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Sunday, January 25th, 2004

Subject:Finally Leagal!
Time:4:07 pm.
Mood: chipper.
Im already planning my big ol birthday party!!! even though my bday is in 43 days exactly... but whos counting? Im really excited. I want hella people there... even if I dont know them oh well! And Im taking a trip to the strip club lol to get my bday lap dance.... Oh lord!! I just don't know where Im gunna have this shin dig... I guess I have 43 days to think of that.
I got another diary... Livejournal. I've been keeping all the entries private because well I just wanted to. Thats about it.
Ill try to update more.. uhhh yea.
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Monday, January 19th, 2004

Subject:Billy Talent
Time:10:11 pm.
.Nothing to Lose.

Need more friends with wings,
All the angels I know put concrete in my veins
I'd always walk home alone,
So I became lifeless just like my telephone

There's nothing to lose
When no one knows your name
There's nothing to gain
But the days don't seem to change

Never played truth or dare,
I'd have to check my mirror to see if I'm still here
My parents had no clue,
That I ate all my lunches alone in the bathroom

There's nothing to lose
When no one knows your name
There's nothing to gain
But the days don't seem to change

There's nothing to lose
My notebook will explain
There's nothing to gain
And I can't fight the pain

Teacher said it's just a phase,
When I grow up, my children will probably do the same
Kids just love to tease,
Who'd know it put me underground and age 17

There's nothing to lose
When no one knows your name
There's nothing to gain
But the days don't seem to change

There's nothing to lose
My notebook will explain
There's nothing to gain
And I just died today
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Time:8:12 pm.
I have a feeling Ill be staying in vegas for another year....blah
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Thursday, January 15th, 2004

Subject:ahhh Freak out.. (haha disco..whew!)
Time:2:51 pm.
Im leaving for Cali tomorrow... yup...sure am... Im nervous for the audition... but hey I think im gunna do fine... yea...

yep its gunna be fine.... can ya tell im freaking out?? hmmmm KhsLKJZDHFLJBDLFVBLZdjbfhLJKDZBLFH

I gottah go practice..... yea..

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Sunday, January 11th, 2004

Time:5:18 pm.
I have exactly 5 days to memorize 3 (2minute) monologues. I already have 1 memorized and another one..(shakespeare) Im in the process of getting that one down... and the other im thinking Ill work on when Im done with the first two. Have I been slacking? No I have been working my ass off on these damn monologues for like 2 weeks..... why can't I get them done?? Maybe because the thought of me getting into these colleges and moving away to live on my own.... away from my family, my boyfriend, and my friends... it's a little scary. I will only be living 4 hours away (Cali) so I would be able to just drive down a lot (if i have time) but still the thought of leaving... and being ALONE... yea isn't the best feeling...
So my mind has been full of MANY thoughts that keep me up at night... So you guessed it Im very STRESSED! Its all going to be over soon.... i think?

This weekend was nice... I stayed at my boyfriends house for most of it... went on a double date with my parents...haha. My parents really love that kid.. and so do I.
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Thursday, January 8th, 2004

Subject:Remember me???
Time:8:37 pm.
Its funny how all the people I used to call good friends don't even talk to me anymore at school.. or anywhere for that matter. I actually tried to get in on the conversation today at Lunch... and all I got was "uhh its nothing" and a lovely roll of the eyes. So I said my usual have a nice day and left.

But hey things happen... people grow apart.. im over it. But atleast I still act like they are alive. Maybe I shouldn't anymore.. who knows.

High school is almost over... names will be forgotten, faces will be forgotten..... and apparently friendship will be forgotten as well.
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Wednesday, January 7th, 2004

Time:9:16 pm.
I really miss my boyfriend. I really haven't seen him in awhile due to his work and what not.
This sucks.
Im sad.
ehhh don't want to talk about it.
have a nice night.
oh I hate school.
thats about it
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Saturday, January 3rd, 2004

Subject:again.. im very veyr bored.
Time:8:41 pm.
LAYER ONE: On The Outside

Name = Courtney

Birth date = March 7, 1986

Birthplace = el Vegas O

Current Location = uhhh Las Vegas?

Eye Color = Hazel

Hair Color = ummm brownish..i think?

