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Wednesday, November 19, 2003
10:10PM - Torn
You need to stop being oblivious to the world; open your eyes and see what's going on around you.
I feel like I'm being torn apart; my head wants to go one way, but my heart wants to go another. They won't work together for a solution, both think that they are making the right choice. And my body is stuck in the middle. It's like a girl fight; one freind versus the other, and the one pitiful friend is stuck in the middle; she doesn't know what side to take. I mean both sides seem logical. I really want to follow my heart, it usually leads me to wonderful things, but my head thinks I'll get hurt. My mind does too much thinking; I wish I was impulsive.
Anyway, tonight was my little brother's confirmation. He's really a Roman Catholic now. Yay. My cousin, Michael, and I had a blast remembering all the old days. Really effed up stories. He brought up the time I cut my knee open upstate. See, that summer we went horse back riding and cliff diving and did all sorts of crazy stuff (it was a good summer, but more about that later). And, I was perfectly fine doing all that. I cut my knee open playing PING PONG. Yes, PING PONG (Mike's sport!). Then, the next time we were up there, I got hurt playing a weird version of Handball (I used to know the real name, but now I don't, oh well). Anyway, I said something to my cousin, and he got angry. The next thing I know, he "accidentally" hit me in the eye with ball. Some accident. Those summers upstate were classic. From Big Papa Guns to Dallas, the drugged up horse, it was a whole lotta memories. Then, the New Years memories. Disco and breaking frames, meetings at 2:00 am, Evil penguins and snowmen. So much talk about, so little time. I'll get the whole list and update on it. Oh, one more memory; I hated his other cousin Brian. The kid was a friggen jerk who always touched me. I really couldn't stand him. He's in jail now, though. *smiles*
Ah, well, my day was interesting. But, we didn't really do anything. That's about it.
I am so out.
-JT xo
Current mood: 
thoughtful
Current music: Christmas Shoes
Tuesday, November 18, 2003
10:13PM - Yay.
I still love him. But, it's not returned. I'll just have to deal.
Today was a boring day. I didn't really do anything. I don't think there was anything even really journal worthy. Gordie didn't really lose his key; he left it at his house. He's an idiot. Veronica is back from Florida. That's really it.
Later Days Kids!
-JT xo
Current mood: miserable
Current music: Hold On: Good Charlotte
Monday, November 17, 2003
10:20PM - Torture.
Seeing you everyday, and being your friend, it rips my heart out. We're perfect for each other; I fit perfectly into your arms, and when I stand there, your lips and perfectly lined with my forehaed, for those safety kisses. Why can't you see I'm in love with you? Why do you have to watch my heart break? I'm glad we're friends, but I'm miserable without you next to me. Simply, I love you, and I wish you'd love me too.
LI Challenge for the Quiz Bowl team today. So, the boys had to dress up. Mike looked really snazzy. I was impressed. Not too much went down today though. Lunch was actually kept to a normal conversation today; no rage! Although there was one quote/conversation that I loved:
Andy: "If you let me dip my quill into your ink, I'll write you the most beautiful poem you've ever read."
Pause
James: "I'd like to write with a quill."
Everyone: *Laughter*
James: *confusion*
Danny: "hi, can I sit here?"
Andy: "Yeah, hey."
James: "HI!"
Danny: "That was a warm welcome."
James: "Well, I'm a warm guy."
Sam: "Except down there, appeartly it's not writing."
Everyone: *Luaghter*
James was not too pleased by the comment. After that, life resumed to normal old boringness. Tutored my Chris. Then, attended the awards night for fall sports. Pat finally gave me the number I needed. I was more than pleased. Pat rocks my world.
Well, that's really it. Later days kiddies.
-JT xo
Current mood: 
drained
Current music: None
Sunday, November 16, 2003
11:59AM - NYC
First off, I went to NYC yesterday for Kerri's birthday. So, since the train meeting was at 8:30, and it was my first ever city trip, I decided to go to bed early. Yet, my attempt failed when my phone started beeping because someone (Mike) had sent me a very unimportant text message, which turned into a full out text message conversation which actually got us nowhere. So, I met the crew at the station at 8:30 and needless to say, I was very sleepy. So, the crew was assembled of Kerri (duh), Julia, Gordie, and Matt. So, we took the train from Islip to Jamacia, where we had to switch trains. It was so dirty. Ick! So, finally, around 10:20, we arrive in Penn Station. Yeah, then we started walking to da Rosina, the restaurant Gordie had made reservations with. On the way, me made stops at H&M (yay) and the Giant Toys'R'Us store. That store totally rocked. It was three floors of toys and candy. Like, wow! Yeah, so we finally, after lots of walking, we arrive at the restaurant. The food was actaully descent for $13.95. Oh, and that price covered an appetizer, main dish, drink, and dessert. Lunch ended around one. So, we proceeded to walk to the Majestic Theatre to see The Phantom of the Opera. And, oh my god, it was amazing! The theatre was beautiful. Then, the show, oh, just, oh. I'm at a loss for words on the show. It was splendid! Just, wow, wow, wow. The lighting was wonderful, and the fog, and Oh my god. I can't even describe the feeling the play left me with. But, the one character did remind me of Jessica Lentz. That was scary. After the show, we stopped off at McDonald's for dinner. Then, walked to the corner where the Limo was waiting for us. So, with the limo, we drove down to Dylan's Candy Store. Candy steps! Then, we took the Limo home. Good times.
