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Sunday, July 15th, 2007
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9:23p - ♥♥♥
So...This weekend was Suuuper freaking Crazy but Amazing!!! So Friday I already knew I was staying the night with Bailey b/c I had to see My ♥Tony!♥ He stayed the night with me but before I left Friday Matt already told me if I was staying to pack my stuff so I left it & Called him later that night & told him to leave the Door unlocked,So After ♥Tony♥Left We went & I got all my Clothes & Holly's then we went back to her house & everything was fine ♥Tony♥ Came at like 9 :D ahh I Love him Sooo Much!..I'll get into that in a little while though!....So he left to get something to eat & during that time Bailey & Donnie started fighting & then everything just got crazy I was freaked out Holly was scared & I wanted to leave finally when she said we could leave Donnie was just really freaking me out & I didnt want Holly to be in a situation where she wasnt safe had I known any of this would happen I would'nt have even had her there! anyways I didnt trust her to take me b/c I didn't know what was gonna happen I asked her if I could call Matt & Donnie said yes & Bailey said no & that she would tell Matt I was with ♥Tony♥...Anyways ♥Tony♥ ended up bringing me home anyway b/c Hollys safety was waaay more important than her telling Matt who i was with! but ♥Tony♥ was Sooo sweet & he is So Good with Holly & she really seems to like him & Im sooo Happy about that! :D My Mom met him & she liked him so Im happy about that too! I told Matt about ♥Tony♥ taking me to My Moms b/c Matt came & Picked me up,So even though I left I was gone im now somehow back home again I still am :( I hope his Parents are Happy b/c thats what they wanted here I was so freaking Happy Friday night I never though about Matt once after I called to make sure I could get My Stuff it was Just Me,♥Tony♥ & Holly b/c Bailey stayed with Donnie & I Loved it! & Omg I have to say even though I probably shouldnt on here b/c somehow everyone ends up seeing my stuff that ♥Tony♥Is Amazinggg! we had sex & I mean with the other ppl it wasnt ever like this with Matt it isnt like this but with ♥Tony♥ Its something I've never felt before My Hands Actually went numb to where I couldnt even really open then & My legs were numb & kinda shaky..I dont know what he does but omg it's the best feeling in the world he is amazing I never wanted to have sex with him this soon But Im really glad that I did b/c now there is just so many feelings I dont regret it at all It just makes me love him that much more!...I havent been this happy since my 1st b/f who I thought was my soulmate,but I think i just thought that b/c he was my 1st everything!...with Tony it's even better than with him the feelings are different he's all I think about I could be having the worst day in the world & just see him & everything would be okay,he is everything to me I have no idea what I would do without him he is sooo amazing to me & Holly both! I've fallen for him & it scares me to death b/c I've never really loved anyone like this & Im sooo scared of getting hurt...I know it seems wrong of me b/c im married but it's not like i was lookin for anyone b/c I wasnt I just seen him oneday & I had to talk to him something about him,I had to,Im sooo glad I did he is one of the best things to Happen to me Besides Holly,everything felt so right this weekend when we were with him nothing bothered me I wasnt stressed I was able to just let go of everything & then Im brought back into this I've cried all day Holly has been fussy & I just can't take it anymore I've wanted to leave since we first got Married anyway so this isnt because of ♥Tony♥ He's not the reason Im leavin he's part of it b/c now Im in Love with him & I dont want to be without him it hurt so bad not waking up beside of him this morning :( I mean he lets Holly sleep in the middle of us & he holds her & everything! what other guy would do that?!...well I guess I've wrote enough for now......♥BrEeStEr♥ .........I ♥*Pringle*
current mood:  calm (comment on this)
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