Quietly Losing Control's Blurty Entries [entries|friends|calendar] Quietly Losing Control [ website | Endless Nights ] [ userinfo | blurty userinfo ] [ calendar | blurty calendar ]

Sitting on babies....I mean babysitting [07 Feb 2004|01:09pm] [ mood | thankful ] [ music | The sound of dumb commericals ] Last night I babysat for my Aunt Sandi. Within an hour or two I had little Faith asleep. It probably helped that she had a double ear infection and sleeps a lot anyway. Poor baby. Then after she went to bed it had been about 2 hours since my Aunt told my little cousin Jenny was coming over to play with Drew. So I conned Drew into getting into the bathtub before Jenny showed up so he wouldn't have to worry about it later when he was playing with her. So in the process he managed to take the longest bath known to man, soak my pants, and scream his lung out while I washed his hair. You woulda thought the boy was being murdered, because I was washing his hair. Haha. Then I got on my Aunt's computer and asked me to help fix it. It turns out she has the Blaster Worm virus and I tried for 2 hours to fix it but it kept shutting me down. =( Bummer. During the time I got Drew to watch Finding Nemo, and he crashed. Jenny never showed up for some reason, and that pissed me off, because I sat around trying to keep Drew entertained when all he wanted was Jenny. But after he went to sleep I took him up to his bed and watched TV till I was almost asleep. Uncle Chuck took me home and I got into a fight with the garage door....my dad won. Haha. Then I played guitar and watched like 3 episodes of "Driven" on VH1. Haha, and then I slept like a little baby till 11:15. Haha. Now I'm lounging around in my PJs and loving it. Thursday Alisha and I played Front Porch. It was so fun, and we got a lot of positive comments. the guy hosting, named Bob, who is an amazing musician, told us he saw ua play a few weeks ago and he said "Not that your first set was horrid, but this time you guys did a 100% better. I mean I really enjoyed your set tonight, and I don't say that to just anyone, like the guy that's inside playing now, he's been playing here for 5 years, he hasn't improved at all. So great job!" We were so over joyed I think we coulda hugged that guy until he could breathe anymore haha. But we played the same set we played the week before last. Because we played sooo late the time before. So Allyson finally got to see us play, and when we played Soco Amarreto Lime, we asked people if they knew the words to sing along, I could hear Allyson and her friends and it put a huge smile on my face, and I was loving it. My dad told us that whole corner of kids were singing along. At the end of our set we had a pretty big applause for small amount of people there, that pumped me up so much I coulda gone right back up there and do it all over again haha. The kid before us a may add, was awesome, I really enjoyed his set....he also wasn't bad on the eyes. Lol. Well I'm gonn go get some things done, I'm going to the homecoming basketball game tonight with Melissa ad got some stuff to get done. Bye bye. <\3 Morgan CMNT!

I should be home... [04 Feb 2004|03:37pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | the sound of my fingers on the keys ] I'm hanging out at Gramma's house. She's not home. So basicly I'm trying to put off going to Dad's and cleaning the bathroom and doing homework. But what can ya do? yesterday- Was freakin awesome. It was half day. Always awesome. Always. Melissa, Alisha, and I went to Paul's Place for lunch and met up with Sarah Ashmore (I love that girl, haven't hung out with her in years) and I a cheese omlet and hashbrowns...I wanted to be cool like Sarah....not. Haha. And we tons of laughs, I kept hurting myself. I whacked my knee on the pole that holds the booth to the wall, smacked ym elbow on the window sill, and spilt water in my lap cos Alisha made me laugh.....okay the the water didn't hurt but went I walked out into the negative digit weather with wet pants I almost pissed myself. Haha. Than Melissa, Alisha, and I went ot Alisha's house. Alisha and I practiced for Front Porch tomorrow, and Melissa joined in so we're gonna have her come and sing our Good Charlotte cover with us. Then yet again we had a fun filled, and laugh filled time at her house, when we decided....we had to shop. So we packed up in the car, and bonded over shopping. Haha. It was so awesome to see two of my best friends getting along, I was over joyed. We also had bitch about the random things that get on our nerves session....the three of us are too much alike. End of story. Today - Found out I bombed a test in Chem....we'll be holding funeral services for it tomorrow. Then in English I found out I have an A. Yay....well not like Mrs. Coons knows what she's talking about anyway. Then in math, I sat there asking myself if out student assistant, Danny Balserack, is gay or not. I doubt he is, but the kid just screams fashion queen. So I kept myself amused. Then I went to lunch and for once we didn't speak of disgusting things. We must have a touch of something. We're usually talking about things that'd make the average person not want to eat. Then in US History I found out I have an A. Thank God almighty for at least two good grades....math shouldn't be horrible. I was walking in the hall today and somebody smacked my ass really hard....I got scared....it was Melissa.....I got her back. Then after school Skyler ran into my butt. It hurt lol. And then I was picking up books off the floor by Alisha's locker, and Ralph was like "Whoa! Oh! Wait, I mean if you want to keep doin that girl!" I started laughing, that kid looks like he's in 5th grade. Awww speaking of little people, I haven't seen my freshman but once since the new grading peroid. How sad. Haha. Well I'm gonna call my dad and get my crap load of things done. Bye bye ya'll <\3 Morgan CMNT!

