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[11 Jul 2003|11:27pm] [ mood | tired ] *YoU* 2.nicknames: c* babythug* pryncess* 3.city and state born in: p-town nj 4.state you live in now: new jersey 5.birthdate: 11*16 6.astrological sign: scorpio 7.school: none 8.hobbies: dancing, climbing, music, etc 9.sports that you play/enjoy: hockey basketball watever 10.height: 5' 5 11.weight: 123? 12.shoe size: 8 8 1/2 13.right or lefty: righty *What....* 1. What do you think of the way you look?: i'm far from tha ugliest but i dont think tha best bout myself neither. im very self conscious. but im told from numerous ppl i look good so im believin it cuz i no i aint ugly lol. 2. What do you think about your attitude?: BYTCHY try not ta be though...not always tho, only sometimes 3. What do you think about life after death?: i believe in it . . .that people don't just die and get burried, they do go somewhere else. 4. What do you think about karma?: uh . . . 5. What do you think about love?: it's prob. one of the best feelings in the world to find someone that you know you love w/ all your heart and that they love you back. it's great to not be lonely, and have someone love everything about you. 6. What do you think about fate?: yeah it happens...whatever..;that's my onli comment 7. What do you think about your self?: i'm straight i dunno im happy wit myself ya feel me 8. What do you tell yourself if times get hard?: i fucked everything up again. it's all my fault. but since baby been tellin me different changin that aspect. 9. What would you give your life for?: sierra 10. What do you think about your first love?: hes 1 of the best guys out there and i wish him the best in life. i'm glad we can at least be friends now. ilu kid 11. What do you think about the first person that loved you? idk 12. What are you scared of?: loosin my baby's 13. What was the saddest moment of your life so far?: 2*8*03 thats it... 14. What would life be without friends?: i dont' think id be able to make it 15. Without family?: lost and lonely. *The Dream Side of You* 1.Do you dream a lot at night?: sometimes 2.Do you dream in black and white, or color?: color usually 3.Do you remember any of your dreams?: some of them. 4.Where is your dream make out spot?: on a small, quiet, private beach w/ the sun setting and the surf crashing on the rocks. 5.What is your dream kiss like?: fulfilled 6.What is your dream job?: somethin im good at n make decent money doin. 7.Where is your dream house?: somewhere nice with lots of windows n glass mirror n lights nice yard fenced in wit my baby's n other potential children wit a pool and jacuzzi theres more cant think 8.Where is your dream vacation?: somewhere tropical/warm. 9.Do you believe that your dreams are a gateway to your soul?: sum what *Family* 1.Parents names: laura n mark 2.Do you live with both of them?: yup 3.Any siblings? If so, names and ages: jonathan 14 - brendon 4 - amber 2 4.Do you get along with your siblings?: most of the time. 5.Do you get along with your parents?: at the moment, yes. my mom and i are getting closer each day, so i guess thats good. considering we lost that awhile ago. my dad . . .eh. *Do you...* 1.Do you write in a journal or diary?: blurty. 2.Do you keep an organizer?: nope 3.Do you believe in love at first sight?: sure its possible 4.Do you believe that every person has one soul mate: yes 5.Do you believe in god?: yes 6.Do you believe in everyone (even the beyond helpless)?: no ahh well maybe 7.Do you believe in having a good education?: yes 8.Do you believe in horoscopes?: sometimes 9.Do you believe in yourself?: sometimes startin to more now or tryin i should say 10.Do you shower daily?: yup 11.Do you like this survey so far?: it's not like i have anything else to do. 12.Do you like the person that sent you this?: yes 13.Do you cry easily?: yeah sometimes 14.Do you believe in Heaven?: yes 15.Do you believe in hell?: yes 16.Do you believe in reincarnation?: yes sometimes i really, really do. hard to explain n would take a long time. so yes. *Favorites* 1.favorite day of the week: friday or saturday 2.favorite ice-cream: mint chocolate chip 3.favorite movies: too many 4.favorite actors: ashton kuthcer 5.favorite actresses: julia roberts 6.favorite quote: alot 7.favorite songs: theres a few at the moment none in particular 8.favorite music groups: thers some i camt think right now 9.favorite music singers:^^^ 10.favorite holiday: xmas and my birthday 11.favorite season: summer/fall/ winter i ove ta snow...wish it would snow in july......o but wait it will lol 12.favorite colors: black, blue, silver 13.favorite flowers: roses 14.favorite book: dont read much but tha one bout ryan white 15.favorite school subject: history *When you hear ___ you think of..