And all the Gordie stories are priceless. First, he lost his key. But, good news, he didn't lose any of the tickets. Then, he dropped his hamburger on the floor. And he spilled all his m&ms in the Limo. But, this next story was classic. So, we're in McDonald's getting our food. Now, Gordie had been complaining about going to the bathroom, so we stopped off at the closest location. Kerri and I were waiting to get our food, when Gordie comes down to stand with us. He tells us where the the table and bathrooms are. Then, he askes us which one had to go to the bathroom. Confused, we said neither of us did, then, I told him he had previously had to go. He looked at me, then said something like, oh yeah, oops. Then, he said to excuse his lack of memory because it was late and the day had been long. Looked at my watch, it was 5:30, and it had not been a long day, time flies when you're having fun. He just went back to the table. But that was the Gordie story of the day. We all had an awesome time together.
Well, I'm really sick. Serves me right, I went through the city wearing a sweatshirt. I wasn't thinking straight though, because of a certain cell phone incident. So, I'm going to go. Later days.
-JT xo
Current mood: 
excited
Current music: Simple Plan: Perfect
Friday, November 14, 2003
4:06AM - Oh my fucking God.
Ordinary day. Everything was going so well. That is, until Seventh period. That was when the Dana discussion started. Let me clear this up for anyone who doesn't know: I hate, with the passion of the sun, Dana. She's a fake lesbian bitch with a fat ass and problems that no one cares about. She thinks she's so much better than everyone, and she's really not, and I hope she fails in the real world. And why does she always have to be different? Hitler was not a good person, you bitch. Oh, I swear, she's going to find my foot shoved ass, but only because I won't be able to pull it out after I kick it. Then, someone brought up that my foot wouldn't fit because her head is taking up all the room. Oh geeze. I'm a horrible person, but I love it. One day, she's going to commit suicide, and the sad thing is, I won't care. I would dance on her grave. I would write about all the things she's done to make me want to drown her, but I haven't got enough time. But, mark my word, I'll write more about it later.
I'll depart with these words: She'd be the one I'd barbeque first.
Later days loves.
-JT xo
Current mood: 
pissed off
Current music: None
Thursday, November 13, 2003
10:31AM - Yippy Skippy!
Okay, well, my day was a normal day. Until 6th period that is. Dana came into the classroom I'm in and tried to act all superior. So, 7th period, I went on a ranting spree. I think I said "Fucking Bitch" over twenty times and "She's going to find my foot shoved up her ass" at least 10. Yeah, so, I attended Politics and Culture club today. Oh deary, I love that club. I almost beat Gordie down cause he wants to see America lose to Iraq. The abortion topic was more my area though. I found out that James and I are really similar in beliefs. How scary is that?! Me and James C. are alike. What is this world coming to? So, then there was a reference to feminism, which I really despise. Sam feels the same, so when it came up, I turned to her and said "I'm proud to shave my armpits!" She went hysterical, and made me tell Brown. But, it was a good time. Can't wait to attend next week.
Yeah, I am so out, Later days, loves.
-JT xo
Current mood: 
energetic
Current music: Aerosmith: Crazy
Wednesday, November 12, 2003
10:19AM - Let's all WOW for Wednesday.
I hate Wednesdays, especially when they follow a day off. And, now, I despise them even more because Mike had a bad day on this Wednesday. I wish he were with me right now so I could tell him it's not that bad. But, I guess everyone has a bad day every once in a while. Mike, feel better, and tomorrow will be greater.
Anyway, my day sucked. My negatives came out dark, my Shakespeare paper only got an 80, my DBQ only received a 92, and that's just what I'm letting bother me. Luckily, we did some physics problems today, they lower stress levels. I <3 physics. I don't really understand why, but I do. It's my favourite class.
Oh, Chris stopped by for another 2 hour session. He's getting better. I'm happy. Also, the sweat gear came in. Yellow sweatshirts rock. I got JT printed on mine. And, Bobby let me borrow two CDs. Aerosmith, yay!! I'm really tired today. I haven't been this tired in ages.
I'm starting to question my friendships with people. I feel like they're all leaving and soon, I won't have anyone. Guys! Guys, that's really sad! Oh my God! Ah, I was always more of a loner anyway. A bit of a mysterious girl. But, I'm sure you all knew that.
Well, I'm out. Later days.
-JT xo
Current mood: 
blah
Current music: Aerosmith: Cryin'
Tuesday, November 11, 2003
9:33AM - Good-by Ruby Tuesday.
Last night consisted of Mike and I sitting around filling ice bowls, thne cleaning tables. We also moved the dessert tables. He got a splinter stuck in his finger, and was bleeding. He is such a baby; all he did was cry about it. But, I forgive him for acting like he's 5, because he gave me a ride home. Early. He's a good kid, and I cherish his friendship. I wouldn't trade it in for anything in this world. Anyway, after that, I went to Kerri's for a sleep-over. We talked for hours of our memories, then tried to find a boyfriend for Kerri. We were unsuccessful. Then, today, we watched the Emmett improve song with Julia and Gordie. Good times. It was almost like we were back in second grade. Quality.
OH, and our town bank was robbed. It was hilarious. Then, Rachel told us the guy robbed the bank on a bike. I died. Oh boy. This town. Deary, oh deary, deary.
Okay, well, now that I've done a little update, I'm out. Later days, dearies!
-JT xo
Current mood: 
chipper
Current music: Christmas Shoes.
Sunday, November 9, 2003
10:17AM - Weekends suck.