tugging.at.your.heart.strings. [02 Feb 2004|08:43pm] [ mood | content ] [ music | Mest - "Paradise (122nd and Highland)" ] I found my Fraggle Rock toy. Haha. Good times. Man that thing is so old. My mom is too cute, she's been so sweet. Well she normally is but that isn't the point. We're thinking about moving if we can afford to. Doesn't seem like we are, but the thought is nice. And house hunting is really fun. The yellow house on the corner of 8th and Wisconsin is so cute. We want it haha. Nice and close to Gramma too. Melissa is too funny. I love the girl to death. She's one of the only people that I can tell a Bill Engvall joke to besides my dad that will laugh their ass off. Haha and she could tell me one and I find it to be utter hysteria. =) Spring break wouldn't be spring break without Mel. This summer we get to go to AZ to an indian resevre for a mission trip. That will be an awesome trip. Then we get to go to camp together. Fun fun fun. Mest is good listening. =) *is happy* CMNT!

*Count the Stars* [02 Feb 2004|07:51pm] [ mood | Boring ] [ music | Thursday - "Asleep in the Chapel" ] I've come to decide for like 7 millionth time in my lifetime, that I am a boring person. I don't have much of anything to say, well I do but I keep it to myself, and al the comes out are the stupid things. Sometimes why I even attempt talking to certain people, because it's pretty obvious that they think they're too cool for me and just pretend to like me, which is really fucking pathetic. But we won't go there. *subtle cough* But yeah being boring is better than being nothing, the way I look at it. Been trying to write a song about the way I've been feeling lately, but I think I'm focusing too much on song formation, rather than just letting it put it's self on paper. That works so much better. Even though everything I write,say, or whatever I always feel stupid, but oh well. Yeah, all of you that think this is a stupid entry, just stop reading this now haha. Venting must occur. But yeah, today I think I didn't do so hot on my chem test. I swear I'm a dumb fuck. Always have been always will be. Got a C on my math test friday, all because of stupid mistakes that I realized I got the minute I got the test back. I hate that. Had my US history test today, hope I did well. It didn't feel like I did too badly. Actually I think I well. Went and saw Gramma and Faith after school. When Aunt Sandi came to get Faith I went out to the car and spoke with Drew. He talked my ear off about school lol. Cute little fart, then my dad showed up and Drew said he loved me and gave me one of those adorable 4 year old kisses. Then I went to Dad's and had the lovely task of emptying a very full litter box. I even scrubbed the damn thing with bleach! I'm on crack. I'm going to stay with my dad tomorrow night, I have a lovely list of chores I have to get done while I'm there too. I have to clean my room like hell to get that cat piss smell out of it since the cats where in my room all last week because of the below zero weather. *gag* And there's an incredibly dirty bathroom that's full of dust and germs from me puking in there when I had the flu like mid-December. I know those germs are stil in there lol, plus everythings dusty since I haven't been in there for so long. But at least tomorrow's a half day. Makes me happy. But this school bullshit doesn't lol, I want to get out of here, pack up the band and just leave. That would be so fun. We're going to before too long, I swear, we've all got so much drive in us haha. Thanks be to God. Well I'm gonna go play geet. Adios. <\3 Morgan CMNT!