* 1.Baseball: boring 2.Jeff: nothin another j name lol 3.Dog: "man's best friend" 4.Warm apple pie: american pie 5.Socks: feet 6.Fish: eww 7.Nail: biter...me? lol jp 8.Amanda: old friend 9.Swimming: water..nice 10.Bologna: ugh 11.Giant Eagle: what the hell 12.A nun: that movie w/ the nuns in it . . . sister act. haha. 13.The # 69: its a #....fun lol 14.School: sucks 4 tha peepz that gotta go *Friendships* 1.Who is your overall~* top of the line~* best friend?: critter 2.Who is your 2nd best friend?: jim 3.Who is your 3rd best friend?: benz 4.Who is your 4th best friend?: missy 5.If there are anymore, you can list them here: WHICH OF YOUR FRIENDS... 6.Is the funniest: jim benz or missy 7.Do you tell your dreams to: missy 8.Do you tell your fears to: jim n missy 9.Do you go to for advice: jim n missy 10.Have you dreamt about: all of em 11.Knows everything about you: none ahh maybe critter or jim 12.Do you tell your secrets to: critter well i used to...missy..sometimes...and now jim 13.Is the most shy: benz 14.Is the loudest: MISSY 15.Can't you live without: all of them 16.Is the most trendy: critter 17.Can be the most annoying: benz 18.Lives the farthest away from you: critter or missy 19.Lives closest to you: jim 20.Are you most like: none ahh critter 21.What do you look for in a friend?: funny, nice, helpful, caring, fun to be around,etc *Relationships* 1.boyfriend/girlfriend's name: jim 2.crush:no1 3.where does that special someone live?: close by 4.things you like in the opposite sex: eyes, hair, personality 5.when was your first kiss: id have to probably say well there was tha one at like 7 but that wasnt anythin really so tha next one was probably i cant remember lol 6.are you a virgin: no 7.the most romantic thing anyone has done for you was: no comment 8.which is more important- personality or looks?: personality *Creative Q's* 1.If you had the choice to spin around the sun, or walk on the moon, which would you choose and why?: walk on the moon. cuz baby n i are drivin in his car there lol. 2.What color do you think best describes you and why?: black/blue 3.If you could be doing anything right now, what would you be doing: sleeping wit my baby's (not sexually) 4.Would you ever share you heart completely with someone else? yeah 5.Which sense could you not live without, and why?: hearing 6.Have you ever written on a mirror? If so what did you write?: no, i don't think so 7.If you could change one thing you did in the last 24 hours, what would it be and why?: hmm cant think 8.Do you prefer sleeping outside beneath the night sky, or your cozy bed indoors?: cozy bed indoors w/ window open and the breez 9.What is the most beautiful thing in the world?: a sunset over the ocean. sierra 10.name one person whose changed your life for the better: sierra. jim 11.What can someone do to you that would turn you on fully- physically or mentally- or both?: always love me, forever and ever. 12.If you knew you were going to pass away within the next few days, what would be the last thing you say, and who would you say that to?: tell everyone i love them, and how much i care about them. i would try to do everything that i've ever wanted to do, but were afraid to. and put sierra in the best hands possible. 13.What is one thing that can make you smile no matter what mood your in?: jim 14.If you could meet anyone, past or present, dead or alive, who would you meet and why?: god or jesus christ 15.And finally, what makes you you?: everything i've ever done/said. thats it im out good night *YoU* post comment