Yeah, so I threw my weekend down the tubes, by doing nothing. Well, no I did some stuff, but nothing too exciting, as usual. "There's nothing new under the sun." Friday night consisted me sitting around watching the Martha Stewart special. God, I hate that woman, and I hope her insider trading has landed her in jail for the next 30 years. Saturday, at about 9:30, I went to Kohl's and mommy bought me a new jacket. I also saw Mrs. Meagher with her daughter. At 2, I went and sold tickets with Mike for the play, Into the Woods, Junior. Then, he locked the money in the box. I could have beat the shit out of him, but the little bit of love I still have for the boy in my heart spared him. He's a lucky kid. Mr. Palazzo got it open. After the show, I was invited by Kerri to the cast party at Barry's. I attended. Emmett's song was rockin' this year. He commented on Brian's intelligence, or lack there of. And, of Barry's "religious confusion". Then, Brian commented, saying that Hitler was a German Jew. The party was worth every minute I wasted at it. Also, I met an eighth grader, Justin. He was really awesome, and he kept hitting on Nick. After Barry's, I watched the eclipse. Then, I watched A Christmas Story with the family. Good times. And, finally, today, I did the laundry, and watched Now and Then, twice. That is one of the best movies I've ever had the pleasure of watching. It's full of emotion and life-lessons that we all struggle with learning. And everytime I watch that movie, I wish I had a group of friends that I could make a pack with, who would have seances with me at midnight, who would just be there for me always. But, I don't have a movie life, movie friends, or a movie town. I have what I have, and although what I have isn't the ideal of what I wanted, I'm grateful I have what I have. And, maybe, if I wish real hard, some of my best friends that I have now, maybe they'll make a pact with me to be there for one another for life. But I'm not that lucky. Also, I so want a boy to ask to kiss me like Scott did with Roberta. How romantic and respectful.
My West Point papers should be in soon. I can't wait. When I get there, I hope I make the track team, so I can rub Dennis's face right in it. Although, Mike still doesn't think I'm going there. He doesn't believe. But, I don't blame him, I don't believe in anything anymore, so why should he? Oh well, whatever.
Ah, well, kiddies, I'm so out. Later days, my lovelies.
-JT xo
Current mood: 
crappy
Current music: Brandy: Have You Ever
Friday, November 7, 2003
4:13AM - Just your average Friday...
Yeah, so to start with, my hair actually wasn't a poufy as I thought it would be. Which shouldn't have been true. And, I had both a math and physics test today. But, I think the physics test put me in a good mood. Like, seriously, I was ten times happier after double period physics test. It's amazing. So, from the happy physics test, I went to AP American. He told us about Pete McGowan calling poor Ginny Fields a "bimbo" and about the Girl Scout Troop that wrote him a letter that said his words "hurt". Turns out, the girl who wrote it, is Laura Stiles' daughter, Courtney. Now, I personally think this is hilarious. Mrs. Stiles used to write about Islip for Suffolk life, and would write negative things about McGowan; he in turn, made her lose that job. So, I think that it's really funny. After that, Brown informed us of the Partial Birth Abortion Ban Act. We spent the rest of the period debating. Personally, I'm against abortion, it's a gross practice, but I would not stop a women from getting it done. And, I feel that Bush can't just ban it, even if it is unethical, because he'll never know what it's like to give birth. Plus, if he bans it, and someone really needs it, like the example T'sa gave us, that person is screwed. I really don't like Bush. He does stupid, stupid things, and he doesn't think his thoughts through. If he did, we'd be out of Iraq already, actually, we wouldn't be there to begin with. But, enough of that. Back to my day. Lunch. Oh geeze. Indian spirits. :-D Here's a portion of one of our conversations:
Sam: I'm Lutheran.
Me: I'm Roman-Catholic
Matt: I'm Prostitute.
Ah, I love those crazy kids.
Photo and Shakespeare and film were okay. Although, with all the Shakespeare I've been reading, I've started picking up the language, and using it in everyday conversation. And, I picked up a British accent, but it's a really bad one. I am so sick in the head.
Oh, here is a question for you all: If a crumb is broken in half, what is it? Half crumbs or crumbs?
Anyway, I think I'm typed out. Later days, you crazy kids!
-JT xo
Current mood: chipper
Current music: Good Charlotte: Moving On
Thursday, November 6, 2003
10:40AM - I <3 Mike.
He never ceases to cheer me up, even when he's the one who has me upset. Such a cool kid. :-D
Ilikeike777 (10:38:19 AM): ill talk to you tomorrow
Ilikeike777 (10:38:31 AM): till then, im out like dana in a swimsuit competition
Ah, Mike. Quality Shit.
-JT xo
Current mood: 
giggly
Current music: Christmas Shoes
10:16AM - Anyway...
More postage. So, here is some positive news: I felt good today. We did problems in physics. Those damned problems, they just put a smile 'cross my face. It's just weird.
It's also weird that I haven't found a new crush type guy yet. Usually, I'd have had a line of them, I haven't got anyone though. I think that's why I feel so empty. But, I really wouldn't know.
I'm a social drinker. I tend to drink much more water when I'm around people then when I'm by myself. That's really sad. At least, I think it's sad. Especially, I always have to pee.
I hate this hair. And, I can't fix it. Not until tomorrow night. Kill me. Actually, I have to pee now.
So, with that, later days kids.
-JT xo
Current mood: bouncy
Current music: Good Charlotte: Bloody Valentine
9:14AM - Straighten
Tried to straighten my hair. Instead, I got a pouf ball. Ha.
Cristoforo came a knockin' today. He's a hopeless cause. He can't do simple stuff, how can I expect him to get more advanced? I give up already, but I got paid $20. Excitement. I need the money.
Today, today was such a weird day. Mikey seemed very upset about something. Maybe his sarcastic "I'm great" tipped me off, I'm not quite sure. And, Zell picked me up around my waist today. WEIRD.
Winter track meeting today. Friggen an hour to sign up. Claps talks more than a Girl.
I'll update more later, I hear my sister coming. Byeee.
