she came and now she's gone Well she showed up, alittle after 3 this morning. He did hit her, right in the eye. You can see the bruise on her. He nailed her. I didn't slam the door in her face, though the feeling to do that was right there. I listened and I know what out of habit I wanted to do. But I went with my gut instinct which is always 98% right, I stood my ground and I didn't give in.
He was calling her constantly on her cell phone and leaving text messages. I took the phone and was about to throw it out the door. She asked me not to, so I put it on vibrate and put it in dresser drawer. After awhile I went and we read what he wrote to her. apologizing, saying he didn't mean it, rriighht. one word response. BULLSHIT!
If a guy hits a woman once, he's gonna do it again especially if there's a pattern of it. How many times have I seen this same situation with so many different women. Too many times and the results are always the same.
she cried and I held her but I wouldn't give in. I can't. She got real honest with me and told me she had been talking with him all thru out the time her and I were together. So in a way I wasn't really given a true chance. I was used as a way for her to block out what was going on in her life, and nothing else.
I had her spend the night, her on the bed, me on the floor. we were not getting back together in any way shape or form, especially after all the things she told me last night. our time together was basicly a lie on her part. everything she said, everything she claimed she felt, all of it, a fucking lie. Sounds very familiar don't it? Just like the last one before I anita I got rid of, debbie. 2 different women, but boy their actions and behaviors are so much the same. I almost asked anita if she had bipolar, lol since it's always the bipolar women that do this kind of strange shit over and over to guys.
She was gone when I woke up. She left me a note and all it said was "I'm sorry I came into your life, you don't deserve this".
Well she finally hit one thing right. I don't deserve this.
I think she wanted me to sleep with her, part of me wanted to so much but I went with my gut instinct. she was lucky I held her let alone even let her in the door. after hearing the lies she admitted to me my anger towards her is amplified. Women and their lies, it makes you wonder when it will ever end, especially since I got it back to back, debbie and now anita, lies, lies and even more lies. I always seem to find the liars, the drama queens and the unfaithful ones. No matter what circle of life I walk in, you put me in a room full of sick women, and the sickest ones always come to me. and people wonder why I enjoy drinking again, LOL! I traded sober and miserable for drunk and nuts, LMAO! being sober sucked so i won't bother trying that ever again.
it's back to spending time for me. since I have the harley now and it's pretty nice out, I think I'll go for a ride on it. tonight is karaoke night at the chalet so that'll be cool. oh yeah. i found out on thursday nights there's karaoke here in town now, right around the corner from the chalet. where alishja used to work. i know the dj from another bar and he's taken over as a manager there so now i won't have to or want to go to bronco billy's.
That's all for now. requirements for next girlfriend when i decide i want one. no bipolar, very little drama and the less baggage you have, the better. if you've been abused by an ex boyfriend, keep on walking. I did tell anita that everything she did she brought on herself, which is true, her own actions behaviors and choices dictated her fate, so she can live with what she chose. some women just never learn, or they just like the attention that being a victim brings. that's harsh, but it is true.
Current Mood: staying numb by choice
Current Music: Alice Cooper- I Never Cry