Height = 5'5 woohoo

Righty or Lefty = Im a righty..

Zodiac Sign = a fish!

LAYER TWO: On The Inside

Your heritage = Mainly Basque.. but other than that.. Im a big ol Mutt!

Shoes you wore today = I'm currently wearing my TAZ slippers, because its too cold to go barefoot. BuRr

Your fears = To fail.

Your perfect pizza = Im not really a pizza fan. But if I had to it would be just uhh cheese?

Goal you'd like to achieve = Get all my monologues and lines memorized.

LAYER THREE: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow

Your most overused phrase on AIM = Good deal.

Your thoughts first waking up = "How much longer can I slack on not memorizing? [see goal I would like to achieve]

Your best physical feature = uhhh D: None of the above

Your bedtime = I don't have a consistent bed time. But i shoot for 10ish on weekdays so i can actually wake up the next day.


Pepsi or Coke = Im thinking sprite... or rootbeer...

McDonald's or Burger King = How about Del Taco?

Single or group dates = Doesn't really matter to me.

Adidas or Nike = Oh, I could really care less.. a shoe is a shoe.

Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea = I don't much drink Iced Tea. was that good grammar?

Chocolate or vanilla = Vanilla with chocolate sauce... It works.

Cappuccino or coffee = Uhm, isn't cappuccino just coffee with makeup on?


Smoke = I used to. But that is a no longer.

Cuss = Like a fucking sailor.

Sing = Sure, I sing. I suck ass at it, but it doesn't stop me.

Take a shower everyday = I do my best... but on those just sitting at home doing nothing days i skip the el shower... ehh so sue me.

Have a crush(es) = On my boyfriend.... oh and the Elf in LOTR... i dig elves.. get over it.

Think you've been in love = Sure am.

Like(d) high school = Im not into the high school thing anymore. So glad its almost over.

Want to get married = Yep.. sure do.

Believe in yourself = Uhhh yea? what is this a motivational poster?

Get motion sickness = hmmm no not really.

Think you're attractive = hahahaha wooooo thats a good one.

Think you're a health freak = Ha! uhhh yea sure I am

Get along with your parents = On occasions... well a lot lately.

Like thunderstorms = Love em. (heh i hate that... em.. i was just too lazy to type them... but apparently im not too lazy to explain why i was too lazy to write them... and im stopping.)

Play an instrument = uhh the recorder?

LAYER SIX: In the past month have you...

Drank alcohol = yep.

Smoked = nope

Done a drug = nope

Made Out = yep :)

Gone on a date = yep

Gone to the mall = Is the pope catholic?

Eaten an entire box of Oreos = Not the entire box.

Eaten sushi = No not recently.. I want some though!!!

Been on stage = Yep. Wish I could be on it more often....stupid bitch teacher.

Been dumped = Thankfully, no.

Gone skating = no. But i want to.

Gone skinny dipping = way too cold for that nonsence!

Dyed your hair = Nope, I haven't done that in awhile

Stolen anything = Just some glances.


Played a game that required removal of clothing = Sure.

Been trashed or extremely intoxicated = Oy vey, yes I have

Been caught "doing something" = Yes.. but I i wll not go into details ;0)

Been called a tease = Yeah, but not that kind of a tease.

Gotten beaten up = I've had a few scraps in my youth(ha), but thankfully nothing major.

Shoplifted = Yes and got 86'd fromt he mall.... no fun. But that was a long ass time ago.. I was a bad bad kid.

LAYER EIGHT: Getting Older

Age you hope to be married = early 20's

Numbers and Names of Children = no kids. Im not pushing out a 7 pound lil brat who will later in life tell me he/she hates me and gets a tattoo explaining his/her hatred for me. Yea I think Ill pass.

Describe your dream wedding = Just something beautiful.

How do you want to die = As painlessly as possible. Preferrably without knowing.

What do you want to be when you grow up = An actress.

What country(ies) would you most like to visit = Scotland, Ireland, France, etc. etc.

LAYER NINE: In a boy/girl

Best eye color? = No preference.

Best hair color? = No preference.

Short or long hair = I like guys with short hair.

Height = I like 'em tall. But as I am a midget, that's all relative.

Best articles of clothing = Oh heck, clean ones?