[01 Feb 2004|03:28pm] [ mood | lonely ] <\3 Melissa = one hell of a good friend, thanks for the cute little talks, and telling me honestly what you think of me, and our friendship. Cross my heart hope to die please don't gouge out my eye. Friends forever, I swear =) " 'They call me give away Bob' 'Alright Bob load it up in the truck, don't even worry about draining it!' " Good times I love you! =) CMNT!

Hola [29 Jan 2004|06:01pm] [ mood | dorky ] [ music | News on this poor little boy who was murdered in Gary ] I was talking to Tom from Useless Knowledge on Tuesday and we had a really amusing convo. So here it is, I hope you enjoy it! Distiller Fiend: are you guys excited about coming here this summer? mralkachainsaw: hell ya Distiller Fiend: haha well then....ALRIGHT! party, i'll bring the male strippers lol Distiller Fiend: jk mralkachainsaw: please mralkachainsaw: please be kidding mralkachainsaw: lol Distiller Fiend: i am lol mralkachainsaw: good Distiller Fiend: i'm a vulgar one Distiller Fiend: sorry lol mralkachainsaw: i would cry and tell scoot that i wasnt going mralkachainsaw: lol mralkachainsaw: oh yeah mralkachainsaw: lol Distiller Fiend: haha, you mean you'd pass up a party with endless ngiths and their friend who'll strip down to a neon thong, and that friend is a male?!lol jk mralkachainsaw: haha i will stay for you guys and then bolt to a strip club afterwards in case i catch something that might scar my life forever and ever mralkachainsaw: and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and everand ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever Distiller Fiend: hahaha mralkachainsaw: yesirre Distiller Fiend: i think id i saw the kid i'm talking about in a neon thong i'd run cos he'd try to give me a lap dance lol mralkachainsaw: haha Distiller Fiend: i think i'd be running along with ya mralkachainsaw: lol mralkachainsaw: to the strip club?? Distiller Fiend: yeah lol mralkachainsaw: r u sure mralkachainsaw: lol mralkachainsaw: haha Distiller Fiend: whats a few bucks in my panties ya know? lol Distiller Fiend: shoot mralkachainsaw: you're awesome Distiller Fiend: haha mralkachainsaw: haha mralkachainsaw: o so you will dance mralkachainsaw: lol Distiller Fiend: oh yeah! lol mralkachainsaw: dammit where are my ones mralkachainsaw: fuck nvm i will use 5's mralkachainsaw: lol Distiller Fiend: now that you think i'm a cheap slut lol mralkachainsaw: no mralkachainsaw: lol mralkachainsaw: j/kj/k mralkachainsaw: lol Distiller Fiend: haha Distiller Fiend: thats right think i'm over priced damnit! lol mralkachainsaw: yeah of course J/K mralkachainsaw: LOL Distiller Fiend: hahahahaha mralkachainsaw: k well you pole dancing chipendale hating band playing slut i g2g k i will c ya later mralkachainsaw: lol Distiller Fiend: haha Distiller Fiend: okay bye bye take care mralkachainsaw: you too mralkachainsaw: haha Haha good times!I deff. won't forget that one. Well I have to go get my homework on. I've got a lab report to do and from what I hear it is going to take me awhile. And got some math. See ya'll chicks and dudes later. <\3 Morgan ( [1] CMNT!

