he'd stay so he can hear how I did the song "mail order mystics". he told his two friends not to leave yet as I was gonna do a john mayall song. his friends like mayall too and said they never heard anyone do a mayall song at karaoke before. I said "well. you're about to whe they call my name up next".
I for the most part let julie catch up with her friends. I leaned in her ear and mentioned to not tell her friends we have a free ride on food and drinks here, that we have it out of respect of the fact her dad owns the building. she leaned back and said "thank you, you're right. we keep that between us and the bar. we not take advantage of my father like that". which was my exact sentiments.
when i got called up I heard the opening notes and I knew I could sing it. how well? didn't know but I knew the words were coming to me. I found out after I sang it I hit it very well. guess i'll have to see if other karaoke dj's I visit have that song. We ordered some food and I ordered another dirty mother. one of her friends noticed that i wasn't paying for naything and asked me on it. Julie looked concerned but I already had it covered. I said "I run the tab all night while we're here and then at the end they tally it all up, then run my card thru". her friend caroline ( ? ) said "oooh. they do that here"? I chuckled and said yes (they do run a tab for people there as long as you got a credit card, it's a norm for bars here in this state).
the woman dj then calls for me to come to the stage a minute. I go up there and she asks me "aren't you the one who knows about Ian Gillan songs"? I said yeah I know alot about his solo stuff, why? she reached in a case and pulled out a cd I had only seen online. Gillan's Inn (the cd cover is posted in an earlier post here). I said I knew about the cd as I had acouple songs downloaded on my computer. her husband got it from ebay and loves it (her husband is the owner of the bar, lol). so i asked if she could sneak me in the current round of singers "that's why I called you up. I hoped you knew a song off this cd". I said program in "when a blind man cries" and I can do that one perfect, it's my fave song on the cd". I went back and told julie what was happening, she laughed and said "figures you know, you all over on music". I told eric that I was gonna do another blues song. i mentioned who it was. who plays guitar on it (jeff healy) and it's originally an old deep purple song never played on the radio. "really...you can do it"?" I'm going to next song or one after".
next song was me. and as soon as the song started I watched the dj's husband shoot an immediate look in my direction, like "what the fuck, who the hell is singing THAT"? I belted that one out nicely. I got so into that song since it's a fave of mine that it just carried thru how i sang it. here's the words to it now.
If you're leaving close the door
I'm not expecting people anymore
Hear me grieving, lying on the floor
Whether I'm drunk or dead, I really ain't too sure
I'm a blind man
I'm a blind man
And my world is pale
When a blind man cries
Lord you know
There ain't no sadder tale
Had a friend once in a room
Had a good time but it ended much too soon
In a cold month in that room
We found a reason for the things we had to do
I'm a blind man
I'm a blind man
Now my room is cold
When a blind man cries
Lord you know
He feels it from his soul
when i got done there was a loud ovation from the area i was sitting at. high fives and eric asked me to write the name of the song and the cd it's on down. so i did and said ebay would be an easier place to get it, or amazon.com. the owner came over, shook my hand and said "thanks man, that sure made my night". i told hijm how is wife called me up and showed me the cd and it just fell into place from there. He leaned over and said "I'd buy you a drink for that but you get drinks free here now". I laughed and said "go ahead and make me a dirty mother". he said " your gilrfriend may not like your attraction to dirty mothers". I busted up laughing. Julie spun around and said "the only dirty mother he's gonna have for now on is the one in his hand". I just went "ouch" as others went "wwhhoooaaa'.
about a half hour later julie's name gets called up to sing. I'm busy joking with her friends, eric and his friends, I'm just being me and then suddenly julie comes up to me. spins me around on my bar stool, and then sits down next to me. I'm like what the hell, you're supposed to be singing. she said "you do for me i now do to you, my turn, so pay attention you". that made a few people chuckle. she did this new version of "maybe i'm amazed" (it's from the OC soundtrack, a woman sings it). she took my hand into hers and had me look into her eyes. she said over the mic "this is for my man Bill, who I love so much because he lets me be me and loves me for who I am".
tears came from her eyes as she sang the song to me. as she sang the bar got quiet again.I found out alittle later that people came and gathered around to watch her sing to me. just watching her, her face as she's singing I can literally feel her pouring her heart to me. this night...was more than just us singing to each other like we always do. that night was us really showing our feelings to each other, just letting it flow out and not caring what anyone in the world thinks. when she was done she hugged me close as people applauded. she whispered in my ear "I'm so afraid you might want to leave me, please don't". I whispered back "what I have in mind with you doesn't involve me leaving, ever". she hugged me tighter and said "thank you" and we kissed right then as people cheered. I know her esteem is kinda low and fragile because of how her last boyfriend treated her. so in some ways she's not used to someone actually wanting to be with her for her. I know that story all too well from other women I knew, especially ones in NH. I just have to keep reassuring her from time to time. I don't mind and i'll keep reassuring her.
bartime came and we had some stuff ordered to go before they shut the kitchen down. I talked the owner into selling me a bottle of vodka. I told him I'd pay for it. he asked me what I wanted it for and I said julie and I will make some vcrs at her place. i explained that vodka cranberry juice and redbull are known as vcrs at the chalet in the dells because i and a few others drink that religiously there. he was cool he set us up with a bottle of UV cherry vodka and 2 4 packs of redbull. he couldn't up the cranberry as he needed it and I said "no problem. we can settle for this, no big deal. I actually paid for that and the food even though the food should've been free. I told him "if you don't want to charge us for the food, if you insist on that, then consider it a large tip then for the staff". Julie threw in ten bucks for a tip too. it's the least we could do for how we're treated there.
went back to her place, ate. drank some more and talked some serious things over. nothing that's gonna be posted here, yet. we did go with the feelings we were giving each other big time tonight in our singing so safe to say. I was "livin the la vida loca" with her after we put the lights out. lol.
her phone rings at like 10 am. first thought is "julie, answer the damn phone". but i realized she wasn't home, she was at her mom's restaraunt, so i answer it. who is it? Julie. "Momma wants to know if you getting up yet". I mumbled "I guess I am now, why"? I knew why.... felt it coming before she even said it. her mom was hoping that I'd be willing to come help at her place for alittle bit before drove back to the dells to work at my job. so much for the wonderful plan of sleeping until noon. I was over there in about 15 minutes and helped out until a quarter to 1. they knew I had to drive back to the dells which is supposed to be a 2 hour drive. not the way I ride it isn't, lol. i knew i hasd to be at my job at 3 cause i was doing 3 til close. so julie walked me to my motorcycle. I hugged her, kissed her, told her thank you for allowing me into her life. she said "no thank you". I got going before her mom could try to hand me money for helping her out at her restaraunt. I'll probably have it slid into my jacket when i see julie thursday night.
anyway now that I wrote a book here. I'll end it. it about covers everything.
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