wake up, it's update time. well, not much has really been happening, which is a good thiong, the shit I got for exposing
Jenny’s naked picture lie has died down and she(along with her boyfriend), nolongewr go into the
bowling alley. most have given me the credit for running the trash out of there. I’m not missing
them and because I didn’t say shit when she acted like a fool there trying to accuse me. she pretty
much buried herself, which she has a great habit of doing.
I must be a shit magnet though, one “loser” who goes to the bowling alley has noticed I’m a
regular and because I sang pretty good at karaoke last week, has been drawn to me every time he
comes in. yay...(notice the sarcasm), just what I always wanted, to be high on a loser’s list. he
invited me to a party at his place over the weekend when i got done drinkiing at the bar(in the
bowling alley, the only place I drink now). Needless to say, I turned him down flat. he works at
another bar that fucked over the woman that runs the karaoke show at the bowling alley, so he
also tried to get me to go drink at the bar he works at. No go..I like drinking at the chalet and I
plan on staying right there.
last night two women tourists from chicago found their way off the beaten path of
Broadway(main strip here where I live), and came into the bowling alley, one was asian and very
very lovely. she also had an attitude that reminded me in some ways of Debbie. had the asian been
alone I might’ve tried to know her alittle more, but since she had her friend with her, I knew
where to keep the conversation.
They needed to find a semi decent motel or hotel, and since I seem to know which ones to stay
away from, I gave them sound advice and they took it.
unfortunately me being “safe” to talk to got shattered when Bob, a guy who’s known for having
alot of money(he’s in his 50’s I think or at least 60) and hits on all the pretty women, came in.
they wound up leaving with him a half hour later. I tried to tell the asian to be careful because I
know Bob’s deal. but when you have a few in you and some guy shows a wad of money, being
decent always loses out to money, money talks and being decent work in this area. even most of
the women here who are locals, are the same way, gues the “born loser” tattoo I have on my left
arm fits me more, especially in this area than ever.
when i sang karaoke last week, I went back to singing “forever in blue jeans” by neil diamond.
lately I’ve been playing alot of songs(thanks to the search mode of the jukebox that finds bands
not on the immediate listing) that have reminded me of acouple people.
Told my sister I do yearn for two people, wish either one or both could be here. Rae for laughs as
I could make her laugh with my joking on tourists. and Debbie, debbie for the same reason as Rae
but for many other reasons as well. But see, I know Rae wouldn’t be comfortable with me
drinking again, and I’m not sure Debbie could handle it either, and I wouldn’t want to fuck their
sobriety up, even if I could get either one of them here, even for a visit. If I had to choose
between the two. I’d rather have Debbie here, won’t explain why, she knows why she’d win out
over Rae.
Somwtimes when you try to forget the one you love the most, you realize why you did love them
the most
“Alittle too Late” by Toby Keith someone had recommended to me and I can relate to it very
well(it isn’t on the search mode of the jukebox or I’d be playing the shit out of it).
so, “Maybe Tomarrow” by the Stereophonics, “When the World was Young” by John Cafferty &
the Beaver Brown band are ones I’ll recommend to someone very special, maybe she’ll get the
meaning on them two songs like I got the meaning of “alittle too late”.
anyway, that’s it for me. I work 5 days a week now, friday and saturday are almost 12 hour shifts,
so close to 40 hours and close to the same money, just different days off. not much else is
happening so I’ll end this for now.
Current Mood: being part of the landscape
Current Music: allman bros.-no one to run with (fitting for today)