-JT xo
Current mood: 
enraged
Current music: Kelly Osbourne: More Than Life Itself
Wednesday, November 5, 2003
10:07AM - I've found an escape.
Okay, well, first, Cristoforo bailed on me. Some type of ear ache. We rescheduled for tomorrow at 4. Winter Track meeting tomorrow as well.
I noticed I walk really weird. I tilt to my right. Betcha it's because of my backpack. Ha. It's friggen hilarious.
Yeah, so I found a weird way to fill the emptiness, temporarily anyway. Physics problems, and thinking about West Point. How random. But, I guess whatever works, right? The only other solution is sleep, but I can't sleep the rest of my life away, now can I? It's sad, me being this sad. But, you all couldn't possibly understand. Oh well.
...and sometimes, I wish I was dead...
Later days kids.
-JT xo
Current mood: 
blank
Current music: None.
Tuesday, November 4, 2003
10:03AM - Meow.
Okay, well, last night, I wound up with Yvonne and Mike. Ugh. Roamed around aimlessly. Today, Theresa came over. We walked to Pathmark and bought dough, came home and baked it. Sugar cookies. We also watched Bend It Like Beckham.
Also, today, I sent my West Point papers in. This should be interesting.
Cristoforo comes over tomorrow. I'm so excited. I think I may offer him cookies.
Guys, I feel empty. Just empty. Like, nothing, empty. I hate it. I don't know how to deal with this. I always have something to feel, but there's nothing. I don't even care if I pass my classes this semester. And, sometimes, I just burst out in tears. I don't know why. I just want to cry, and I do. No reasons. And sometimes, I get really angry with myself and other people, and we didn't do anything. I hate this, I hate myself.
Fuck this, later days.
-JT xo
Current mood: 
indescribable
Current music: None.
Monday, November 3, 2003
4:07AM - Yay
2 days until Cristoforo. I am excited.
I hate Armani. And vocab. And that class in general. T'sa tonight, and possibly Mike and Trevor. eep!
We painted our door today. :-D
Every inch between us
turns into a mile.
Every minute you are gone
sacrifces my smile.
I long to see the sunrise
but I can only see it in your eyes
I cant stand being apart
It only re-breaks my heart
But still, live goes on
Even though you are gone
The tides come in and then sail out
That's what love is all about
I'll never understand why you left me
Guess like the tide, your loves gone back to sea
You no longer have feelings for me.
Later days, my cherubs.
-JT xo
Current mood: 
accomplished
Current music: Good Charlotte: "Young and Hopeless"
Sunday, November 2, 2003
11:03AM
Glowin Dark Moon (11:01:11 AM): but now i am starting to realize he is just one of a kind
Glowin Dark Moon (11:01:23 AM): plus all he wants to do is make me happy lol
Glowin Dark Moon (11:01:30 AM): which works wit me
Wontpurr4pervs (11:01:43 AM): awww. thats romantic comedy sweet.
I have reached the epitome of lame. UGH.
Bed is necessary. G'night my loves.
-JT xo
Current mood: 
confused
Current music: Keith Partridge: "I Think I Love You"
10:38AM - COLLEGE Fair
I've decided I want to go to WEST POINT!!! But, since I'll never get in there, I'm settling for Keuka University. It's upstate, it's affordable, and it's a really small school, 1000 students. The guy at the table, Johnathan, sold the school to me. He was amazing. I <3 him. I'm such a college freak. Oh, yeah, I was at the College fair today. ha ha.
Oh, and Wednesday, I start tutoring Cristoforo in italiano. And, I'm going to try to apply for a job at Best Buy. Holiday Money... yay.
The days feel so long now.
And I feel so empty.
There's nothing left to live for.
So why don't you just kill me.
"There are a thousand reasons for failure, but not a single excuse." -West Point booklet
Well, I'm done for the night, later days kiddies.
-JT xo
Current mood: amused
Current music: Keith Partridge - I Think I Love You
Saturday, November 1, 2003
10:54AM - Just me...
Wecome to my world.
001. FIRST NAME: Jessi
002. MIDDLE NAME: Ann
003. LAST NAME: None.
004. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?: Eh, no.
005. NICKNAMES: Jess, Bubblegum, PSYCHO, Squeakie, "you", JT, sweetie.
006. IF YOU COULD CHANGE YOUR NAME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE IT TO?: I'd change my name to Fiona. I think it's a sexy name.
