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[08 Dec 2004|02:58am] |
well, i met someone, but idk if its worth talking about. hes not that great. and its depressing. *sigh*
and i am done. cause i have nothing else to say.
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[15 Nov 2004|06:44pm] |
fare well everyone.
for i am going to stop writing in my journal.
i feel unloved, and like no one reads it.
so yeah... im done.
if you want, you can im me to find out the occurances of my days at (sweetestsin228x)
ta ta
Sincerely,
Nicole
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[11 Nov 2004|09:16pm] |
ive just come to the conclusion that i really dont have many close friends. its just me and will. thats it. i never see anyone else, cause i dont talk to anyone. i lost touch with all my friends after high school, and i havent rally made any in college. this is why i really want to go away to school. i dont want to stay here anymore. which is why im gonna try to get a good average in school for the next 2 semesters so i can apply for school for next spring. i hate being here. i hate not knowing whos my friend and whos not. i hate doubting everyone. i just want to go away and never come back. mostly everyone only ims me, or calls me, whenever they need someone, or are bored. and im fucking tired of it. id name names, but i dont want to point certain people out.
im having problems here too. its all this fucking high school drama thats never ending, and i cant take it anymore. im just fucking sick and tired of everything and everyone. i want to get away from it all, and just go out west somewhere. somewhere thats not here.
im off to research colleges. ttyl
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[01 Nov 2004|11:47pm] |
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well. today was eventful. i went to school, picked up will, got gas, drove tina home. and then on my way back from tinas to wendys, i got into an accident. we waited for the police for almost an hour, the little girl in the car that hit me, hit her head n the windsheild, and went to the hospital. then me and will got back to his house, and his back started to hurt, so we went to the hospital for him. then we found out that his shoulder is sprained and hes going to have back spasms for the next 3 days. i cant stand to see him in pain. i was almost crying. i wa shaking for 2 hours cause of this accident. well anyway. i am not officially sick. my throat hurts, and i hav a temperature of 102.3 oh FUCKING BOY!!!! whatever. im off to bed. i gotta get up for my counselor tomorrow.
sleep. its a beautiful thing.
goodnight.
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[31 Oct 2004|01:13am] |
At 2am
I'm driving home from being with you
Playing back our favorite song
Turn it up
Wonder if you're listening to
Know it's late but I gotta call
Cause I know
You'll be there
Whenever I'm hurting
Whenever I fall
And the love that we share
Did it happen by chance
Or was there something more?
i love you will
i just had a great night. i had amazing sex..... and me and will..... idk...... it just seems that we're alot more closer than usual. i spend every day with him. and i love doing it. i love him so fucking much. and if i lost him, idk what i would do. it would be a little more than devastating to me.
ill update tomorrow or something. im gonna probably have a little party at my house.
He and I lay on the hood of his car,
Watching for the alleged meteor shower.
We saw a solitary shooting star,
and looking at each other like small children on Christmas,
we squinted our eyes tightly and made a wish.
Looking at me after our wishes were made,
he asked, "What did you wish for?"
And I replied, "For a wonderful life with you.."
And he said, "Me too.....me too.."
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[28 Oct 2004|05:10pm] |
On November 2, 2004, citizens of the United States of America will be electing a president. When you and your family votes, please keep this in mind:
---->Under Bush, the USA has lost jobs for the first time in over seventy years.
---->Under Bush, the USA has gone from a five trillion dollar surplus to a five trillion dollar deficit in just four years. The economy has never been this bad - not even through the wars of the last century.
---->After 9/11, the USA received the world's sympathy and support. Bush has destroyed this support and the USA is now one of the least respected countries in the world.
---->George W. Bush lead the country to war under false pretenses and lies. Iraq was not linked with Al Quaeda. Iraq has no WMDs. Iraq did not attack America.
---->The USA is not safer under Bush. The United States now has fewer allies and is more reviled in the Middle East than ever before. Bush's plan is not working and is just resulting in the deaths of thousands of American soldiers and tens of thousands of Iraqis.
If you want to make the world a better place, please elect a president who wants to improve the economy and work with other countries to bring peace and security. On November 2nd, make a real difference
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[23 Oct 2004|05:36pm] |
im not pergnant. i got my period the other day. thank god. i couldnt deal with it if i was. i wouldnt know what to do. this girl i go to school with told me and tina that she was pregnant, but i doubt she is. too much of this bullshit going on. i hate listening to it.
i dont know whats going on with me and will. i love him so much..... but lately, ive been biting his head off. i dont know why, but i have been. and its scaring at me. he's all i think about before i fall asleep, all i dream about, and all i think about when im awake. but ive never been this confused before. but i guess i should wait it out.
today, i picked him up from the second part of his GED. and he gave me the choice of going home, or falling asleep with him. i went home. cause i know that i wouldntve been able to fall asleep. and i know that hes not gonna wake up any time soon. oh well. it happens.
idk. i have nothing new to write about. everythings the same. Alex & Emma is on. ive never seen the beginning. so im gonna stop typing.