"And one year older" [26 Jan 2004|09:55pm] [ mood | crazy ] [ music | Saves the Day - "At Your Funeral" ] Today was my birthday. Pretty good one I must say. Although all the hugs I got somehow ended in me not being able to breathe, thank you Melissa and Josh. *cough* Haha. Today at school went by fast which is ALWAYS good, except for 4th hour. Damn it went by slow. And the movie we watched was enough to make me set my hair on fire. Then after school Melissa and I went Gramma visiting. We went to her Gramma's first and then went to my Gramma's. Then my mom came over there and took us to eat at Olive Garden. I was teh happiest girl known to man. Haha. And then I came home and avoided Chem homework, in which I have yet to do. I should be dying my hair too but that wont happen till tomorrow lol. My FOB record still hasn't come in. Bummer. But the 20th is one day closer my friends, and I will rock out with my......damnit I don't have what I was about to say. :\ But nonetheless I'll be having a damn good time. I want to have a "birthday good time" haha and want a bunch of my friends to go do something fun for my bday. Yeah help me out guys, tell me something fun and cheap you wanna do haha. Hell yeah you wanna have a male stripper?! Alright! Haha, jk. Well I'm gonna go do chem and sleep. Thanks for a great bday guys! I love you all! <\3 Morgan ( [2] CMNT!

Another day late [24 Jan 2004|03:07pm] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | Sheryl Crow - "Light in Your Eyes" ] I haven't have an entry for awhile. Oh well not like too many people read this anyway. I've been having some weird things going on but I really don't feel like typing out the stories, therefore, I won't. Alisha and I played at open mic night at the Front Porch in Valpo last Thursday. We had a lot of fun, and plan on doing so again soon. Got to see Asteria play too. They were completely awesome as usual. (asteria-music.com) And then Friday my chem teacher, who was there, told everyone about us playing there and how he really enjoyed it. That was pretty cool. And then later after school I went over to Lindsay's and went the Gymnastics party with her and met Alisha and Josh there. I was on the tumble track in the gym jumping around on it and Josh ran down it and tackled me and completely took me out lol. I hit that track hard lol. And then the little fucker jumped up and flipped off the track. Haha. Good times. But I guess the highlight of the night was when I ran and went to jump on this mat that I thought was the firm kind, so I jumped on it really hard and it was the soft kind so it flipped out form under me and I just went BOOM! Haha. We were all laughing so hard. Yeah my middle name is far from Grace. Then Lisha and I spent the night at Lindsay, talking, making necklaces, and farting haha. jk. And then we went to bed. I had to get up at 8:30 this morning and go to Guitar Center with my dad so we could get my bday gift. He got me a 230 watt used Marshall amp. I almost pissed myself, it's awesome, and sounds great! I'm going to Alisha's tonight to stay and have practice, so I'm out. <\3 Morgan PS. My b-days monday throw stuff at me ( [2] CMNT!

Haha [18 Jan 2004|01:12am] You are Ally Hilfiger! You try your best to please everyone, but your selfish nature gets in the way at times. You have a great deal of friends and acquaintances, but have trouble dealing with the stress they lay upon you. You're always trying new things, which can get expensive, but you're rich! so who cares? What Rich Girl Are You? brought to you by Quizilla ( [1] CMNT!

"Come and I'll take you under this beautiful buirses color..." [17 Jan 2004|04:28pm] [ mood | angry ] [ music | Foo Fighters -Low ] Friday - Finals. Got an A in Mr.Leto's class. Went to Alisha's for lunch and watched her home videos of her in a play in kindergarden, she was the cutest danm little kid ever! And then went back to school and took my other final. Went a got stuff to spend the night at Lindsay's and went to the gym with her and Josh. Then we went to Lindsay's and ate some pizza and then after awhile went to sleep cos we were pooped from finals. This morning I woke up at Lindsay's and could barely talk from the cold I have. Haha. I sound like one of those hourse little 4 year old girls. It's funny. And sometimes my voice goes out when I'm talking and my mouth is moving but nothing comes out lol. And I've been trying to get a hold of my dad so that me, Linds, and Lisha can all hang out at his house. But he won't call me back, as usual. I'm almost sick of trying to communticate with him, cos he just plain doesn't give a shit. Which really upsets me. Wonder if he knows my birthday is next monday. Probably not. Oh well. I'm gonna go make some plans with the gals. Later all. ( [1] CMNT!

