Below are the 3 most recent journal entries recorded in Si Cassé...'s Blurty:

Wednesday, July 2nd, 2003
9:53 pm	Blah. Oh boy, Anxiety attacks are just great. Had to take a Zanax...or however it's spelled...yesterday&today. I'd also just like to say "Thank You" to all of my friends that constatly go behind my back. Well i'm sad and tired and I miss my girlfriend. Good thing: I'm going to see Further Seems Forever on the 13th. Yay. But besides that and a few other things, life preeetttyyy much sucks. If I wasn't in love, I think I'd die. Current Mood: indescribable Current Music: Bjork-Pagan Poetry
Tuesday, July 1st, 2003
9:15 am	Hmm... Well, I haven't been able to sleep for the past 4 nights. Which sucks. I think I developed insomnia, became nocturnal, or I need to learn to stop letting things get to me so much, so I don't have like a billion thoughts running through my head at night. I feel kind of sick. I think I need to get away from this place. My family. My life. ME. I just want to state something. You can hate me all you want. You can hate me like Hitler, you can hate me because I'm a freak, and you can hate me with all the energy in your body. You can follow me around every waking moment yelling obsanities at me, and you still won't hate me more than I do. I hate me more than it's possible for you to hate me. So, whatever reason you hate me for...don't even bother. I feel worthless. I decided today is when i'm going to face that I AM depressed, and I DO need help. I'm sick of pretending like everything is okay. It's not okay. It's never been okay. "I'm not heaven sent, i'm not heaven sent, but i'm broken and bent." Current Mood: nauseated Current Music: Esthero-Heaven sent
Monday, June 30th, 2003
6:54 am	IM HAPPY TODAY...kinda. Woohoo. First "entry." I figured i'd bitch about something, just to show you that I like to. Unfourtinatly, there's nothing to bitch about right now. So i'm gonna make something to bitch about. You know what pisses me off? When you're looking for something and you've had it the whole time. That's so annoying. Like when i'm looking for my glasses, for like an hour or 2, and i'm wearing them the whole time. That sucks. On a new note, I was in the mall the other day, and saw this guy dressed REALLY strangely, all in green, with this really funny hat. It was beautiful. So anyway, the next day i was in the grocery store with my mum. So I said "Mommy, remember that guy in the mall...was he trying to be a leprachaun?" So she gave me a really weird look and said "No Bri...that was a Dead-Head." It was sooo great. I was like "OHHHHH! I never knew they dressed like that!" It was great. Ah, another fun conversation between me and my brother. J(talking about a picture of Martha Stewart on the cover of a magazine): Wow, she looks pretty scary when she's not all happy about her new potting soil. Me: Yeah. I think her and Barbara Strisand (I don't know if that's how it's spelled, but still.) should have a tea party together. J: Nah, they'd eat eachother's faces. ...Or their noses would eat eachother first... Heehee. I find that beautiful. J is great. Well I think I wrote too much, and my bellybutton piercing is infected and bleeding EVERYWHERE, so i'm done for today. Ja. Current Mood: ditzy Current Music: gob-oh ellen