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[20 Oct 2004|11:29pm] |
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ive been crying alot. i guess its just let ting all the tension out ive dealt with all summer. with being fucked around with alot.... and losing 3 people i really cared about, when i only got one back, and dont talk to the other 2 at all anymore.
i want to apologize to anyone i have dont someting fucked up and/or stupid in the past 8 months. ive been thinking alot about it tonight, and it was all stupid high school games. and i realize, im not in highschool anymore, i cant do that. so im just.. not.. im done.. ive moved on. im trying not the be the immature fuck that i know i used to be.
im dropping alot of weight. or so people are telling me. dun dun dun. its makign me all nervous n stuff. idk.
oh well. im sick. so im off to sleep late. i wanna go into school tomorrow, so i can see everyone. ineed to talk to someone, but i know they hate me, so its pointless to want to talk to them at all. :\ oh well
nite
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[19 Oct 2004|11:15am] |
im eating alot. and the scary thing is, i dropped 10 pounds. i eat on average..... a pizza pie a week. and alot of junk food and im dropping weight. its scary lol but whatever. nothing i can do about it.
oh well. i started at macys. i love it. i love my manager. shes awesome. her name is christina. i started last night. i work in moderates. lol. which is upstairs. in the old women section, by human resources, and lingerae. i cant spell. lol
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[15 Oct 2004|10:55pm] |
well. i am now 18. im legal to guys over the age of 23. and i can buy cigarettes and chain-smoke like a mother fucker.
but for some reason i still feel shitty. tonight, i had the first real breakdown in a long time.
i was at my boyfriends (will's) just chillen. with rob. and then fucking eddie and tom come over. but fucking almost every time that im at wills, eddie, tom, josh, aishlinn, and everyone come over. and i wasnt in the best mood today. so when they came in, i was all "yeah ok im fine". then they wanted will to go with them for a ride. so i told him, "go with ur friends and ill go home". but no. he doesnt and im stuck not feeling comfortable around them. then i got snippy with him. and whatever. then we started to watch the movie, and eddie and tom came back. idk. i guess its just the fact that i really wanted to be with will. not eddie tom and rob. just will. but whatever. i know that that doesnt happen. so now, here i am, sick with a 100.3 fever, feeling shitty, with will and his fucking boyfriends. im tired of it.
i love him. to death. but i cant be around him and his friends all the time. he changes into a totally different person. and i dont like the person he changes into. its like, hes my boyfriend one minute, and the next hes a fucking asshole. so i go home, i speed off, and im in fucking tears. he asks me whats wrong, and i really dont want to tell him. so i get int he house, and im sobbing by now. and my moms bugging me about whats wrong. and im not telling her, so i go in my room, and i start crying again. my dad comes in, and i told him everything. which isnt normal. oh well
im off to bed now. im so sick to my stomach from crying. i have alot of shit to clean tomorrow, then i have to go to wills nad apologize to him. i feel bad about being a bitch to him tonight. he didnt deserve it. but this is the first time ive broken down in a while, and thats just the half of it. thats just what triggered it. idk why im feeling like shit. oh well.
ill update tomorrow i guess.
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[06 Oct 2004|11:38pm] |
Take it on now girls give the eyes what they want to see
Take it on now girls be whatever you want to be
Crazy ladies, tight-ass bodies
Let'em know we came to party
Live it up now boys got your eyes on that lady
Live it up now cuz she won't be your baby
Go home lonely, leave you horny, it's a girls night after party
Fuck'em all cuz men don't have nothing but dicks on us
Fuck'em all cuz they soft then beg us to strap on us
Get your big "O"., no love making,
Let him know his bitch was fakin'
I'm an irredeemably eejitous, liberal, tight as fuck, pathetically simple-minded, dribbling child!
What are you?