Hehehee [14 Jan 2004|09:46pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | The News ] I was talking to Mike Montoya and here's just a snippet of what was said. haha. Good times! Distiller Fiend: you can take the boy outta the ghetto but you cant take the ghetto out of the boy aye? Deimos8299: ill miss the shooting the cops ... the drug dealers and the police raids and...i love the ghetto Hahahaha. That kid is great! Today was alright, I got a perfect on my taping test in Leto, and I have an A- in his class. Score! And then at lunch I ate like a mad woman. Haha. Had some good laughs too. In choir I just read my new book "A Northern Light" it's pretty cool, and pretty thick haha. Don't worry I'll have it finished soon. Haha. Then in math I figured out I have a 68% :( I need a C to get into Chem. so Mrs. S might help me out a little bit. I hope so! And then after school I went and saw Gramma and little Faithy. She's too cute. And then I came home with Mom and she made some awesome Chicken and Dumplings (that name is so sick) and she let me use her credit card to buy the Fall Out Boy LP and a Movielife shirt that I love. (RIP Movielife). So that's some Christmas money bye bye. But I still have $45 left. Yay! And I studied for my math final, I must be sick something cos I studied math...ugh. Tomorrow we have finals, don't have to go to school till 8, open campus lunch, and get out at 1:20. Yay. And it's lunch at Lisha's. Mmmm. Good times. But now I'm gonna go jump in the shower maybe. Can't decide if I wanna take one in the morning or not lol. Later ( [1] CMNT!

My weekend and all that good stuff.... [11 Jan 2004|07:24pm] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | my mom's hairdryer ] Friday - I came home from a pretty easy day at school and sat around for a bit and talked on the phone with Mel. Then she and I went to Don Pablo's for Steve's b-day dinner. That was fun. We laughed so much. I love hanging out with Melissa. She's great, I swear we were meant to be related or something, so it's almost like destiny for us to be best friends. And we were there with Chapter 3 and just random mutual friends, so of course we were all smart asses to one another and poked fun at almost anything. And Celina was there with Jason, so it was nice to have one other girl that Melissa and I got along with. Cos I don't think Steve's g/f likes either one of us very much. Then we went to Mike Marling's house for a little bit then we headed to a party at Jake Lenson's house. Mel and I thought we would feel outta place cos we don't really know many of those people. But to our suprise we knew a lot more people than we thought. Everyone there was pretty drunk so I've got some black male and some pretty funny stories. Haha. Thank God I never got caught up in that partying thing. Those people never let you live it down. They were calling "party fouls" left and right. So we went home around 1:30 and went to bed. Saturday - I sat around by myself for awhile and then gave Mel a call. I love her to death, she's the best. I will never ever have a friend like her. :D And she asked me if I wanted to go bowling with her and Zach bowling at Crestmore. I said yes cos it sounded pretty fun. We had lots of fun even though Melissa and I aren't too good at it. She still beat me out. Haha. Then we went to Adrian's house and had some Papa John's pizza. Mmmmm. Melissa and I ate all of it but 2 or 3 pieces haha. And we watched this really cute movie with Chanler form Friends in it. And we were so tired when we went home at 12:30. Today - I had a really good time in first hour with Tracy and Adam. We were full of giggles and good times. Tracy played some New Kids On The Block and Adam and I were cracking up. And dancing around like idiots. Hehe. Then in second hour I got to wait to take my test until tomorrow. But I left my work in my locker so I have to study in first hour. And at lunch I had me a good corn dog. Then in 3rd hour Mr.Wolff was telling us how someone over the weekend stole both of his sound boards so he and Office Mitchell spent most of the hour talking and telling the office and stuff. And I read the my new book I checked out. It's called "The Afterlife". It's really good it's by Gary Soto. It's very good. And in 4th hour we did stupid stuff, and we were supposed to be doing work on a review she gave us Friday. But I was pretty set, so I just finished my extremely good book. You should read it. Then I went to Alisha's house after school we hung out and had a lot of fun. And laughed like idiots and ate some good food. Haha. Then I came home and talked on the phone with Matt. Now I'm here online talking to him, Alisha, and Allyson. Well now I'm gonna go get some things done. Later. CMNT!