[05 Jul 2003|10:38pm] [ mood | drunk ] [ music | Never Leave You Remix ] fxk fxk fxk. i lost $50 between yesterday n today. wtf. where did it go. there were guys workin on my house. and theyre toolboxes were next 2 my purse. those fxks better not have taken my $. im heated yo. but im chillin tryin not ta think n dwell on it. ya feel me. im drinkin. tryin ta type not doin too good lol. gonna see my baby tomorrow. cant wait. i miss him. ahh im goin outside soon. were havin a bbq at 11 p.m. or whatever time it is. so ima go out n join tha people n festivities lol. wow tryin ta calm down n relax tonite. n every one is screamin theire fxkin heads off. cant everyone relax a lil. itd be nice. fxk it im goin. im out yo. you all have a good night. peace peace. ~WuNN LoVe Xo~ xbabythugtearzx post comment

happy (belated) 4th lol [05 Jul 2003|11:15am] [ mood | content ] [ music | I'll Stand By You (don't ask) ] YESTERDAY* woke up. talked ta momz for a while. went to work ta see some1. went to home depot ta get a key cut. came home n boo was here already. got ready. left. went out to get somethin to eat. picked up nancy n adaliana. dropped them at the house. picked up 2 other girls. came back. chilled. watched tv. waited 4 dads 2 come home. baby dropped off adaliana off. dads came home. started cookin. sierra was sleepin. went outside. talked n whatever. sierra woke up. joined us outside. ate. talked. chilled. went back inside tried to lay sierra down. talked. took a walk (earlier). sat on tha front steps n talked. went back inside. went downstairs in tha dark lol. well...yeah. went upstairs got sierra ready. left. drove home. laid sierra down 2 go 2 sleep. she fell asleep in tha car. went outside n talked ta baby. for a while. bout everything. was gettin a massage n she called. "there went that" lol. i dont know. he left a while after. we were tired. showered. he texted me 2 let me kno he was home. went ta sleep. TODAY* no plans that i know of. maybe i'll call up my girl & have her come down. and we can chill. or somethin. i aint seen her in a while. i'ma clean some shyt up. do some laundry. line up a babysitter 4 tomorrow. i hope. might do tha black bag tonight. i'm still tired. TOMORROW* baby comin at 12:30. we're goin to spend quality time together. go to the falls. and whatever else happens. it's gonna be nice. ilhmtitiwocwkaikiilh. ok ima get some shyt done round here call up my girl. n do whatever. aight im outtie. peace peace. ~WuNN LoVe Xo~ xbabythugtearzx post comment

[03 Jul 2003|08:35pm] Current Clothes: blue jeans, lil pink top nothin excitin Current Mood: tired but happy Current Music: big pimpin lol Current Taste: nada Current Hair: up Current Annoyance: harry potter Current Smell: pears Current thing I ought to be doing: showerin n relaxin Current Desktop Picture: my girls n i Current Favorite Group: dont know Current Book you're reading: not Current CD in CD Player: 50 Current DVD in player: harry potter in one, ice age in the other, and barber shop in the other Current Color Of Toenails: bronze Current Refreshment: none Current Worry: boo You Touched: uhh... guess boo You Talked to: my mother You Hugged: ae You Instant messaged: drew,lemonia,n johnny You Yelled At: boss 4 bein a d*k You Kissed: jim FAVORITE... [ Food ] chicken or n e thing italian [ Drink ] iced t or coke [ Color ] blue [ Album ] albums...ha [ Shoes ] sandals n new kicks [ Candy ] uh.. i dont eat candy often [ Animal ] cats [ TV Show ] dont watch tv [ Movie ] thers a few [ Dance ] none [ Song ] don't know [ Vegetable ] cucumbers n potatoes [ Fruit ] bananas [ Cartoon ] nooo ARE YOU... [ Understanding ] uh huh [ Open-minded ] yeah most of tha time [ Arrogant ] no [ Insecure ] at times [ Interesting ] i think [ Random ] yes - very [ Hungry ] barely [ Friendly ] yea [ Smart ] yea [ Moody ] generally not [ Childish ] when i wanna be [ Independent ] yea [ Hard working ] yes [ Organized ] for tha most part [ Healthy ] yea [ Emotionally Stable ] ahh well yeah [ Shy ] sometimes [ Difficult ] sometimes [ Attractive ] from what im told [ Bored Easily ] sometimes [ Messy ] try not ta be [ Thirsty ] yes [ Responsible ] yes [ Obsessed ] no [ Angry ] sometimes [ Sad ] not lately [ Happy ] usually [ Hyper ] sometimes [ Trusting ] very few [ Talkative ] very depends on my mood [ Legal ] yea well soon enough WHO DO YOU WANT TO... [ Kill ] j.g. catch tha drift lol [ Slap ] ^^ [ Get Really Wasted With ] havent thought bout that but usually wit l or m [ Get High With ] --- [ Look Like ] no one [ Talk To Offline ] dont know does it matter [ Talk To Online ] who cares post comment