Best first date location = Movies are good - you don't have to talk for two hours and then you have subject matter for later.

LAYER TEN: In The Numbers...

Number of drugs taken illegally = no comment. im a clean girl.

Number of people I could trust with my life = Maybe a handfull

Number of CDs that I own = uhh im not sure.

Number of piercings = Three in each ear.

Number of tattoos = none.. and I don't want one either.

Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = I have no clue.

Number of scars on my body = Hmmm... I don't really know. No major scars apparently.

Number of things in my past that I regret = No regrets.
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Subject:God im bored!!!
Time:6:21 pm.
Please rate my quiz I worked hard on it thanks

Which Lord of the Rings person do you want? (many out comes for anyone plus pics to)
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yes this is cheesy.... but Im bored... and elves are hot!! lol


What's your sexual appeal?
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well... damn im REALLY REALLY BORED!
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Thursday, January 1st, 2004

Subject:type type type type
Time:11:24 am.
College essay college essay college essay!!!!!

God Im such a fucking slacker... my essay(s) and application is due before jan. 5th....... and here it is Jan 1st and I dont have it finished!!! Im supposed to be working on it right now... but Im an idiot and can't seem to find the right words to complete this god forsaken essay! kjdhaslfkjhlfkhdslghsdkbgfdbglkh

Heres my years resolution..... Be organized and not a fucking slacker!!

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Sunday, December 28th, 2003

Time:2:22 pm.
Mood: uncomfortable.
Music:It don't mean a thing- Gabin.
I've been slacking on this whole diary thing. I guess I found other things to take up my time.. who knows.

But for the sake of updating I will fill you all in on my.....eventfull(ha!) life.

Hmm I have two auditions comming up for colleges... I haven't been so stressed out and nervous in my whole entire life!! But I think everything will go fine.

Theatre issues:
Well... lets just say this year has been utter bullshit and I can't wait to get out of that god forsaken class! I basically took my teacher(ha..teacher...right) aside and told her eveyrhting I have ever wanted to say to her... basically that she has no idea whats shes doing... that kids take advantage of her and shes a bitch for casting talentless freshmen over seniors.. ahem.. me. Also that I have worked my ass of for 3.5 years and I deserve a little bit more than what she hands me. And I told her ever sience she has graced our theatre with her pressence I haven't learned shit in any of her classes... and our theatre has gone way downhill because of her stupid ass.
So yea I blew up on her(but not in a rude immature way.. i talked as an adult.. but just made sure I was making myself clear)
So I told her that since I was not learning and having a horrible experience in her class that I was going to drop at the semester. Now I figured she would have said something under the lines of "i dont think thats a good idea.. we will try and make things better" .... but no she just said.."ehh alright...anything else?" That right there just shows she does not know all the hard work I do and she could give two shits about our theatre... sooooooo in conclusion I hate the bitch.

woo that was fun. hmmm what else, I had a good christmas this year. My boyfriend got spoild my me and my family.. it was cute... he even had his own stocking! I love the fact that my family loves him so much, it makes things so much easier!

I have been thinking a whole lot about the future lately.. its upsetting really. I need to start thinking about the present.... heh that should be my new years resolution.

ok i've rambled way too much. I hope you all had a great holiday and have a great and safe new year!
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Tuesday, November 18th, 2003

Subject:and there was you...
Time:7:51 pm.
Music:Cursive-Sink to the beat.
Life is grand.

yes...yes it is.
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Monday, November 10th, 2003

Subject:There's no place like home...
Time:7:14 pm.
Music:The Used- On My Own.
My baby will be back in 4-5 days!! Im so excited! I can't wait to jump in his arms, and feel that comfort that we have. God I miss him!

These past few days have been fun. Lots of late nights!!! Im suprised Im still alive... last night was pretty interesting. ;)

I don't really have anything to say... I never really do. hmm Im loving these days off from school!! That whole waking up early thing....yea not my idea of fun.

k yea im bored. bye
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Sunday, November 2nd, 2003

Subject:Halloween fun!
Time:2:09 pm.
Music:Broken Wings- Mr. Mister.
click it!!

Good times... good times!!!