some fun stuff [09 Jan 2004|04:35pm] paranoid Which Personality Disorder Do You Have? brought to you by Quizilla You represent... anger. Mad at the world, eh? You have a tendency to... freak out easily. Overly emotional about everything, you're most prone to bouts of cruelty and moodiness. Other people may be afraid of the fact that you explode so easily, but at least you're honest... even if you're honest about not liking anything. What feeling do you represent? brought to you by Quizilla Your not obsessed. You still may be a fan though. So don't worry bout it we can all see that you have better things to do then to follow after the footsteps of GC. Do you have the Good Charlotte OCD? brought to you by Quizilla some of the questions on the GC quiz....if I found myself doing them I'd ponder my sanity. CMNT!

Gauze is all gone [09 Jan 2004|03:56pm] [ mood | lazy ] [ music | Zemmy clawing the chair ] Well I woke up and I wanted to jump in the shower but I has straightened my hair last night so I didn't wanna get it wet. So my mom and I tore the house apart looking for my shower cap. We never found it so we just ceran wrapped my hair. haha. So I was in the shower went I got to grab the soap....and what do I see? My fucking shower cap. Haha. It was right there the whole time so I put it on and finished up. I ate a wonderful tasting fried egg sandwich and went to school for 2 hours and my dad picked me up to go to the oral surgen...again. To get the gauze outta my dry socket. So I went and it made a gross noise when they took it out. Haha. And it looked like nasty chewed up gum. So my gum still makes the sucking noise....icky. Then after that I didn't wanna go back to school and have 5 mins to eat their nasty food, so dad took me to the Paragon for lemon rice soup. And I saw Donna there and she gave me a big hug and told me my Gramma had been in earlier.=) I love my Gramma. Then I came back to school and sat around in Mr.Wolff's class, then went to math, we had a sub so I did my assignment and talked to Amanda, David, Al, Ryan, and Mae. Amanda asked me to carry her books for her because of her back. She gets to leave 5mins early so that was awesome. Haha. And then Mel gave me a ride her. Poor Mel fell off her sled yesterday and scraped her face on the ice and gravel and has a huge ouchy on her face. Haha. Poor Mel. I might go with her to Pepe's cos they're having Steve's b-day stuff there. And she asked me to go with. I think I'm going to so she's gonna give me a ring with detals in a bit I guess. Skipped out on the babysitting thing tonight. I need a weekend to have fun since I've been kinda laid up from the mouth crap. Well I'm gonna go I'll probably update later tonight. Later! CMNT!

"No Matter How They Toss The Dice" [06 Jan 2004|06:36pm] [ mood | quixotic ] [ music | Simple Plan - "Happy Together" ] Today was an alright day. In first hour Adam cracked me up the whole time and I drew a pic of David from Simple Plan in my notebook, and I'm actually fond of it. Any of you that would like to see it (that live in my town cos I don't have it scanned) just let me know. Haha. And in second hour we learned how to tape elbows, I'm not too great at it, but I try. I hope I don't get that one for my final haha. That would not be the best pick for me. And then at lunch I was able to eat a lot better. I had a chicken sandwich and was able to chew it, I had a little bit of trouble fitting it in my mouth though. :-\ heh. I guess I won't have my jaw in "full" use until like 6 months from now, like I'll be able to open it wider but I won't be "back to normal". My dad actually called me back for once last night and kissed my ass for all he's done. And was telling me that since I had bone trama it'll be awhile before it's working better, but you "never know". It pops a lot lol. But my dad said his did too. And in choir I still can't sing. I want to really bad though. I'm gonna try to tomorrow. And in forth hour I actually understood this homework, and got it all done before class was over. I still have some to correct and try before tomorrow. Then I went to Gramma's after school and she wasn't home. But she had left the door unlocked for me and a note on the table that read "Moe- I LOVE YOU! Make yourself at home. I'll see you later! -Grandma" I thought it was sweet so I kept it. While I was there I had some of her spaghetti for dinner. Mmmmm. And then mom came and got me and I worked on the songs Alisha and I are supposed to do at the Front Porch next Thursday. I hope I can pull it off okay with this freakin jaw lol. And then I just played some guitar, and I wrote this riff I really like for some reason lol. Matt's supposed to call me after he gets outta bowling, so I really shouldn't be online. Haha. I'm gonna go try and find something entertaining to do. Okay so I might end up doing freakin homework. Later. CMNT!

