| what are u talking about?!? |
[21 Sep 2003|12:09am] |
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YO. liz n' nicole are herr. yeah..we went w/ sammy like all nite. and dan was w/ us...yah DAN ha. lol ok well..hm..i am looking at a stuffed shi tzu. kIIIIInda crazy. i don't really feel like posting rite now. buuuuuuuuuut. ok. c ya. :o)
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| one more thought... |
[19 Sep 2003|10:22pm] |
and for my final (or whawt Mite be my final) thought for this evening...
i wish i had a boy to talk to that signed my blurty with sweet things.
wow liz..your lucky :o)
yah..im a dork.
nite.
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| give up my body in bed, all for an empty hotel. |
[19 Sep 2003|09:57pm] |
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well the monsoon didn't come. i Knew it wouldn't. but whatever..no school so it was rad. b/c today i went w/ liz n' nicole to the mall lol. but that wasn't fun expect for the crazy guys. that was a good time lol. and um..we went out to eat @ Alfredo's...now THAT was a good time b/c we had salads and liz had a hot wing hogie..yum. but yah...mickey didn't get to play cuz Border's electricty went out lol. i spelled that wrong. but yah, that was aggrivating. so we made the most of a bad thing. and that was dinner and the mall lol. Oh and a car ride w/ Conroy lol. it was a good time EVEN THO i killed a spider on his dashboard w/ my wet flip-flop lol. but as for rite now...i am babysitting Corey my little nephew. he's asleep but im just chillin here til about 1 or 2 when my sister gets home from shooting pool. i wonder if dan will really call me? eh whatever. i <3 dan. but don't tell his woman. she'll cut me. lol. it's ok tho. she can hate me all she wants. it's not going to make me wanna see dan any less.
i'll post later perhaps...
oh yah..i get to see BRAND NEW @ TROC. in PHiLLY oN OCT. 31ST YAHHHHHHH! lol ANd stay in a hotel room. rock on.
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| THE MONSOON iS COMiNG!!!! |
[18 Sep 2003|11:13pm] |
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Welll..tonite was Crazy let me tell u. the bell game is canceld b/c of the monsoon and so is school so lol tonit was nice. i chilled w/ JACOB!! liz, nicole, and char. itwas a good time. we went to the cafe cuz i skated down to meet char and then i went to the mall to meet liz nicole und jake. i got to take DOS pictures of jake..im so happy i Finally got them. after going crazy while we walkd over to the cafe again for a smoothie lol the monsoon started picking up. haha itw as great. i feel like it's STORY time lol. and jake picked 2 flowers for me lol. he's so nice to me. lol he Also baught me a little stuffed puppy the other day at WaL*Mart lol. and then we headed back to the mall to see Mr. Sammy BACK to the cafe and then a Lovely ride around downtown/west side/west mountain lol while listenin to ataris, ama, and like twenty other bands. it was great. well..now it's off for a lovely nites rest so.......BATTEN DOWN THE HATECHES FOLKS..the MONSOON iS A CoMiN!!!!!!!!!
g'nite
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[14 Sep 2003|10:41pm] |
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went to the movies today after werk w/ dan, sammy, n' liz. it was ok. the movie Sucked tho...it was Matchstick Men. and it was Awful. Like i wish i didn't go see that lol. we were Supose to go see umm..Jeepers Creepers DoS!!! but NOoOOoooOOo nobody had iD on them. so that was ruined but im going to go Next Sunday i Hope! ah. my chest hurts. i drank too much iced tea or ice-t either way...i drank Way too much. i was at um. Johnny Rockets w/ Dan. it was a good time. and on the way home i SCREAMED MY BRAiNS OUT to umm.. BRAND NEW!!!!!!!! Yeah. woh...my head is spinning. i odn't like this. it hurts. ah. well. um...i have to get Liz online cuz she needs to go out w/ Mista Sammy. yays that is corrayct Leez...MeeeSTA SAMMY!! mhmm. well like i said the movie sucked and my tea had too much sugar. other than that...it wasn't much of a happenin night i ges. well. im out.
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| won't you kill me, so i die happy? |
[13 Sep 2003|04:31pm] |
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i was Supose to go to a show today. but Yah..it got Canceled! so im kinda stuck home. my parents went out of town w/ the mayers and they are having a Good ol' time while i've been in the house ALL DAY!!! im bored outta my mind. so i decided to update this. nuthing new is really goin down. but tomaro i'm going to w/ Dan to see a movie. and last nite iw as on the phone w/ him for an hour and 41 min. yah..til about 1:30 in the morn on my cell phone. it was nice tho. i miss talking to him. when we first started hanging out we would sit on the phone for hours. i used to fall asleep on him tho...sorry dan lol. but last nite he fell asleep on me. by the way... THANX! lol. but it was nice. i'm looking forward to sun.
