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Friday February 6th 2004 x 5:23 PM
subject: staying up till 3:3O talking to you, writing your name all over my book, apple pie and nasty snow
mood:  ditzy
music: The Starting Line - The Saddest Girl Story
*squeal* talked to Jen on the phone last night. *dances* now she's gone :o( and won't be back to saturday... i ish gonna miss her. *pout*
it snowed a yucky, slushy, nasty kinda snow last night. bleh.
i'm sorta aggravated that my dad hasen't call me. it's like, everytime we talk it's because i called him, i don't understand why he can't call me. ever. it just makes me frustrated because i feel like i'm the only one trying to start a relationship, it's like.. 'hey, dad? if you don't want to talk to me tell me.' yanno what i mean? whatever. i'm about to give up on him tho.
i re-did my away messages lol. i deleted a whole bunch that i didn't use. i had a lot. now i only have like 24 - i just counted - ok, so that's still a lot. but.. in a few weeks or so i'll delete them again.
i'm about to take a shower and then i dunno what i'm gonna do because it's so crappy out that no-one wants to do anything. i don't blame them. it snowed and now it's raining which means it's very, very yucky.
erm.. my mom said Jen's a very nice girl . *giggles*
i just got out of the shower and i braided my hair = ) it smells like pear!! and it got so long.. it's down to my lower back!!
i was thinking about this summer. and it's gonna own. i'm going to Vegas!! and i'll be 18!!!!!!!!!! and i'm going to KS!!!!! i'm afraid of flying but, Jen and Sarah are worth it.
well.. i'm gonna go now only because my step father is bitching that he wants to go on even tho he was on today from 1Oam - 3pm!!!!! whatever, i have to bake anyways.
i love ya'll
xoxo
one day you'll turn to
me and ask what's more
important... you or my life?
and i'll say my life and you'll
turn around and walk away
never knowing you are my life....
Jen, i love you!
x_erica_x
Props: Talkin to Jen on the phone last night...
Slops: Jen being gone till tomorrow
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[ EDIT: 8:35 ] ok, so now i'm in a bit of a bad mood so i'm just gonna rant about something. alright - friday night, i'm gonna be bored and alone until he gets off work at 9:3O and gets here by 1O or something... not a problem.. not what i wanna rant about.. i just had to get that off my chest.. and i don't really know why. so now.. onto me being mad.
There's this girl i used to be friends with.. now.. i was best friends with her until she turned into a really fake, stuck up and snobby bitch. well, anyways so i'm reading her journal and she's talking about these kids, who were like my best friends ever. well, fuck them all. but that's besides the point. so, let me tell you how this girl is talking about my cousin Angela, saying she's kick ass and all this shit.. and i'm just staring at the screen like.. WTF... does this girl even realize that she's my cousin.. and she's saying all this shit that she's so awesome and blah blah blah, i'm like.. we have the same fuckin' last name.. fuckin' moron.
now, i don't know if any of this is making sense because it probably isn't i think i'm just pissed off because this bitch ( and i emphisize the bitch in there ) stopped talking to me when i left highschool and that still sort of bothers me that all those little fuckers dropped me like i don't exsist. i hope they all burn in hell. fuckin bitches.
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arghhhhhhhhhhhh
i'm so fuckin' pissed
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1. a movie
2. a book
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4. a Blurty user not on my friend's list
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Wednesday February 4th 2004 x 7:04 PM
subject: is it ok that i don't give a fuck if i offend people anymore?
mood:  angry
music: Konstitine - SoCo
man, dude.. i had such a horrible sleep. i went to bed at like 4am and then i woke up at 11 and forced myself to go back to sleep. i only wanted to go to sleep till like 12 and i wond up sleeping till 2. i hate sleeping late like that. fuck.
argh. i have a feeling today is gonna suck because now i'm in a frustrated mood. i have to go to the mall and look for a job, i know i put in application to circutcity, but thats only one place. well, i have an application in at DEB. hmm.. i'm thinking about other places and like nothing is hitting me. hmm... there has to be more music stores in the mall then Hot Topic and FYE lol. there's just gotta be. ohh! i could try KB Toys. ok.. i'm like really gonna write out a list of stores i'm gonna go to. lol.