Durrrrrrrrr [05 Jan 2004|07:52pm] [ mood | pensive ] [ music | Homer screaming on the Simpsons ] Well I tried to make an update last night after my talk with my mom but it wouldn't work. Bastard. But things with my mom were better after she realized I was really upset about the way my dad has be treating me lately, and the way he's been drinking a lot again, ditching me, and not returning my phone calls. So I sat there and cried my eyes out and she just held me and and cried too. She was telling me she was so sorry that he hurts me and she can't stand to see me like that. I told her how I think my dad is planning to move. I'm so afraid I'm going to turn into another Shane to him. He'll move and he'll never call. I'll go to whatever state he lives in on the holidays if I'm lucky. I'm really afraid of that. And my poor mom's hours got cut at work and we're not making nearly enough to pay bills, so she's applying that the liqour store by our house for a part time job. I really need to get one and help out. But no one will hire me because I don't have my own car. Which is stupid. But I guess it happens. I went back to school today and was really happy to be back. As odd as that is for me. I was so glad to see my girls. They were so supportive of me last night. I love you Lindsay and Alisha, seriously I don't know what I'd do without you! You're so good to me! And Josh gave me a big hug when he found out about my icky dry socket. Today my mom and I are getting along really well. I think we both realize we have to be a team, cos that's how it is lol. If we wanna eat and have a roof over our head, the other nice things we gotta work together. So today has been a good day. The only bummer was that Matt didn't get to come over. But we're gonna hang out another day. And we're talking now so it's cool. Haha. Well I"m gonna go chat with him and Alisha now. Later <\3 Morgan CMNT!

finishing up [04 Jan 2004|09:08pm] [ mood | melancholy ] Well my mom wanted to "talk" with me and she was yelling at me when she realized I was really upset about things with my dad. And the way he's been acting lately. And she started crying with me and we just sat there for a good half hour and cried. I really just don't know what to do with myself. And very frustrated. I think I'm gonna go let some anger/sadness/ and all that other shit out.... <\3 Morgan CMNT!

Ickies... [04 Jan 2004|07:25pm] Last night for some reason I couldn't shake the pain in my gums. And just seemed to get worse and worse so I took 2 vicodin and went to bed.....well I woke up at 4am and it hurt so bad I was crying. So I got in my mom's bed and she said she'd call the doctor in the morning. So my mom called at like 5 or 6 while I had finally caught some zz's and he said I had to come in and get it packed. So I was a nervous wreck this morning. Cos I now know that I have gapping hole in my gum and that my jaw bone is exposed (yikes) and now they're gonna dig in there and clean it and pack it......while I'm awake and unnumbed. So I was scared. But I went in and got it done and it wasn't too bad. When they touched the bone was the only time it hurt real bad. But the gauze feels really good. And it keeps ickies out of it. I was feeling wonderful till a few things got me down. My mom and I got home and Shelly (my dog) tore up another blanket of hers so she went crazy (dont blame her) and she threatened to give her away. And that upset me. And then I heard the message from my dad on the answering machine. My parents are fighting cos my dad's been avoiding me to no end, he slept. And hold on I have to talk to her. CMNT!

