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giving up emo: I have to get ready for band practice
hebrewxzebra: what a surprise!
giving up emo: I know.
hebrewxzebra: haha. oh gosh!
giving up emo: I want to quit.
giving up emo: really bad
giving up emo: just because they make crappy lyrics
giving up emo: that only twelve-year old saps who love Yellowcard would listen to.
hebrewxzebra: like what?
giving up emo: like the ones I sent you??
giving up emo: whatever.
giving up emo: BRB
hebrewxzebra: ..uhm, sorry I don't remember every stupid shitty song your band members come up with. but yeah, PMS at me. you know, I'm just about ready to stop talking to you, asshole.
giving up emo: what the eff???
giving up emo: I wasn't being mean
hebrewxzebra: yeah you were.
giving up emo: then I give up because you think I'm always being mean to you
hebrewxzebra: bcuz you fucking are.
giving up emo: no I'm not.
hebrewxzebra: you're like OH MY GOD! I can't believe she didn't remember my bands fucking horrible songs. you treat me like shit.
giving up emo: I just said "the ones that I sent you"
hebrewxzebra: whatever.
giving up emo: and then I said "whatever, meaning, don't worry about it, no problem"
hebrewxzebra: dude, whatever doesn't mean that. whatever means OH MY GOD!
giving up emo: no it doesn't.
hebrewxzebra: it does to me.
giving up emo: so now I have to stop using the word "whatever" around you?
hebrewxzebra: no. God, you're so fucking annoying.
hebrewxzebra: you are so fucking annoying. oh my god. I can't stand you. I sent that to like 5 people and they all thought you were being mean to me. so its not just me.
giving up emo: you know, I can never make one person happy.
Auto response from hebrewxzebra:
being huge. haha
hebrewxzebra: maybe bcuz you're so damn emo and everyone thinks your fucking attacking them?
Auto response from giving up emo: I love how when other people complain, I put up with them and try to help them, yet, everytime I complain, everybody keeps telling me that I'm being annoying. If nobody'll be nice to me, then seriously shut the fuck up.
hebrewxzebra: its your fucking fault. you're not even complaining. and you act like I've never listened to you. I only got mad bcuz I thought you were like yelling at me.
giving up emo: even though I wasn't.
hebrewxzebra: and I shudn't even be apologizing to you bcuz you fucking ruined my outview on love. so, screw you. and I don't care if you were or not bcuz I think you hate me no matter what you do.
giving up emo: the fact that you think I hate you is my fault?
giving up emo: even though it isn't true
giving up emo: by the way.
hebrewxzebra: uhm yes. bcuz you fucking made me feel like shit so many god damn times. you're a fucking asshole. I don't even understand why I talk to you.
hebrewxzebra: you are a fucking asshole Keith Jordan Trice, ASSHOLE! do you not realized? I shudn't fucking talk to you. you're PATHETIC! you have no friends. I try and be nice to you and then you get mad at me about MY PROBLEMS. you don't get mad at me, you're supposed to try and help. you suck at life and everything, and you're an asshole!
giving up emo: why are you saying all of this just because I said "whatever"?
giving up emo: I mean, what the Hell ... I wasn't being mean at all.
giving up emo: and this is not fair to me.
hebrewxzebra: you are always mean to me.
giving up emo: no I'm not.
hebrewxzebra: yes you are.
giving up emo: just because I'm not happy all the time doesn't mean I'm being mean to you.
hebrewxzebra: you havn't been nice to me since I stopped talking to Nickyy.
hebrewxzebra: tell me, does that make sense?
hebrewxzebra: I did something you asked and since then you've been an asshole to me.
hebrewxzebra: that doesn't make sense
hebrewxzebra: you won't fucking talk to me, at all.
hebrewxzebra: and when you do you're like mad at me.
giving up emo: all of this stuff isn't even true, Jaime.
hebrewxzebra: it is, bcuz its what you're doing.
hebrewxzebra: its what I think, so its true.
giving up emo: well then excuse me, I'm sorry (once again) for being so caught up in my crappy week that I've been having.
hebrewxzebra: and if you are so pathetic that you will let me yell and scream at you. what's the point? you don't like me Keith, you just know that no one will deal with you this long. that's sad.
giving up emo: what?
giving up emo: I'm not letting you yell and scream at me, I'm trying to grasp the point in why you're doing it.
hebrewxzebra: okae, sure. try and make yourself sound good.
giving up emo: well if you think I'm so pathetic, then just leave.
hebrewxzebra: you know, you act like I mean so much to you. you treat me like shit and never once tried to talk to me before I talked to you. you obviously don't care very much.
giving up emo: the fact that I don't care is a big fucking lie.
hebrewxzebra: you don't.
giving up emo: don't even argue with me.
hebrewxzebra: you havn't since the 8th grd. you think you do, but you don't/
hebrewxzebra: you fucking ruined everything.
giving up emo: you're the one that fucking hates me.
hebrewxzebra: why shudn't I?
hebrewxzebra: give me one reason?