[03 Jul 2003|08:28pm] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | big pimpin ] tonight ima chill out n relax. maybe get some laundry done if tha clothes iwant ta wear tomorrow are dirty. shower. do my eyebrows. watch some movies. whatever. get some stuff ready fortomrrow. cuz i gotta be up and ready by like 12. i can do it. jus cant say i nessacarily wanna. but for him i will. i have ta straighten some shyt up here cuz tha kids are destroyin. jon went ta tha fireworks wit jet n every1. was gonna go but got things to do people to see whatever. momz went wit dad ta work. n ta see afriend. so im alone. woo. lol. were leavin here bout 12 tomorrow. goin to my boo's. chillin. eatin. than who knows. were gonna go and do our own thing jus not sure what yet. sat* the 5th - still undecided sun* the 6th - boo we'll discuss it tomorrow mon* the 7th - work :( tue* the 8th - work wed* the 9th - work thur* the 10th - work fri* the 11th - work so theres my schedule from what im aware. there will be more to do i know. just not sure right now ok time ta get a moveo n things n do what i gotta do. aight so im out. peace peace. ~WuNN LoVe Xo~ xbabythugtearzx post comment

[02 Jul 2003|10:35pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | 21 Answers ] yea well im tired so this aint gonna be long. but today went to work, hell of a fxkin day. wore me out like u wouldnt believe. tired as hell. left early not mad early jus lil early. went wit my boo. came home changed. left went ta tha mall got my nails done. met up wit my aunt cousin n grandfather. went out to eat.walked round for a lil. dropped them off. came home. talked for a lil while. he jus left recently. mad tired. thinkin bout goin ta bed. tomorrow jus workin maybe takin sierra ta tha doc. after work. dont know yet. fri* 4th - boos house. somewhere else n whatever. sat* 5th - not sure yet sun 6th* - goin out wit boo ta tha falls¿ those r tha plans as of now. i believe. im goin ta relax. peace peace. ~WuNN LoVe Xo~ xbabythugtearzx c.j post comment

awww [01 Jul 2003|09:52pm] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | Angel ] so i havent been updatin as often as i was. cause i have otha things to do now. like spend time wit my boo. and yadda yadda. been workin all week. only a 4 day week. off for tha 4th. nice. saw my boo tonite. was gonna get my nails done but didnt cuz my munchkin was sleepin. so pretty much we spent time together. talked. played wit sierra when she got up. went outside. cooked. ate kinda. talked. jus did whatever. got called from GUESS WHO. fxkin bytch. nah its not like that but c'mon yo u aint 2gether give up. get ova it. move on. whatever its all good. i aint trippin. so he jus left. im tired. i havent gotten good sleep in a while. so tonight ima try n catch up on some zzz's. miss my bebe. tomorrow...work...what else is new. chiropractor after work. hopefully get my nails done after that. he has stuff to do after work tomorrow too. so i dont know. thursday work and not sure if i dont get my nails done tomorrow then on thursday. not sure of anything else. friday..tha 4th. goin down ta my boo'z. chill n eat. whatever. come home. i dont know exactly yet. saturday im not sure no plans yet. sunday goin out wit my boo again. dont know probably tha falls. i have no idea yet. we'll see what happens. but im mad tired so im off ta chill n relax. every1 have a goodnight. peacez ~WuNN LoVe Xo~ xbabythugtearzx CNJ6*28*03 post comment