007. GENDER: Female
008. AGE: 16
009. BIRTHDAY: 02.09.87
010. HOW OLD DO YOU LOOK?: I look little. Young. Juvenile.
011. HOW OLD DO YOU ACT?: Like a bitter old woman, or like an irritated wife.
012. LOCATION: Hell, NY, actually, Bay Shore, but there is no real difference.
013. DO YOU LIKE IT THERE?: I'll let you figure it out
014. RELIGIOUS AFFILIATION: I'm Roman Catholic.
015. SEXUAL PREFERENCE: I'm straight.
016. ZODIAC SIGN: Aquarius (yet, I'm not a water person)
017. BRACES: Nope
018. GRADE: 11th
019. SCHOOL: IHS, the 9th ring.
020. GPA: EHHH... no clue.
021. ADJECTIVE MOST OFTEN USED TO DESCRIBE YOU: insane.
022. EMAIL: Wontpurr4pervs@yahoo.com
023. AIM: Wontpurr4pervs
024. LIVING SITUATION: The 'rents and my sister and my brother. We act like a happy family, don't be fooled though.
025. PETS: None. I'm a deprived child.
026. SIBLINGS: 2
027. NAMES: Erica, Patrick
028. AGES: 12, 10
029. PARENTS' NAMES: Jo and Dave
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PHYSICAL DESCRIPTION
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030. HEIGHT: 5'
031. HAIR COLOUR: Auburn
032. HAIR STYLE: Curly and frizzy
033. HAIR LENGTH: neck length, I guess
034. EYE COLOUR: Brown, boring ol' brown
035. FINGERNAIL/TOENAIL COLOUR: Normal colour...
036. EYEGLASSES OR CONTACTS: Neither.
037. FRECKLES: Yes.
038. STYLE: "Jessi style"
039. RIGHTY/LEFTY/AMBIDEXTEROUS?: Righty
040. SHOE SIZE: 6
041. WHAT KIND OF SHOES DO YOU WEAR?: Roxy, and other random brands.
042. DO YOU CONSIDER YOURSELF ATTRACTIVE?: I'm "cute".
043. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?: jim-jams
044. PIERCINGS/TATTOOS: My ears are pierced, so is my navel
045. WHAT DO YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOUR BODY?: My hip bones
046. WHAT DO YOU LIKE THE LEAST?: My fat thighs
047. DO YOU WEAR A WATCH?: I feel naked without it.
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DO YOU...
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048. HAVE A BAD HABIT?: Nail Biting, Fighting.
049. GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: Yes. I can talk to them about everything.
050. SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?: Yes. Actually, many stuffed animals.
051. LIKE TO DRIVE?: Not really. I prefer walking.
052. DRINK?: I'm not a camel! But, I don't drink alcohol.
053. SMOKE?: second-hand. Not my choice, the 'rents both smoke cigarettes.
054. ANY OTHER DRUGS?: Nope.
055. PLAY AN INSTRUMENT?: No, but I sing.
056. WRITE POETRY?: Of course. That's the only thing I can do well.
057. GO TO/PLAN TO GO TO COLLEGE?: Yes.
058. OWN ANY PLAID CLOTHING?: Pyjamas, boxers, and one pair of socks.
059. OWN CONVERSE SHOES?: No, 'cause everyone else owns them.
060. OWN A MESSENGER BAG?: Not really...
061. THINK MOHAWKS ARE NEAT?: Yeah, only on biker guys though.
062. HAVE A GOOD LUCK CHARM?: My Shiny Sports Bra. :-D
063. HAVE A JOB?: NO
064. SING IN THE SHOWER?: Yes.
065. BELIEVE IN WISHES AT 11:11?: No...
066. BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY?: yes. I fit the aquarian description very well.
067. LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?: I write like a man!!
068. TRUST OTHERS EASILY?: Yes.
069. LIKE TO DANCE?: Always. I may not dance well, but I have fun doing it.
070. PLAY WELL WITH OTHERS?: No.
071. FIND ANY MUSICIANS HOT?: Eminem. David Cassidy.
072. SAY "RAD"?: NO. It's almost as bad as Dynomite (T'sa).
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HAVE YOU DONE THIS?
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073. BROKEN THE LAW?: No, but I'd like to, just once, to make life more interesting.
074. RAN AWAY FROM HOME?: Yes, but with intentions of coming back. I run my frustrations away.
075. EVER CHEATED ON A TEST?: Nah...
076. MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL?: No
077. SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE?: No. Wait... oh no, never mind.
078. FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH?: Um... no.
079. IN CLASS?: Yes, Earth Science, Math, Theatre...
080. BEEN IN A FIGHT?: Of course. I hate the world, the world hates me. We collide.
081. STAYED HOME ON THE WEEKENDS?: Always. My friends hate me and don't invite me to go anywhere with them.
082. BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL?: Yes. Damn drunk driver.
083. IN A SCHOOL PLAY?: Yes.
084. CRIED IN PUBLIC?: Yes. More times than I should have...
085. LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER?: Always. They know I'm there for them.
086. GONE SKINNY DIPPING?: No... not yet anyway.
087. SET BODY PARTS ON FIRE FOR FUN?: Um... no.
088. HAD AN IMAGINARY FRIEND?: Yes.
089. BEEN IN A CAR CRASH?: Yes.
090. BEEN ON TV/RADIO?: No.
091. GIVEN MONEY TO A HOMELESS PERSON?: No.
092. MET ANY CELEBRITIES?: Nah.
093. FLUNKED A GRADE?: Nope.
094. SKIPPED A GRADE?: Nope.
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EITHER/OR
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095. HUGGING OR KISSING: Hugging, 'cause they can never be interpreted the wrong way.