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| my hearts just not prepared to find some meaning... |
[11 Sep 2003|10:57pm] |
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not too much happend today. last nite sucked, today sucked, tomaro is going to suck and the past year of my life is all together sucked aside from a few of the good points. im waiting for the Next year of my life to suck, b/c i kno it's going to.
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| remember how i made u crazy...remember how u made me scream? |
[10 Sep 2003|10:23pm] |
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werk today. it was boring. but no homewerk so it's ok. i've been burning cd's since i got home well i took a shower just now too. but aside from that..just the cd's. im waiting for liz to come online too. only 3 more days til the big show. i can't wait. im takin a buncha pics too..it's gonna rock So hard. im excited. lol can ya tell? eh. thats about all that im excited about. thank god...colosimo didn't mention him again. that was kinda crazy..the whole 2 days in a row thing. if u guys don't kno...it goes like this....
monday, we came to school and im in english class. my teacher (ms. colosimo) tells me she knos someone that knos me. and im like really...who?? (thinking it will be my cousin becuase she is a teacher a west) she blurts out...THE GUSE'S!! im like... <- - - exactly. Nuthing. i coudnt' say nething. my hand goes over my mouth and i was in shock. eh. i was like really wow thats kinda crazy. then Yesterday...she is telling us how we can write in our books if we have to throw some notes on something or highlight in them. but she says that we can't doodle and right stuff in them that is sensless. as an example of Doodling..she says..."now i don't want u to be writing little hearts and putting i love jeremy..." right there...thats when Everyone starting cracking up and i htought i was going to cry...
past relationships are just too hard for me.
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| pizza, wings, salsa and caffein... |
[06 Sep 2003|11:52pm] |
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well...as it turns out lol last nite Rocked. ah..a lobby, a deck of cards, hot tub, and yah thats rite prox. 20 baseball players lol. last nite nicole n' i treated liz to a Lovely hotel room for her b-day. lol we swam AND had a JACUZZi in OUR ROOM. it was iNSANE! so much fun. (Oh yah, the moon last nite..yah it was freaky lol) we ordered pizza and wings and drank french vanilla cappaccino the entire nite. i hate it w/ salsa lol. im SO tired. nicole and i stayed up playing boggled and waited to see the clock turn 311. we missed it..by 2 MiNUiTS!! lol and went to bed at 3:30. oh and as for the room lol it was HORRiBLE hahahaha. we stacked all the towles we used next to the hot tub. i would say there was AT LEAST 20 towels from the 3 of us just in a Huge stack in the middle of the floor. sure things went kinda crazy once the boys got involved but ehh..u look back on it now and oh wait..it's still REALLY crazy. lol 500 trips in the elevator, ice fight, apples being thrown, stacked SOAKED towels, floating crap in the hot tub for a min there lol and a broken drain. oh and OF COURSE great tunes. lol jeez...numero 7 wasn't too shabby lookin. (they were from nj by the way lol) i KNO i'm missing a lot (especially the Amazing games of pin ball!! and the cookies at the front desk lol) HOUSEKEEPING!!!!! lol crazy woman..how bout u DON'T bang on the door at 9 in THE MORNING!!! lol and liz..u could have SOO gotten up to get that..but NoOOOOOOooo...but hey...i can't even Think of everything that happend last nite. it was so Awsum. oh wow...i can't even control myself lol. check out liz's n' nicoles... http://www.blurty.com/users/herestolife AND http://www.blurty.com/users/bigpinkloser1
i luh das notos...u guys really are likes sistas..w/o a doubt. straight up..luh and sistas lol g'nite everyone..i got NO sleep last nite!!! f'n housekeepers lol
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[04 Sep 2003|10:24pm] |
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hey. well today was liz's b-day and we had a great time. well until about 8 o clock. things started getting a little heated and i want to apologize to liz for everything. hope you still had a Great b-day and TOMARO is going to be EVEN better. cuz well it's Friday lol ... of COURSE!! hm..so yah. im listening to Lots of Brand New and i really like them. a lot. they make me feel better. and today as i was sitting here before liz picked me up i drew the top of my pants. it was fun i ges. i don't really want to talk rite now. so im going. i have a test tomaro.
they tell me not to be so emo...it's hard.