Brought to you by Rum and Monkey
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[06 Oct 2004|11:13pm] |
idk. i have nothing really to say right now. except that ive been thinking about alot of people. And, how much some people need to grow up.
my birthday is next week. and whatever money i get, will go towards my makeup. and some clothes. i could care less about clothes right now. i have enough of them. and maybe buy a pair of tweezers. haha.
i was at wills tonight. i was feeling really happy until i had to leave. idk. we're still getting married i think. idk. i want to, and then i dont. like.. i want to, and i knwo that i want to spend the rest of my life with him, but its like... weird to think about it.
2 things to say before i part
MUD MONSTERRRR!!
SPISHAK!!! PINK FLAMINGOES!!! moo
okay. im done. leave it
<3- nikki
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[02 Oct 2004|11:48am] |
i got completley drunk lat night off of one beer. and will had to drive me home. when i was getting ready to go in the house, i started crying. idk why i started crying. but i did. it was weird though. no tears came out. idk. im just stressed. and rosie got almost raped last night. and im just theone everyone calls when they have problems. great. *sigh*
oh well. its oaky.
i gotta go. yard work then steves.
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[02 Oct 2004|11:41am] |
Dear pot,
I love you, you're awesome. You make everything easier and happy and stuff... Except this morning when my alarm went off, I couldn't remember why. As a concequence I slept through my class. That's not cool. Why do you make my morning-after's groggy and stupid? I should've been at that class, I really can't afford to miss any of them. That's why I regret that I can only see you from Thursday at around noon until Sunday around 4ish. Don't get me wrong, you're great and I love you, I just need to keep my grades up and if I'm missing film screenings? I can't do that. So, I guess that's it... Until Thursday.
Regretfully,
N
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Okay. I hate livejournal. Its not like this at all. I've raised this little journal from 2003 lol.
In latest news. Me and Will are getting married, and the worst latest news, I think I'm pregnant. And if I am... I'm FUCKED. Cause then me and him are gonna have to get married sooner than expected, and I'm so not ready right now.. :(
I need food. ALOT OF FOOD. Like, I am never happy anymore. Tonight, when I was at Will's, I was watchign the presidential debate with his dad, and Will sits down, and I almost started crying. Too much shit is going on in my house. I almost killed myself a few days ago. My parents aren't making life any easier for me, and I can't handle school. The closer it gets to my birthday, the harder my parents come down on me for anything. *sigh*
My birthday is in 2 weeks. I'm getting a tattoo, and something pierced, and then I'm going to a club. I can't wait at all. Me and Kim are going into Manhatten for my birthday, and just chillling. I can't do much on a 160 dollar paycheck, but I can get a tattoo, OR a piercing, entry into a club, and maybe lunch. I need another job. Its making me nuts that I can't afford myself. :\
Okay. Well, I must get going. I have class at 9:30 and then work at 2. YIPPY SKIPPY!!! CAN'T WAIT!!!! Kill me now please
oh well. Nite. Update tomorrow maybe. If I get home before 12. Cause I'm spending the night in shirley or @ wills.
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[14 Sep 2004|09:59pm] |
okay.
first i would like to say. that this has been fun. But I'm moving my journal because I can't deal with assholes who like to leave anon. comments that say nasty shit. first, its immature AND disrespectful. If you didn't care, you wouldn't be in my journal reading it and alling me a whale. now would you? I think not.
second, I would like to say thanks for all the friends, but im moving to a different server. If you want the link, IM me (niknak143xo) and i might tell you.
thanks, its been a blast.
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wow. i love how you, alex, like to leave messages in my blurty. when i never EVEN bother going into your journal. grow up, get over the fact that im OVER YOU, and get the fuck out of my journal. ITS VERY IMMATURE ALEX.
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[08 Sep 2004|05:01pm] |
I SEEN RYAN TODAY!!! OMG! no sex tho. he actually.... *ahem*'ed when he was playin around with me. then he rushed me out of his house cause he had class. lol
oh well. maybe i can get a second chance with the sex soon IF GREG COMES BACK!!!lol
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[06 Sep 2004|10:58pm] |
You stupid Llama! - Nikki
You stupid Emu! - Kim
NOOOOOOOOO! - Tom
Stooooooooooop! - Tom
Curse those evil Octopi! - Nikki & Kellie
You're making me tingle! - Tom
Chinese foooooooooood! How may I help you? MmMmMmMmMmMm... What you like? - Tom
And den!!! - Nikki, Kim, & Tom
Nikki! You sound like a duck in heat! - Kim
Do, Re, Me, Fa, So, Where the hell are we?, La Ti Do! - Nikki
BABY! - Tom
How could you forget baby?! - Tom
I'm the king of Switzerland! - Kim
F is for fire that burns down the whole town
U is for uranium............ BOMBS!
