Misc. thoughts, opinions, etc. Another school shooting, this one down south. Ever since columbine we've had these wannabe copycats doing it. Now if you have drive by shootings in Chicago every week how come they never get press coverage and it still continues, but one retard goes on a rampage and it's nationwide news? any big city, chicago, east l.a. detroit, philly has drive by shootings by schools every week and not a thimble of reporting on it, let alone anything done about it. but one jerk goes on a rampage and it's all over the place. Do you see how wrong that is?
I recently found a schnapps here that I've come to like alot. it's caled "poison" wild berry schnapps. the store had another one called "sting" but if i wanted to get stung again...never mind. too many people qualify for the comment that was coming. Poison especially if I put it in my coffee tastes real good. No i'm not having any right now, way too early for me.
speaking of that. It was nice of a friend in NH to actually admit she was wrong when she said I was gonna lose everything when i started drinking again. One had enough guts to come forward and admit they were wrong. Others won't i know because when you prove people in a program wrong, they walk away not wanting to admit they were proven wrong. In their "big book" there's a thing on controlled drinking and it actualy encourages you to try it. I have and been successful with it. so what's the message being sent there? I'm sure you can figure it out even if others won't ever have what it takes to admit it.
I've been having fun with the online magic 8 ball. you can go give it a whirl here..... http://8ball.tridelphia.net/ the questions I've asked it have been a mix of funny ones, obvious ones and serious ones. i asked it about one person. won't say who in any way shape or form, but the answers it gave me were in line with something that I may not have realized and that someone pinged me with to consider looking at. There's one thing I may have been wrong on. and maybe with that I wasn't right on an opinion I had on something or someone. I don't know if saying that would make any difference. Some things are better left where they're at.
since i don't go to the showboat anymore for karaoke (after being able to sing "freebird" all year long they change over to more "faster" stuff? wtf talk about fucking over their loyal year round costomers that they depend on during the off season from tourists) I went to the german bar saturday night and they had karaoke going there. First song I did? Freebird, validation of what I and most karaoke djs think. it's up to the PERSON WHO WANTS TO SING THE SONGS, not the dj. because if you have no people wanting to sing? you have no karaoke show, that simple.
the dj there has alot more songs than any other karaoke dj I know so i went thru a whole slew of songs. I actually did "maybe tomarrow" by the stereophonics hre at this place for the first time. phyliss on wed nights used to have it but every time we tried it her cd would fuck up. bronco billys has it but for some reason trying toi sing it when I was with anita or julie, I just couldn't pull it off. but here in the german bar with noone but some friends and other karake regulars. I was able to belt it out with no problem. I know why I couldn't do it before at bronco billy's. it had me thinking about something in the past (maybe it was a "someone", I'm not gonna say) and i need to rechannel that song to why i liked it to begin with, an anthem for me to again take some time for me.
drunken words are sober thoughts said aloud. Hmm. i've gotten quite honest with someone when I've been acouple sheets to the wind so maybe tyhat line is true in some ways.
anita has been really how can i say "nutty" the last few days. this comes back to what i said before, if you arrange something and then suggest I go along with it, why get pissed when i actually do go along with it? (shakes head). I'm leaving my opinions on this alone. for once maybe hurtful words shouldn;'t be said.
anyway I'm done for now. i'm feeling acouple bricks in my "wall" starting to fall or myu "shell" beginning to crack again. I'm just, not ready to go there on certain things. I may never be ready because some things are just left where they are. There's always reasons why things happen, why bother trying to find the reason when I know what i'll feel as a result.
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Current Music: Social Distortion- Reach For The Sky (acoustic version)
