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[10 Aug 2003|02:24pm] |
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a friend on my livejournal removed me from her list cause she found out i was straight edge.
sucks huh? but i dun need friends who can't accept me.
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[10 Aug 2003|03:27am] |
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godddd i am so bored. im always bored.
i don't know what the fuck im doing.
my mom made cheesecake! ahhhhhhhhhh that sucks cause i love cheesecake. i ate some. :P
hmmm i think my mom is gonna let me re-dye my hair the color of my roots. naturally i have blonde hair, as i got older, it got darker and my roots are dark like woah. so i think im gonna have dark hair pretty soon! ownage!
i can't wait to drive. i can't wait until my sister leaves for college. if i wake up early, i can sneak the car out.
i love driving. it rocks my socks.
i made a Mae cd today. they are so good. sometimes when i listen to bands that i think are so great, i cry a little. i can't help it! im sucha pussy for music. lol it gets to me. but that's why i love it :)
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[09 Aug 2003|01:48am] |
god im bored like woah.
it's almost 2am.
i called Erica cause she told me to call her sometime, so i did. left a message and no return. same with Nick, i call him, leave a message and no return call.
sucks, eh?
i don't know what to do tomorrow. im so bad with making plans. i never do lol.
i got one of those tapes that you plug into your tape played in your car to your cd player so you can listen to your cds in your car. im so happy! now i can pimp it out FREESTYLIN! hahah! i so made a freestyle cd. gotta work on my ryhmes tho. hahah. god, if only you knew how white i exactly am lol
well i dunno what to do. im bored. can't sleep... someone chat it up with me. :D
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[09 Aug 2003|12:49am] |
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i've been thinking a lot lately. about what direction im heading in. i just want to change. but i mean like, not change my whole self, just so much that i can become a better person. this is the reason why i became straight edge. a year later, i still feel like im not as good of a person that i ought to be. but sXe means so much to me. it lets me know that im strong. im that strong to devote this to my life.
anyways. i've been thinking about faith. the fact that i claim not to have any. but then again, sometimes i just sit and think about if i really do. i guess what i am is, undecided. there have been so many times that i was about to do something that i shouldn't (not drugs or any of that crap) but i mean like sneaking out, taking the car, leaving period. but in like 10 minutes, something would stop me from doing it. everytime so far, it started to pour and ended up being a storm. and this happens all the time. half of me is like 'well it's just a coincidence' another half is like 'well maybe someone/thing is trying to tell you something, or just keeping you safe'
oh well. i have no clue. im just going to think about it more.
this entry is gay as crap.
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[09 Aug 2003|12:38am] |
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i feel a little good tonight. then again a little horrible.
Good things:
^i ate some and kept it all down
^i talked to Tiffy and she told me more about Tyler
^listened to a buttload of Mariah Carrey songs
Bad things:
^i didn't purge when i ate a few hours ago (i feel so horrible now)
^my mom is being a bitch
^couldn't hang out with Erica even when i bought my mom flowers today
i guess that evens it all out. half good half horrible.
i love my glasseater cd.
i love throwdown.
im making a rap cd.
god my music taste it out there. ;)
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