N is for no survivors!!! - Nikki, Kim, & Tom
Summa down nah! - Tom
There was a spider.. in my shower... - Nikki
It's ok Kim... We're only gonna be on TV! - Nikki (Classic)
Who's Rosie.... MOOO! - Tom
Moo! - Nikki
I'll love you till a tree grows hair! - Kim & Nikki
I'm proud of my name. Horshack means the cattle are dyin'... - Kim
TOM! I know you have money! You look at my girlfriend! You owe me! - Keith
How about this... PEEKABOO! - Nikki (classic)
Shu-kung!! - Kim
WEEEE! - Nikki
I hafta pee..... - Nikki & Kim (Classic)
SHMOO! - Kim
SPIDERS! SPIDERS! SPIDERS! - Nikki & Kim
......................................You're house is gone - Nikki
No animal shall wear clothes.. OR DRINK ALCOHOL!!! - Kim
WHORE! BITCH! MONKEY! WHORE BITCH MONKEY!!!! - Nikki
I'm anti Alison - Tom
GERMS! - Tom
Move me over babe! - Tom
I'm not a girl...... Not yet a woman... - Tom
I'm Brians money whore!- Nikki
DRAW! - Nikki
BAM! TOM! LOOK AT THAT! I GOT A 100%! HAH! - Nikki
By the end of the day... you shall have brain damage. - Kim
Hey look! It's a shirt, that I had, that I never liked! - Kellie
Do you like Kittens and Puppies? sure, why not?!" "KELLIE! ARE YOU PSYCHO?! 'do you like kittens and dogs?' sure why not! I just hate them. They piss me off. I wanna kill them all. sure I like them, why not?! YOU PSYCHO!!!" - Nikki & Kellie
"I shall deny you the crown and live..... FOREVER!" "Fine with me" - Nikki & Kellie
My sister almost got eaten by a Sea Gull! - Kim
MY sister died 3 times today. - Kim
"My potato is rotten..." "NIKKI! I was telling you a story here about the Sea Gulls eating Jesse, Adam, Pat, and them, and you tell me that your POTATOE IS ROTTEN?!" "You need psycho therapy" "No!" - Nikki & Kim
OW! My bosom! - Nikki to Kim at Tom's party
Why is there a meteor shower in the middle of the night? - Kim
NEFGAR! - Nikki
Isnt he the fuzzy one? - Kim
How do you spell OW? O-W - Nikki & Kim
Fishy Go Swim - Nikki & Kim (Classic)
Nikki you damn Communist! - Kim (Classic)
PIN! PIN! - Nikki
NIKKI PISS! - Kim & Rosie
This picture should be burned to the ground! - Kim
Tom is a magnificent Pouf! - Nikki & Kim
Girls Go to sleep! - Kims mom
Kim! I cant hear the friggen TV! - Kims mom
Gooood mooooorrrrrrniiiiiinnnnngggg!! - Nikki & Kim
Imagination! - Kim
In the morning of Christmas.. - Kim
NIKKI! You rural hick! - Kim
I want to pet its nose and see the little tongue come out!! - Kim
I think we should go to Florida and steal an aardvark, take it home, put it on a leash, and walk it around the streets of NYC! - Kim
You prostitute - Kim
You whore! - Nikki
DUCK SAUCE!! - Kim
Why are you taping your cat in night vision? - Kim
Have you ever tried a Russian cheese cake? - Kim thinks that Nikki said this
I dont want a Russian lesson Its not a Russian lesson! Its FRENCH - Kim & Nikki
Im having a Seizure. Seizure Seizure Seizure! - Kim
Oh baby baby baby! - Kim *Classic*
I am a sexy sexy sex person! - Kim
Im the moped bandit! - Kim
Theres a man swimming on my computer - Kim
Its Hebrish! - Tom
Dont fuck yourself yet Nikki. My computer is saving! - Kim
Shhhh fuck myself. - Kim
At our 10 year high school reunion we will see each other while poking each other with our walkers, and screaming, I AM DYIN-GAH! and out dentures will fall out of our mouth and start chattering. - Kim & Nikki
I AM DYIN-GAH! - Kim
And then we shall get drunk on Prune Juice - Kim
Come on vaminos - Kim
Nikki! What he hell is wrong with you?! I woke up with scissors in my face What, are you trying to kill me?! - Kim in the middle of the night
When Joe scratches his head, little animals fall out. Like rabid rats, and with athletes foot. - Kim
I dont know what guys see in girls. Were so bitchy and snotty. - Kim
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