[29 Jun 2003|02:43pm] [ mood | touched ] [ music | Never Leave you ] Last night...Saturday... he came up. We talked. She called 100 x's. lol. all good. went to the store and got some stuff. came home watched part of a movie. talked. he was gonna leave we went outside and talked some more. we did it. its us now. only us. yay. it feels so right. today he's goin down the shore wit her. which is totally cool. tomorrow back to work. til thursday. friday off goin with him to his place wit sierra. gonna be together all day. sunday goin to tha falls. i dont know if were doing anything else this week. i just know thats wha we planned so far. today i gotta finish tha laundry its pretty much done just gotta fold it and do a blanket. later might go swimmin. and might go get a pair of jeans. and sierras dress shorts outfits blanket and pillow and shoes. waitin 4 moms 2 come home. cuz she got tha car. currently watchin amber & brendon. amber's bein bad. what else is new. im sick of this. sierra was takin a nap til amber woke her up. anyway im tired. last night round 1130 i got home and bb was here. havent seen him in a while so its cool but we didnt do much. talked 2 lemonia, nothin important lol. well im off cuz i got shyt ta do. peace peace. ~WuNN LoVe Xo~ xbabythugtearzx post comment

where do i start? [28 Jun 2003|11:15am] [ mood | grateful ] [ music | Ima Soldier ] yesterday was nice. he was early. waited for me at work. we left came back to my house. i got dressed fixed my hair n make up. we went to meet grandma, grandpa, my aunt, and cousin, and mom. left went to the restaurant. ate dinner. after dinner talked to them for a little. went to the store to get sierra diapers and snacks and gum lol. left drove around for a lil while cuz again we didnt plan anything out tooo well. lol. decided to play pool again. went to tha pool hall played two games. dealt wit annoyin ppl on both sides of us. through the whole night had bout 6 or more interruptin calls which was ok. i can deal wit it. but it was nice. today...ima do some laundry. organize a lil. clean some shyt up. etc. bb might come today but who knows. he never gives me direct answers. which is really startin to annoy me. tonight...might go out wit him again. we'll see what happens. we're supposed to but he might have somethin he has to handle which is completely understandable. we'll see in a lil while i guess. well i better get a move on shyt before nothing gets done. lol. its saturday my chill day. i tend to get a lil lazy but thats not a bad thing. i bust my ass tha rest of tha week. anyways im out. peace peace. ~WuNN LoVe Xo~ xbabythugtearzx post comment

Hot as Hell...LOOOOONG Day [26 Jun 2003|06:38pm] [ mood | hot ] [ music | Baby Get On Your Knees (GUnit! 50 lol) ] Today was long, hot, and tiring. It reached a 104º at like 1 p.m. That's hot. Plus our humidity is crazy. we were so over booked well not that we were overbooked so much but we had massive walks ins and had to take care of them. it was nessacary. so half of tha work for today will have to be done tomorrow. ugh. tomorrows my last day for this week. nice. tomorrow night might go out to eat & to tha mall. dont know yet we'll see. m aka bb might come over tomorrow. i still haveno idea. ima get ready for saturday night friday night. not get ready but pick up shyt. ahead of time so i can jus be ready when he gets here. last night went out to eat. no where special but we werent that hungry. went down to clifton. came back up here.went to tha pool hall. played some pool. came home talked for a while. he left. texted eachother, etc. slept woke up n got ready for work. texted me. he did it! saturday night goin to see the italian job. eat maybe. pool maybe. all depends on our mood. and talk. we'll see what else we do that night. asked him ta be tha g.f. of her. said yes. BUT if we were 2 S.T.4.E. then what? ya know. ahhh all good. im hot as hell. gettin in tha shower. doin my laundry. waitin on my damn a/c. so im out. peace peace. ~WuNN LoVe Xo~ xbabythugtearzx post comment