096. MUD WRESTLING OR JELLO WRESTLING: Mud wrestling, I like to get down and dirrty. ;-)
097. WHITE MILK OR CHOCOLATE MILK: Chocolate.
098. DEAFNESS OR BLINDNESS: Blindness.
099. SANDALS OR SHOES: Shoes
100. PEPSI OR COKE: Pepsi
101. CD OR TAPE: CD
102. RAIN, SUN OR SNOW: Rain, always rain.
103. PEN OR PENCIL: Pen
104. VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE: Vanilla
105. BLACK OR WHITE: Black
106. DAY OR NIGHT: Night
107. E-MAIL OR SNAIL MAIL: E-mail
108. PC OR MAC: PC
109. HOLD OR BE HELD: Be held... I guess
110. SUNRISE/SUNSET: Sunset
111. DRUNK OR HIGH: Neither, but I act like I'm both.
112. REAL WORLD OR ROAD RULES: Neither.
113. SHAMPOO + CONDITIONER IN ONE OR SEPARATE: Separate.
114. POOLS OR HOT TUBS: Hot Tubs.
115. TALL OR SHORT: Tall and Short.
116. APPLES, ORANGES, or BANNANAS: Oranges.
117. GLASS HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL: Empty.
118. MICKEY OR BUGS: Mickey. I <3 Mice.
119. PUSH OR PULL: Pull.
120. COFFEE, TEA or HOT CHOCOLATE: Hot Chocolate
121. LETTERMAN, LENO, KILBORN or O'BRIEN: None.
122. MTV, MTV2, or VH1: MTV2
123. JERRY SPRINGER OR RICKI LAKE: Neither.
124. M&M's or SKITTLES: Skittles
125. SWEEDISH FISH or SWEET TARTS: Sweedish Fish
126. CHOCOLATES OR FLOWERS: Flowers... white roses...
127. SAVED BY THE BELL OR USA HIGH: Saved By The Bell
128. PANCAKES, FRENCH TOAST or WAFFLES: Waffles
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129. COLOUR: Black
130. ELEMENT: Fire
131. RELATIVE: Eh... Cat.
132. ANIMAL: All cat types. I love kittens especailly though.
133. SCHOOL SUBJECT: All English classes
134. GIRL NAME: Fiona
135. BOY NAME: Michele
136. FEELING: Loved/love
137. NUMBER: 4
138. WEATHER: Rain
139. VACATION PLACE: Virginia
140. SCENT: Lavender.
141. QUOTE: "Dear Mr. Vernon: We accept the fact that we had to sacrifice a whole Saturday in detention for whatever it is we did wrong, but we think you're crazy for making us write an essay telling you who we think we are. You see us as you want to see us: in the simplest terms, in the most convenient definitions. But what we found out is that each one of us is a brain, and an athlete, and a basket case, a princess, and a criminal. Does that answer your question? Sincerely yours, The Breakfast Club."
142. ART FORM: Abstract
143. SPORT (to play): Track and Badmitton
144. DAY OF THE WEEK: Friday
145. HOLIDAY: My Birthday.
146. BREED OF DOG: EEK! Dogs.... NOOO
147. SEASON: Fall. Early fall.
148. FLOWER: White Roses
149. CARD GAME: Spit
150. BODY PART (SELF): Hips
151. BODY PART (OPPOSITE SEX): Eyes
152. WORD TO SAY: Lovely...
153. HANG OUT: I don't have a hang out. I spent alotta time in my house or on the track, I guess that counts.
154. PERSON TO TALK TO ONLINE: I like talking to EVERYONE online.
155. PICK-UP LINE: Did It hurt when you fell from heaven? Its just funny to hear someone say that.
156. BRAND OF CLOTHES: I wear whatever I like, no particular brand.
157. TEACHER: Drago.
158. HAIR COLOUR: Black, or a very dark colour
159. GAME: Don't have one.
160. COUNTRY: Italy.
161. PERSON TO GO TO MOVIES WITH: Yvonne
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MEDIA FAVOURITES
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162. INDIE BAND/SINGER: None in particualr
163. TV SHOW: Whose Line Is It Anyway?
164. CD/ALBUM: Jewel -"spirit"
165. GUITARIST: India.Arie
166. BASSIST: Steve Eakin
166A. DRUMMER: Danny Burke...
167. MOVIE: The Breakfast Club
168. SCARY MOVIE: Carrie (If you conside that scary)
169. ROMANCE: Beauty and the Beast
170. MYSTERY: Scooby Doo.
171. COMEDY: 10 Things I Hate About You
172. CLASSIC: To Sir, With Love
173. COMMERCIAL: Blockbuster commericals with the Hampster and the Rabbit.
174. SONG: Anything But Ordinary- Avril Lavigne, Kim- Eminem, Video- India.Arie, and others...
175. SONG OF THE MOMENT: I Think I Love You - David Cassidy
176. LYRIC: "I'm not your average girl on the video, And I built like a super model, but I've learned to love myself unconditionally, because I am a queen. I'm not your avergae girl on the video, my worth ain't determined by the price of my clothes. No matter what I wear I will always be..."
177. BAND OR GROUP (recently): Beatles
178. BAND OR GROUP (all-time): Partridge Family
179. MUSIC: Any type on the radio
180. TV STATION: WB, Disney
181. MUSIC VIDEO: None.
182. ACTOR: Tom Hanks, Tom Cruise
183. ACTRESS: Julia Stiles, she's so real, unlike Katie Holmes.
184. SINGER: Jewel
185. BOOK: Angus, Thongs, and Full-Frontal Snogging
186. LEAST FAV. BOOK: Old man
187. RADIO STATION: B103- oldies station
188. MAGAZINE: Cosmogirl
189. SNL SKIT: None...
190. SHAKESPEARIAN PLAY: A Midsummer Night's Dream
191. POOH CHARACTER: Tigger!
192. BEATLE: Ringo
193. BAD ACTOR: George Stults
194. BAD ACTRESS: Beverly Mitchell
195. CARTOON CHARACTER: Snoopy
196. W.B. CHARACTER: Um... None
197. DISNEY CHARACTER: Goofy
198. MTV VJ: None
199. CARTOON: Don't like cartoons.
200. COMEDIAN: None
201. COMIC: Peanuts
202. VIDEO GAME: None.
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CONSUMING FAVOURITES
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203. FOOD (ethnicity): I eat food from all around the world
204. FOOD (specifically): I eat Everything! My favourite though, any pasta type food.
205. FAST FOOD: Pizza
206. CANDY: Swedish fish
207. CEREAL: Rice Krispy Treats
208. PEZ DISPENSER: Snoopy
209. BREAKFAST: Waffles
210. LUNCH: Cookies
211. DINNER: Anything that isnt meat.
212. ICE CREAM: Rasberry Brownie... alla'mode, i think.
213. STORE: I'm not a shopping nut.
214. SODA: Sprite
215. GUM: Bubblicious
216. TOOTHPASTE: Colgate Natural
217. SHAMPOO: Herbal Essence ('cause I always have the urge)
218. SOAP: Body wash
219. DENTAL FLOSS: Mint
220. COLOGNE: Tommy. Dennis used to wear it.
221. PERFUME: Intense Desire
222. ALCOHOLIC DRINK: None, but I like virgin pina coladas... birds of a feather, I guess
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THE LAST...