hm.. anyways presedent bush is a fuck face! i think we all know that already but he is!! He said that he's gonna try to amend the US constatution to stop gay and lesbian marriages!!! i think thats bullshit. and then i was talking to people about it and they were saying how people shouldn't get married if they're the same sex! i was like WTF why not. and they fired back god made Adam and Eve not Adam and Steve!!! i was like WHAT?! ohh.. that threw me in a fuckin.. i don't even have a word for it.. i flipped out man.. i went crazy! i was like.. first of all asshole, god created all men (and women) equally so fuck you and your stupid god shit.. 2nd of all.. if you believe in god then you believe god made people.. well, you're born gay and you can't help liking the same sex!! i hate when people bring religion into it!! it has nothing to do with whatever the fuckin bible says!! the bible also says Live and let live and all men are created equally, so what you're telling me is that all Straight men and women are created equally and if you're in love with a man and a women then you're not an equal!! fuck you!!! my friend said it the best - she was like 'leave it to a fuckin' christian to get into eveyones buisness' - LMFAO that is sooooooooooo fuckin' true!! yanno, it really pisses me off.. it really does. if the bible says live and let live then fuckin do it!! fuckin let people live. i'll put it in easier terms for the assholes that don't seem to understand what that means . let me do me while you do you
i'm sorry guys but this is really a big bother to me.. like this really hurts and offends me.. and i usually do what i can not to offend people. but i'm done with that. i'm done with constantly every day being offended.. so guess what if i offended you.. i don't care.. if you're christian and you took offence to that.. i honestly don't give a fuck (unless you're jen..)
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i'm going to be mad now!
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Monday February 2nd 2004 x 12:48 PM
subject: And this may be the closest thing that you’ll ever receive to an apology...
mood:  sad
music: fefe dobson - everything ( MTV 2 )
ok, so again... i just called back Best Buy, the guy was at lunch; the lady that i talked to said he'll call me back in an within the next hour and a half, but i heard i'd be getting a call back for 4 days now!! i dunno, it's just kinda rediculous because i want this job so ufckin bad!!
i've been running out of catchy little subjects, which means my life is getting boring because it usually has to do with that day or the night before or something.
bleh. stupid everything.
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that was me being frustrated.
i'm hungry, but we have nothing to eat.
last night was cool. and yay! i didn't have to deal with football
emo boys rule!
Sarah started a new story, seems interesting.. very interesting, and guess what?! i'm not in it *huffs and stomps foot* Just kidding!!!!!! lol, it's an awesome story so far, i <33 it so much!!
i neeeeed a life and this job!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i think imma go make myself some food because i'm really hungry.
when this guy or girl calls me back i will update and tell ya'll what happens..
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love ya'll
i close my eyes
i can see you dead
x _ erica _ x
props: falling asleep early last night and waking up early this morning
slops: being really hungry and having no food in the house
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Saturday January 31st 2004 x 11:57 PM
subject: 'kvj;lkna:LVNdsmNDb;lknsdfjghlakdglszdhfglkjsnd;lknzs;lkndb;lkzsndfhjhs;dlfk
mood: infuriated
music: bleh - bleh
this has to be the fuckin' worst weekend ever.
everything has just been sucking so much.
i hate not knowing if i got this job and i hate not doing anything on weekends. last night i didn't do anything because i didn't feel so great and tonight eveyone is working!
i'm so cold!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm drinkin grape juice
it's good..
all i got to say is the letter.. ok i'm done with that convo.
SARAH'S AT MEST RIGHT NOW! and i'm at his house, a bunch of the guys are here.. i locked myself in his room, lmfao.
i wish Jen would come on, or i wish it'd be 2 - 2:3O so i could call Sarah and see how the show went?
k . i'm going to lay..
props: Sarah seeing Mest
slops: not knowing if i got the job
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