hebrewxzebra: do you even have one!
hebrewxzebra: NO! why? bcuz I shudn't like you. I shud fucking hate you.
hebrewxzebra: so who's the fucking mean one now?
hebrewxzebra: YOU!
giving up emo: well if your intentions were to make me feel like the world's biggest asshole and the most unimportant person in the world, then, well, you did it.
giving up emo: go ahead and hate me. there's really nothng I can do about it.
hebrewxzebra: tell me, Keith, how am I supposed to like you? when you act so pathetic. you give me nothing to like. not even anything to feel sorry for, bcuz you're just so wrapped up in yourself. you're like the only person you care about. honestly, then you get mad at me about not talking to you when my friends over? we're not even anything so I shudn't even have to talk to you on the phone. you know, maybe a long time ago I thought I shud like you. you keep giving me more reasons to hate you. I'm sorry you're like this. I don't know why you act the way you do. but I can see why no one likes you, you give them nothing to like.
hebrewxzebra: you know I'm completely and utterly honest, and this is what happens. I tell people exactly how I feel. so, I'm sorry, but that's just the way I am now. I don't want to sugar coat your life and make you feel better, because its not like it will help you.
hebrewxzebra: you know, I honestly tried to be your friend and be nice you. but you kept get mad at me. and you wud fight with me when I wud get upset. so, I just don't want to be upset over this anymore.
giving up emo: Jaime, the only reason I would fight with you is because you'd always argue over the fact that I cared.
giving up emo: and you won't believe me no matter how carefully I try and explain.
hebrewxzebra: you don't care. you can't care and hurt me like you did. its just not possible. I mean, it still hurts. so, how can I accept that you care? if you've hurt me so bad that two years later I'm not over it.
hebrewxzebra: no one has ever hurt me as much as you have.
hebrewxzebra: not Nickyy, not anyone. not anyone I have ever known. and I am not very much liked and have been made fun of and yelled at and got in fights many times and no one has ever hurt me as much as you.
hebrewxzebra: I am honestly sorry, I don't want to have to tell you this. but its true. I'm not making fun of you, or trying to make you sound worse, I'm telling it exactly how I feel and exactly how I think it is.
giving up emo: there
giving up emo: ssdf;aklsf
giving up emo: there's nothing I can do or say to make you think I care, so what's even the point anymore.
hebrewxzebra: that's not my fault. I'm a very, I dno, empty person. I don't think anyone cares about really. esspecially if they hurt me. and I hate almost everyone.
hebrewxzebra: well, maybe not hate but can't stand
hebrewxzebra: its really gonna take a while. you know, I started to care about you and believe you. and then you acted like an asshole to me and made me feel like shit on the phone. and I realized that, you don't care.. you think you do. but you don't understand how to treat me. I don't care if it was a mistake, bcuz everything was "just a mistake" and "people just do things". well, people just don't like other people too.
giving up emo: Jaime, I try so hard, but there's nothing I can do.
giving up emo: that's why I'm so depressed.
hebrewxzebra: Keith, you try and then you mess it up. and I know you try, but then when you mess up it just makes me think that you're only conning yourself. like you're use to it. and you don't know anything other than liking me. like how you liked Meg. I mean, if you honestly liked me, you wudn't even concidered liking her. its things like that. like, I liked Nickyy bcuz I knew that I just cudn't like you. and I didn't feel bad about it bcuz I was like, he's useless and he doesn't care about me back. Nickyy didn't care either but.. I thought he did. I let him, and he hurt me much less than you. I havn't even let you go. But I shud. I didn't before and it just hurt you so much more. just holding on, when I didn't like you back.. I only cried bcuz I felt bad about hurting. I shudn't have, you hurt me much more. I care too much about people I shudn't. and too little about people I shud. I'm messed up llike that. I'm sorry if I'm hurting you, but I honestly shudn't even care at all.
giving up emo: if you shouldn't care, then don't.
giving up emo: you're right.
hebrewxzebra: about what? [sorry just trying to clairify]
giving up emo: about me.
hebrewxzebra: I'm sorry if I'm hurting you. but, I can't help it. I don't want to lie. and pretend that I like you, bcuz I don't.. and I don't want to hurt you.
giving up emo: it's even more hurtful that you stay around just because you don't want to hurt me
giving up emo: so just go.
So I went… yep. Now, I am completely alone. I will stay completely alone. Why? Well, because I have found that no one cares. I’ve never had anyone else. So, I am now alone. It’s kind of scary. I don’t know. It’s okae.
giving up emo: I didn't mean to say that ^^
he doesn't give up. but I have. so, he has to deal with the what he said, I listened to him. he did mean, he just doesn't know that yet. there's just some people you have to let go of.
spideyundies: okay i think i just think that people who were each others' first loves are meant for each other
hebrewxzebra: but he wasn't my 1st love.
hebrewxzebra: bcuz I didn't love him.
hebrewxzebra: and he didn't love me.
[different note] new photobucket. blackroses_run. new pictures.
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