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223. THING YOU PURCHASED: magazine
224. TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: WWF
225. MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: School of Rock
226. MOVIE YOU RENTED: Too long ago to remember
227. WORDS YOU SAID: Pat, shut that off
228. WORDS YOU TYPED (EXCLUDING STUFF ON THIS SURVEY): Virginia.
229. PHONE NUMBER YOU CALLED: Veronica's Cell
230. PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE: Yvonne
231. THING YOU ATE: Cake w/ Ice cream
232. THING YOU DRANK: Water
233. SONG YOU HEARD: I Think I Love You
234. PERSON YOU SAW: Pat
235. PERSON YOU HUGGED: Veronica
236. PERSON WHO SENT AN IM: Mike
237. TIME YOU WERE GROUNDED: When I was 5
238. TIME YOU GOT A REAL LETTER: Yesterday.
239. TIME YOU CRIED: 09.05.03
240. TIME YOU GOT E-MAIL: Today
241. TIME YOU DID DRUGS: Don't
242. TIME YOU DRANK: Don't
243. TIME YOU HELPED SOMEONE: I'm always helping someone.
244. TIME YOU CUT YOUR HAIR: September, I need to go again soon...
245. TIME YOU WISHED UPON A STAR: Last night.
246. TIME YOU LAUGHED UNTIL YOU CRIED: Today.
247. TIME YOU PLAYED TRUTH OR DARE: 05.16.03
248. TIME YOU WATCHED A SUNRISE/SUNSET: Friday
249. TIME YOU WENT TO A BEACH AT NIGHT: Never, but I'd like to some time soon...
250. TIME YOU READ A BOOK FOR FUN: Everyday
251. TIME YOU TOOK A SHOWER: This Morning
252. TIME YOU KISSED SOMEONE: 09.05.03
253. TIME YOU HUGGED SOMEONE: Friday
254. TIME YOU WATCHED YOUR FAVORITE MOVIE: Every weekend.
255. TIME YOU DID LAUNDRY: This Morning
256. TIME YOU FELT STUPID: If you've met my friends, you must know that I *always* feel stupid.
257. TIME YOU GOT DUMPED: 09.05.03 Mike
258. TIME YOU DUMPED SOMEONE ELSE: Freshman year, Farrell
259. PLACE YOU WENT: Applebee's
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260. ONE WORD TO DESCRIBE YOU: Insane
261. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED AND IMPORTANT POSSESSION?: My... Well, gee, I dunno. I don't really have one.
262. WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: Sun is shinin' bright.
263. WHEN YOU WAKE UP, YOU: Try to go back to sleep
264. WHAT DO YOU WEAR TO BED?: Pyjamas
265. THINKING OF RIGHT NOW: My pals having fun at six flags, and the 5K that I ran today.
266. WHAT DO YOU DO THAT REALLY PISSES OFF YOUR FRIENDS?: How should I know? Ask them.
267. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOUR WOULD YOU BE?: Black. Dark and Mysterious.
268. WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: Family and Friends
269. WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: I don't preplan these things.
270. WHAT KIND OF CAR DO YOU WANT?: Sliver Beetle Convertable.
271. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD: Vulnerability
272. HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT LIFE?: Life Sucks, but if you don;t try to make the best of it, you'll never survive.
273. A WORD YOU FIND OBSCURE: Muffin
274. BIGGEST FEAR: Dogs and Spiders. they tie.
275. ADDICTIONS: Internet
276. PLANS FOR THE FUTURE: College, marriage, birth one child. Run NYC Marathon.
277. SUPERPOWER YOU WANT: Invisiblity, 'cause I feel invisible anyway.
278. IF YOU HAD A BAND, WHAT WOULD IT BE NAMED?: Unconformity
279. WHAT'S RIGHT NEXT TO YOU?: Magazines
280. WHAT'S A WORD YOU OVERUSE?: Maybe
281. WHAT'S ON YOUR PIZZA?: Just cheese, toppings just don't do it for me.
282. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU DYED YOUR HAIR?: I don't.
283. HOW MANY PEOPLE ARE ON YOUR BUDDY LIST?: 103 and adding everyday.
284. CD IN PLAYER RIGHT NOW: Partridge Family.
285. MOVIE CELEBRITIES YOU'D LIKE TO MEET: None.
286. ARE YOU A VEGETARIAN?: Take a wild guess
287. WHERE IN THE WORLD WOULD YOU LIKE TO LIVE?: Europe. France. :-P
288. IF YOU WERE A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX FOR JUST ONE DAY, THE FIRST THING YOU WOULD DO?: ;-) take a wild guess, guys.