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| i wish i wasn't sleeping in my own bed tonite... |
[31 Aug 2003|11:09pm] |
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i haven't updated in a while...so i htought i should. i chilled w/ liz tonite and we met up w/ nicole, her gangsta neighbor, sammy, mike, nick, gavin, and a few others. anyway, we went to La Festa. it was a good time i spose. lol liz should tap that hahaha. or wait..Hit that. there we go. um..as for me, i wanna fella. u kno..i boy to chill w/ and be close to. but u kno what i get...2 strawberry smoothies and some friends to chill w/. i ges it's something rite? eh. i still wanna boy tho. o well.
ONLY 4 DAYS TiLL LiZ's B-DaY!! haha
eh...im listenin to the starting line and they are very good. and i want a boy. Eh. im sad.
i wish someone would come around to make me happy again...
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[27 Aug 2003|08:24pm] |
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first day of school...done. took long enough. and i've been reading since i got home from school for summer reading haha. yah i didn't finish it. o well...i have less that 100 pages to read of my 2nd book and im just going to read the sparknotes for gadsby. i odn't kno how to spell. oh well. its ok tho..my schedule. other than that the only other new thing is that in about 3 weeks i'm going to Finally start at the radio station. which i'm Totally excited about. im Really looking forward to it. so haha if want your music on the radio..gimme a holla!! haha. yah..im looking forward to the yar i think.
later for now...
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| i really wish i got to say good-bye... |
[26 Aug 2003|08:06pm] |
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just home from shopping for tomaro. it was alrite. im tired tho. and i'll be going to bed in just an hour or 2. i'm going to bed b/c school starts tomaro and im so tired. and once again..i dont' feel good. oh well. im so tired. and Ges what...wanna hear my schedule for werk?!? ok here it goes ... prepare to want to kill yourself lol and HERE it goes...
i am on:
Thursday(on call)
Friday
Saturday
Sunday AND
Monday!!!
but im firguring..the more i werk..the less i think about how lonely i really am.
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| all those nights left alone is what made Us... |
[25 Aug 2003|11:22pm] |
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hershe yesterday..it wasn't bad. i only went on 3 rides and it was too hot and the lines were too long.
emoish...or sick. im not sure.
either way...im feeling a bid odd.
and im listein to NFG. wow..they were good live. i wanna hear Lester tho. cuz i haven't heard them in a long time. hm. and i have a terrible head ache. rite now im listenin to the ataris...and we all kno why...b/c i heart the ataris. and thats all ther is to it.
i just killed a bug.
anyway...if your wondering why my entries are Awful nemore..it's cuz i haven't chilled w/ neone b/c of Stupid Work. it's back to school so they are buisy and i have to werk and i didnt' get home till 10 tonite. it was terrible. i just want some snow. so i can spend cold nights alone with my hoodie on staring up at the stars.
if i wasn't alone it would be better ... but there really isn't anyone who would care to be w/ me.
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| maybe i'll get to u if we get it together... |
[20 Aug 2003|11:28pm] |
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well tonite..i werked. it wasn't fun. but i saw a boy that looked like the signer of the starting line and i lol itwas funny and that i saw another boy that just kept smiling..weird. yah..neway...so i came home and took a long hot shower. then i went upstairs and sang w/ my crazy mom. it was a good time. i got to talk to jer guse for the first time. it's been a while since we had a convo. hm. alrite..well i don't have a lot to say. but yah. not too much happend to nite. c yas...
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| he loves you but who loves you more? |
[19 Aug 2003|11:09pm] |
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well tonite i werked. from 1 til 9:30. well 9:15. but nick and mike picked me up earlier to take me and picked me up tonite to go chill up vince's to watch Halloween. it was fun. emmie was up there and gavin who is like 20 ft. tall now...he's Actually taller than me :o( haha. it was a good time. mikes a lotta fun. so are they rest of em.
as for werk..it was long...but fun i ges. i Should have been at the counting crows concert. but i wasn't. my mom n' sister went instead. and tomaro...i get to do it ALL OVER AGAiN..WOOT WOOOT haha woo hoo. um my AiM isn't werking for some odd reason...i wonder if everyones is like this. maybe the server is down for AiM or something. i duno.
hmm...liz is upset and im really sorry b/c some peepl are just Jerks and shouldn't do what they do to others. but what can u do..nuthing. exactly. so don't wery liz...everything will werk out...eventually. and No not when u go to college..im talking about soon. eh. boys are difficult. and i wanna go to VT so MIKE BETTER BE GOING TOOOOOO. lol yah.. well im OUT..later
*hopefully AiM werks SOON!
