ay yay.... last night was league bowling night so I was there bowling as usual. Julie was supposed to come after she got off work. Anita shows up. I looked up after my boss tapped me. "this is a surprise". She explained that Julie took another shift and won't be pout until her work closes. She then hands me a note. "it's from Julie, she suggested i come and hang out with you, she did want you to read that". I went and did my turn and then i read the note.
Short version is that Julie feels that I should get back with anita because she sees the obvious chemistry when her and I sing karaoke. Julie feels like a second wheel when I'm with her, anita and friends. Her and anita are very close friends so in a way I can see where she's coming from. This of course fucked my bowling up. For the rest of the first game I was off guard. Her cell phone rang and anita said it was for me, I'm like huh? what? It was julie. she asked if i read the note, I told her I did. I asked her if she was absolutely sure i should even think of pondering this. she told me that she knows I like her, but there's something you and anita have that's special, and that she'd rather see us together and keep that special thing going.
After bowling I wanted to make sure that anita and I wouldn't be bothered so we went around the corner to the german bar. her and i talked thru alot of different things but it really comes down to where I stand on all this.
lots of questions I keep asking myself. do i like julie? absolutely. what about anita? is there still feelings there? yes. it's a weird situation and it's one that I can't give an instant answer to. you can't give an instand answer to it because it effects others and it's one of them big things you need to think thru. That is exactly what I'm doing. I told anita and I called julie after anita and i talked at the german bar and I said I can't give an instant answer. I need some time to really and seriously think it thru.
I may have an answer tomarrow night at wed night karaoke. maybe sooner. right at the moment, i'm just not sure what to do or where to go on it.
On a side note it's too bad that the peeps I have don't have the balls to comment here, maybe they're afraid that the new gadget I have will expose who they really are. But as I always say, internet pussys like them never have the real balls, that's why they're internet pussys who will always get the slap by me. They can't get to me so they pretty much know they're not good enough, and they never were.
Current Mood: shocked
Current Music: Eminem-Without Me (No reason, just downloaded it)