289. MOST EMBARRASING CD IN YOUR COLLECTION: Disney tunes
290. WHO DO YOU GO TO FOR ADVICE?: The Crew or My family
291. WHAT 2 WORDS DO NOT BELONG IN THE SAME SENTENCE?: "nice" "whore"
292. YOUR BEST HALLOWEEN COSTUME?: Genie. Those were the days when i could show my tummy without feeling fat.
293. DO YOU PLAY VIDEO GAMES?: I'm lifeless, not that lifeless, though.
294. WHAT DO YOU USE YOUR COMPUTER FOR?: Internet, typing
295. HOW MANY CDs DO YOU OWN?: Too many too count.
296. GREATEST ACHIEVEMENT?: Winning the 5K for the femal high school students
297. GREATEST FAILURE?: Almost my whole life is a Failure
298. LONGEST TIME SPENT MEDITATING: I can't meditate, sitting in silence kills me.
299. THINGS YOU WILL NEVER HEAR ME SAY: I'll say anything.
300. THINGS I HAVE BLOWN UP: My kitchen, well, almost... apparently, tin and microwaves don't mix...
301. THINGS I WANT TO BLOW UP: Long Island
302. A WORD YOU HATE: "whore"
303. ARE YOU AMUSED BY SAFETY PINS?: Yes I am
304. HAVE YOU EVER USED DUCT TAPE AS A SUBSTITUTE FOR SEWING?: No, scotch tape...
305. WORD/PHRASE YOU INVENTED: Unpointful
306. DEAD PERSON YOU'D LIKE TO MEET: Edgar Allen Poe, he's my lover.
307. HOW WOULD YOU LIKE TO DIE?: Quickly, and by my own will.
308. LAST DREAM WAS: Dennis not wanting to talk to me.
309. PEOPLE I THINK WOULD MAKE A GOOD GAY COUPLE: Richie and Chuck
310. WHEN DID YOU CRY THE MOST?: 09.05.03
311. CURRENT DESKTOP PICTURE: Blackness
312. DUMBEST MOVIE EVER SEEN: Dumb and Dumber.
313. HAVE A FUNNY MOVIE THEATER STORY?: Yeah.
314. HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOTSIE POP?: 104
315. 5 MEMORABLE THINGS YOU'VE DONE: 75th in Manhattan, Overall Female in Islip 5K, COUNTIES (spring, XC) made three Honor Societies, Most Improved on XC
316. 5 THINGS YOU DID TODAY: Phone w/ Mike, Phone w/ Yvonne, errands, applebee's, homework.
317. 5 PEOPLE WHO MEAN A LOT TO YOU: I'm limited to five? Okay, Family, Track Girls, Track Boys, Crew, Members who aren't yet crew, but I can still talk to them.
318. 5 THINGS THAT DISGUST YOU: Fakes, Sluts, Spiders, PDA, The Tillitsons.
319. MOST EXPENSIVE ITEM YOU OWN: The jewelry Mommy won't let me wear, and keeps locked up in a safe.
320. ONE RANDOM, LITTLE KNOWN FACT ABOUT YOU: I'm not really all that quiet, actually, I'm far from it.
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321. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?: Posters, Pictures, Shelves, bulletin boards, plaques, Numbers.
322. HOW MANY PHONES ARE IN YOUR ROOM?: One
323. INFLATABLE FURNITURE?: A chair, that's still boxed.
324. HAVE A TV IN YOUR ROOM?: No
325. ALLOW SIBLINGS IN YOUR ROOM?: I share my room
326. HAVE A STEREO IN YOUR ROOM?: Yes.
327. DOES YOUR ROOM LOOK LIKE A 5 YEAR OLDS?: It's a mess, so yeah.
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VIEWS ON LOVE
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328. DO YOU BELIEVE IN TRUE LOVE?: Of course.
329. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?: Yeah.
330. FATE?: Life revolves around fate
331. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN LOVE?: Yeah.
332. IF SO, WITH WHOM?: Dennis
333. HAD A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND?: Many...
334. HOW DID YOU TWO HOOK UP?: Mostly Online.
335. BEST PART OF BEING TOGETHER?: Holding a hand, leaning on a shoulder, lying on a chest, someone who is always there, being close friends (with benefits ;-) )
336. WORST PART OF BEING TOGETHER?: Having them expect that they will be your only life.
337. WHO WAS YOUR FIRST CRUSH?: OOO... um... I wanna say Brendan Brown, but I know that's wrong...
338. CURRENT CRUSH?: ;-) You know...
339. YOUR GREATEST REGRET?: Letting crazy chances and momnets go by without jumping in.
340. WHAT WOULD YOUR DREAM DATE BE LIKE?: Just being with the guy I love. Actually, dinner is always nice, and he'll bring me white roses. And, we'll lay on my trampoline until the sun comes up.
341. HAD/HAVE AN ONLINE RELATIONSHIP?: no
342. HAVE YOU EVER SAID "I LOVE YOU" AND MEANT IT?: I mean what I say.
343. BETTER TO HAVE LOVED AND LOST THAN NEVER LOVED AT ALL?: Of course. Always need the experience.
344. BEST PART ABOUT BEING SINGLE?: Flaunting it.
345. WORST PART ABOUT BEING SINGLE?: Wanting to be a couple.
346. ARE YOU SCARED TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?: Yes! When it comes to boys, I'm shy.
347. WHAT'S THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?: How they hold themselves
348. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY?: Yes, I do
349. DO YOU REMEMBER YOUR FIRST LOVE?: Dennis
350. DO YOU STILL LOVE THEM?: Yes, in a way..
351. DO YOU CONSIDER LOVE A MISTAKE?: No, to love, or to be loved, is great.
352. EVER BEEN KISSED?: Yes, I'm not Drew Barrymore. :-P
353. NAME OF FIRST KISS?: JP
354. BEST KISSER?: Michael
355. WORST KISSER?: Farrell
356. POSSIBLE TO LOVE AND HATE ONE PERSON AT THE SAME TIME?: Yeah
There ya go. Well, I'm out like PAMELA in a flat chested contest. Night kiddies, later days.
-JT xo
Current mood: 
sleepy
Current music: Save Ferris: "Let Me In"