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just so you all know this journal entry will have a lot of venting and bitching, and will probably be really long....so you might not want to read it....
Monday_ i have no idea what I did. Went to school like usual, and then stayed after for a set design meeting for competition and went and saw my algebra teacher, god what an idiot. SO i went to talk to her about possibly switching out of her class since Im failing and Im improving a little but not alot. So she was like well I'll think about it and we have to get it approved by the department head and blah blah blah, hmm in one ear and out the other, i just want out of that class so bad. My teacher is an idiot and I dont understand ANYTHING that we do. blah.
Tuesday_Was alright to an extent went to school took a quiz in algebra, did terrible cause I thought i was doing it wrong and found out i was doing it right like a minute before she told us to put our pencils down. SO pissed. so i only got part of it. um then had my other classes. didnt really do much that i can remember. then I came home and sat online like always. read something this girl caitlin wrote about my "close friend" Kyle and a comment she wrote back to my cousin, and spazed out. And commented back to her, and she flipped out on me and told me that Kyle told her that me and him arent close anymore and that we hadnt been friends since elementry school, even though to my knowledge we've been friends SINCE elementry school and we're still friends. So i said something to him about it and he said that what he told caitlin was true, and I cried. ALOT He hurt me so freakin bad, and he doesnt understand it at all. I told him that I think i was wrong about our friendship because of what he said to caitlin and he said that I was right and that we'll always be close. I was so lost, how can what he said to Caitlin be true, but still say we're close? whatever. so he apologized for hurting me, yadda yadda yadda... havent talked to him since... Plus he managed to hurt more than me in this whole thing, Me, Lindsay and Nicole. Yeah he's not close with ANY of us anymore according to him, yeah okay then buddy. thanks for the illusion of a friendship we had then eh? ... hmm.. anyway
Wednesday_I was completely out of it. Upset I didnt want to have anything to do with anyone or anything. So i walked around school like a zombie all day. Sat through classes just thinking and almost started crying more than once. Got a 17 page packet of review for my finance final on friday.. ugh just more stress.... Then lindsay and Erik werent in school so I got out of school NOT knowing Erik wasnt in school so i called his cell twice and was like wtf? so i called my aunts house and Kristina told me that Erik didnt go to school, so it was pouring out, and at the time I had no way of getting home besides walking so I started crying because of everything that had been going on, i just broke down sitting outside of school, while i was on the phone with Kristina, then my aunt said she'd come and get me, I didnt even realize she was home. So she came and got me and brought me home, and brought trouble, hehe. which was good, the doggy made my day. :-) hmm didnt do much.. worked on some stuff for school. whateevverrrrrrrr.
Thursday_I was def better than wednesday but I felt like crap all day. got a TON of homework.. 4 sections of history, 3 things of for algebra. so i came home and went to bed and didnt get up till 730, bad idea. So i got up got something to eat and then worked on my algebra stuff and history sections untill 11. and took medicine and went back to beddddd.
Today_TRIED to get up to go to school and it wasnt going so well. Taking benedryl at 11pm isnt a good idea, you cant get up in the morning. haha. that was such a bitch. so i finally got up. and managed to get to school, lol. Hmmm took an algebra quiz still half dead cause the benedryl hadnt worn off yet which was kinda of amusing. hmm went to psychology and we did review because we're having a test on tuesday. history we got all out 1st term papers back and we got a bunch of information to start a review sheet for our final which is friday.. (final #2)..and I believe my psychology final is that day too, so yay 3 finals on the same day. what a freakin blast!.. not.... hmm so 4th me and Ash "Sr" worked on our final project and finally got everything to work, with the help of Ferrell Locke, Garcea and Dave. and we were all excited because were going to finish it tuesday, (yes i said WERE.. i'll get to why we arent finishing it later)... so 5th period me and Vanessa worked on our set design (class) project and decided everything we're going to do over the next week since we dont have class..... hhmm then we had a drama club meeting and they decided to do Feb-Fest SO freaking happy! but it now interfers with competition which shall be a pain in the ass. but hey WHATEVER we're doing Feb fest so its all good. :-) hhmm.. so after the "surprise drama club meeting" we went to the design meeting, and then Ash "Sr" walked in the room and goes "hey ash look what i found" and held up the 3 pieces of our project that took over an hour to get to work on. Someone from the drama club tore apart our project and then tried to hide the piece... SO FUCKING PISSED. How the hell does someone do that? Its such bullshit. Me and Ash went OFF. And everyone just stood there watching us spaz out, Pj tried to tell us to calm down and Alex tried huggin me to get me to calm down, it didnt work though. I was PISSED. and I still am. So Ferrell Locke and Garcea decided that we dont have to re-do the project, and Ferrell Locke said he was just as pissed about it as we were. ugh. im so sick of doing stuff for other people and getting treated like shit for it.....
anyway i think this update is long enough. ill update sooner or later.
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