back to tha wonderful work week.... [23 Jun 2003|06:38pm] [ mood | determined ] [ music | Summertime ] im tellin u if he keeps up his shyt. i might have to say sumthin about it. cuz i cant deal wit it no more. and someone told me to hit him. which i wanna. but i dont know. and ontop of that talk bout tha bread. wtf is up wit that. yo u kno wha i need. fxkin do sumthin. cuz u no i can turn u in for that shyt too. so straighten out or i will fxk you over. im sorry. but thats tha way its gotta be. so i found out today that i have 4th of july weekend off. nice. might go down the shore or do sumthin. thats only 2 weekends away and i have no idea what im doin yet. i asked my boy wat he was doin. he dun no yet. so maybe we'll make plans. were plannin ta go down tha shore sometime this summer. who knows when though. hopefully soon or in august. maybe round his bday. that would be nice. so its ta do it naturally. we'll see. hope for tha best. and wish me luck. please! its hot as hell today. wtf is up wit this weather. talk bout craziness. we went from 60's to 90's over night. i told ya we went straight from winter into summer. no spring. fxked up shyt. anyway ima go cuz ima do some shyt i need ta take care of. girly things. like eyebrows, nails, facial, etc. so im out. peace peace. ~WuNN LoVe Xo~ xbabythugtearzx post comment

¿confusion¿ [22 Jun 2003|08:50pm] [ mood | bitchy ] [ music | Youre Still The One ] im so confused and upset. THEY made up. what else is new. SHE called me. wtf. DONT call me. i dont know you. dont wana know you. dont act like youre my friend. cuz u aint. and i dont owe you shyt. so dont come lookin for it. cuz you wont be gettin it. understood? i sure as hell hope so. i have such a headache. and im such a confused state of mind. wtf. jeezuz. wat to do or say. my thumb hurts from textin. stuck. only you. think not. i am too. help me. lol. tell me what ya want. what to do. someone just help me lol. fxk it im done. i have a headache. ima go. ~WuNN LoVe Xo~ xbabythugtearzx post comment

last night was great [22 Jun 2003|11:41am] [ mood | awake ] [ music | Italian Techno Song ] last night was great. lol. we went out. we were gonna go ta tha movies but decided not to. so we were gonna play pool. but the damn pool hall was closed. what the hell is that? so anyway we jus did some shyt. went to wendys. then blockbuster and whatever. talked for a long time. about everything. came home. texted eachother for a while. i'm so glad i saw him and talked to him. it doesnt matter what him and i do. i have fun with him. he's one of the greatest guys. and thats no lie. i'm completely myself wit him. he makes me feel different then every one else. never have i fallen or cared for someone so fast. i dont know what to say. lol. im lost for words at this moment. AND NO WE DIDNT HAVE SEX! on another note. today i got laundry and stuff to do. not much cuz i did most of it yesterday. so today could be relaxin. nice. yesterday before i went out last night i cleaned up some stuff. went to kaylas birthday party. sierra was playin with all the little kids. brett,kayla,jason, and whatever other little babies were there. it was so cute. but then she got tired. we came home. i put her down. got ready. and whatever. today i heard that GYURO is back! he better not be. i heard hes lookin 4 me. 4 what? wtf does he want. that muthafxka. ahh whatever. ok well ima go and do what i gotta do. ill hit this back up sometime. ~WuNN LoVe Xo~ xbabythugtearzx post comment

yea [21 Jun 2003|12:52pm] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | I'll be loving you ] -Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're the kind of chick that can hang out with your boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't care about presents or about going to fancy placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy being around your boyfriend. What Kind of Girlfriend Are You? brought to you by Quizilla LOVE is your chinese symbol! What Chinese Symbol Are You? brought to you by Quizilla post comment