A Show That Was Better Than Any Hobart Show [01 Jan 2004|11:39pm] [ mood | excited ] [ music | The Junior Varsity - "Left Foot Right Foot" ] Today I went to my dad's and watched the Foo Fighters DVD with him and it kicked major ass. I'm sure the neighbors think thay we're the strangest rock-n-roll family on the block. We were head bangging along and yelling the lyrics haha. We might as well have been at a show. Then I copied the lyrics to my song "Bottle of Regrets" on a piece of paper and let my dad read it and he really liked it. I was glad to get a response like that about it. And then I jumped into the shower. Then Linds, Josh, and I went out to a show in Valpo. We saw The Junoir Varsity, Phoenix Rising, and some band I forgot the name of. And I ran into the bassist from Nine Blue Numbers and he remembered my face and smile at me. So that was cool....yeah he's really good looking. Haha. And we just hung out anf listened to them rock out. It was so great to not have to go to a metal show. Haha. I bought a bright red Junior Varsity shirt and their cd and bought a Phoenix Rising cd. Good times. We went to Fazolli's while this one band we didn't know was playing and ate it in the car and played some Nine Blue Numbers in the car since they didn't play the show haha. Then after we ate and I hurt my mouth more times that I should have we went back in and enjoyed are selves. I really missed Alisha. All of us did. It's not the same without your whole band, in entirity there. I love my Alisha, she comes home tomorrow! TOMORROW! Haha! We're all gonna get together as a band and savor our last night of break together. We're going out with a bang ladies and gents. I'm now gonna go talk to Kim for a bit and try writting some music to "Bottle of Regrets". Sleep well, and good show guys. <3 Morgan ( [1] CMNT!

Steak-n-Shake? More like cheese fries-n-shake.... [01 Jan 2004|12:43am] [ mood | drained ] [ music | none ] We today I woke up at 1ish and Linds called her mom and went home. I felt bad because I was sleeping so much. But the ngiht before wore me out. Surgery is whooping my sorry ass. I fell asleep for a little bit and heard my mom yell happy new year and woke up. Then Linds, Matt, and I watched NBC and I fell asleep in Matt's lap. And then his mom called and he had to go home and all that. Well later I was trying to put on pj pants and I lost my balance (vicodin messes me up) and I just kinda went....BAM on my bed and hit my face, I was laughing, but it hurt...A LOT! Haha. But anyway, yeah today I didn't do much. I was supposed to go hang out with my dad. But I called hima million times and he never answered. Thanks a lot. You shoulda just picked up and said you didn't have time for me or want me around. At least I wouldn't be waiting by the phone for you to call all damn day! So I called Mel. We talked for awhile about things and then she asked me if I wanted to hang out tonight. So I said yeah and she called people and made plans. So she came and got me and we went out to Portage and picked up Adrian and stopped by Taco Bell. And then we went to Mike Marlings house. We were there for a few minutes and then the whole group of us went to Steak-n-Shake. But I couldn't eat a blessed thing there but a milkshake and I forced myself to eat cheese fries even though it hurt. I couldn't pass em up. Got to know Mike a little better. Josh called me while we were there and told me he put some NBC music on our bands site and I was really excited about that. And then I told Mel that we had the best drummer in the world and Mike overheard me and was like, "You're in a band?!" And so I explained everything to him and he was like "That's cool, what kind of music is it?" and I knew he wasn't going to be all cheerie about it because he's a metal head like the rest of our town and is in one of the most popular metal bands in our city. But he was like "That's cool, I'm not gonna judgem you're into what you're into. That's cool." And that made me feel good actually get a different response for once when eaxplaining my band to a metal head. Haha, not that I don't love my metal heads, I do. =) But it was nice not to be shot down and be told just because we listen to that, that we're gonna suck. And then after that we went back to Mike's house and tons of people just kept coming in his house and his room was piping hot haha. John Rod. came in and I haven't seen that kid months! I was laying on the bed cos my face hurt and all I heard was this goofy voice go "MORGAN!" and felt someone kick my shoe. I sat up and hugged him lol. He was like "So....still live where you live?" and I started laughing and said yes and then he realized that was an odd question and started laughing too. We talked a bit and Adrain brought me soem water cos I was in some major pain. And then Mel and I didn't feel very well so we started to make our way out. Then Mike stopped us and hugged us goodbye and todl us happy new year and when he hugged me he goes "Hey...good luck with your band, that's cool." and smiled all goofy and I thanked him and hugged John bye and booked it to the car where Mel and I made fun of Ashley Loden and felt better since we were outta that hot ass room lol. Then I came home and took 2 vicodin and I suddenly feel really dizzy.....not cool. So I'm gonna go chill and talk to Josh. Night. And happy new year! <3 Morgan ( [3] CMNT!

navigation [ viewing | most recent entries ] [ go | earlier ]