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Monday, June 18th, 2007
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6:17p - ♥There's A Reason Why Certain People Meet♥
Okay so Im like Suuuuper Happy!alot Has happened withing the past 4days thing I never would have expected! but Im really happy that they did...but Thursday Me,Matt & Holly went with His Parents to eat like we do Every other Thursday & I walked in Monte De Rey & in the corner was this guy this amazing guy lol! & we sat in the booth right in front of theirs so I got to look at him the whole time or as he says drool lol!...but yeah the whole time I was like god I soo like this guy & he had this chick sitting beside me which kinda made me a little sad but I knew I'd seen him on Myspace before so that night I messaged him!...I know gay of me but oh well!...anyways we ended up talking & went to the Movies with Bailey & His Friend Joseph Saturday night to see Knocked Up & I Had the Most fun I've had in A Really long time! We basically talked through the whole Movie & considering we'd never had a Convo before other than on here I though this is gonna be awkward but when we started talking it was like I'd known him forever lol yeah cheesy whatever but im serious!....usualy im looking for flaws & reasons not to like guys but honestly I didn't do that with him I was too busy talking & having fun I dont really know what happend through most of the movie except right at the end & when he pointed when they were having sex! lol! he's the most amazing person I think I've met In A really Long time! I feel like we just clicked & I miss him super bad he says he feels the same way & that he thinks there is something there b/c of how well we got along so this leaves me In a really suck situation which I don't mind b/c I've missed this guy like crazy ever since saturday! it's just something I can't explain sitting there Thursday night I would have never know all this would have happend by today (Monday) but Im really happy that It did....Me & Matt havent ever really been in love I don't guess it was always I thought I Loved him or something Just like at first I Loved him for his car lol but then we wrecked it that night & then he was less appealing & then I stayed with him then I got pregnant when we had been dating 4months & so ever since then I've felt kind of stuck I mean don't get me wrong I Love him but Im not in Love with him he's my Baby's Daddy I'll always have some feelings for him but not like he's my soulmate or anything...we just don't click it's not there,I know all of this makes me sound terrible but it's true I do feel a little bad b/c I miss this guy & think about him all day certain things smell like him & it gives me butterflies that hasnt happend to me in like forever! Im really scared he dosent feel the same way though,that would seriously hurt me but I would have to get over it eventually & I guess it would be payback since Im Married but I hope to god that dosen't happen! well I guess im done here for now...I guess I sound like a Major Bitch & A Major Whore...but you can't help what you feel for ppl everything happens for a reason! b/c even if I hadnt messaged him that night I saw him in wal-mart the next night & felt the same way so I would have anyway....well I guess im done now.............♥BrEeStEr♥ .... *Baconman* lol although Im not fond of that nickname Im not saying his real name so yeah!
current mood:  ecstatic (comment on this)
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