last night [21 Jun 2003|09:34am] [ mood | calm ] [ music | I forgot the name that "emotional" song from 2000 ] last night things were aight. i went to tha mall got a few things. went & got somethin to eat. dropped jon off. went to pick up a.e. & gp. went to tha hosp none of us had been there in a while. so we figured it was time for a visit lol. saw a few people there we hadn't seen in a while. it was cool. after that went to tha store got some stuff now mind you its 1 am and were at the store just buyin random shyt. lol. dropped a.e. & gp off. came home chilled and relaxed. went to sleep. and that was my night. today i got some stuff to do during the day. i thought i was goin to tha mall and chillin tonight but i dont think i am. i think ima do what i gotta do here and maybe possibly go to kayla's bday party. for sierra's sake. i dont wanna go cuz its most likely gonna rain and then tha whole party is gonna have to go inside. and that's gonna be alot of people. people i dont wanna see or deal with today. my stomach hurts. i'm tired. i have a dry throat. maybe i should just stay home do my stuff round here and relax. cuz i cant be takin sick days off of work and if im sick i dont want to feel like shyt tha whole weekend and week.i still have no idea what im doin today. i dont know what im doin tomorrow neither. what i wanna do i probably cant cuz hes busy. just texted him, waitin for it back, we'll see what happens. boo boo & baby angel are doin sumthin wit the sink. my munchkin is bein such a good girl today. just like thursday. and yesterday. she's been soooooooooo great! she's gettin big. and older and definetely alot more smarter. well ima go cuz i got shyt to do. but when i know what im doin i might hit this back up. peace peace. ~WuNN LoVe Xo~ xbabythugtearzx post comment

yesssssssssss [20 Jun 2003|06:55pm] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | Always ] its friday no more work for this week. im tired tonite. so tonite ima probably jus chill round here. not do too much. tomorrow might go to the mall or somethin, then go out wit people. i dont know. sunday im not sure yet. last night: hella nice. saw him. chilled here for a while. talked. went outside. talked more. went and got a shake. had a really good nice conversation. came back. he left. it was really nice. we talked bout things i cant put in here. only cause someone might read it. he knows who im talkin bout. lol. we were both really happy. and probably even happier (but possibly confused) when we put the cards out of tha table. glad we did though. both of us are. ilu. lol. i can ramble on and on and on bout it but i wont. texted me a few x's today. can't wait to do it again. ooo im gettin a new phone. woo woo. lol. what else. cant think. well im tired and talkin ta drew and lemonia so im out. ooooooooo good luck at tha dance and hope you had a good grad practice. let me know whats up. peace peace. ~WuNN LoVe Xo~ xbabythugtearzx post comment

sick of some peoples shyt [18 Jun 2003|07:44pm] [ mood | hyper ] [ music | What Would You Do (City High) ] today wouldnt have been a bad day if jay didnt start his shyt wit me again. i swear one day ima drop him and he's gonna be sorry. he tells me he wants ta hit me and punch me and whatever. so i said aight do it you wanna do it so bad then fxkin do it but then you can kiss your ass goodbye cuz after i drop you youre gettin locked up. tha only reason i take it there is cuz ive been hit and "abused" before and i wont tolerate another guy tryin ta lay a hand on me. so then he tells me he'll put me behind bars. aight hun you have nothin to use on me so shut tha fxk up and know what youre talking bout before you say anything at all. youre fxkin stupid. then he tries to tell me what i can and cant say what i can and cant do. yet im .....than he is. but not that im tha only girl that works there. and so its ok for the guys to and say what i do but its not for me. thats sexist! remember we have EQUAL RIGHTS NOW! jay you really need to grow up..im sorry but you do. victor didnt annoy me today. thank god. lol. JACK was there. yay. he was out yesterday. :( bob had an attitude yesterday afternoon and this morning like wtf i didnt do shyt to you. dont take your problems out on me. on a better note. tomorrow supposed to see jim. omg i havent seen him in like 5 years. it should be cool. we gotta finish plannin it out though. that might help right. i got the babysitter and everything lined up i just gotta find out what time, and what were doing. other than that were good. hopefully saturday night ill be able to see my boy. i saw him monday. miss him. waitin to talk to jim and johnny. i was supposed to see johnny this saturday but thats not happening probably now cuz of the situation. talkin to drew right now. thats my nicca. tonight ima probably chill do some laundry, clean some shyt up, organize some stuff, and whatever. maybe paint my nails. maybe do my hair to see how it looks before i do it tomorrow. oh and ima probably go through some stuff that was in tha basement. thats another story. LONG story. get to that some other time. well im gonna do some stuff i gotta get done. but maybe ill hit this back up layta. if not tomorrow. aight peace peace. ~WuNN LoVe Xo~ xbabythugtearzx post comment