Im the kitty.... if you didn't know ;)
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Saturday, November 1st, 2003

Subject:The sun comes up... I think about you.
Time:9:33 pm.
I bought a 120 minute calling card today.... I just got off the phone with my love... and there is maybe 20 minutes left... we had a beautiful conversation that I will always remember.

I miss him.
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Friday, October 31st, 2003

Time:12:49 pm.
Mood: bouncy.
Music:Trance-Mellow Trax- Outa Space(New Club Mix).

k.. that is all.

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Sunday, October 26th, 2003

Subject:Past... to present.
Time:8:23 pm.
Mood: cold.
Music:DJMeanJimGreen- Live Hard Trance.
So the Mr. is still wearing our symbol. That makes me chuckle. But the question really is.. why?

ha.. anyways.

I was reading some of my old poetry, god damn I was an unhappy individual...geesh! I haven't done the whole poetry thing in awhile... ha maybe because Im happy?? who knows.

So I have this *To Do* list... and yea its about 2 pages long... all about college and theatre stuff... blah! Im a busy busy girl lately... and very lazy all at the same time!! hmm?

This blurty angers me.. and I really don't know why I still update.... ehh what can ya do.

20 days and counting till my love comes home. <3
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Wednesday, October 22nd, 2003

Time:12:09 pm.
I hate today.
I feel that I need to run away from everything right now.... too much going on... too many fucked up people...Im tired.

Im trying to do my best and all I get is bitched at. God I can't wait to graduate!! I hate this "highschool" experience.
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Monday, October 20th, 2003

Time:8:57 pm.
So im updating again.. I guess I just have a lot on my mind.

Did I metion how I hate money? Well basically our insurance company can go suck my cock and fucking like it! I hate how big organizations can fuck over the "little" people. So our insurance guy just pops up outtah no where the other day for a routine inspection.. my mother asked if he could wait till my father came home and he said he would just take a pic of the outside and things would be fine. Well come today we get a letter from our insurance company canceling our insurance due to not getting inspected!!! Oh I could shoot someone! So yes the stupid company FUCKED us... and we can't do a damn thing!

So yes Im mad about that... and money is just really tight lately... so im kinda rearranging my future so things won't be so hectic... and well thats not working out either.. because everything is so god damn expensive!!!

sorry Im just filled with rants!

I had previews today.. it wasn't so bad..
what was so that our director(i use the term loosely) finally begins to realize what an ass she was for casting some of these people... I laughed at her.. God that women angers me!
So the show is all this week... im semi-excited.. because I have gotten some good reviews... but you never know on reviews from teenagers... peers tend to lie just to make one feel good.... sooooooo who knows.

rant rant rant rant rant

Well my love and I figured out he will be gone longer than we thought.... errg this is horrible. But I will wait for him. We have been talking a lot about our future as well... I love the fact that we have a future.

ok i think i have done anough... blah I bitch a lot!
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Sunday, October 19th, 2003

Subject:ehh damn updates.
Time:6:34 pm.
My baby will be back in 3 weeks! God I can't wait! I miss him dearly!

*New Subject*

Im excited for my new room...its going to be 1940's and black. I can't really explain it... but its gunna be hot! I want to sketch the Effiel Tower on the wall all with uneven strokes and what not. Im also putting up all my paintings and pictures of James Dean..Elvis..Marilyn Monroe..Lucy...etc!
I got the Effiel Tower idea from Trading was super sexy so Im gunna steal it!!

My college situation is so shitty right now. I really don't know what Im going to do... I hate not having money! I know for damn sure Im not staying in Vegas....yes for DAMN SURE!!! If I have to be a waitress and live in a shitty apartment in Cali. I will!!! I just might go to Community in Cali and get all my basic classes out of the way and transfer.....or if I get this scholarship for AMDA and if I like the campus I will go there... but who knows. This whole college realization smacked me in the face the other day...and Im busting my ass lately trying to figure shit out.

I wish I could get a job, but Im at school practically everyday working on a show.. im in three right there is no time to fit in any work hours. EeEeErGggGgG!!!! klhjsa;dklj;zshfdg;l.h
Im taking my SAT'S soon...and I really don't know why...because I don't need them for a community college or AMDA... soooooo thats retarded...but ehh I guess its the experience..
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