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| summer is coming to an end... |
[18 Aug 2003|05:51pm] |
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school in just over a week (books Still aren't read), air has Already changed. weird.
i don't want school to start and i feel as though i am gaining weight so i have to stop that. not the whole school thing b/c i can't stop that but you kno..the whole weight thing. it's getting to me. and tonite i ate mac n' cheeze, i shoudln't have. but i did b/c my mom made it just for me. but thats ok. i'm going to start losing it...just gimme time. b/c i have to get in shape for snowboard season..yeah. i can't wait for that. just five min. ago i was sitting here w/ my new goggles on my face. but there is no snow outside. just a cool breeze...
so as it turns out, im goin to chill w/ nick soon haha it'll be fun. and um, im listenin to the starting line still. i really like them. like lots. i hvae to get my yellowcard cd out of my dads truck. i like yellowcard. they are good. and the new d/c cd is rockin pretty hard. like numero umm...well the last 2 kinda suck..but they others rock. and i think i mite listen to them later. actually...i fall asleep to them every nite. i have a 5 disc cd changer in my room...it goes... old D/C , new D/C , middle Ataris (maybe i kno it's Something emo) old Mest , newest Save Ferris. it's a good line up if you ask me. im going to go now and check out some sites. maybe i'll post later...
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[17 Aug 2003|09:32pm] |
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i werked all day. then i went out w/ dan who was acting kinda weird. but he's with ashley rite now and said not to bring me up. weird again. and ryan said i used him. i didn't use him. i odn't kno how i can use him. he Was too nice a person. no one would ever think of using him. he lets tom fill his head with too many ideas. i dont' like tom. he lies. and i dn't like him. he's a fake. i wouldt ell him that to his face. and you kno what he would do? turn around and talk about me and say lies about my friends. but whatever. thats how he is. so tom, if anyone ever tells you this come to me. and i would tell you, to your Face, you are a lier and you've ruined one of the perfect kids i use to kno.
as for me. well thats anohter story. i ges this is me. im not a lier...i like to tell people the truth, not what they want to hear. im mean sometimes. i don't mean it really. but i can really get on your nerves. and sometimes, i feel broken hearted and all alone. i have great friends. i miss dan being there all the time. hes' buisy. i used to take him forgranted sometimes. i don't anymore. i know how much he means to me and i hope i mean just as much to him. but i doubt it. i can be replaced. some people just can't. i could never replace him. he is an incredible friend and is always there for me. for anyone. and as i said..he is with ashley and told liz not to mention me. but i kno..he wants it to be just him and ashley. they should go back out. dan deserves a good person to be with.
all i want is snow. so i can be alone and to myself without being alone and to myself. i won't be sad. i'll be adrenaline filled and not alone. i have me and the mountains and the snow and i want to sit there. stare at the stars. but sometiems i wish someone was there with me so i can tell him how i feel about him. and run away with him just to sit together and look at the stars. sometimes...i wish that could happen.
i hate this thing.
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| the words fall silent as i see the expression on your face... |
[17 Aug 2003|01:15am] |
as usual...good comes with bad. all the good stuff in the world can happen to you but then you turn around once and the bad comes rushing in as if you've been at rock bottom the entire time.
for every good side..there is a bad side...and once again, that bad side hit me good and hard.
im upset, if you can't tell.
im sitting here. alone. on a perfect nite to Not be alone and what am i...exactly what i shouldn't be.
im being forced to shut down my computer now b/c it's "oh so late". nah its' ok tho. im tired anyway. i just thought that i could vent. and i didn't do a very good job of it. instead i still have Everything inside. and i Really need it to come out but infront of one person. uh. i have to go to bed and not be able to think and have crazy dreams that i odn't understand. and never will.
nite.
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| i miss being safe from all the stupid questions... |
[16 Aug 2003|09:38pm] |
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i baught the new Dashboard Confessional Cd. and i LUFF it. im listening to it at the moment actually. and it's a Good feeling and tonite, well tonite is another story...
i worked all nite and the moment i stepped outside it was a good feeling. a good sad feeling. you can feel something in the air. it's def. hoodie weather. and well . . . it's like this.
tonite i was supose to be alone. it's a rule. the first hoodie nite of the summer, transition into school, and soon to be fall. and since it is the first one, you should spend it alone, listenin to your favorite band, thinking of your favorite hoodie, and if your outside listening to your favorite band walking the streets are laying on your roof, you should be Wearing that favorite hoodie. rules are rules, even if they are unwritten. i't' ok to be alone.
hm. i heart emo.
and i heart dashboard.
and i heart my best friends.
and i heart everything about my life.
even when i am depressed.
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