arghhhhh! [17 Jun 2003|06:41pm] [ mood | stressed ] [ music | My Way ] pissed off ta tha max today. i hate ignorant people. why are guys so ignorant? they always insist on bein right even when theyre are proven wrong. wtf is that about? obviously youre not right if you were proved wrong. and you will NEVER always be right. so face the fact and get tha fxk over it. almost flipped out on jay today at work. i swear some people will never learn. and they think its funny. well when my fist rocks his jaw. he wont be sayin that. theres alot goin thru my head right now and im severly pissed so im out 4 now. peace peace. ~WuNN LoVe Xo~ xbabythugtearzx post comment

beautiful...lol [15 Jun 2003|04:31pm] [ mood | busy ] [ music | Say My Name (don't ask why) ] yesterday got better. it wasnt all shytty. todays a really nice day. o yesterday i got a tan. somehow dont even know how. today got up and played wit sierra for soooooooooo many hours, fed her, gave her a bath, put down for a nap. went drivin. got dad a fathers day gift. and a new bra set. woooo. lol. drove home. got munchkin up from her nap and now shes eatin. work tomorrow. yay. was gonna go swimmin today but its not that hot out. dad is goin out wit mom tonite for "daddy's day". didnt have to get sierras daddy a present. wooo woo. lol only cause well yea ya know. i think lemonia said that s.s. said to tell sierra he said hi. interestin. im confuseded. jack and lucy. lol. JACK! well yea 4 those of you who dont know what im talkin bout sorry but its a long story. hmmm....lets see....what else has gone on. i dont remember. im too tired. todays tha day i gotta do tha wonderful laundry, my eyebrows, nails, facial, etc, all tha girlie things. sounds fun right. well gotta do it. hmm so tha race is over. kurt busch won. not that i really care but it was on. gotta clean tha mess sierra jus made. so im out 4 now. peace peace ~WuNN LoVe Xo~ xbabythugtearzx post comment

my life is hell.... [14 Jun 2003|12:31pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | For You ] well no call last night so i didn't go out wit my boy. was gonna go ta my girls house but didnt. so now im home still. was supposed to go to tha mall this morning, but guess thats not happenin. what else is fxkin new. my moms bytchin at me for every lil thing. im really gettin sick of it. i cant take this shyt no more. when things start goin good. it never fails. i dont understand what she expects me to do. i work all day MORE than full time, i work over time too. get paid shyt money. spend all my money on sierra. and some on me. you all know my situation what the hell am i supposed to do?! i'm sick of cryin n feelin like a failure. when im sure if she was in my shoes, she'd be doin tha same. or when she was in my shoes. she wasnt better than what im doin. yea times have changed. not for tha better. everything is harder now. what is she thinkin? i'm goin insane. my head aches. tears are flowin. i jus can't get away long enough to regain my sanity. fxkin mark my so called father talks ta her...behind my back. fxkin come ta me and say what ya gotta say. dont talk ta her bout it. that dont get you no where. fxkin grow up n act your age. you talk bout tha kids i used ta chill wit doin tha same shyt. wtf are you doin? i give up, thats it, i give up! is that what you want from me? theres nothin more i can say or do for you. to try and make you happy. ive tried for years n nothin works. its always all good for a little while. then somethin fxks up and we're right back where we started. i want you to take a day out of your life and put yourself in my shoes. see what i do, what i feel, and then tell me i'm fxkin up. cuz as soon as you go through my day and see what ihave to do, how i feel, and how hard it really is, then you'll know that i'm not fxkin up. im tryin. but its not easy. this world is not an easy place to live in. and alot of you got shyt handed to you from your parents. yea well i aint got it like that. i'll give them this much, they have helped to a degree. but not with as much as you all get. thats all im sayin. im not spoiled like you all. i work for what igot. look at it this way, most people do it as a team. im doin it single handedly. its a lot harder. so congrats on what you got. i wish i had it. but dont hate on me when i cant do everything you can. only because you got another person to help you. im done trippin. have a good day. ~WuNN LoVe Xo~ xbabythugtearzx post comment

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